New Grub Street


By George Gissing

















































As the Milvains sat down to breakfast the clock of Wattleborough parish
church struck eight; it was two miles away, but the strokes were borne
very distinctly on the west wind this autumn morning. Jasper, listening
before he cracked an egg, remarked with cheerfulness:

‘There’s a man being hanged in London at this moment.’

‘Surely it isn’t necessary to let us know that,’ said his sister Maud,

‘And in such a tone, too!’ protested his sister Dora.

‘Who is it?’ inquired Mrs Milvain, looking at her son with pained

‘I don’t know. It happened to catch my eye in the paper yesterday that
someone was to be hanged at Newgate this morning. There’s a certain
satisfaction in reflecting that it is not oneself.’

‘That’s your selfish way of looking at things,’ said Maud.

‘Well,’ returned Jasper, ‘seeing that the fact came into my head, what
better use could I make of it? I could curse the brutality of an age that
sanctioned such things; or I could grow doleful over the misery of the
poor fellow. But those emotions would be as little profitable to
others as to myself. It just happened that I saw the thing in a light of
consolation. Things are bad with me, but not so bad as THAT. I might be
going out between Jack Ketch and the Chaplain to be hanged; instead of
that, I am eating a really fresh egg, and very excellent buttered toast,
with coffee as good as can be reasonably expected in this part of the
world.—(Do try boiling the milk, mother.)—The tone in which I
spoke was spontaneous; being so, it needs no justification.’

He was a young man of five-and-twenty, well built, though a trifle meagre,
and of pale complexion. He had hair that was very nearly black, and a
clean-shaven face, best described, perhaps, as of bureaucratic type. The
clothes he wore were of expensive material, but had seen a good deal of
service. His stand-up collar curled over at the corners, and his necktie
was lilac-sprigged.

Of the two sisters, Dora, aged twenty, was the more like him in visage,
but she spoke with a gentleness which seemed to indicate a different
character. Maud, who was twenty-two, had bold, handsome features, and very
beautiful hair of russet tinge; hers was not a face that readily smiled.
Their mother had the look and manners of an invalid, though she sat at
table in the ordinary way. All were dressed as ladies, though very simply.
The room, which looked upon a small patch of garden, was furnished with
old-fashioned comfort, only one or two objects suggesting the decorative
spirit of 1882.

‘A man who comes to be hanged,’ pursued Jasper, impartially, ‘has the
satisfaction of knowing that he has brought society to its last resource.
He is a man of such fatal importance that nothing will serve against him
but the supreme effort of law. In a way, you know, that is success.’

‘In a way,’ repeated Maud, scornfully.

‘Suppose we talk of something else,’ suggested Dora, who seemed to fear a
conflict between her sister and Jasper.

Almost at the same moment a diversion was afforded by the arrival of the
post. There was a letter for Mrs Milvain, a letter and newspaper for her
son. Whilst the girls and their mother talked of unimportant news
communicated by the one correspondent, Jasper read the missive addressed
to himself.

‘This is from Reardon,’ he remarked to the younger girl. ‘Things are going
badly with him. He is just the kind of fellow to end by poisoning or
shooting himself.’

‘But why?’

‘Can’t get anything done; and begins to be sore troubled on his wife’s

‘Is he ill?’

‘Overworked, I suppose. But it’s just what I foresaw. He isn’t the kind of
man to keep up literary production as a paying business. In favourable
circumstances he might write a fairly good book once every two or three
years. The failure of his last depressed him, and now he is struggling
hopelessly to get another done before the winter season. Those people will
come to grief.’

‘The enjoyment with which he anticipates it!’ murmured Maud, looking at
her mother.

‘Not at all,’ said Jasper. ‘It’s true I envied the fellow, because he
persuaded a handsome girl to believe in him and share his risks, but I
shall be very sorry if he goes to the—to the dogs. He’s my one
serious friend. But it irritates me to see a man making such large demands
upon fortune. One must be more modest—as I am. Because one book had
a sort of success he imagined his struggles were over. He got a hundred
pounds for “On Neutral Ground,” and at once counted on a continuance of
payments in geometrical proportion. I hinted to him that he couldn’t keep
it up, and he smiled with tolerance, no doubt thinking “He judges me by
himself.” But I didn’t do anything of the kind.—(Toast, please,
Dora.)—I’m a stronger man than Reardon; I can keep my eyes open, and

‘Is his wife the kind of person to grumble?’ asked Mrs Milvain.

‘Well, yes, I suspect that she is. The girl wasn’t content to go into
modest rooms—they must furnish a flat. I rather wonder he didn’t
start a carriage for her. Well, his next book brought only another
hundred, and now, even if he finishes this one, it’s very doubtful if
he’ll get as much. “The Optimist” was practically a failure.’

‘Mr Yule may leave them some money,’ said Dora.

‘Yes. But he may live another ten years, and he would see them both in
Marylebone Workhouse before he advanced sixpence, or I’m much mistaken in
him. Her mother has only just enough to live upon; can’t possibly help
them. Her brother wouldn’t give or lend twopence halfpenny.’

‘Has Mr Reardon no relatives!’

‘I never heard him make mention of a single one. No, he has done the fatal
thing. A man in his position, if he marry at all, must take either a
work-girl or an heiress, and in many ways the work-girl is preferable.’

‘How can you say that?’ asked Dora. ‘You never cease talking about the
advantages of money.’

‘Oh, I don’t mean that for ME the work-girl would be preferable; by no
means; but for a man like Reardon. He is absurd enough to be
conscientious, likes to be called an “artist,” and so on. He might
possibly earn a hundred and fifty a year if his mind were at rest, and
that would be enough if he had married a decent little dressmaker. He
wouldn’t desire superfluities, and the quality of his work would be its
own reward. As it is, he’s ruined.’

‘And I repeat,’ said Maud, ‘that you enjoy the prospect.’

‘Nothing of the kind. If I seem to speak exultantly it’s only because my
intellect enjoys the clear perception of a fact.—A little marmalade,
Dora; the home-made, please.’

‘But this is very sad, Jasper,’ said Mrs Milvain, in her half-absent way.
‘I suppose they can’t even go for a holiday?’

‘Quite out of the question.’

‘Not even if you invited them to come here for a week?’

‘Now, mother,’ urged Maud, ‘THAT’S impossible, you know very well.’

‘I thought we might make an effort, dear. A holiday might mean everything
to him.’

‘No, no,’ fell from Jasper, thoughtfully. ‘I don’t think you’d get along
very well with Mrs Reardon; and then, if her uncle is coming to Mr Yule’s,
you know, that would be awkward.’

‘I suppose it would; though those people would only stay a day or two,
Miss Harrow said.’

‘Why can’t Mr Yule make them friends, those two lots of people?’ asked
Dora. ‘You say he’s on good terms with both.’

‘I suppose he thinks it’s no business of his.’

Jasper mused over the letter from his friend.

‘Ten years hence,’ he said, ‘if Reardon is still alive, I shall be lending
him five-pound notes.’

A smile of irony rose to Maud’s lips. Dora laughed.

‘To be sure! To be sure!’ exclaimed their brother. ‘You have no faith. But
just understand the difference between a man like Reardon and a man like
me. He is the old type of unpractical artist; I am the literary man of
1882. He won’t make concessions, or rather, he can’t make them; he can’t
supply the market. I—well, you may say that at present I do nothing;
but that’s a great mistake, I am learning my business. Literature nowadays
is a trade. Putting aside men of genius, who may succeed by mere cosmic
force, your successful man of letters is your skilful tradesman. He thinks
first and foremost of the markets; when one kind of goods begins to go off
slackly, he is ready with something new and appetising. He knows perfectly
all the possible sources of income. Whatever he has to sell he’ll get
payment for it from all sorts of various quarters; none of your
unpractical selling for a lump sum to a middleman who will make six
distinct profits. Now, look you: if I had been in Reardon’s place, I’d
have made four hundred at least out of “The Optimist”; I should have gone
shrewdly to work with magazines and newspapers and foreign publishers, and—all
sorts of people. Reardon can’t do that kind of thing, he’s behind his age;
he sells a manuscript as if he lived in Sam Johnson’s Grub Street. But our
Grub Street of to-day is quite a different place: it is supplied with
telegraphic communication, it knows what literary fare is in demand in
every part of the world, its inhabitants are men of business, however

‘It sounds ignoble,’ said Maud.

‘I have nothing to do with that, my dear girl. Now, as I tell you, I am
slowly, but surely, learning the business. My line won’t be novels; I have
failed in that direction, I’m not cut out for the work. It’s a pity, of
course; there’s a great deal of money in it. But I have plenty of scope.
In ten years, I repeat, I shall be making my thousand a year.’

‘I don’t remember that you stated the exact sum before,’ Maud observed.

‘Let it pass. And to those who have shall be given. When I have a decent
income of my own, I shall marry a woman with an income somewhat larger, so
that casualties may be provided for.’

Dora exclaimed, laughing:

‘It would amuse me very much if the Reardons got a lot of money at Mr
Yule’s death—and that can’t be ten years off, I’m sure.’

‘I don’t see that there’s any chance of their getting much,’ replied
Jasper, meditatively. ‘Mrs Reardon is only his niece. The man’s brother
and sister will have the first helping, I suppose. And then, if it comes
to the second generation, the literary Yule has a daughter, and by her
being invited here I should think she’s the favourite niece. No, no;
depend upon it they won’t get anything at all.’

Having finished his breakfast, he leaned back and began to unfold the
London paper that had come by post.

‘Had Mr Reardon any hopes of that kind at the time of his marriage, do you
think?’ inquired Mrs Milvain.

‘Reardon? Good heavens, no! Would he were capable of such forethought!’

In a few minutes Jasper was left alone in the room. When the servant came
to clear the table he strolled slowly away, humming a tune.

The house was pleasantly situated by the roadside in a little village
named Finden. Opposite stood the church, a plain, low, square-towered
building. As it was cattle-market to-day in the town of Wattleborough,
droves of beasts and sheep occasionally went by, or the rattle of a
grazier’s cart sounded for a moment. On ordinary days the road saw few
vehicles, and pedestrians were rare.

Mrs Milvain and her daughters had lived here for the last seven years,
since the death of the father, who was a veterinary surgeon. The widow
enjoyed an annuity of two hundred and forty pounds, terminable with her
life; the children had nothing of their own. Maud acted irregularly as a
teacher of music; Dora had an engagement as visiting governess in a
Wattleborough family. Twice a year, as a rule, Jasper came down from
London to spend a fortnight with them; to-day marked the middle of his
autumn visit, and the strained relations between him and his sisters which
invariably made the second week rather trying for all in the house had
already become noticeable.

In the course of the morning Jasper had half an hour’s private talk with
his mother, after which he set off to roam in the sunshine. Shortly after
he had left the house, Maud, her domestic duties dismissed for the time,
came into the parlour where Mrs Milvain was reclining on the sofa.

‘Jasper wants more money,’ said the mother, when Maud had sat in
meditation for a few minutes.

‘Of course. I knew that. I hope you told him he couldn’t have it.’

‘I really didn’t know what to say,’ returned Mrs Milvain, in a feeble tone
of worry.

‘Then you must leave the matter to me, that’s all. There’s no money for
him, and there’s an end of it.’

Maud set her features in sullen determination. There was a brief silence.

‘What’s he to do, Maud?’

‘To do? How do other people do? What do Dora and I do?’

‘You don’t earn enough for your support, my dear.’

‘Oh, well!’ broke from the girl. ‘Of course, if you grudge us our food and

‘Don’t be so quick-tempered. You know very well I am far from grudging you
anything, dear. But I only meant to say that Jasper does earn something,
you know.’

‘It’s a disgraceful thing that he doesn’t earn as much as he needs. We are
sacrificed to him, as we always have been. Why should we be pinching and
stinting to keep him in idleness?’

‘But you really can’t call it idleness, Maud. He is studying his

‘Pray call it trade; he prefers it. How do I know that he’s studying
anything? What does he mean by “studying”? And to hear him speak
scornfully of his friend Mr Reardon, who seems to work hard all through
the year! It’s disgusting, mother. At this rate he will never earn his own
living. Who hasn’t seen or heard of such men? If we had another hundred a
year, I would say nothing. But we can’t live on what he leaves us, and I’m
not going to let you try. I shall tell Jasper plainly that he’s got to
work for his own support.’

Another silence, and a longer one. Mrs Milvain furtively wiped a tear from
her cheek.

‘It seems very cruel to refuse,’ she said at length, ‘when another year
may give him the opportunity he’s waiting for.’

‘Opportunity? What does he mean by his opportunity?’

‘He says that it always comes, if a man knows how to wait.’

‘And the people who support him may starve meanwhile! Now just think a
bit, mother. Suppose anything were to happen to you, what becomes of Dora
and me? And what becomes of Jasper, too? It’s the truest kindness to him
to compel him to earn a living. He gets more and more incapable of it.’

‘You can’t say that, Maud. He earns a little more each year. But for that,
I should have my doubts. He has made thirty pounds already this year, and
he only made about twenty-five the whole of last. We must be fair to him,
you know. I can’t help feeling that he knows what he’s about. And if he
does succeed, he’ll pay us all back.’

Maud began to gnaw her fingers, a disagreeable habit she had in privacy.

‘Then why doesn’t he live more economically?’

‘I really don’t see how he can live on less than a hundred and fifty a
year. London, you know—’

‘The cheapest place in the world.’

‘Nonsense, Maud!’

‘But I know what I’m saying. I’ve read quite enough about such things. He
might live very well indeed on thirty shillings a week, even buying his
clothes out of it.’

‘But he has told us so often that it’s no use to him to live like that. He
is obliged to go to places where he must spend a little, or he makes no

‘Well, all I can say is,’ exclaimed the girl impatiently, ‘it’s very lucky
for him that he’s got a mother who willingly sacrifices her daughters to

‘That’s how you always break out. You don’t care what unkindness you say!’

‘It’s a simple truth.’

‘Dora never speaks like that.’

‘Because she’s afraid to be honest.’

‘No, because she has too much love for her mother. I can’t bear to talk to
you, Maud. The older I get, and the weaker I get, the more unfeeling you
are to me.’

Scenes of this kind were no uncommon thing. The clash of tempers lasted
for several minutes, then Maud flung out of the room. An hour later, at
dinner-time, she was rather more caustic in her remarks than usual, but
this was the only sign that remained of the stormy mood.

Jasper renewed the breakfast-table conversation.

‘Look here,’ he began, ‘why don’t you girls write something? I’m convinced
you could make money if you tried. There’s a tremendous sale for religious
stories; why not patch one together? I am quite serious.’

‘Why don’t you do it yourself,’ retorted Maud.

‘I can’t manage stories, as I have told you; but I think you could. In
your place, I’d make a speciality of Sunday-school prize-books; you know
the kind of thing I mean. They sell like hot cakes. And there’s so deuced
little enterprise in the business. If you’d give your mind to it, you
might make hundreds a year.’

‘Better say “abandon your mind to it.”’

‘Why, there you are! You’re a sharp enough girl. You can quote as well as
anyone I know.’

‘And please, why am I to take up an inferior kind of work?’

‘Inferior? Oh, if you can be a George Eliot, begin at the earliest
opportunity. I merely suggested what seemed practicable.
But I don’t think you have genius, Maud. People have got that ancient
prejudice so firmly rooted in their heads—that one mustn’t write
save at the dictation of the Holy Spirit. I tell you, writing is a
business. Get together half-a-dozen fair specimens of the Sunday-school
prize; study them; discover the essential points of such composition; hit
upon new attractions; then go to work methodically, so many pages a day.
There’s no question of the divine afflatus; that belongs to another sphere
of life. We talk of literature as a trade, not of Homer, Dante, and
Shakespeare. If I could only get that into poor Reardon’s head. He thinks
me a gross beast, often enough. What the devil—I mean what on earth
is there in typography to make everything it deals with sacred? I don’t
advocate the propagation of vicious literature; I speak only of good,
coarse, marketable stuff for the world’s vulgar. You just give it a
thought, Maud; talk it over with Dora.’

He resumed presently:

‘I maintain that we people of brains are justified in supplying the mob
with the food it likes. We are not geniuses, and if we sit down in a
spirit of long-eared gravity we shall produce only commonplace stuff. Let
us use our wits to earn money, and make the best we can of our lives. If
only I had the skill, I would produce novels out-trashing the trashiest
that ever sold fifty thousand copies. But it needs skill, mind you: and to
deny it is a gross error of the literary pedants. To please the vulgar you
must, one way or another, incarnate the genius of vulgarity. For my own
part, I shan’t be able to address the bulkiest multitude; my talent
doesn’t lend itself to that form. I shall write for the upper middle-class
of intellect, the people who like to feel that what they are reading has
some special cleverness, but who can’t distinguish between stones and
paste. That’s why I’m so slow in warming to the work. Every month I feel
surer of myself, however.

That last thing of mine in The West End distinctly hit the mark; it wasn’t
too flashy, it wasn’t too solid. I heard fellows speak of it in the

Mrs Milvain kept glancing at Maud, with eyes which desired her attention
to these utterances. None the less, half an hour after dinner, Jasper
found himself encountered by his sister in the garden, on her face a look
which warned him of what was coming.

‘I want you to tell me something, Jasper. How much longer shall you look
to mother for support? I mean it literally; let me have an idea of how
much longer it will be.’

He looked away and reflected.

‘To leave a margin,’ was his reply, ‘let us say twelve months.’

‘Better say your favourite “ten years” at once.’

‘No. I speak by the card. In twelve months’ time, if not before, I shall
begin to pay my debts. My dear girl, I have the honour to be a tolerably
long-headed individual. I know what I’m about.’

‘And let us suppose mother were to die within half a year?’

‘I should make shift to do very well.’

‘You? And please—what of Dora and me?’

‘You would write Sunday-school prizes.’

Maud turned away and left him.

He knocked the dust out of the pipe he had been smoking, and again set off
for a stroll along the lanes. On his countenance was just a trace of
solicitude, but for the most part he wore a thoughtful smile. Now and then
he stroked his smoothly-shaven jaws with thumb and fingers. Occasionally
he became observant of wayside details—of the colour of a maple
leaf, the shape of a tall thistle, the consistency of a fungus. At the few
people who passed he looked keenly, surveying them from head to foot.

On turning, at the limit of his walk, he found himself almost face to face
with two persons, who were coming along in silent companionship; their
appearance interested him. The one was a man of fifty, grizzled, hard
featured, slightly bowed in the shoulders; he wore a grey felt hat with a
broad brim and a decent suit of broadcloth. With him was a girl of perhaps
two-and-twenty, in a slate-coloured dress with very little ornament, and a
yellow straw hat of the shape originally appropriated to males; her dark
hair was cut short, and lay in innumerable crisp curls. Father and
daughter, obviously. The girl, to a casual eye, was neither pretty nor
beautiful, but she had a grave and impressive face, with a complexion of
ivory tone; her walk was gracefully modest, and she seemed to be enjoying
the country air.

Jasper mused concerning them. When he had walked a few yards, he looked
back; at the same moment the unknown man also turned his head.

‘Where the deuce have I seen them—him and the girl too?’ Milvain
asked himself.

And before he reached home the recollection he sought flashed upon his

‘The Museum Reading-room, of course!’


‘I think’ said Jasper, as he entered the room where his mother and Maud
were busy with plain needlework, ‘I must have met Alfred Yule and his

‘How did you recognise them?’ Mrs Milvain inquired.

‘I passed an old buffer and a pale-faced girl whom I know by sight at the
British Museum. It wasn’t near Yule’s house, but they were taking a walk.’

‘They may have come already. When Miss Harrow was here last, she said “in
about a fortnight.”’

‘No mistaking them for people of these parts, even if I hadn’t remembered
their faces. Both of them are obvious dwellers in the valley of the shadow
of books.’

‘Is Miss Yule such a fright then?’ asked Maud.

‘A fright! Not at all. A good example of the modern literary girl. I
suppose you have the oddest old-fashioned ideas of such people. No, I
rather like the look of her. Simpatica, I should think, as that ass
Whelpdale would say. A very delicate, pure complexion, though morbid; nice
eyes; figure not spoilt yet. But of course I may be wrong about their

Later in the afternoon Jasper’s conjecture was rendered a certainty. Maud
had walked to Wattleborough, where she would meet Dora on the latter’s
return from her teaching, and Mrs Milvain sat alone, in a mood of
depression; there was a ring at the door-bell, and the servant admitted
Miss Harrow.

This lady acted as housekeeper to Mr John Yule, a wealthy resident in this
neighbourhood; she was the sister of his deceased wife—a thin,
soft-speaking, kindly woman of forty-five. The greater part of her life
she had spent as a governess; her position now was more agreeable, and the
removal of her anxiety about the future had developed qualities of
cheerfulness which formerly no one would have suspected her to possess.
The acquaintance between Mrs Milvain and her was only of twelve months’
standing; prior to that, Mr Yule had inhabited a house at the end of
Wattleborough remote from Finden.

‘Our London visitors came yesterday,’ she began by saying.

Mrs Milvain mentioned her son’s encounter an hour or two ago.

‘No doubt it was they,’ said the visitor. ‘Mrs Yule hasn’t come; I hardly
expected she would, you know. So very unfortunate when there are
difficulties of that kind, isn’t it?’

She smiled confidentially.

‘The poor girl must feel it,’ said Mrs Milvain.

‘I’m afraid she does. Of course it narrows the circle of her friends at
home. She’s a sweet girl, and I should so like you to meet her. Do come
and have tea with us to-morrow afternoon, will you? Or would it be too
much for you just now?’

‘Will you let the girls call? And then perhaps Miss Yule will be so good
as to come and see me?’

‘I wonder whether Mr Milvain would like to meet her father? I have thought
that perhaps it might be some advantage to him. Alfred is so closely
connected with literary people, you know.’

‘I feel sure he would be glad,’ replied Mrs Milvain. ‘But—what of
Jasper’s friendship with Mrs Edmund Yule and the Reardons? Mightn’t it be
a little awkward?’

‘Oh, I don’t think so, unless he himself felt it so. There would be no
need to mention that, I should say. And, really, it would be so much
better if those estrangements came to an end. John makes no scruple of
speaking freely about everyone, and I don’t think Alfred regards Mrs
Edmund with any serious unkindness. If Mr Milvain would walk over with the
young ladies to-morrow, it would be very pleasant.’

‘Then I think I may promise that he will. I’m sure I don’t know where he
is at this moment. We don’t see very much of him, except at meals.’

‘He won’t be with you much longer, I suppose?’

‘Perhaps a week.’

Before Miss Harrow’s departure Maud and Dora reached home. They were
curious to see the young lady from the valley of the shadow of books, and
gladly accepted the invitation offered them.

They set out on the following afternoon in their brother’s company. It was
only a quarter of an hour’s walk to Mr Yule’s habitation, a small house in
a large garden. Jasper was coming hither for the first time; his sisters
now and then visited Miss Harrow, but very rarely saw Mr Yule himself who
made no secret of the fact that he cared little for female society. In
Wattleborough and the neighbourhood opinions varied greatly as to this
gentleman’s character, but women seldom spoke very favourably of him. Miss
Harrow was reticent concerning her brother-in-law; no one, however, had
any reason to believe that she found life under his roof disagreeable.
That she lived with him at all was of course occasionally matter for
comment, certain Wattleborough ladies having their doubts regarding the
position of a deceased wife’s sister under such circumstances; but no one
was seriously exercised about the relations between this sober lady of
forty-five and a man of sixty-three in broken health.

A word of the family history.

John, Alfred, and Edmund Yule were the sons of a Wattleborough stationer.
Each was well educated, up to the age of seventeen, at the town’s grammar
school. The eldest, who was a hot-headed lad, but showed capacities for
business, worked at first with his father, endeavouring to add a
bookselling department to the trade in stationery; but the life of home
was not much to his taste, and at one-and-twenty he obtained a clerk’s
place in the office of a London newspaper. Three years after, his father
died, and the small patrimony which fell to him he used in making himself
practically acquainted with the details of paper manufacture, his aim
being to establish himself in partnership with an acquaintance who had
started a small paper-mill in Hertfordshire.

His speculation succeeded, and as years went on he became a thriving
manufacturer. His brother Alfred, in the meantime, had drifted from work
at a London bookseller’s into the modern Grub Street, his adventures in
which region will concern us hereafter.

Edmund carried on the Wattleborough business, but with small success.
Between him and his eldest brother existed a good deal of affection, and
in the end John offered him a share in his flourishing paper works;
whereupon Edmund married, deeming himself well established for life. But
John’s temper was a difficult one; Edmund and he quarrelled, parted; and
when the younger died, aged about forty, he left but moderate provision
for his widow and two children.

Only when he had reached middle age did John marry; the experiment could
not be called successful, and Mrs Yule died three years later, childless.

At fifty-four John Yule retired from active business; he came back to the
scenes of his early life, and began to take an important part in the
municipal affairs of Wattleborough. He was then a remarkably robust man,
fond of out-of-door exercise; he made it one of his chief efforts to
encourage the local Volunteer movement, the cricket and football clubs,
public sports of every kind, showing no sympathy whatever with those
persons who wished to establish free libraries, lectures, and the like. At
his own expense he built for the Volunteers a handsome drill-shed; he
founded a public gymnasium; and finally he allowed it to be rumoured that
he was going to present the town with a park. But by presuming too far
upon the bodily vigour which prompted these activities, he passed of a
sudden into the state of a confirmed invalid. On an autumn expedition in
the Hebrides he slept one night under the open sky, with the result that
he had an all but fatal attack of rheumatic fever. After that, though the
direction of his interests was unchanged, he could no longer set the
example to Wattleborough youth of muscular manliness. The infliction did
not improve his temper; for the next year or two he was constantly at
warfare with one or other of his colleagues and friends, ill brooking that
the familiar control of various local interests should fall out of his
hands. But before long he appeared to resign himself to his fate, and at
present Wattleborough saw little of him. It seemed likely that he might
still found the park which was to bear his name; but perhaps it would only
be done in consequence of directions in his will. It was believed that he
could not live much longer.

With his kinsfolk he held very little communication. Alfred Yule, a
battered man of letters, had visited Wattleborough only twice (including
the present occasion) since John’s return hither. Mrs Edmund Yule, with
her daughter—now Mrs Reardon—had been only once, three years
ago. These two families, as you have heard, were not on terms of amity
with each other, owing to difficulties between Mrs Alfred and Mrs Edmund;
but John seemed to regard both impartially. Perhaps the only real warmth
of feeling he had ever known was bestowed upon Edmund, and Miss Harrow had
remarked that he spoke with somewhat more interest of Edmund’s daughter,
Amy, than of Alfred’s daughter, Marian. But it was doubtful whether the
sudden disappearance from the earth of all his relatives would greatly
have troubled him. He lived a life of curious self-absorption, reading
newspapers (little else), and talking with old friends who had stuck to
him in spite of his irascibility.

Miss Harrow received her visitors in a small and soberly furnished
drawing-room. She was nervous, probably because of Jasper Milvain, whom
she had met but once—last spring—and who on that occasion had
struck her as an alarmingly modern young man. In the shadow of a
window-curtain sat a slight, simply-dressed girl, whose short curly hair
and thoughtful countenance Jasper again recognised. When it was his turn
to be presented to Miss Yule, he saw that she doubted for an instant
whether or not to give her hand; yet she decided to do so, and there was
something very pleasant to him in its warm softness. She smiled with a
slight embarrassment, meeting his look only for a second.

‘I have seen you several times, Miss Yule,’ he said in a friendly way,
‘though without knowing your name. It was under the great dome.’

She laughed, readily understanding his phrase.

‘I am there very often,’ was her reply.

‘What great dome?’ asked Miss Harrow, with surprise.

‘That of the British Museum Reading-room,’ explained Jasper; ‘known to
some of us as the valley of the shadow of books. People who often work
there necessarily get to know each other by sight.

In the same way I knew Miss Yule’s father when I happened to pass him in
the road yesterday.’

The three girls began to converse together, perforce of trivialities.
Marian Yule spoke in rather slow tones, thoughtfully, gently; she had
linked her fingers, and laid her hands, palms downwards, upon her lap—a
nervous action. Her accent was pure, unpretentious; and she used none of
the fashionable turns of speech which would have suggested the habit of
intercourse with distinctly metropolitan society.

‘You must wonder how we exist in this out-of-the-way place,’ remarked

‘Rather, I envy you,’ Marian answered, with a slight emphasis.

The door opened, and Alfred Yule presented himself. He was tall, and his
head seemed a disproportionate culmination to his meagre body, it was so
large and massively featured. Intellect and uncertainty of temper were
equally marked upon his visage; his brows were knitted in a permanent
expression of severity. He had thin, smooth hair, grizzled whiskers, a
shaven chin. In the multitudinous wrinkles of his face lay a history of
laborious and stormy life; one readily divined in him a struggling and
embittered man. Though he looked older than his years, he had by no means
the appearance of being beyond the ripeness of his mental vigour.

‘It pleases me to meet you, Mr Milvain,’ he said, as he stretched out his
bony hand. ‘Your name reminds me of a paper in The Wayside a month or two
ago, which you will perhaps allow a veteran to say was not ill done.’

‘I am grateful to you for noticing it,’ replied Jasper.

There was positively a touch of visible warmth upon his cheek. The
allusion had come so unexpectedly that it caused him keen pleasure.

Mr Yule seated himself awkwardly, crossed his legs, and began to stroke
the back of his left hand, which lay on his knee. He seemed to have
nothing more to say at present, and allowed Miss Harrow and the girls to
support conversation. Jasper listened with a smile for a minute or two,
then he addressed the veteran.‘Have you seen The Study this week, Mr


‘Did you notice that it contains a very favourable review of a novel which
was tremendously abused in the same columns three weeks ago?’

Mr Yule started, but Jasper could perceive at once that his emotion was
not disagreeable.

‘You don’t say so.’

‘Yes. The novel is Miss Hawk’s “On the Boards.” How will the editor get
out of this?’

‘H’m! Of course Mr Fadge is not immediately responsible; but it’ll be
unpleasant for him, decidedly unpleasant.’ He smiled grimly. ‘You hear
this, Marian?’

‘How is it explained, father?’

‘May be accident, of course; but—well, there’s no knowing. I think
it very likely this will be the end of Mr Fadge’s tenure of office.
Rackett, the proprietor, only wants a plausible excuse for making a
change. The paper has been going downhill for the last year; I know of two
publishing houses who have withdrawn their advertising from it, and who
never send their books for review. Everyone foresaw that kind of thing
from the day Mr Fadge became editor. The tone of his paragraphs has been
detestable. Two reviews of the same novel, eh? And diametrically opposed?
Ha! Ha!’

Gradually he had passed from quiet appreciation of the joke to undisguised
mirth and pleasure. His utterance of the name ‘Mr Fadge’ sufficiently
intimated that he had some cause of personal discontent with the editor of
The Study.

‘The author,’ remarked Milvain, ‘ought to make a good thing out of this.’

‘Will, no doubt. Ought to write at once to the papers, calling attention
to this sample of critical impartiality. Ha! ha!’

He rose and went to the window, where for several minutes he stood gazing
at vacancy, the same grim smile still on his face. Jasper in the meantime
amused the ladies (his sisters had heard him on the subject already) with
a description of the two antagonistic notices. But he did not trust
himself to express so freely as he had done at home his opinion of
reviewing in general; it was more than probable that both Yule and his
daughter did a good deal of such work.

‘Suppose we go into the garden,’ suggested Miss Harrow, presently. ‘It
seems a shame to sit indoors on such a lovely afternoon.’

Hitherto there had been no mention of the master of the house. But Mr Yule
now remarked to Jasper:

‘My brother would be glad if you would come and have a word with him. He
isn’t quite well enough to leave his room to-day.’

So, as the ladies went gardenwards, Jasper followed the man of letters
upstairs to a room on the first floor. Here, in a deep cane chair, which
was placed by the open window, sat John Yule. He was completely dressed,
save that instead of coat he wore a dressing-gown. The facial likeness
between him and his brother was very strong, but John’s would universally
have been judged the finer countenance; illness notwithstanding, he had a
complexion which contrasted in its pure colour with Alfred’s parchmenty
skin, and there was more finish about his features. His abundant hair was
reddish, his long moustache and trimmed beard a lighter shade of the same

‘So you too are in league with the doctors,’ was his bluff greeting, as he
held a hand to the young man and inspected him with a look of slighting

‘Well, that certainly is one way of regarding the literary profession,’
admitted Jasper, who had heard enough of John’s way of thinking to
understand the remark.

‘A young fellow with all the world before him, too. Hang it, Mr Milvain,
is there no less pernicious work you can turn your hand to?’

‘I’m afraid not, Mr Yule. After all, you know, you must be held in a
measure responsible for my depravity.’

‘How’s that?’

‘I understand that you have devoted most of your life to the making of
paper. If that article were not so cheap and so abundant, people wouldn’t
have so much temptation to scribble.’

Alfred Yule uttered a short laugh.

‘I think you are cornered, John.’

‘I wish,’ answered John, ‘that you were both condemned to write on such
paper as I chiefly made; it was a special kind of whitey-brown, used by

He chuckled inwardly, and at the same time reached out for a box of
cigarettes on a table near him. His brother and Jasper each took one as he
offered them, and began to smoke.

‘You would like to see literary production come entirely to an end?’ said

‘I should like to see the business of literature abolished.’

‘There’s a distinction, of course. But, on the whole, I should say that
even the business serves a good purpose.’

‘What purpose?’

‘It helps to spread civilisation.’

‘Civilisation!’ exclaimed John, scornfully. ‘What do you mean by
civilisation? Do you call it civilising men to make them weak, flabby
creatures, with ruined eyes and dyspeptic stomachs? Who is it that reads
most of the stuff that’s poured out daily by the ton from the
printing-press? Just the men and women who ought to spend their leisure
hours in open-air exercise; the people who earn their bread by sedentary
pursuits, and who need to live as soon as they are free from the desk or
the counter, not to moon over small print. Your Board schools, your
popular press, your spread of education! Machinery for ruining the
country, that’s what I call it.’

‘You have done a good deal, I think, to counteract those influences in

‘I hope so; and if only I had kept the use of my limbs I’d have done a
good deal more. I have an idea of offering substantial prizes to men and
women engaged in sedentary work who take an oath to abstain from all
reading, and keep it for a certain number of years. There’s a good deal
more need for that than for abstinence from strong liquor. If I could have
had my way I would have revived prize-fighting.’

His brother laughed with contemptuous impatience.

‘You would doubtless like to see military conscription introduced into
England?’ said Jasper.

‘Of course I should! You talk of civilising; there’s no such way of
civilising the masses of the people as by fixed military service. Before
mental training must come training of the body. Go about the Continent,
and see the effect of military service on loutish peasants and the lowest
classes of town population. Do you know why it isn’t even more successful?
Because the damnable education movement interferes. If Germany would shut
up her schools and universities for the next quarter of a century and go
ahead like blazes with military training there’d be a nation such as the
world has never seen. After that, they might begin a little book-teaching
again—say an hour and a half a day for everyone above nine years
old. Do you suppose, Mr Milvain, that society is going to be reformed by
you people who write for money? Why, you are the very first class that
will be swept from the face of the earth as soon as the reformation really

Alfred puffed at his cigarette. His thoughts were occupied with Mr Fadge
and The Study. He was considering whether he could aid in bringing public
contempt upon that literary organ and its editor. Milvain listened to the
elder man’s diatribe with much amusement.

‘You, now,’ pursued John, ‘what do you write about?’

‘Nothing in particular. I make a salable page or two out of whatever
strikes my fancy.’

‘Exactly! You don’t even pretend that you’ve got anything to say. You live
by inducing people to give themselves mental indigestion—and bodily,
too, for that matter.’

‘Do you know, Mr Yule, that you have suggested a capital idea to me? If I
were to take up your views, I think it isn’t at all unlikely that I might
make a good thing of writing against writing. It should be my literary
specialty to rail against literature. The reading public should pay me for
telling them that they oughtn’t to read. I must think it over.’

‘Carlyle has anticipated you,’ threw in Alfred.

‘Yes, but in an antiquated way. I would base my polemic on the newest

He developed the idea facetiously, whilst John regarded him as he might
have watched a performing monkey.

‘There again! your new philosophy!’ exclaimed the invalid. ‘Why, it isn’t
even wholesome stuff, the kind of reading that most of you force on the
public. Now there’s the man who has married one of my nieces—poor
lass! Reardon, his name is. You know him, I dare say. Just for curiosity I
had a look at one of his books; it was called “The Optimist.” Of all the
morbid trash I ever saw, that beat everything. I thought of writing him a
letter, advising a couple of anti-bilious pills before bedtime for a few

Jasper glanced at Alfred Yule, who wore a look of indifference.

‘That man deserves penal servitude in my opinion,’ pursued John. ‘I’m not
sure that it isn’t my duty to offer him a couple of hundred a year on
condition that he writes no more.’

Milvain, with a clear vision of his friend in London, burst into laughter.
But at that point Alfred rose from his chair.

‘Shall we rejoin the ladies?’ he said, with a certain pedantry of phrase
and manner which often characterised him.

‘Think over your ways whilst you’re still young,’ said John as he shook
hands with his visitor.

‘Your brother speaks quite seriously, I suppose?’ Jasper remarked when he
was in the garden with Alfred.

‘I think so. It’s amusing now and then, but gets rather tiresome when you
hear it often. By-the-bye, you are not personally acquainted with Mr

‘I didn’t even know his name until you mentioned it.’

‘The most malicious man in the literary world. There’s no uncharitableness
in feeling a certain pleasure when he gets into a scrape. I could tell you
incredible stories about him; but that kind of thing is probably as little
to your taste as it is to mine.’

Miss Harrow and her companions, having caught sight of the pair, came
towards them. Tea was to be brought out into the garden.

‘So you can sit with us and smoke, if you like,’ said Miss Harrow to
Alfred. ‘You are never quite at your ease, I think, without a pipe.’

But the man of letters was too preoccupied for society. In a few minutes
he begged that the ladies would excuse his withdrawing; he had two or
three letters to write before post-time, which was early at Finden.

Jasper, relieved by the veteran’s departure, began at once to make himself
very agreeable company. When he chose to lay aside the topic of his own
difficulties and ambitions, he could converse with a spontaneous gaiety
which readily won the good-will of listeners. Naturally he addressed
himself very often to Marian Yule, whose attention complimented him. She
said little, and evidently was at no time a free talker, but the smile on
her face indicated a mood of quiet enjoyment. When her eyes wandered, it
was to rest on the beauties of the garden, the moving patches of golden
sunshine, the forms of gleaming cloud. Jasper liked to observe her as she
turned her head: there seemed to him a particular grace in the movement;
her head and neck were admirably formed, and the short hair drew attention
to this.

It was agreed that Miss Harrow and Marian should come on the second day
after to have tea with the Milvains. And when Jasper took leave of Alfred
Yule, the latter expressed a wish that they might have a walk together one
of these mornings.


Jasper’s favourite walk led him to a spot distant perhaps a mile and a
half from home. From a tract of common he turned into a short lane which
crossed the Great Western railway, and thence by a stile into certain
meadows forming a compact little valley. One recommendation of this
retreat was that it lay sheltered from all winds; to Jasper a wind was
objectionable. Along the bottom ran a clear, shallow stream, overhung with
elder and hawthorn bushes; and close by the wooden bridge which spanned it
was a great ash tree, making shadow for cows and sheep when the sun lay
hot upon the open field. It was rare for anyone to come along this path,
save farm labourers morning and evening.

But to-day—the afternoon that followed his visit to John Yule’s
house—he saw from a distance that his lounging-place on the wooden
bridge was occupied. Someone else had discovered the pleasure there was in
watching the sun-flecked sparkle of the water as it flowed over the clean
sand and stones. A girl in a yellow-straw hat; yes, and precisely the
person he had hoped, at the first glance, that it might be. He made no
haste as he drew nearer on the descending path. At length his footstep was
heard; Marian Yule turned her head and clearly recognised him.

She assumed an upright position, letting one of her hands rest upon the
rail. After the exchange of ordinary greetings, Jasper leaned back against
the same support and showed himself disposed for talk.

‘When I was here late in the spring,’ he said, ‘this ash was only just
budding, though everything else seemed in full leaf.’

‘An ash, is it?’ murmured Marian. ‘I didn’t know. I think an oak is the
only tree I can distinguish. Yet,’ she added quickly, ‘I knew that the ash
was late; some lines of Tennyson come to my memory.’

‘Which are those?’

     ‘Delaying, as the tender ash delays
To clothe herself when all the woods are green,

somewhere in the “Idylls.”’

‘I don’t remember; so I won’t pretend to—though I should do so as a

She looked at him oddly, and seemed about to laugh, yet did not.

‘You have had little experience of the country?’ Jasper continued.

‘Very little. You, I think, have known it from childhood?’

‘In a sort of way. I was born in Wattleborough, and my people have always
lived here. But I am not very rural in temperament. I have really no
friends here; either they have lost interest in me, or I in them. What do
you think of the girls, my sisters?’

The question, though put with perfect simplicity, was embarrassing.

‘They are tolerably intellectual,’ Jasper went on, when he saw that it
would be difficult for her to answer. ‘I want to persuade them to try
their hands at literary work of some kind or other. They give lessons, and
both hate it.’

‘Would literary work be less—burdensome?’ said Marian, without
looking at him.

‘Rather more so, you think?’

She hesitated.

‘It depends, of course, on—on several things.’

‘To be sure,’ Jasper agreed. ‘I don’t think they have any marked faculty
for such work; but as they certainly haven’t for teaching, that doesn’t
matter. It’s a question of learning a business. I am going through my
apprenticeship, and find it a long affair. Money would shorten it, and,
unfortunately, I have none.’

‘Yes,’ said Marian, turning her eyes upon the stream, ‘money is a help in

‘Without it, one spends the best part of one’s life in toiling for that
first foothold which money could at once purchase. To have money is
becoming of more and more importance in a literary career; principally
because to have money is to have friends. Year by year, such influence
grows of more account. A lucky man will still occasionally succeed by dint
of his own honest perseverance, but the chances are dead against anyone
who can’t make private interest with influential people; his work is
simply overwhelmed by that of the men who have better opportunities.’

‘Don’t you think that, even to-day, really good work will sooner or later
be recognised?’

‘Later, rather than sooner; and very likely the man can’t wait; he starves
in the meantime. You understand that I am not speaking of genius; I mean
marketable literary work. The quantity turned out is so great that there’s
no hope for the special attention of the public unless one can afford to
advertise hugely. Take the instance of a successful all-round man of
letters; take Ralph Warbury, whose name you’ll see in the first magazine
you happen to open. But perhaps he is a friend of yours?’

‘Oh no!’

‘Well, I wasn’t going to abuse him. I was only going to ask: Is there any
quality which distinguishes his work from that of twenty struggling
writers one could name? Of course not. He’s a clever, prolific man; so are
they. But he began with money and friends; he came from Oxford into the
thick of advertised people; his name was mentioned in print six times a
week before he had written a dozen articles. This kind of thing will
become the rule. Men won’t succeed in literature that they may get into
society, but will get into society that they may succeed in literature.’

‘Yes, I know it is true,’ said Marian, in a low voice.

‘There’s a friend of mine who writes novels,’ Jasper pursued. ‘His books
are not works of genius, but they are glaringly distinct from the ordinary
circulating novel. Well, after one or two attempts, he made half a
success; that is to say, the publishers brought out a second edition of
the book in a few months. There was his opportunity. But he couldn’t use
it; he had no friends, because he had no money. A book of half that merit,
if written by a man in the position of Warbury when he started, would have
established the reputation of a lifetime. His influential friends would
have referred to it in leaders, in magazine articles, in speeches, in
sermons. It would have run through numerous editions, and the author would
have had nothing to do but to write another book and demand his price. But
the novel I’m speaking of was practically forgotten a year after its
appearance; it was whelmed beneath the flood of next season’s literature.’

Marian urged a hesitating objection.

‘But, under the circumstances, wasn’t it in the author’s power to make
friends? Was money really indispensable?’

‘Why, yes—because he chose to marry. As a bachelor he might possibly
have got into the right circles, though his character would in any case
have made it difficult for him to curry favour.

But as a married man, without means, the situation was hopeless. Once
married you must live up to the standard of the society you frequent; you
can’t be entertained without entertaining in return. Now if his wife had
brought him only a couple of thousand pounds all might have been well. I
should have advised him, in sober seriousness, to live for two years at
the rate of a thousand a year. At the end of that time he would have been
earning enough to continue at pretty much the same rate of expenditure.’


‘Well, I ought rather to say that the average man of letters would be able
to do that. As for Reardon—’

He stopped. The name had escaped him unawares.

‘Reardon?’ said Marian, looking up. ‘You are speaking of him?’

‘I have betrayed myself Miss Yule.’

‘But what does it matter? You have only spoken in his favour.’

‘I feared the name might affect you disagreeably.’

Marian delayed her reply.

‘It is true,’ she said, ‘we are not on friendly terms with my cousin’s
family. I have never met Mr Reardon. But I shouldn’t like you to think
that the mention of his name is disagreeable to me.’

‘It made me slightly uncomfortable yesterday—the fact that I am well
acquainted with Mrs Edmund Yule, and that Reardon is my friend. Yet I
didn’t see why that should prevent my making your father’s acquaintance.’

‘Surely not. I shall say nothing about it; I mean, as you uttered the name

There was a pause in the dialogue. They had been speaking almost
confidentially, and Marian seemed to become suddenly aware of an oddness
in the situation. She turned towards the uphill path, as if thinking of
resuming her walk.

‘You are tired of standing still,’ said Jasper. ‘May I walk back a part of
the way with you?’

‘Thank you; I shall be glad.’

They went on for a few minutes in silence.

‘Have you published anything with your signature, Miss Yule?’ Jasper at
length inquired.

‘Nothing. I only help father a little.’

The silence that again followed was broken this time by Marian.

‘When you chanced to mention Mr Reardon’s name,’ she said, with a
diffident smile in which lay that suggestion of humour so delightful upon
a woman’s face, ‘you were going to say something more about him?’

‘Only that—’ he broke off and laughed. ‘Now, how boyish it was,
wasn’t it? I remember doing just the same thing once when I came home from
school and had an exciting story to tell, with preservation of
anonymities. Of course I blurted out a name in the first minute or two, to
my father’s great amusement. He told me that I hadn’t the diplomatic
character. I have been trying to acquire it ever since.

‘But why?’

‘It’s one of the essentials of success in any kind of public life. And I
mean to succeed, you know. I feel that I am one of the men who do succeed.
But I beg your pardon; you asked me a question. Really, I was only going
to say of Reardon what I had said before: that he hasn’t the tact
requisite for acquiring popularity.’

‘Then I may hope that it isn’t his marriage with my cousin which has
proved a fatal misfortune?’

‘In no case,’ replied Milvain, averting his look, ‘would he have used his

‘And now? Do you think he has but poor prospects?’

‘I wish I could see any chance of his being estimated at his right value.
It’s very hard to say what is before him.’

‘I knew my cousin Amy when we were children,’ said Marian, presently. ‘She
gave promise of beauty.’

‘Yes, she is beautiful.’

‘And—the kind of woman to be of help to such a husband?’

‘I hardly know how to answer, Miss Yule,’ said Jasper, looking frankly at
her. ‘Perhaps I had better say that it’s unfortunate they are poor.’

Marian cast down her eyes.

‘To whom isn’t it a misfortune?’ pursued her companion. ‘Poverty is the
root of all social ills; its existence accounts even for the ills that
arise from wealth. The poor man is a man labouring in fetters. I declare
there is no word in our language which sounds so hideous to me as

Shortly after this they came to the bridge over the railway line. Jasper
looked at his watch.

‘Will you indulge me in a piece of childishness?’ he said. ‘In less than
five minutes a London express goes by; I have often watched it here, and
it amuses me. Would it weary you to wait?’

‘I should like to,’ she replied with a laugh.

The line ran along a deep cutting, from either side of which grew hazel
bushes and a few larger trees. Leaning upon the parapet of the bridge,
Jasper kept his eye in the westward direction, where the gleaming rails
were visible for more than a mile. Suddenly he raised his finger.

‘You hear?’

Marian had just caught the far-off sound of the train. She looked eagerly,
and in a few moments saw it approaching. The front of the engine blackened
nearer and nearer, coming on with dread force and speed. A blinding rush,
and there burst against the bridge a great volley of sunlit steam. Milvain
and his companion ran to the opposite parapet, but already the whole train
had emerged, and in a few seconds it had disappeared round a sharp curve.
The leafy branches that grew out over the line swayed violently backwards
and forwards in the perturbed air.

‘If I were ten years younger,’ said Jasper, laughing, ‘I should say that
was jolly! It enspirits me. It makes me feel eager to go back and plunge
into the fight again.’

‘Upon me it has just the opposite effect,’ fell from Marian, in very low

‘Oh, don’t say that! Well, it only means that you haven’t had enough
holiday yet. I have been in the country more than a week; a few days more
and I must be off. How long do you think of staying?’

‘Not much more than a week, I think.’

‘By-the-bye, you are coming to have tea with us to-morrow,’ Jasper
remarked a propos of nothing. Then he returned to another subject that was
in his thoughts.

‘It was by a train like that that I first went up to London. Not really
the first time; I mean when I went to live there, seven years ago. What
spirits I was in! A boy of eighteen going to live independently in London;
think of it!’

‘You went straight from school?’

‘I was for two years at Redmayne College after leaving Wattleborough
Grammar School. Then my father died, and I spent nearly half a year at
home. I was meant to be a teacher, but the prospect of entering a school
by no means appealed to me. A friend of mine was studying in London for
some Civil Service exam., so I declared that I would go and do the same

‘Did you succeed?’

‘Not I! I never worked properly for that kind of thing. I read
voraciously, and got to know London. I might have gone to the dogs, you
know; but by when I had been in London a year a pretty clear purpose began
to form in me. Strange to think that you were growing up there all the
time. I may have passed you in the street now and then.’

Marian laughed.

‘And I did at length see you at the British Museum, you know.’

They turned a corner of the road, and came full upon Marian’s father, who
was walking in this direction with eyes fixed upon the ground.

‘So here you are!’ he exclaimed, looking at the girl, and for the moment
paying no attention to Jasper. ‘I wondered whether I should meet you.’
Then, more dryly, ‘How do you do, Mr Milvain?’

In a tone of easy indifference Jasper explained how he came to be
accompanying Miss Yule.

‘Shall I walk on with you, father?’ Marian asked, scrutinising his rugged

‘Just as you please; I don’t know that I should have gone much further.
But we might take another way back.’

Jasper readily adapted himself to the wish he discerned in Mr Yule; at
once he offered leave-taking in the most natural way. Nothing was said on
either side about another meeting.

The young man proceeded homewards, but, on arriving, did not at once enter
the house. Behind the garden was a field used for the grazing of horses;
he entered it by the unfastened gate, and strolled idly hither and
thither, now and then standing to observe a poor worn-out beast, all skin
and bone, which had presumably been sent here in the hope that a little
more labour might still be exacted from it if it were suffered to repose
for a few weeks. There were sores upon its back and legs; it stood in a
fixed attitude of despondency, just flicking away troublesome flies with
its grizzled tail.

It was tea-time when he went in. Maud was not at home, and Mrs Milvain,
tormented by a familiar headache, kept her room; so Jasper and Dora sat
down together. Each had an open book on the table; throughout the meal
they exchanged only a few words.

‘Going to play a little?’ Jasper suggested when they had gone into the

‘If you like.’

She sat down at the piano, whilst her brother lay on the sofa, his hands
clasped beneath his head. Dora did not play badly, but an absentmindedness
which was commonly observable in her had its effect upon the music. She at
length broke off idly in the middle of a passage, and began to linger on
careless chords. Then, without turning her head, she asked:

‘Were you serious in what you said about writing storybooks?’

‘Quite. I see no reason why you shouldn’t do something in that way. But I
tell you what; when I get back, I’ll inquire into the state of the market.
I know a man who was once engaged at Jolly & Monk’s—the chief
publishers of that kind of thing, you know; I must look him up—what
a mistake it is to neglect any acquaintance!—and get some
information out of him. But it’s obvious what an immense field there is
for anyone who can just hit the taste of the new generation of Board
school children. Mustn’t be too goody-goody; that kind of thing is falling
out of date. But you’d have to cultivate a particular kind of vulgarity.

There’s an idea, by-the-bye. I’ll write a paper on the characteristics of
that new generation; it may bring me a few guineas, and it would be a help
to you.’

‘But what do you know about the subject?’ asked Dora doubtfully.

‘What a comical question! It is my business to know something about every
subject—or to know where to get the knowledge.’

‘Well,’ said Dora, after a pause, ‘there’s no doubt Maud and I ought to
think very seriously about the future. You are aware, Jasper, that mother
has not been able to save a penny of her income.’

‘I don’t see how she could have done. Of course I know what you’re
thinking; but for me, it would have been possible. I don’t mind confessing
to you that the thought troubles me a little now and then; I shouldn’t
like to see you two going off governessing in strangers’ houses. All I can
say is, that I am very honestly working for the end which I am convinced
will be most profitable.

I shall not desert you; you needn’t fear that. But just put your heads
together, and cultivate your writing faculty. Suppose you could both
together earn about a hundred a year in Grub Street, it would be better
than governessing; wouldn’t it?’

‘You say you don’t know what Miss Yule writes?’

‘Well, I know a little more about her than I did yesterday. I’ve had an
hour’s talk with her this afternoon.’


‘Met her down in the Leggatt fields. I find she doesn’t write
independently; just helps her father. What the help amounts to I can’t
say. There’s something very attractive about her. She quoted a line or two
of Tennyson; the first time I ever heard a woman speak blank verse with
any kind of decency.’

‘She was walking alone?’

‘Yes. On the way back we met old Yule; he seemed rather grumpy, I thought.
I don’t think she’s the kind of girl to make a paying business of
literature. Her qualities are personal. And it’s pretty clear to me that
the valley of the shadow of books by no means agrees with her disposition.
Possibly old Yule is something of a tyrant.’

‘He doesn’t impress me very favourably. Do you think you will keep up
their acquaintance in London?’

‘Can’t say. I wonder what sort of a woman that mother really is? Can’t be
so very gross, I should think.’

‘Miss Harrow knows nothing about her, except that she was a quite
uneducated girl.’

‘But, dash it! by this time she must have got decent manners. Of course
there may be other objections. Mrs Reardon knows nothing against her.’

Midway in the following morning, as Jasper sat with a book in the garden,
he was surprised to see Alfred Yule enter by the gate.

‘I thought,’ began the visitor, who seemed in high spirits, ‘that you
might like to see something I received this morning.’

He unfolded a London evening paper, and indicated a long letter from a
casual correspondent. It was written by the authoress of ‘On the Boards,’
and drew attention, with much expenditure of witticism, to the conflicting
notices of that book which had appeared in The Study. Jasper read the
thing with laughing appreciation.

‘Just what one expected!’

‘And I have private letters on the subject,’ added Mr Yule.

‘There has been something like a personal conflict between Fadge and the
man who looks after the minor notices. Fadge, more so, charged the other
man with a design to damage him and the paper. There’s talk of legal
proceedings. An immense joke!’

He laughed in his peculiar croaking way.

‘Do you feel disposed for a turn along the lanes, Mr Milvain?’

‘By all means.—There’s my mother at the window; will you come in for
a moment?’

With a step of quite unusual sprightliness Mr Yule entered the house. He
could talk of but one subject, and Mrs Milvain had to listen to a laboured
account of the blunder just committed by The Study. It was Alfred’s Yule’s
characteristic that he could do nothing lighthandedly. He seemed always to
converse with effort; he took a seat with stiff ungainliness; he walked
with a stumbling or sprawling gait.

When he and Jasper set out for their ramble, his loquacity was in strong
contrast with the taciturn mood he had exhibited yesterday and the day
before. He fell upon the general aspects of contemporary literature.

‘... The evil of the time is the multiplication of ephemerides. Hence a
demand for essays, descriptive articles, fragments of criticism, out of
all proportion to the supply of even tolerable work. The men who have an
aptitude for turning out this kind of thing in vast quantities are
enlisted by every new periodical, with the result that their productions
are ultimately watered down into worthlessness.... Well now, there’s
Fadge. Years ago some of Fadge’s work was not without a certain—a
certain conditional promise of—of comparative merit; but now his
writing, in my opinion, is altogether beneath consideration; how Rackett
could be so benighted as to give him The Study—especially after a
man like Henry Hawkridge—passes my comprehension. Did you read a
paper of his, a few months back, in The Wayside, a preposterous
rehabilitation of Elkanah Settle? Ha! Ha! That’s what such men are driven
to. Elkanah Settle! And he hadn’t even a competent acquaintance with his
paltry subject. Will you credit that he twice or thrice referred to
Settle’s reply to “Absalom and Achitophel” by the title of “Absalom
Transposed,” when every schoolgirl knows that the thing was called
“Achitophel Transposed”! This was monstrous enough, but there was
something still more contemptible. He positively, I assure you, attributed
the play of “Epsom Wells” to Crowne! I should have presumed that every
student of even the most trivial primer of literature was aware that
“Epsom Wells” was written by Shadwell.... Now, if one were to take
Shadwell for the subject of a paper, one might very well show how unjustly
his name has fallen into contempt. It has often occurred to me to do this.
“But Shadwell never deviates into sense.” The sneer, in my opinion, is
entirely unmerited. For my own part, I put Shadwell very high among the
dramatists of his time, and I think I could show that his absolute worth
is by no means inconsiderable. Shadwell has distinct vigour of dramatic
conception; his dialogue....’

And as he talked the man kept describing imaginary geometrical figures
with the end of his walking-stick; he very seldom raised his eyes from the
ground, and the stoop in his shoulders grew more and more pronounced,
until at a little distance one might have taken him for a hunchback. At
one point Jasper made a pause to speak of the pleasant wooded prospect
that lay before them; his companion regarded it absently, and in a moment
or two asked:

‘Did you ever come across Cottle’s poem on the Malvern Hills? No?

It contains a couple of the richest lines ever put into print:

      It needs the evidence of close deduction
To know that I shall ever reach the top.

Perfectly serious poetry, mind you!’

He barked in laughter. Impossible to interest him in anything apart from
literature; yet one saw him to be a man of solid understanding, and not
without perception of humour. He had read vastly; his memory was a
literary cyclopaedia. His failings, obvious enough, were the results of a
strong and somewhat pedantic individuality ceaselessly at conflict with
unpropitious circumstances.

Towards the young man his demeanour varied between a shy cordiality and a
dignified reserve which was in danger of seeming pretentious. On the
homeward part of the walk he made a few discreet inquiries regarding
Milvain’s literary achievements and prospects, and the frank
self-confidence of the replies appeared to interest him. But he expressed
no desire to number Jasper among his acquaintances in town, and of his own
professional or private concerns he said not a word.

‘Whether he could be any use to me or not, I don’t exactly know,’ Jasper
remarked to his mother and sisters at dinner. ‘I suspect it’s as much as
he can do to keep a footing among the younger tradesmen. But I think he
might have said he was willing to help me if he could.’

‘Perhaps,’ replied Maud, ‘your large way of talking made him think any
such offer superfluous.’

‘You have still to learn,’ said Jasper, ‘that modesty helps a man in no
department of modern life. People take you at your own valuation. It’s the
men who declare boldly that they need no help to whom practical help comes
from all sides. As likely as not Yule will mention my name to someone. “A
young fellow who seems to see his way pretty clear before him.” The other
man will repeat it to somebody else, “A young fellow whose way is clear
before him,” and so I come to the ears of a man who thinks “Just the
fellow I want; I must look him up and ask him if he’ll do such-and-such a
thing.” But I should like to see these Yules at home; I must fish for an

In the afternoon, Miss Harrow and Marian came at the expected hour. Jasper
purposely kept out of the way until he was summoned to the tea-table.

The Milvain girls were so far from effusive, even towards old
acquaintances, that even the people who knew them best spoke of them as
rather cold and perhaps a trifle condescending; there were people in
Wattleborough who declared their airs of superiority ridiculous and
insufferable. The truth was that nature had endowed them with a larger
share of brains than was common in their circle, and had added that touch
of pride which harmonised so ill with the restrictions of poverty. Their
life had a tone of melancholy, the painful reserve which characterises a
certain clearly defined class in the present day. Had they been born
twenty years earlier, the children of that veterinary surgeon would have
grown up to a very different, and in all probability a much happier,
existence, for their education would have been limited to the strictly
needful, and—certainly in the case of the girls—nothing would
have encouraged them to look beyond the simple life possible to a poor
man’s offspring. But whilst Maud and Dora were still with their homely
schoolmistress, Wattleborough saw fit to establish a Girls’ High School,
and the moderateness of the fees enabled these sisters to receive an
intellectual training wholly incompatible with the material conditions of
their life. To the relatively poor (who are so much worse off than the
poor absolutely) education is in most cases a mocking cruelty. The burden
of their brother’s support made it very difficult for Maud and Dora even
to dress as became their intellectual station; amusements, holidays, the
purchase of such simple luxuries as were all but indispensable to them,
could not be thought of. It resulted that they held apart from the society
which would have welcomed them, for they could not bear to receive without
offering in turn. The necessity of giving lessons galled them; they felt—and
with every reason—that it made their position ambiguous. So that,
though they could not help knowing many people, they had no intimates;
they encouraged no one to visit them, and visited other houses as little
as might be.

In Marian Yule they divined a sympathetic nature. She was unlike any girl
with whom they had hitherto associated, and it was the impulse of both to
receive her with unusual friendliness. The habit of reticence could not be
at once overcome, and Marian’s own timidity was an obstacle in the way of
free intercourse, but Jasper’s conversation at tea helped to smooth the
course of things.

‘I wish you lived anywhere near us,’ Dora said to their visitor, as the
three girls walked in the garden afterwards, and Maud echoed the wish.

‘It would be very nice,’ was Marian’s reply. ‘I have no friends of my own
age in London.’


‘Not one!’

She was about to add something, but in the end kept silence.

‘You seem to get along with Miss Yule pretty well, after all,’ said
Jasper, when the family were alone again.

‘Did you anticipate anything else?’ Maud asked.

‘It seemed doubtful, up at Yule’s house. Well, get her to come here again
before I go. But it’s a pity she doesn’t play the piano,’ he added,

For two days nothing was seen of the Yules. Jasper went each afternoon to
the stream in the valley, but did not again meet Marian. In the meanwhile
he was growing restless. A fortnight always exhausted his capacity for
enjoying the companionship of his mother and sisters, and this time he
seemed anxious to get to the end of his holiday. For all that, there was
no continuance of the domestic bickering which had begun. Whatever the
reason, Maud behaved with unusual mildness to her brother, and Jasper in
turn was gently disposed to both the girls.

On the morning of the third day—it was Saturday—he kept
silence through breakfast, and just as all were about to rise from the
table, he made a sudden announcement:

‘I shall go to London this afternoon.’

‘This afternoon?’ all exclaimed. ‘But Monday is your day.’

‘No, I shall go this afternoon, by the 2.45.’

And he left the room. Mrs Milvain and the girls exchanged looks.

‘I suppose he thinks the Sunday will be too wearisome,’ said the mother.

‘Perhaps so,’ Maud agreed, carelessly.

Half an hour later, just as Dora was ready to leave the house for her
engagements in Wattleborough, her brother came into the hall and took his
hat, saying:

‘I’ll walk a little way with you, if you don’t mind.’

When they were in the road, he asked her in an offhand manner:

‘Do you think I ought to say good-bye to the Yules? Or won’t it signify?’

‘I should have thought you would wish to.’

‘I don’t care about it. And, you see, there’s been no hint of a wish on
their part that I should see them in London. No, I’ll just leave you to
say good-bye for me.’

‘But they expect to see us to-day or to-morrow. You told them you were not
going till Monday, and you don’t know but Mr Yule might mean to say
something yet.’

‘Well, I had rather he didn’t,’ replied Jasper, with a laugh.

‘Oh, indeed?’

‘I don’t mind telling you,’ he laughed again. ‘I’m afraid of that girl.
No, it won’t do! You understand that I’m a practical man, and I shall keep
clear of dangers. These days of holiday idleness put all sorts of nonsense
into one’s head.’

Dora kept her eyes down, and smiled ambiguously.

‘You must act as you think fit,’ she remarked at length.

‘Exactly. Now I’ll turn back. You’ll be with us at dinner?’

They parted. But Jasper did not keep to the straight way home. First of
all, he loitered to watch a reaping-machine at work; then he turned into a
lane which led up the hill on which was John Yule’s house. Even if he had
purposed making a farewell call, it was still far too early; all he wanted
to do was to pass an hour of the morning, which threatened to lie heavy on
his hands. So he rambled on, and went past the house, and took the
field-path which would lead him circuitously home again.

His mother desired to speak to him. She was in the dining-room; in the
parlour Maud was practising music.

‘I think I ought to tell you of something I did yesterday, Jasper,’ Mrs
Milvain began. ‘You see, my dear, we have been rather straitened lately,
and my health, you know, grows so uncertain, and, all things considered, I
have been feeling very anxious about the girls. So I wrote to your uncle
William, and told him that I must positively have that money. I must think
of my own children before his.’

The matter referred to was this. The deceased Mr Milvain had a brother who
was a struggling shopkeeper in a Midland town. Some ten years ago, William
Milvain, on the point of bankruptcy, had borrowed a hundred and seventy
pounds from his brother in Wattleborough, and this debt was still unpaid;
for on the death of Jasper’s father repayment of the loan was impossible
for William, and since then it had seemed hopeless that the sum would ever
be recovered. The poor shopkeeper had a large family, and Mrs Milvain,
notwithstanding her own position, had never felt able to press him; her
relative, however, often spoke of the business, and declared his intention
of paying whenever he could.

‘You can’t recover by law now, you know,’ said Jasper.

‘But we have a right to the money, law or no law. He must pay it.’

‘He will simply refuse—and be justified. Poverty doesn’t allow of
honourable feeling, any more than of compassion. I’m sorry you wrote like
that. You won’t get anything, and you might as well have enjoyed the
reputation of forbearance.’

Mrs Milvain was not able to appreciate this characteristic remark. Anxiety
weighed upon her, and she became irritable.

‘I am obliged to say, Jasper, that you seem rather thoughtless. If it were
only myself I would make any sacrifice for you; but you must remember—’

‘Now listen, mother,’ he interrupted, laying a hand on her shoulder; ‘I
have been thinking about all this, and the fact of the matter is, I shall
do my best to ask you for no more money. It may or may not be practicable,
but I’ll have a try. So don’t worry. If uncle writes that he can’t pay,
just explain why you wrote, and keep him gently in mind of the thing,
that’s all. One doesn’t like to do brutal things if one can avoid them,
you know.’

The young man went to the parlour and listened to Maud’s music for awhile.
But restlessness again drove him forth. Towards eleven o’clock he was
again ascending in the direction of John Yule’s house. Again he had no
intention of calling, but when he reached the iron gates he lingered.

‘I will, by Jove!’ he said within himself at last. ‘Just to prove I have
complete command of myself. It’s to be a display of strength, not

At the house door he inquired for Mr Alfred Yule. That gentleman had gone
in the carriage to Wattleborough, half an hour ago, with his brother.

‘Miss Yule?’

Yes, she was within. Jasper entered the sitting-room, waited a few
moments, and Marian appeared. She wore a dress in which Milvain had not
yet seen her, and it had the effect of making him regard her attentively.
The smile with which she had come towards him passed from her face, which
was perchance a little warmer of hue than commonly.

‘I’m sorry your father is away, Miss Yule,’ Jasper began, in an animated
voice. ‘I wanted to say good-bye to him. I return to London in a few

‘You are going sooner than you intended?’

‘Yes, I feel I mustn’t waste any more time. I think the country air is
doing you good; you certainly look better than when I passed you that
first day.’

‘I feel better, much.’

‘My sisters are anxious to see you again. I shouldn’t wonder if they come
up this afternoon.’

Marian had seated herself on the sofa, and her hands were linked upon her
lap in the same way as when Jasper spoke with her here before, the palms
downward. The beautiful outline of her bent head was relieved against a
broad strip of sunlight on the wall behind her.

‘They deplore,’ he continued in a moment, ‘that they should come to know
you only to lose you again so soon.

‘I have quite as much reason to be sorry,’ she answered, looking at him
with the slightest possible smile. ‘But perhaps they will let me write to
them, and hear from them now and then.’

‘They would think it an honour. Country girls are not often invited to
correspond with literary ladies in London.’

He said it with as much jocoseness as civility allowed, then at once rose.

‘Father will be very sorry,’ Marian began, with one quick glance towards
the window and then another towards the door. ‘Perhaps he might possibly
be able to see you before you go?’

Jasper stood in hesitation. There was a look on the girl’s face which,
under other circumstances, would have suggested a ready answer.

‘I mean,’ she added, hastily, ‘he might just call, or even see you at the

‘Oh, I shouldn’t like to give Mr Yule any trouble. It’s my own fault, for
deciding to go to-day. I shall leave by the 2.45.’

He offered his hand.

‘I shall look for your name in the magazines, Miss Yule.’

‘Oh, I don’t think you will ever find it there.’

He laughed incredulously, shook hands with her a second time, and strode
out of the room, head erect—feeling proud of himself.

When Dora came home at dinner-time, he informed her of what he had done.

‘A very interesting girl,’ he added impartially. ‘I advise you to make a
friend of her. Who knows but you may live in London some day, and then she
might be valuable—morally, I mean. For myself, I shall do my best
not to see her again for a long time; she’s dangerous.’

Jasper was unaccompanied when he went to the station. Whilst waiting on
the platform, he suffered from apprehension lest Alfred Yule’s seamed
visage should present itself; but no acquaintance approached him. Safe in
the corner of his third-class carriage, he smiled at the last glimpse of
the familiar fields, and began to think of something he had decided to
write for The West End.


Eight flights of stairs, consisting alternately of eight and nine steps.
Amy had made the calculation, and wondered what was the cause of this
arrangement. The ascent was trying, but then no one could contest the
respectability of the abode. In the flat immediately beneath resided a
successful musician, whose carriage and pair came at a regular hour each
afternoon to take him and his wife for a most respectable drive. In this
special building no one else seemed at present to keep a carriage, but all
the tenants were gentlefolk.

And as to living up at the very top, why, there were distinct advantages—as
so many people of moderate income are nowadays hastening to discover. The
noise from the street was diminished at this height; no possible tramplers
could establish themselves above your head; the air was bound to be purer
than that of inferior strata; finally, one had the flat roof whereon to
sit or expatiate in sunny weather. True that a gentle rain of soot was
wont to interfere with one’s comfort out there in the open, but such
minutiae are easily forgotten in the fervour of domestic description. It
was undeniable that on a fine day one enjoyed extensive views. The green
ridge from Hampstead to Highgate, with Primrose Hill and the foliage of
Regent’s Park in the foreground; the suburban spaces of St John’s Wood,
Maida Vale, Kilburn; Westminster Abbey and the Houses of Parliament, lying
low by the side of the hidden river, and a glassy gleam on far-off hills
which meant the Crystal Palace; then the clouded majesty of eastern
London, crowned by St Paul’s dome. These things one’s friends were
expected to admire. Sunset often afforded rich effects, but they were for
solitary musing.

A sitting-room, a bedroom, a kitchen. But the kitchen was called
dining-room, or even parlour at need; for the cooking-range lent itself to
concealment behind an ornamental screen, the walls displayed pictures and
bookcases, and a tiny scullery which lay apart sufficed for the coarser
domestic operations. This was Amy’s territory during the hours when her
husband was working, or endeavouring to work. Of necessity, Edwin Reardon
used the front room as his study. His writing-table stood against the
window; each wall had its shelves of serried literature; vases, busts,
engravings (all of the inexpensive kind) served for ornaments.

A maid-servant, recently emancipated from the Board school, came at
half-past seven each morning, and remained until two o’clock, by which
time the Reardons had dined; on special occasions, her services were
enlisted for later hours. But it was Reardon’s habit to begin the serious
work of the day at about three o’clock, and to continue with brief
interruptions until ten or eleven; in many respects an awkward
arrangement, but enforced by the man’s temperament and his poverty.

One evening he sat at his desk with a slip of manuscript paper before him.
It was the hour of sunset. His outlook was upon the backs of certain large
houses skirting Regent’s Park, and lights had begun to show here and there
in the windows: in one room a man was discoverable dressing for dinner, he
had not thought it worth while to lower the blind; in another, some people
were playing billiards. The higher windows reflected a rich glow from the
western sky.

For two or three hours Reardon had been seated in much the same attitude.
Occasionally he dipped his pen into the ink and seemed about to write: but
each time the effort was abortive. At the head of the paper was inscribed
‘Chapter III.,’ but that was all.

And now the sky was dusking over; darkness would soon fall.

He looked something older than his years, which were two-and-thirty; on
his face was the pallor of mental suffering. Often he fell into a fit of
absence, and gazed at vacancy with wide, miserable eyes. Returning to
consciousness, he fidgeted nervously on his chair, dipped his pen for the
hundredth time, bent forward in feverish determination to work. Useless;
he scarcely knew what he wished to put into words, and his brain refused
to construct the simplest sentence.

The colours faded from the sky, and night came quickly. Reardon threw his
arms upon the desk, let his head fall forward, and remained so, as if

Presently the door opened, and a young, clear voice made inquiry:

‘Don’t you want the lamp, Edwin?’

The man roused himself, turned his chair a little, and looked towards the
open door.

‘Come here, Amy.’

His wife approached. It was not quite dark in the room, for a glimmer came
from the opposite houses.

‘What’s the matter? Can’t you do anything?’

‘I haven’t written a word to-day. At this rate, one goes crazy. Come and
sit by me a minute, dearest.’

‘I’ll get the lamp.’

‘No; come and talk to me; we can understand each other better.’

‘Nonsense; you have such morbid ideas. I can’t bear to sit in the gloom.’

At once she went away, and quickly reappeared with a reading-lamp, which
she placed on the square table in the middle of the room.

‘Draw down the blind, Edwin.’

She was a slender girl, but not very tall; her shoulders seemed rather
broad in proportion to her waist and the part of her figure below it. The
hue of her hair was ruddy gold; loosely arranged tresses made a superb
crown to the beauty of her small, refined head. Yet the face was not of
distinctly feminine type; with short hair and appropriate clothing, she
would have passed unquestioned as a handsome boy of seventeen, a spirited
boy too, and one much in the habit of giving orders to inferiors. Her nose
would have been perfect but for ever so slight a crook which made it
preferable to view her in full face than in profile; her lips curved
sharply out, and when she straightened them of a sudden, the effect was
not reassuring to anyone who had counted upon her for facile humour. In
harmony with the broad shoulders, she had a strong neck; as she bore the
lamp into the room a slight turn of her head showed splendid muscles from
the ear downward. It was a magnificently clear-cut bust; one thought, in
looking at her, of the newly-finished head which some honest sculptor has
wrought with his own hand from the marble block; there was a suggestion of
‘planes’ and of the chisel. The atmosphere was cold; ruddiness would have
been quite out of place on her cheeks, and a flush must have been the
rarest thing there.

Her age was not quite two-and-twenty; she had been wedded nearly two
years, and had a child ten months old.

As for her dress, it was unpretending in fashion and colour, but of
admirable fit. Every detail of her appearance denoted scrupulous personal
refinement. She walked well; you saw that the foot, however gently, was
firmly planted. When she seated herself her posture was instantly
graceful, and that of one who is indifferent about support for the back.

‘What is the matter?’ she began. ‘Why can’t you get on with the story?’

It was the tone of friendly remonstrance, not exactly of affection, not at
all of tender solicitude.

Reardon had risen and wished to approach her, but could not do so
directly. He moved to another part of the room, then came round to the
back of her chair, and bent his face upon her shoulder.



‘I think it’s all over with me. I don’t think I shall write any more.’

‘Don’t be so foolish, dear. What is to prevent your writing?’

‘Perhaps I am only out of sorts. But I begin to be horribly afraid. My
will seems to be fatally weakened. I can’t see my way to the end of
anything; if I get hold of an idea which seems good, all the sap has gone
out of it before I have got it into working shape. In these last few
months, I must have begun a dozen different books; I have been ashamed to
tell you of each new beginning. I write twenty pages, perhaps, and then my
courage fails. I am disgusted with the thing, and can’t go on with it—can’t!
My fingers refuse to hold the pen. In mere writing, I have done enough to
make much more than three volumes; but it’s all destroyed.’

‘Because of your morbid conscientiousness. There was no need to destroy
what you had written. It was all good enough for the market.’

‘Don’t use that word, Amy. I hate it!’

‘You can’t afford to hate it,’ was her rejoinder, in very practical tones.
‘However it was before, you must write for the market now. You have
admitted that yourself.’

He kept silence.

‘Where are you?’ she went on to ask. ‘What have you actually done?’

‘Two short chapters of a story I can’t go on with. The three volumes lie
before me like an interminable desert. Impossible to get through them. The
idea is stupidly artificial, and I haven’t a living character in it.’

‘The public don’t care whether the characters are living or not.—Don’t
stand behind me, like that; it’s such an awkward way of talking. Come and
sit down.’

He drew away, and came to a position whence he could see her face, but
kept at a distance.

‘Yes,’ he said, in a different way, ‘that’s the worst of it.’

‘What is?’

‘That you—well, it’s no use.’

‘That I—what?’

She did not look at him; her lips, after she had spoken, drew in a little.

‘That your disposition towards me is being affected by this miserable
failure. You keep saying to yourself that I am not what you thought me.
Perhaps you even feel that I have been guilty of a sort of deception. I
don’t blame you; it’s natural enough.’

‘I’ll tell you quite honestly what I do think,’ she replied, after a short
silence. ‘You are much weaker than I imagined. Difficulties crush you,
instead of rousing you to struggle.’

‘True. It has always been my fault.’

‘But don’t you feel it’s rather unmanly, this state of things? You say you
love me, and I try to believe it. But whilst you are saying so, you let me
get nearer and nearer to miserable, hateful poverty. What is to become of
me—of us? Shall you sit here day after day until our last shilling
is spent?’

‘No; of course I must do something.’

‘When shall you begin in earnest? In a day or two you must pay this
quarter’s rent, and that will leave us just about fifteen pounds in the
world. Where is the rent at Christmas to come from?

What are we to live upon? There’s all sorts of clothing to be bought;
there’ll be all the extra expenses of winter. Surely it’s bad enough that
we have had to stay here all the summer; no holiday of any kind. I have
done my best not to grumble about it, but I begin to think that it would
be very much wiser if I did grumble.’

She squared her shoulders, and gave her head just a little shake, as if a
fly had troubled her.

‘You bear everything very well and kindly,’ said Reardon. ‘My behaviour is
contemptible; I know that. Good heavens! if I only had some business to go
to, something I could work at in any state of mind, and make money out of!
Given this chance, I would work myself to death rather than you should
lack anything you desire. But I am at the mercy of my brain; it is dry and
powerless. How I envy those clerks who go by to their offices in the
morning! There’s the day’s work cut out for them; no question of mood and
feeling; they have just to work at something, and when the evening comes,
they have earned their wages, they are free to rest and enjoy themselves.
What an insane thing it is to make literature one’s only means of support!
When the most trivial accident may at any time prove fatal to one’s power
of work for weeks or months. No, that is the unpardonable sin! To make a
trade of an art! I am rightly served for attempting such a brutal folly.’

He turned away in a passion of misery.

‘How very silly it is to talk like this!’ came in Amy’s voice, clearly
critical. ‘Art must be practised as a trade, at all events in our time.
This is the age of trade. Of course if one refuses to be of one’s time,
and yet hasn’t the means to live independently, what can result but
breakdown and wretchedness? The fact of the matter is, you could do fairly
good work, and work which would sell, if only you would bring yourself to
look at things in a more practical way. It’s what Mr Milvain is always
saying, you know.’

‘Milvain’s temperament is very different from mine. He is naturally
light-hearted and hopeful; I am naturally the opposite.

What you and he say is true enough; the misfortune is that I can’t act
upon it. I am no uncompromising artistic pedant; I am quite willing to try
and do the kind of work that will sell; under the circumstances it would
be a kind of insanity if I refused. But power doesn’t answer to the will.
My efforts are utterly vain; I suppose the prospect of pennilessness is
itself a hindrance; the fear haunts me. With such terrible real things
pressing upon me, my imagination can shape nothing substantial. When I
have laboured out a story, I suddenly see it in a light of such
contemptible triviality that to work at it is an impossible thing.’

‘You are ill, that’s the fact of the matter. You ought to have had a
holiday. I think even now you had better go away for a week or two. Do,

‘Impossible! It would be the merest pretence of holiday. To go away and
leave you here—no!’

‘Shall I ask mother or Jack to lend us some money?’

‘That would be intolerable.’

‘But this state of things is intolerable!’

Reardon walked the length of the room and back again.

‘Your mother has no money to lend, dear, and your brother would do it so
unwillingly that we can’t lay ourselves under such an obligation.’

‘Yet it will come to that, you know,’ remarked Amy, calmly.

‘No, it shall not come to that. I must and will get something done long
before Christmas. If only you—’

He came and took one of her hands.

‘If only you will give me more sympathy, dearest. You see, that’s one side
of my weakness. I am utterly dependent upon you. Your kindness is the
breath of life to me. Don’t refuse it!’

‘But I have done nothing of the kind.’

‘You begin to speak very coldly. And I understand your feeling of
disappointment. The mere fact of your urging me to do anything that will
sell is a proof of bitter disappointment. You would have looked with scorn
at anyone who talked to me like that two years ago. You were proud of me
because my work wasn’t altogether common, and because I had never written
a line that was meant to attract the vulgar. All that’s over now. If you
knew how dreadful it is to see that you have lost your hopes of me!’

‘Well, but I haven’t—altogether,’ Amy replied, meditatively. ‘I know
very well that, if you had a lot of money, you would do better things than

‘Thank you a thousand times for saying that, my dearest.’

‘But, you see, we haven’t money, and there’s little chance of our getting
any. That scrubby old uncle won’t leave anything to us; I feel too sure of
it. I often feel disposed to go and beg him on my knees to think of us in
his will.’ She laughed. ‘I suppose it’s impossible, and would be useless;
but I should be capable of it if I knew it would bring money.’

Reardon said nothing.

‘I didn’t think so much of money when we were married,’ Amy continued. ‘I
had never seriously felt the want of it, you know. I did think—there’s
no harm in confessing it—that you were sure to be rich some day; but
I should have married you all the same if I had known that you would win
only reputation.’

‘You are sure of that?’

‘Well, I think so. But I know the value of money better now. I know it is
the most powerful thing in the world. If I had to choose between a
glorious reputation with poverty and a contemptible popularity with
wealth, I should choose the latter.’


‘I should.’

‘Perhaps you are right.’

He turned away with a sigh.

‘Yes, you are right. What is reputation? If it is deserved, it originates
with a few score of people among the many millions who would never have
recognised the merit they at last applaud. That’s the lot of a great
genius. As for a mediocrity like me—what ludicrous absurdity to fret
myself in the hope that half-a-dozen folks will say I am “above the
average!” After all, is there sillier vanity than this? A year after I
have published my last book, I shall be practically forgotten; ten years
later, I shall be as absolutely forgotten as one of those novelists of the
early part of this century, whose names one doesn’t even recognise. What
fatuous posing!’

Amy looked askance at him, but replied nothing.

‘And yet,’ he continued, ‘of course it isn’t only for the sake of
reputation that one tries to do uncommon work. There’s the shrinking from
conscious insincerity of workmanship—which most of the writers
nowadays seem never to feel. “It’s good enough for the market”; that
satisfies them. And perhaps they are justified.

I can’t pretend that I rule my life by absolute ideals; I admit that
everything is relative. There is no such thing as goodness or badness, in
the absolute sense, of course. Perhaps I am absurdly inconsistent when—though
knowing my work can’t be first rate—I strive to make it as good as
possible. I don’t say this in irony, Amy; I really mean it. It may very
well be that I am just as foolish as the people I ridicule for moral and
religious superstition. This habit of mine is superstitious. How well I
can imagine the answer of some popular novelist if he heard me speak
scornfully of his books. “My dear fellow,” he might say, “do you suppose I
am not aware that my books are rubbish? I know it just as well as you do.
But my vocation is to live comfortably. I have a luxurious house, a wife
and children who are happy and grateful to me for their happiness. If you
choose to live in a garret, and, what’s worse, make your wife and children
share it with you, that’s your concern.” The man would be abundantly

‘But,’ said Amy, ‘why should you assume that his books are rubbish? Good
work succeeds—now and then.’

‘I speak of the common kind of success, which is never due to literary
merit. And if I speak bitterly, well, I am suffering from my
powerlessness. I am a failure, my poor girl, and it isn’t easy for me to
look with charity on the success of men who deserved it far less than I
did, when I was still able to work.’

‘Of course, Edwin, if you make up your mind that you are a failure, you
will end by being so. But I’m convinced there’s no reason that you should
fail to make a living with your pen. Now let me advise you; put aside all
your strict ideas about what is worthy and what is unworthy, and just act
upon my advice. It’s impossible for you to write a three-volume novel;
very well, then do a short story of a kind that’s likely to be popular.
You know Mr Milvain is always saying that the long novel has had its day,
and that in future people will write shilling books. Why not try?

Give yourself a week to invent a sensational plot, and then a fortnight
for the writing. Have it ready for the new season at the end of October.
If you like, don’t put your name to it; your name certainly would have no
weight with this sort of public. Just make it a matter of business, as Mr
Milvain says, and see if you can’t earn some money.’

He stood and regarded her. His expression was one of pained perplexity.

‘You mustn’t forget, Amy, that it needs a particular kind of faculty to
write stories of this sort. The invention of a plot is just the thing I
find most difficult.’

‘But the plot may be as silly as you like, providing it holds the
attention of vulgar readers. Think of “The Hollow Statue”, what could be
more idiotic? Yet it sells by thousands.’

‘I don’t think I can bring myself to that,’ Reardon said, in a low voice.

‘Very well, then will you tell me what you propose to do?’

‘I might perhaps manage a novel in two volumes, instead of three.’

He seated himself at the writing-table, and stared at the blank sheets of
paper in an anguish of hopelessness.

‘It will take you till Christmas,’ said Amy, ‘and then you will get
perhaps fifty pounds for it.’

‘I must do my best. I’ll go out and try to get some ideas. I—’

He broke off and looked steadily at his wife.

‘What is it?’ she asked.

‘Suppose I were to propose to you to leave this flat and take cheaper

He uttered it in a shamefaced way, his eyes falling. Amy kept silence.

‘We might sublet it,’ he continued, in the same tone, ‘for the last year
of the lease.’

‘And where do you propose to live?’ Amy inquired, coldly.

‘There’s no need to be in such a dear neighbourhood. We could go to one of
the outer districts. One might find three unfurnished rooms for about
eight-and-sixpence a week—less than half our rent here.’

‘You must do as seems good to you.’

‘For Heaven’s sake, Amy, don’t speak to me in that way! I can’t stand
that! Surely you can see that I am driven to think of every possible
resource. To speak like that is to abandon me. Say you can’t or won’t do
it, but don’t treat me as if you had no share in my miseries!’

She was touched for the moment.

‘I didn’t mean to speak unkindly, dear. But think what it means, to give
up our home and position. That is open confession of failure. It would be

‘I won’t think of it. I have three months before Christmas, and I will
finish a book!’

‘I really can’t see why you shouldn’t. Just do a certain number of pages
every day. Good or bad, never mind; let the pages be finished. Now you
have got two chapters—’

‘No; that won’t do. I must think of a better subject.’

Amy made a gesture of impatience.

‘There you are! What does the subject matter? Get this book finished and
sold, and then do something better next time.’

‘Give me to-night, just to think. Perhaps one of the old stories I have
thrown aside will come back in a clearer light. I’ll go out for an hour;
you don’t mind being left alone?’

‘You mustn’t think of such trifles as that.’

‘But nothing that concerns you in the slightest way is a trifle to me—nothing!
I can’t bear that you should forget that. Have patience with me, darling,
a little longer.’

He knelt by her, and looked up into her face.

‘Say only one or two kind words—like you used to!’

She passed her hand lightly over his hair, and murmured something with a
faint smile.

Then Reardon took his hat and stick and descended the eight flights of
stone steps, and walked in the darkness round the outer circle of Regent’s
Park, racking his fagged brain in a hopeless search for characters,
situations, motives.


Even in mid-rapture of his marriage month he had foreseen this
possibility; but fate had hitherto rescued him in sudden ways when he was
on the brink of self-abandonment, and it was hard to imagine that this
culmination of triumphant joy could be a preface to base miseries.

He was the son of a man who had followed many different pursuits, and in
none had done much more than earn a livelihood. At the age of forty—when
Edwin, his only child, was ten years old—Mr Reardon established
himself in the town of Hereford as a photographer, and there he abode
until his death, nine years after, occasionally risking some speculation
not inconsistent with the photographic business, but always with the
result of losing the little capital he ventured. Mrs Reardon died when
Edwin had reached his fifteenth year. In breeding and education she was
superior to her husband, to whom, moreover, she had brought something
between four and five hundred pounds; her temper was passionate in both
senses of the word, and the marriage could hardly be called a happy one,
though it was never disturbed by serious discord. The photographer was a
man of whims and idealisms; his wife had a strong vein of worldly
ambition. They made few friends, and it was Mrs Reardon’s frequently
expressed desire to go and live in London, where fortune, she thought,
might be kinder to them. Reardon had all but made up his mind to try this
venture when he suddenly became a widower; after that he never summoned
energy to embark on new enterprises.

The boy was educated at an excellent local school; at eighteen he had a
far better acquaintance with the ancient classics than most lads who have
been expressly prepared for a university, and, thanks to an anglicised
Swiss who acted as an assistant in Mr Reardon’s business, he not only read
French, but could talk it with a certain haphazard fluency. These
attainments, however, were not of much practical use; the best that could
be done for Edwin was to place him in the office of an estate agent. His
health was indifferent, and it seemed likely that open-air exercise, of
which he would have a good deal under the particular circumstances of the
case, might counteract the effects of study too closely pursued.

At his father’s death he came into possession (practically it was put at
his disposal at once, though he was little more than nineteen) of about
two hundred pounds—a life-insurance for five hundred had been
sacrificed to exigencies not very long before. He had no difficulty in
deciding how to use this money. His mother’s desire to live in London had
in him the force of an inherited motive; as soon as possible he released
himself from his uncongenial occupations, converted into money all the
possessions of which he had not immediate need, and betook himself to the

To become a literary man, of course.

His capital lasted him nearly four years, for, notwithstanding his age, he
lived with painful economy. The strangest life, of almost absolute
loneliness. From a certain point of Tottenham Court Road there is visible
a certain garret window in a certain street which runs parallel with that
thoroughfare; for the greater part of these four years the garret in
question was Reardon’s home. He paid only three-and-sixpence a week for
the privilege of living there; his food cost him about a shilling a day;
on clothing and other unavoidable expenses he laid out some five pounds
yearly. Then he bought books—volumes which cost anything between
twopence and two shillings; further than that he durst not go. A strange
time, I assure you.

When he had completed his twenty-first year, he desired to procure a
reader’s ticket for the British Museum. Now this was not such a simple
matter as you may suppose; it was necessary to obtain the signature of
some respectable householder, and Reardon was acquainted with no such
person. His landlady was a decent woman enough, and a payer of rates and
taxes, but it would look odd, to say the least of it, to present oneself
in Great Russell Street armed with this person’s recommendation. There was
nothing for it but to take a bold step, to force himself upon the
attention of a stranger—the thing from which his pride had always
shrunk. He wrote to a well-known novelist—a man with whose works he
had some sympathy. ‘I am trying to prepare myself for a literary career. I
wish to study in the Reading-room of the British Museum, but have no
acquaintance to whom I can refer in the ordinary way. Will you help me—I
mean, in this particular only?’ That was the substance of his letter. For
reply came an invitation to a house in the West-end. With fear and
trembling Reardon answered the summons. He was so shabbily attired; he was
so diffident from the habit of living quite alone; he was horribly afraid
lest it should be supposed that he looked for other assistance than he had
requested. Well, the novelist was a rotund and jovial man; his dwelling
and his person smelt of money; he was so happy himself that he could
afford to be kind to others.

‘Have you published anything?’ he inquired, for the young man’s letter had
left this uncertain.

‘Nothing. I have tried the magazines, but as yet without success.’

‘But what do you write?’

‘Chiefly essays on literary subjects.’

‘I can understand that you would find a difficulty in disposing of them.
That kind of thing is supplied either by men of established reputation, or
by anonymous writers who have a regular engagement on papers and
magazines. Give me an example of your topics.’

‘I have written something lately about Tibullus.’

‘Oh, dear! Oh, dear!—Forgive me, Mr Reardon; my feelings were too
much for me; those names have been my horror ever since I was a schoolboy.
Far be it from me to discourage you, if your line is to be solid literary
criticism; I will only mention, as a matter of fact, that such work is
indifferently paid and in very small demand. It hasn’t occurred to you to
try your hand at fiction?’

In uttering the word he beamed; to him it meant a thousand or so a year.

‘I am afraid I have no talent for that.’

The novelist could do no more than grant his genial signature for the
specified purpose, and add good wishes in abundance. Reardon went home
with his brain in a whirl. He had had his first glimpse of what was meant
by literary success. That luxurious study, with its shelves of
handsomely-bound books, its beautiful pictures, its warm, fragrant air—great
heavens! what might not a man do who sat at his ease amid such

He began to work at the Reading-room, but at the same time he thought
often of the novelist’s suggestion, and before long had written two or
three short stories. No editor would accept them; but he continued to
practise himself in that art, and by degrees came to fancy that, after
all, perhaps he had some talent for fiction. It was significant, however,
that no native impulse had directed him to novel-writing. His intellectual
temper was that of the student, the scholar, but strongly blended with a
love of independence which had always made him think with distaste of a
teacher’s life. The stories he wrote were scraps of immature psychology—the
last thing a magazine would accept from an unknown man.

His money dwindled, and there came a winter during which he suffered much
from cold and hunger. What a blessed refuge it was, there under the great
dome, when he must else have sat in his windy garret with the mere
pretence of a fire! The Reading-room was his true home; its warmth
enwrapped him kindly; the peculiar odour of its atmosphere—at first
a cause of headache—grew dear and delightful to him. But he could
not sit here until his last penny should be spent. Something practical
must be done, and practicality was not his strong point.

Friends in London he had none; but for an occasional conversation with his
landlady he would scarcely have spoken a dozen words in a week. His
disposition was the reverse of democratic, and he could not make
acquaintances below his own intellectual level. Solitude fostered a
sensitiveness which to begin with was extreme; the lack of stated
occupation encouraged his natural tendency to dream and procrastinate and
hope for the improbable. He was a recluse in the midst of millions, and
viewed with dread the necessity of going forth to fight for daily food.

Little by little he had ceased to hold any correspondence with his former
friends at Hereford. The only person to whom he still wrote and from whom
he still heard was his mother’s father—an old man who lived at
Derby, retired from the business of a draper, and spending his last years
pleasantly enough with a daughter who had remained single. Edwin had
always been a favourite with his grandfather, though they had met only
once or twice during the past eight years. But in writing he did not allow
it to be understood that he was in actual want, and he felt that he must
come to dire extremities before he could bring himself to beg assistance.

He had begun to answer advertisements, but the state of his wardrobe
forbade his applying for any but humble positions. Once or twice he
presented himself personally at offices, but his reception was so
mortifying that death by hunger seemed preferable to a continuance of such
experiences. The injury to his pride made him savagely arrogant; for days
after the last rejection he hid himself in his garret, hating the world.

He sold his little collection of books, and of course they brought only a
trifling sum. That exhausted, he must begin to sell his clothes. And then—?

But help was at hand. One day he saw it advertised in a newspaper that the
secretary of a hospital in the north of London was in need of a clerk;
application was to be made by letter. He wrote, and two days later, to his
astonishment, received a reply asking him to wait upon the secretary at a
certain hour. In a fever of agitation he kept the appointment, and found
that his business was with a young man in the very highest spirits, who
walked up and down a little office (the hospital was of the ‘special’
order, a house of no great size), and treated the matter in hand as an
excellent joke.

‘I thought, you know, of engaging someone much younger—quite a lad,
in fact. But look there! Those are the replies to my advertisement.’

He pointed to a heap of five or six hundred letters, and laughed

‘Impossible to read them all, you know. It seemed to me that the fairest
thing would be to shake them together, stick my hand in, and take out one
by chance. If it didn’t seem very promising, I would try a second time.
But the first letter was yours, and I thought the fair thing to do was at
all events to see you, you know. The fact is, I am only able to offer a
pound a week.’

‘I shall be very glad indeed to take that,’ said Reardon, who was bathed
in perspiration.

‘Then what about references, and so on?’ proceeded the young man,
chuckling and rubbing his hands together.

The applicant was engaged. He had barely strength to walk home; the sudden
relief from his miseries made him, for the first time, sensible of the
extreme physical weakness into which he had sunk. For the next week he was
very ill, but he did not allow this to interfere with his new work, which
was easily learnt and not burdensome.

He held this position for three years, and during that time important
things happened. When he had recovered from his state of semi-starvation,
and was living in comfort (a pound a week is a very large sum if you have
previously had to live on ten shillings), Reardon found that the impulse
to literary production awoke in him more strongly than ever. He generally
got home from the hospital about six o’clock, and the evening was his own.
In this leisure time he wrote a novel in two volumes; one publisher
refused it, but a second offered to bring it out on the terms of half
profits to the author. The book appeared, and was well spoken of in one or
two papers; but profits there were none to divide. In the third year of
his clerkship he wrote a novel in three volumes; for this his publishers
gave him twenty-five pounds, with again a promise of half the profits
after deduction of the sum advanced. Again there was no pecuniary success.
He had just got to work upon a third book, when his grandfather at Derby
died and left him four hundred pounds.

He could not resist the temptation to recover his freedom. Four hundred
pounds, at the rate of eighty pounds a year, meant five years of literary
endeavour. In that period he could certainly determine whether or not it
was his destiny to live by the pen.

In the meantime his relations with the secretary of the hospital, Carter
by name, had grown very friendly. When Reardon began to publish books, the
high-spirited Mr Carter looked upon him with something of awe; and when
the literary man ceased to be a clerk, there was nothing to prevent
association on equal terms between him and his former employer. They
continued to see a good deal of each other, and Carter made Reardon
acquainted with certain of his friends, among whom was one John Yule, an
easy-going, selfish, semi-intellectual young man who had a place in a
Government office. The time of solitude had gone by for Reardon. He began
to develop the power that was in him.

Those two books of his were not of a kind to win popularity. They dealt
with no particular class of society (unless one makes a distinct class of
people who have brains), and they lacked local colour. Their interest was
almost purely psychological. It was clear that the author had no faculty
for constructing a story, and that pictures of active life were not to be
expected of him; he could never appeal to the multitude. But strong
characterisation was within his scope, and an intellectual fervour,
appetising to a small section of refined readers, marked all his best

He was the kind of man who cannot struggle against adverse conditions, but
whom prosperity warms to the exercise of his powers. Anything like the
cares of responsibility would sooner or later harass him into
unproductiveness. That he should produce much was in any case out of the
question; possibly a book every two or three years might not prove too
great a strain upon his delicate mental organism, but for him to attempt
more than that would certainly be fatal to the peculiar merit of his work.
Of this he was dimly conscious, and, on receiving his legacy, he put aside
for nearly twelve months the new novel he had begun. To give his mind a
rest he wrote several essays, much maturer than those which had formerly
failed to find acceptance, and two of these appeared in magazines.

The money thus earned he spent—at a tailor’s. His friend Carter
ventured to suggest this mode of outlay.

His third book sold for fifty pounds. It was a great improvement on its
predecessors, and the reviews were generally favourable. For the story
which followed, ‘On Neutral Ground,’ he received a hundred pounds. On the
strength of that he spent six months travelling in the South of Europe.

He returned to London at mid-June, and on the second day after his arrival
befell an incident which was to control the rest of his life. Busy with
the pictures in the Grosvenor Gallery, he heard himself addressed in a
familiar voice, and on turning he was aware of Mr Carter, resplendent in
fashionable summer attire, and accompanied by a young lady of some charms.
Reardon had formerly feared encounters of this kind, too conscious of the
defects of his attire; but at present there was no reason why he should
shirk social intercourse. He was passably dressed, and the half-year of
travel had benefited his appearance in no slight degree. Carter presented
him to the young lady, of whom the novelist had already heard as affianced
to his friend.

Whilst they stood conversing, there approached two ladies, evidently
mother and daughter, whose attendant was another of Reardon’s
acquaintances, Mr John Yule. This gentleman stepped briskly forward and
welcomed the returned wanderer.

‘Let me introduce you,’ he said, ‘to my mother and sister. Your fame has
made them anxious to know you.’

Reardon found himself in a position of which the novelty was embarrassing,
but scarcely disagreeable. Here were five people grouped around him, all
of whom regarded him unaffectedly as a man of importance; for though,
strictly speaking, he had no ‘fame’ at all, these persons had kept up with
the progress of his small repute, and were all distinctly glad to number
among their acquaintances an unmistakable author, one, too, who was fresh
from Italy and Greece. Mrs Yule, a lady rather too pretentious in her tone
to be attractive to a man of Reardon’s refinement, hastened to assure him
how well his books were known in her house, ‘though for the run of
ordinary novels we don’t care much.’ Miss Yule, not at all pretentious in
speech, and seemingly reserved of disposition, was good enough to show
frank interest in the author. As for the poor author himself, well, he
merely fell in love with Miss Yule at first sight, and there was an end of
the matter.

A day or two later he made a call at their house, in the region of
Westbourne Park. It was a small house, and rather showily than handsomely
furnished; no one after visiting it would be astonished to hear that Mrs
Edmund Yule had but a small income, and that she was often put to
desperate expedients to keep up the gloss of easy circumstances. In the
gauzy and fluffy and varnishy little drawing-room Reardon found a youngish
gentleman already in conversation with the widow and her daughter. This
proved to be one Mr Jasper Milvain, also a man of letters. Mr Milvain was
glad to meet Reardon, whose books he had read with decided interest.

‘Really,’ exclaimed Mrs Yule, ‘I don’t know how it is that we have had to
wait so long for the pleasure of knowing you, Mr Reardon. If John were not
so selfish he would have allowed us a share in your acquaintance long

Ten weeks thereafter, Miss Yule became Mrs Reardon.

It was a time of frantic exultation with the poor fellow. He had always
regarded the winning of a beautiful and intellectual wife as the crown of
a successful literary career, but he had not dared to hope that such a
triumph would be his. Life had been too hard with him on the whole. He,
who hungered for sympathy, who thought of a woman’s love as the prize of
mortals supremely blessed, had spent the fresh years of his youth in
monkish solitude. Now of a sudden came friends and flattery, ay, and love
itself. He was rapt to the seventh heaven.

Indeed, it seemed that the girl loved him. She knew that he had but a
hundred pounds or so left over from that little inheritance, that his
books sold for a trifle, that he had no wealthy relatives from whom he
could expect anything; yet she hesitated not a moment when he asked her to
marry him.

‘I have loved you from the first.’

‘How is that possible?’ he urged. ‘What is there lovable in me? I am
afraid of waking up and finding myself in my old garret, cold and hungry.’

‘You will be a great man.’

‘I implore you not to count on that! In many ways I am wretchedly weak. I
have no such confidence in myself.’

‘Then I will have confidence for both.’

‘But can you love me for my own sake—love me as a man?’

‘I love you!’

And the words sang about him, filled the air with a mad pulsing of
intolerable joy, made him desire to fling himself in passionate humility
at her feet, to weep hot tears, to cry to her in insane worship. He
thought her beautiful beyond anything his heart had imagined; her warm
gold hair was the rapture of his eyes and of his reverent hand. Though
slenderly fashioned, she was so gloriously strong. ‘Not a day of illness
in her life,’ said Mrs Yule, and one could readily believe it.

She spoke with such a sweet decision. Her ‘I love you!’ was a bond with
eternity. In the simplest as in the greatest things she saw his wish and
acted frankly upon it. No pretty petulance, no affectation of silly-sweet
languishing, none of the weaknesses of woman. And so exquisitely fresh in
her twenty years of maidenhood, with bright young eyes that seemed to bid
defiance to all the years to come.

He went about like one dazzled with excessive light. He talked as he had
never talked before, recklessly, exultantly, insolently—in the
nobler sense. He made friends on every hand; he welcomed all the world to
his bosom; he felt the benevolence of a god.

‘I love you!’ It breathed like music at his ears when he fell asleep in
weariness of joy; it awakened him on the morrow as with a glorious ringing
summons to renewed life.

Delay? Why should there be delay? Amy wished nothing but to become his
wife. Idle to think of his doing any more work until he sat down in the
home of which she was mistress. His brain burned with visions of the books
he would henceforth write, but his hand was incapable of anything but a
love-letter. And what letters! Reardon never published anything equal to
those. ‘I have received your poem,’ Amy replied to one of them. And she
was right; not a letter, but a poem he had sent her, with every word on

The hours of talk! It enraptured him to find how much she had read, and
with what clearness of understanding. Latin and Greek, no. Ah! but she
should learn them both, that there might be nothing wanting in the
communion between his thought and hers. For he loved the old writers with
all his heart; they had been such strength to him in his days of misery.

They would go together to the charmed lands of the South. No, not now for
their marriage holiday—Amy said that would be an imprudent expense;
but as soon as he had got a good price for a book. Will not the publishers
be kind? If they knew what happiness lurked in embryo within their foolish

He woke of a sudden in the early hours of one morning, a week before the
wedding-day. You know that kind of awaking, so complete in an instant,
caused by the pressure of some troublesome thought upon the dreaming
brain. ‘Suppose I should not succeed henceforth? Suppose I could never get
more than this poor hundred pounds for one of the long books which cost me
so much labour? I shall perhaps have children to support; and Amy—how
would Amy bear poverty?’

He knew what poverty means. The chilling of brain and heart, the unnerving
of the hands, the slow gathering about one of fear and shame and impotent
wrath, the dread feeling of helplessness, of the world’s base
indifference. Poverty! Poverty!

And for hours he could not sleep. His eyes kept filling with tears, the
beating of his heart was low; and in his solitude he called upon Amy with
pitiful entreaty: ‘Do not forsake me! I love you! I love you!’

But that went by. Six days, five days, four days—will one’s heart
burst with happiness? The flat is taken, is furnished, up there towards
the sky, eight flights of stone steps.

‘You’re a confoundedly lucky fellow, Reardon,’ remarked Milvain, who had
already become very intimate with his new friend. ‘A good fellow, too, and
you deserve it.’

‘But at first I had a horrible suspicion.’

‘I guess what you mean. No; I wasn’t even in love with her, though I
admired her. She would never have cared for me in any case; I am not
sentimental enough.’

‘The deuce!’

‘I mean it in an inoffensive sense. She and I are rather too much alike, I

‘How do you mean?’ asked Reardon, puzzled, and not very well pleased.

‘There’s a great deal of pure intellect about Miss Yule, you know. She was
sure to choose a man of the passionate kind.’

‘I think you are talking nonsense, my dear fellow.’

‘Well, perhaps I am. To tell you the truth, I have by no means completed
my study of women yet. It is one of the things in which I hope to be a
specialist some day, though I don’t think I shall ever make use of it in
novels—rather, perhaps, in life.’

Three days—two days—one day.

Now let every joyous sound which the great globe can utter ring forth in
one burst of harmony! Is it not well done to make the village-bells chant
merrily when a marriage is over? Here in London we can have no such music;
but for us, my dear one, all the roaring life of the great city is
wedding-hymn. Sweet, pure face under its bridal-veil! The face which
shall, if fate spare it, be as dear to me many a long year hence as now at
the culminating moment of my life!

As he trudged on in the dark, his tortured memory was living through that
time again. The images forced themselves upon him, however much he tried
to think of quite other things—of some fictitious story on which he
might set to work. In the case of his earlier books he had waited quietly
until some suggestive ‘situation,’ some group of congenial characters,
came with sudden delightfulness before his mind and urged him to write;
but nothing so spontaneous could now be hoped for. His brain was too weary
with months of fruitless, harassing endeavour; moreover, he was trying to
devise a ‘plot,’ the kind of literary Jack-in-the-box which might excite
interest in the mass of readers, and this was alien to the natural working
of his imagination. He suffered the torments of nightmare—an
oppression of the brain and heart which must soon be intolerable.


When her husband had set forth, Amy seated herself in the study and took
up a new library volume as if to read. But she had no real intention of
doing so; it was always disagreeable to her to sit in the manner of one
totally unoccupied, with hands on lap, and even when she consciously gave
herself up to musing an open book was generally before her. She did not,
in truth, read much nowadays; since the birth of her child she had seemed
to care less than before for disinterested study. If a new novel that had
succeeded came into her hands she perused it in a very practical spirit,
commenting to Reardon on the features of the work which had made it
popular; formerly, she would have thought much more of its purely literary
merits, for which her eye was very keen. How often she had given her
husband a thrill of exquisite pleasure by pointing to some merit or defect
of which the common reader would be totally insensible! Now she spoke less
frequently on such subjects. Her interests were becoming more personal;
she liked to hear details of the success of popular authors—about
their wives or husbands, as the case might be, their arrangements with
publishers, their methods of work. The gossip columns of literary papers—and
of some that were not literary—had an attraction for her. She talked
of questions such as international copyright, was anxious to get an
insight into the practical conduct of journals and magazines, liked to
know who ‘read’ for the publishing-houses. To an impartial observer it
might have appeared that her intellect was growing more active and mature.

More than half an hour passed. It was not a pleasant train of thought that
now occupied her. Her lips were drawn together, her brows were slightly
wrinkled; the self-control which at other times was agreeably expressed
upon her features had become rather too cold and decided. At one moment it
seemed to her that she heard a sound in the bedroom—the doors were
purposely left ajar—and her head turned quickly to listen, the look
in her eyes instantaneously softening; but all remained quiet. The street
would have been silent but for a cab that now and then passed—the
swing of a hansom or the roll of a four-wheeler—and within the
buildings nothing whatever was audible.

Yes, a footstep, briskly mounting the stone stairs. Not like that of the
postman. A visitor, perhaps, to the other flat on the topmost landing. But
the final pause was in this direction, and then came a sharp rat-tat at
the door. Amy rose immediately and went to open.

Jasper Milvain raised his urban silk hat, then held out his hand with the
greeting of frank friendship. His inquiries were in so loud a voice that
Amy checked him with a forbidding gesture.

‘You’ll wake Willie!’

‘By Jove! I always forget,’ he exclaimed in subdued tones. ‘Does the
infant flourish?’

‘Oh, yes!’

‘Reardon out? I got back on Saturday evening, but couldn’t come round
before this.’ It was Monday. ‘How close it is in here! I suppose the roof
gets so heated during the day. Glorious weather in the country! And I’ve
no end of things to tell you. He won’t be long, I suppose?’

‘I think not.’

He left his hat and stick in the passage, came into the study, and glanced
about as if he expected to see some change since he was last here, three
weeks ago.

‘So you have been enjoying yourself?’ said Amy as, after listening for a
moment at the door, she took a seat.

‘Oh, a little freshening of the faculties. But whose acquaintance do you
think I have made?’

‘Down there?’

‘Yes. Your uncle Alfred and his daughter were staying at John Yule’s, and
I saw something of them. I was invited to the house.’

‘Did you speak of us?’

‘To Miss Yule only. I happened to meet her on a walk, and in a blundering
way I mentioned Reardon’s name. But of course it didn’t matter in the
least. She inquired about you with a good deal of interest—asked if
you were as beautiful as you promised to be years ago.’

Amy laughed.

‘Doesn’t that proceed from your fertile invention, Mr Milvain?’

‘Not a bit of it! By-the-bye, what would be your natural question
concerning her? Do you think she gave promise of good looks?’

‘I’m afraid I can’t say that she did. She had a good face, but—rather

‘I see.’ Jasper threw back his head and seemed to contemplate an object in
memory. ‘Well, I shouldn’t wonder if most people called her a trifle plain
even now; and yet—no, that’s hardly possible, after all. She has no
colour. Wears her hair short.’


‘Oh, I don’t mean the smooth, boyish hair with a parting—not the
kind of hair that would be lank if it grew long. Curly all over. Looks
uncommonly well, I assure you. She has a capital head. Odd girl; very odd
girl! Quiet, thoughtful—not very happy, I’m afraid. Seems to think
with dread of a return to books.’

‘Indeed! But I had understood that she was a reader.’

‘Reading enough for six people, probably. Perhaps her health is not very
robust. Oh, I knew her by sight quite well—had seen her at the
Reading-room. She’s the kind of girl that gets into one’s head, you know—suggestive;
much more in her than comes out until one knows her very well.’

‘Well, I should hope so,’ remarked Amy, with a peculiar smile.

‘But that’s by no means a matter of course. They didn’t invite me to come
and see them in London.’

‘I suppose Marian mentioned your acquaintance with this branch of the

‘I think not. At all events, she promised me she wouldn’t.’

Amy looked at him inquiringly, in a puzzled way.

‘She promised you?’

‘Voluntarily. We got rather sympathetic. Your uncle—Alfred, I mean—is
a remarkable man; but I think he regarded me as a youth of no particular
importance. Well, how do things go?’

Amy shook her head.

‘No progress?’

‘None whatever. He can’t work; I begin to be afraid that he is really ill.
He must go away before the fine weather is over. Do persuade him to-night!
I wish you could have had a holiday with him.’

‘Out of the question now, I’m sorry to say. I must work savagely. But
can’t you all manage a fortnight somewhere—Hastings, Eastbourne?’

‘It would be simply rash. One goes on saying, “What does a pound or two
matter?”—but it begins at length to matter a great deal.’

‘I know, confound it all! Think how it would amuse some rich grocer’s son
who pitches his half-sovereign to the waiter when he has dined himself
into good humour! But I tell you what it is: you must really try to
influence him towards practicality. Don’t you think—?’

He paused, and Amy sat looking at her hands.

‘I have made an attempt,’ she said at length, in a distant undertone.

‘You really have?’

Jasper leaned forward, his clasped hands hanging between his knees. He was
scrutinising her face, and Amy, conscious of the too fixed regard, at
length moved her head uneasily.

‘It seems very clear to me,’ she said, ‘that a long book is out of the
question for him at present. He writes so slowly, and is so fastidious. It
would be a fatal thing to hurry through something weaker even than the

‘You think “The Optimist” weak?’ Jasper asked, half absently.

‘I don’t think it worthy of Edwin; I don’t see how anyone can.

‘I have wondered what your opinion was. Yes, he ought to try a new tack, I

Just then there came the sound of a latch-key opening the outer door.
Jasper lay back in his chair and waited with a smile for his expected
friend’s appearance; Amy made no movement.

‘Oh, there you are!’ said Reardon, presenting himself with the dazzled
eyes of one who has been in darkness; he spoke in a voice of genial
welcome, though it still had the note of depression. ‘When did you get

Milvain began to recount what he had told in the first part of his
conversation with Amy. As he did so, the latter withdrew, and was absent
for five minutes; on reappearing she said:

‘You’ll have some supper with us, Mr Milvain?’

‘I think I will, please.’

Shortly after, all repaired to the eating-room, where conversation had to
be carried on in a low tone because of the proximity of the bedchamber in
which lay the sleeping child. Jasper began to tell of certain things that
had happened to him since his arrival in town.

‘It was a curious coincidence—but, by-the-bye, have you heard of
what The Study has been doing?’

‘I should rather think so,’ replied Reardon, his face lighting up. ‘With
no small satisfaction.’

‘Delicious, isn’t it?’ exclaimed his wife. ‘I thought it too good to be
true when Edwin heard of it from Mr Biffen.’

All three laughed in subdued chorus. For the moment, Reardon became a new
man in his exultation over the contradictory reviewers.

‘Oh, Biffen told you, did he? Well,’ continued Jasper, ‘it was an odd
thing, but when I reached my lodgings on Saturday evening there lay a note
from Horace Barlow, inviting me to go and see him on Sunday afternoon out
at Wimbledon, the special reason being that the editor of The Study would
be there, and Barlow thought I might like to meet him. Now this letter
gave me a fit of laughter; not only because of those precious reviews, but
because Alfred Yule had been telling me all about this same editor, who
rejoices in the name of Fadge. Your uncle, Mrs Reardon, declares that
Fadge is the most malicious man in the literary profession; though that’s
saying such a very great deal—well, never mind! Of course I was
delighted to go and meet Fadge. At Barlow’s I found the queerest
collection of people, most of them women of the inkiest description. The
great Fadge himself surprised me; I expected to see a gaunt, bilious man,
and he was the rosiest and dumpiest little dandy you can imagine; a fellow
of forty-five, I dare say, with thin yellow hair and blue eyes and a
manner of extreme innocence. Fadge flattered me with confidential chat,
and I discovered at length why Barlow had asked me to meet him; it’s Fadge
that is going to edit Culpepper’s new monthly—you’ve heard about it?—and
he had actually thought it worth while to enlist me among contributors!
Now, how’s that for a piece of news?’

The speaker looked from Reardon to Amy with a smile of vast significance.

‘I rejoice to hear it!’ said Reardon, fervently.

‘You see! you see!’ cried Jasper, forgetting all about the infant in the
next room, ‘all things come to the man who knows how to wait. But I’m
hanged if I expected a thing of this kind to come so soon! Why, I’m a man
of distinction! My doings have been noted; the admirable qualities of my
style have drawn attention; I’m looked upon as one of the coming men!
Thanks, I confess, in some measure, to old Barlow; he seems to have amused
himself with cracking me up to all and sundry. That last thing of mine in
The West End has done me a vast amount of good, it seems. And Alfred Yule
himself had noticed that paper in The Wayside. That’s how things work, you
know; reputation comes with a burst, just when you’re not looking for
anything of the kind.’

‘What’s the new magazine to be called?’ asked Amy.

‘Why, they propose The Current. Not bad, in a way; though you imagine a
fellow saying “Have you seen the current Current?” At all events, the tone
is to be up to date, and the articles are to be short; no padding, merum
sal from cover to cover. What do you think I have undertaken to do, for a
start? A paper consisting of sketches of typical readers of each of the
principal daily and weekly papers. A deuced good idea, you know—my
own, of course—but deucedly hard to carry out. I shall rise to the
occasion, see if I don’t. I’ll rival Fadge himself in maliciousness—though
I must confess I discovered no particular malice in the fellow’s way of
talking. The article shall make a sensation. I’ll spend a whole month on
it, and make it a perfect piece of satire.’

‘Now that’s the kind of thing that inspires me with awe and envy,’ said
Reardon. ‘I could no more write such a paper than an article on Fluxions.’

‘’Tis my vocation, Hal! You might think I hadn’t experience enough, to
begin with. But my intuition is so strong that I can make a little
experience go an immense way. Most people would imagine I had been wasting
my time these last few years, just sauntering about, reading nothing but
periodicals, making acquaintance with loafers of every description. The
truth is, I have been collecting ideas, and ideas that are convertible
into coin of the realm, my boy; I have the special faculty of an extempore
writer. Never in my life shall I do anything of solid literary value; I
shall always despise the people I write for. But my path will be that of
success. I have always said it, and now I’m sure of it.’

‘Does Fadge retire from The Study, then?’ inquired Reardon, when he had
received this tirade with a friendly laugh.

‘Yes, he does. Was going to, it seems, in any case. Of course I heard
nothing about the two reviews, and I was almost afraid to smile whilst
Fadge was talking with me, lest I should betray my thought. Did you know
anything about the fellow before?’

‘Not I. Didn’t know who edited The Study.’

‘Nor I either. Remarkable what a number of illustrious obscure are going
about. But I have still something else to tell you. I’m going to set my
sisters afloat in literature.’


‘Well, I don’t see why they shouldn’t try their hands at a little writing,
instead of giving lessons, which doesn’t suit them a bit. Last night, when
I got back from Wimbledon, I went to look up Davies. Perhaps you don’t
remember my mentioning him; a fellow who was at Jolly and Monk’s, the
publishers, up to a year ago. He edits a trade journal now, and I see very
little of him. However, I found him at home, and had a long practical talk
with him. I wanted to find out the state of the market as to such wares as
Jolly and Monk dispose of. He gave me some very useful hints, and the
result was that I went off this morning and saw Monk himself—no
Jolly exists at present. “Mr Monk,” I began, in my blandest tone—you
know it—“I am requested to call upon you by a lady who thinks of
preparing a little volume to be called ‘A Child’s History of the English
Parliament.’ Her idea is, that”—and so on. Well, I got on admirably
with Monk, especially when he learnt that I was to be connected with
Culpepper’s new venture; he smiled upon the project, and said he should be
very glad to see a specimen chapter; if that pleased him, we could then
discuss terms.’

‘But has one of your sisters really begun such a book?’ inquired Amy.

‘Neither of them knows anything of the matter, but they are certainly
capable of doing the kind of thing I have in mind, which will consist
largely of anecdotes of prominent statesmen. I myself shall write the
specimen chapter, and send it to the girls to show them what I propose. I
shouldn’t wonder if they make some fifty pounds out of it. The few books
that will be necessary they can either get at a Wattleborough library, or
I can send them.’

‘Your energy is remarkable, all of a sudden,’ said Reardon.

‘Yes. The hour has come, I find. “There is a tide”—to quote
something that has the charm of freshness.’

The supper—which consisted of bread and butter, cheese, sardines,
cocoa—was now over, and Jasper, still enlarging on his recent
experiences and future prospects, led the way back to the sitting-room.
Not very long after this, Amy left the two friends to their pipes; she was
anxious that her husband should discuss his affairs privately with
Milvain, and give ear to the practical advice which she knew would be
tendered him.

‘I hear that you are still stuck fast,’ began Jasper, when they had smoked
awhile in silence.


‘Getting rather serious, I should fear, isn’t it?’

‘Yes,’ repeated Reardon, in a low voice.

‘Come, come, old man, you can’t go on in this way. Would it, or wouldn’t
it, be any use if you took a seaside holiday?’

‘Not the least. I am incapable of holiday, if the opportunity were
offered. Do something I must, or I shall fret myself into imbecility.’

‘Very well. What is it to be?’

‘I shall try to manufacture two volumes. They needn’t run to more than
about two hundred and seventy pages, and those well spaced out.’

‘This is refreshing. This is practical. But look now: let it be something
rather sensational. Couldn’t we invent a good title—something to
catch eye and ear? The title would suggest the story, you know.’

Reardon laughed contemptuously, but the scorn was directed rather against
himself than Milvain.

‘Let’s try,’ he muttered.

Both appeared to exercise their minds on the problem for a few minutes.
Then Jasper slapped his knee.

‘How would this do: “The Weird Sisters”? Devilish good, eh? Suggests all
sorts of things, both to the vulgar and the educated. Nothing brutally
clap-trap about it, you know.’

‘But—what does it suggest to you?’

‘Oh, witch-like, mysterious girls or women. Think it over.’

There was another long silence. Reardon’s face was that of a man in blank

‘I have been trying,’ he said at length, after an attempt to speak which
was checked by a huskiness in his throat, ‘to explain to myself how this
state of things has come about. I almost think I can do so.’


‘That half-year abroad, and the extraordinary shock of happiness which
followed at once upon it, have disturbed the balance of my nature. It was
adjusted to circumstances of hardship, privation, struggle. A temperament
like mine can’t pass through such a violent change of conditions without
being greatly affected; I have never since been the man I was before I
left England. The stage I had then reached was the result of a slow and
elaborate building up; I could look back and see the processes by which I
had grown from the boy who was a mere bookworm to the man who had all but
succeeded as a novelist. It was a perfectly natural, sober development.
But in the last two years and a half I can distinguish no order. In living
through it, I have imagined from time to time that my powers were coming
to their ripest; but that was mere delusion. Intellectually, I have fallen
back. The probability is that this wouldn’t matter, if only I could live
on in peace of mind; I should recover my equilibrium, and perhaps once
more understand myself. But the due course of things is troubled by my

He spoke in a slow, meditative way, in a monotonous voice, and without
raising his eyes from the ground.

‘I can understand,’ put in Jasper, ‘that there may be philosophical truth
in all this. All the same, it’s a great pity that you should occupy your
mind with such thoughts.’

‘A pity—no! I must remain a reasoning creature. Disaster may end by
driving me out of my wits, but till then I won’t abandon my heritage of

‘Let us have it out, then. You think it was a mistake to spend those
months abroad?’

‘A mistake from the practical point of view. That vast broadening of my
horizon lost me the command of my literary resources. I lived in Italy and
Greece as a student, concerned especially with the old civilisations; I
read little but Greek and Latin. That brought me out of the track I had
laboriously made for myself. I often thought with disgust of the kind of
work I had been doing; my novels seemed vapid stuff, so wretchedly and
shallowly modern. If I had had the means, I should have devoted myself to
the life of a scholar. That, I quite believe, is my natural life; it’s
only the influence of recent circumstances that has made me a writer of
novels. A man who can’t journalise, yet must earn his bread by literature,
nowadays inevitably turns to fiction, as the Elizabethan men turned to the
drama. Well, but I should have got back, I think, into the old line of
work. It was my marriage that completed what the time abroad had begun.’

He looked up suddenly, and added:

‘I am speaking as if to myself. You, of course, don’t misunderstand me,
and think I am accusing my wife.’

‘No, I don’t take you to mean that, by any means.’

‘No, no; of course not. All that’s wrong is my accursed want of money. But
that threatens to be such a fearful wrong, that I begin to wish I had died
before my marriage-day. Then Amy would have been saved. The Philistines
are right: a man has no business to marry unless he has a secured income
equal to all natural demands. I behaved with the grossest selfishness. I
might have known that such happiness was never meant for me.’

‘Do you mean by all this that you seriously doubt whether you will ever be
able to write again?’

‘In awful seriousness, I doubt it,’ replied Reardon, with haggard face.

‘It strikes me as extraordinary. In your position I should work as I never
had done before.’

‘Because you are the kind of man who is roused by necessity. I am overcome
by it. My nature is feeble and luxurious. I never in my life encountered
and overcame a practical difficulty.’

‘Yes; when you got the work at the hospital.’

‘All I did was to write a letter, and chance made it effective.’

‘My view of the case, Reardon, is that you are simply ill.’

‘Certainly I am; but the ailment is desperately complicated. Tell me: do
you think I might possibly get any kind of stated work to do? Should I be
fit for any place in a newspaper office, for instance?’

‘I fear not. You are the last man to have anything to do with journalism.’

‘If I appealed to my publishers, could they help me?’

‘I don’t see how. They would simply say: Write a book and we’ll buy it.’

‘Yes, there’s no help but that.’

‘If only you were able to write short stories, Fadge might be useful.’

‘But what’s the use? I suppose I might get ten guineas, at most, for such
a story. I need a couple of hundred pounds at least. Even if I could
finish a three-volume book, I doubt if they would give me a hundred again,
after the failure of “The Optimist”; no, they wouldn’t.’

‘But to sit and look forward in this way is absolutely fatal, my dear
fellow. Get to work at your two-volume story. Call it “The Weird Sisters,”
or anything better that you can devise; but get it done, so many pages a
day. If I go ahead as I begin to think I shall, I shall soon be able to
assure you good notices in a lot of papers. Your misfortune has been that
you had no influential friends. By-the-bye, how has The Study been in the
habit of treating you?’


‘I’ll make an opportunity of talking about your books to Fadge. I think
Fadge and I shall get on pretty well together. Alfred Yule hates the man
fiercely, for some reason or other. By the way, I may as well tell you
that I broke short off with the Yules on purpose.’


‘I had begun to think far too much about the girl. Wouldn’t do, you know. I must marry someone with money, and a good deal of it. That’s a settled point with me.’

‘Then you are not at all likely to meet them in London?’

‘Not at all. And if I get allied with Fadge, no doubt Yule will involve me
in his savage feeling. You see how wisely I acted. I have a scent for the
prudent course.’

They talked for a long time, but again chiefly of Milvain’s affairs.
Reardon, indeed, cared little to say anything more about his own. Talk was
mere vanity and vexation of spirit, for the spring of his volition seemed
to be broken, and, whatever resolve he might utter, he knew that
everything depended on influences he could not even foresee.


Three weeks after her return from the country—which took place a
week later than that of Jasper Milvain—Marian Yule was working one
afternoon at her usual place in the Museum Reading-room. It was three
o’clock, and with the interval of half an hour at midday, when she went
away for a cup of tea and a sandwich, she had been closely occupied since
half-past nine. Her task at present was to collect materials for a paper
on ‘French Authoresses of the Seventeenth Century,’ the kind of thing
which her father supplied on stipulated terms for anonymous publication.
Marian was by this time almost able to complete such a piece of
manufacture herself and her father’s share in it was limited to a few
hints and corrections. The greater part of the work by which Yule earned
his moderate income was anonymous: volumes and articles which bore his
signature dealt with much the same subjects as his unsigned matter, but
the writing was laboured with a conscientiousness unusual in men of his
position. The result, unhappily, was not correspondent with the efforts.
Alfred Yule had made a recognisable name among the critical writers of the
day; seeing him in the title-lists of a periodical, most people knew what
to expect, but not a few forbore the cutting open of the pages he
occupied. He was learned, copious, occasionally mordant in style; but
grace had been denied to him. He had of late begun to perceive the fact
that those passages of Marian’s writing which were printed just as they
came from her pen had merit of a kind quite distinct from anything of
which he himself was capable, and it began to be a question with him
whether it would not be advantageous to let the girl sign these
compositions. A matter of business, to be sure—at all events in the
first instance.

For a long time Marian had scarcely looked up from the desk, but at this
moment she found it necessary to refer to the invaluable Larousse. As so
often happened, the particular volume of which she had need was not upon
the shelf she turned away, and looked about her with a gaze of weary
disappointment. At a little distance were standing two young men, engaged,
as their faces showed, in facetious colloquy; as soon as she observed
them, Marian’s eyes fell, but the next moment she looked again in that
direction. Her face had wholly changed; she wore a look of timid

The men were moving towards her, still talking and laughing. She turned to
the shelves, and affected to search for a book. The voices drew near, and
one of them was well known to her; now she could hear every word; now the
speakers were gone by. Was it possible that Mr Milvain had not recognised
her? She followed him with her eyes, and saw him take a seat not far off;
he must have passed without even being aware of her.

She went back to her place and for some minutes sat trifling with a pen.
When she made a show of resuming work, it was evident that she could no
longer apply herself as before. Every now and then she glanced at people
who were passing; there were intervals when she wholly lost herself in
reverie. She was tired, and had even a slight headache. When the hand of
the clock pointed to half-past three, she closed the volume from which she
had been copying extracts, and began to collect her papers.

A voice spoke close behind her.

‘Where’s your father, Miss Yule?’

The speaker was a man of sixty, short, stout, tonsured by the hand of
time. He had a broad, flabby face, the colour of an ancient turnip, save
where one of the cheeks was marked with a mulberry stain; his eyes,
grey-orbed in a yellow setting, glared with good-humoured inquisitiveness,
and his mouth was that of the confirmed gossip. For eyebrows he had two
little patches of reddish stubble; for moustache, what looked like a bit
of discoloured tow, and scraps of similar material hanging beneath his
creasy chin represented a beard. His garb must have seen a great deal of
Museum service; it consisted of a jacket, something between brown and
blue, hanging in capacious shapelessness, a waistcoat half open for lack
of buttons and with one of the pockets coming unsewn, a pair of
bronze-hued trousers which had all run to knee. Necktie he had none, and
his linen made distinct appeal to the laundress.

Marian shook hands with him.

‘He went away at half-past two,’ was her reply to his question.

‘How annoying! I wanted particularly to see him. I have been running about
all day, and couldn’t get here before. Something important—most
important. At all events, I can tell you. But I entreat that you won’t
breathe a word save to your father.’

Mr Quarmby—that was his name—had taken a vacant chair and
drawn it close to Marian’s. He was in a state of joyous excitement, and
talked in thick, rather pompous tones, with a pant at the end of a
sentence. To emphasise the extremely confidential nature of his remarks,
he brought his head almost in contact with the girl’s, and one of her
thin, delicate hands was covered with his red, podgy fingers.

‘I’ve had a talk with Nathaniel Walker,’ he continued; ‘a long talk—a
talk of vast importance. You know Walker? No, no; how should you? He’s a
man of business; close friend of Rackett’s—Rackett, you know, the
owner of The Study.’

Upon this he made a grave pause, and glared more excitedly than ever.

‘I have heard of Mr Rackett,’ said Marian.

‘Of course, of course. And you must also have heard that Fadge leaves The
Study at the end of this year, eh?’

‘Father told me it was probable.’

‘Rackett and he have done nothing but quarrel for months; the paper is
falling off seriously. Well, now, when I came across Nat Walker this
afternoon, the first thing he said to me was, “You know Alfred Yule pretty
well, I think?” “Pretty well,” I answered; “why?” “I’ll tell you,” he
said, “but it’s between you and me, you understand. Rackett is thinking
about him in connection with The Study.” “I’m delighted to hear it.” “To
tell you the truth,” went on Nat, “I shouldn’t wonder if Yule gets the
editorship; but you understand that it would be altogether premature to
talk about it.” Now what do you think of this, eh?’

‘It’s very good news,’ answered Marian.

‘I should think so! Ho, ho!’

Mr Quarmby laughed in a peculiar way, which was the result of long years
of mirth-subdual in the Reading-room.

‘But not a breath to anyone but your father. He’ll be here to-morrow?
Break it gently to him, you know; he’s an excitable man; can’t take things
quietly, like I do. Ho, ho!’

His suppressed laugh ended in a fit of coughing—the Reading-room
cough. When he had recovered from it, he pressed Marian’s hand with
paternal fervour, and waddled off to chatter with someone else.

Marian replaced several books on the reference-shelves, returned others to
the central desk, and was just leaving the room, when again a voice made
demand upon her attention.

‘Miss Yule! One moment, if you please!’

It was a tall, meagre, dry-featured man, dressed with the painful neatness
of self-respecting poverty: the edges of his coat-sleeves were carefully
darned; his black necktie and a skull-cap which covered his baldness were
evidently of home manufacture. He smiled softly and timidly with blue,
rheumy eyes. Two or three recent cuts on his chin and neck were the result
of conscientious shaving with an unsteady hand.

‘I have been looking for your father,’ he said, as Marian turned. ‘Isn’t
he here?’

‘He has gone, Mr Hinks.’

‘Ah, then would you do me the kindness to take a book for him? In fact,
it’s my little “Essay on the Historical Drama,” just out.’

He spoke with nervous hesitation, and in a tone which seemed to make
apology for his existence.

‘Oh, father will be very glad to have it.’

‘If you will kindly wait one minute, Miss Yule. It’s at my place over

He went off with long strides, and speedily came back panting, in his hand
a thin new volume.

‘My kind regards to him, Miss Yule. You are quite well, I hope? I won’t
detain you.’

And he backed into a man who was coming inobservantly this way.

Marian went to the ladies’ cloak-room, put on her hat and jacket, and left
the Museum. Some one passed out through the swing-door a moment before
her, and as soon as she had issued beneath the portico, she saw that it
was Jasper Milvain; she must have followed him through the hall, but her
eyes had been cast down. The young man was now alone; as he descended the
steps he looked to left and right, but not behind him. Marian followed at
a distance of two or three yards. Nearing the gateway, she quickened her
pace a little, so as to pass out into the street almost at the same moment
as Milvain. But he did not turn his head.

He took to the right. Marian had fallen back again, but she still followed
at a very little distance. His walk was slow, and she might easily have
passed him in quite a natural way; in that case he could not help seeing
her. But there was an uneasy suspicion in her mind that he really must
have noticed her in the Reading-room. This was the first time she had seen
him since their parting at Finden. Had he any reason for avoiding her? Did
he take it ill that her father had shown no desire to keep up his

She allowed the interval between them to become greater. In a minute or
two Milvain turned up Charlotte Street, and so she lost sight of him.

In Tottenham Court Road she waited for an omnibus that would take her to
the remoter part of Camden Town; obtaining a corner seat, she drew as far
back as possible, and paid no attention to her fellow-passengers. At a
point in Camden Road she at length alighted, and after ten minutes’ walk
reached her destination in a quiet by-way called St Paul’s Crescent,
consisting of small, decent houses. That at which she paused had an
exterior promising comfort within; the windows were clean and neatly
curtained, and the polishable appurtenances of the door gleamed to
perfection. She admitted herself with a latch-key, and went straight
upstairs without encountering anyone.

Descending again in a few moments, she entered the front room on the
ground-floor. This served both as parlour and dining-room; it was
comfortably furnished, without much attempt at adornment. On the walls
were a few autotypes and old engravings. A recess between fireplace and
window was fitted with shelves, which supported hundreds of volumes, the
overflow of Yule’s library. The table was laid for a meal. It best suited
the convenience of the family to dine at five o’clock; a long evening, so
necessary to most literary people, was thus assured. Marian, as always
when she had spent a day at the Museum, was faint with weariness and
hunger; she cut a small piece of bread from a loaf on the table, and sat
down in an easy chair.

Presently appeared a short, slight woman of middle age, plainly dressed in
serviceable grey. Her face could never have been very comely, and it
expressed but moderate intelligence; its lines, however, were those of
gentleness and good feeling. She had the look of one who is making a
painful effort to understand something; this was fixed upon her features,
and probably resulted from the peculiar conditions of her life.

‘Rather early, aren’t you, Marian?’ she said, as she closed the door and
came forward to take a seat.

‘Yes; I have a little headache.’

‘Oh, dear! Is that beginning again?’

Mrs Yule’s speech was seldom ungrammatical, and her intonation was not
flagrantly vulgar, but the accent of the London poor, which brands as with
hereditary baseness, still clung to her words, rendering futile such
propriety of phrase as she owed to years of association with educated
people. In the same degree did her bearing fall short of that which
distinguishes a lady. The London work-girl is rarely capable of raising
herself, or being raised, to a place in life above that to which she was
born; she cannot learn how to stand and sit and move like a woman bred to
refinement, any more than she can fashion her tongue to graceful speech.
Mrs Yule’s behaviour to Marian was marked with a singular diffidence; she
looked and spoke affectionately, but not with a mother’s freedom; one
might have taken her for a trusted servant waiting upon her mistress.
Whenever opportunity offered, she watched the girl in a curiously furtive
way, that puzzled look on her face becoming very noticeable. Her
consciousness was never able to accept as a familiar and unimportant fact
the vast difference between herself and her daughter. Marian’s superiority
in native powers, in delicacy of feeling, in the results of education,
could never be lost sight of. Under ordinary circumstances she addressed
the girl as if tentatively; however sure of anything from her own point of
view, she knew that Marian, as often as not, had quite a different
criterion. She understood that the girl frequently expressed an opinion by
mere reticence, and hence the carefulness with which, when conversing, she
tried to discover the real effect of her words in Marian’s features.

‘Hungry, too,’ she said, seeing the crust Marian was nibbling. ‘You really
must have more lunch, dear. It isn’t right to go so long; you’ll make
yourself ill.’

‘Have you been out?’ Marian asked.

‘Yes; I went to Holloway.’

Mrs Yule sighed and looked very unhappy. By ‘going to Holloway’ was always
meant a visit to her own relatives—a married sister with three
children, and a brother who inhabited the same house. To her husband she
scarcely ever ventured to speak of these persons; Yule had no intercourse
with them. But Marian was always willing to listen sympathetically, and
her mother often exhibited a touching gratitude for this condescension—as
she deemed it.

‘Are things no better?’ the girl inquired.

‘Worse, as far as I can see. John has begun his drinking again, and him
and Tom quarrel every night; there’s no peace in the ‘ouse.’

If ever Mrs Yule lapsed into gross errors of pronunciation or phrase, it
was when she spoke of her kinsfolk. The subject seemed to throw her back
into a former condition.

‘He ought to go and live by himself’ said Marian, referring to her
mother’s brother, the thirsty John.

‘So he ought, to be sure. I’m always telling them so. But there! you don’t
seem to be able to persuade them, they’re that silly and obstinate. And
Susan, she only gets angry with me, and tells me not to talk in a stuck-up
way. I’m sure I never say a word that could offend her; I’m too careful
for that. And there’s Annie; no doing anything with her! She’s about the
streets at all hours, and what’ll be the end of it no one can say. They’re
getting that ragged, all of them. It isn’t Susan’s fault; indeed it isn’t.
She does all that woman can. But Tom hasn’t brought home ten shillings the
last month, and it seems to me as if he was getting careless. I gave her
half-a-crown; it was all I could do. And the worst of it is, they think I
could do so much more if I liked. They’re always hinting that we are rich
people, and it’s no good my trying to persuade them. They think I’m
telling falsehoods, and it’s very hard to be looked at in that way; it is,
indeed, Marian.’

‘You can’t help it, mother. I suppose their suffering makes them unkind
and unjust.’

‘That’s just what it does, my dear; you never said anything truer. Poverty
will make the best people bad, if it gets hard enough. Why there’s so much
of it in the world, I’m sure I can’t see.’

‘I suppose father will be back soon?’

‘He said dinner-time.’

‘Mr Quarmby has been telling me something which is wonderfully good news
if it’s really true; but I can’t help feeling doubtful.

He says that father may perhaps be made editor of The Study at the end of
this year.’

Mrs Yule, of course, understood, in outline, these affairs of the literary
world; she thought of them only from the pecuniary point of view, but that
made no essential distinction between her and the mass of literary people.

‘My word!’ she exclaimed. ‘What a thing that would be for us!’

Marian had begun to explain her reluctance to base any hopes on Mr
Quarmby’s prediction, when the sound of a postman’s knock at the
house-door caused her mother to disappear for a moment.

‘It’s for you,’ said Mrs Yule, returning. ‘From the country.’

Marian took the letter and examined its address with interest.

‘It must be one of the Miss Milvains. Yes; Dora Milvain.’

After Jasper’s departure from Finden his sisters had seen Marian several
times, and the mutual liking between her and them had been confirmed by
opportunity of conversation. The promise of correspondence had hitherto
waited for fulfilment. It seemed natural to Marian that the younger of the
two girls should write; Maud was attractive and agreeable, and probably
clever, but Dora had more spontaneity in friendship.

‘It will amuse you to hear,’ wrote Dora, ‘that the literary project our
brother mentioned in a letter whilst you were still here is really to come
to something. He has sent us a specimen chapter, written by himself of the
“Child’s History of Parliament,” and Maud thinks she could carry it on in
that style, if there’s no hurry. She and I have both set to work on
English histories, and we shall be authorities before long. Jolly and Monk
offer thirty pounds for the little book, if it suits them when finished,
with certain possible profits in the future. Trust Jasper for making a
bargain! So perhaps our literary career will be something more than a
joke, after all. I hope it may; anything rather than a life of teaching.
We shall be so glad to hear from you, if you still care to trouble about
country girls.’

And so on. Marian read with a pleased smile, then acquainted her mother
with the contents.

‘I am very glad,’ said Mrs Yule; ‘it’s so seldom you get a letter.’


Marian seemed desirous of saying something more, and her mother had a
thoughtful look, suggestive of sympathetic curiosity.

‘Is their brother likely to call here?’ Mrs Yule asked, with misgiving.

‘No one has invited him to,’ was the girl’s quiet reply.

‘He wouldn’t come without that?’

‘It’s not likely that he even knows the address.’

‘Your father won’t be seeing him, I suppose?’

‘By chance, perhaps. I don’t know.’

It was very rare indeed for these two to touch upon any subject save those
of everyday interest. In spite of the affection between them, their
exchange of confidence did not go very far; Mrs Yule, who had never
exercised maternal authority since Marian’s earliest childhood, claimed no
maternal privileges, and Marian’s natural reserve had been strengthened by
her mother’s respectful aloofness. The English fault of domestic reticence
could scarcely go further than it did in their case; its exaggeration is,
of course, one of the characteristics of those unhappy families severed by
differences of education between the old and young.

‘I think,’ said Marian, in a forced tone, ‘that father hasn’t much liking
for Mr Milvain.’

She wished to know if her mother had heard any private remarks on this
subject, but she could not bring herself to ask directly.

‘I’m sure I don’t know,’ replied Mrs Yule, smoothing her dress. ‘He hasn’t
said anything to me, Marian.’

An awkward silence. The mother had fixed her eyes on the mantelpiece, and
was thinking hard.

‘Otherwise,’ said Marian, ‘he would have said something, I should think,
about meeting in London.’

‘But is there anything in—this gentleman that he wouldn’t like?’

‘I don’t know of anything.’

Impossible to pursue the dialogue; Marian moved uneasily, then rose, said
something about putting the letter away, and left the room.

Shortly after, Alfred Yule entered the house. It was no uncommon thing for
him to come home in a mood of silent moroseness, and this evening the
first glimpse of his face was sufficient warning. He entered the
dining-room and stood on the hearthrug reading an evening paper. His wife
made a pretence of straightening things upon the table.

‘Well?’ he exclaimed irritably. ‘It’s after five; why isn’t dinner

‘It’s just coming, Alfred.’

Even the average man of a certain age is an alarming creature when dinner
delays itself; the literary man in such a moment goes beyond all parallel.
If there be added the fact that he has just returned from a very
unsatisfactory interview with a publisher, wife and daughter may indeed
regard the situation as appalling. Marian came in, and at once observed
her mother’s frightened face.

‘Father,’ she said, hoping to make a diversion, ‘Mr Hinks has sent you his
new book, and wishes—’

‘Then take Mr Hinks’s new book back to him, and tell him that I have quite
enough to do without reading tedious trash. He needn’t expect that I’m
going to write a notice of it. The simpleton pesters me beyond endurance.
I wish to know, if you please,’ he added with savage calm, ‘when dinner
will be ready. If there’s time to write a few letters, just tell me at
once, that I mayn’t waste half an hour.’

Marian resented this unreasonable anger, but she durst not reply.

At that moment the servant appeared with a smoking joint, and Mrs Yule
followed carrying dishes of vegetables. The man of letters seated himself
and carved angrily. He began his meal by drinking half a glass of ale;
then he ate a few mouthfuls in a quick, hungry way, his head bent closely
over the plate. It happened commonly enough that dinner passed without a
word of conversation, and that seemed likely to be the case this evening.

To his wife Yule seldom addressed anything but a curt inquiry or caustic
comment; if he spoke humanly at table it was to Marian.

Ten minutes passed; then Marian resolved to try any means of clearing the

‘Mr Quarmby gave me a message for you,’ she said. ‘A friend of his,
Nathaniel Walker, has told him that Mr Rackett will very likely offer you
the editorship of The Study.’

Yule stopped in the act of mastication. He fixed his eyes intently on the
sirloin for half a minute; then, by way of the beer-jug and the
salt-cellar, turned them upon Marian’s face.

‘Walker told him that? Pooh!’

‘It was a great secret. I wasn’t to breathe a word to any one but you.’

‘Walker’s a fool and Quarmby’s an ass,’ remarked her father.

But there was a tremulousness in his bushy eyebrows; his forehead half
unwreathed itself; he continued to eat more slowly, and as if with
appreciation of the viands.

‘What did he say? Repeat it to me in his words.’

Marian did so, as nearly as possible. He listened with a scoffing
expression, but still his features relaxed.

‘I don’t credit Rackett with enough good sense for such a proposal,’ he
said deliberately. ‘And I’m not very sure that I should accept it if it
were made. That fellow Fadge has all but ruined the paper. It will amuse
me to see how long it takes him to make Culpepper’s new magazine a
distinct failure.’

A silence of five minutes ensued; then Yule said of a sudden.

‘Where is Hinks’s book?’

Marian reached it from a side table; under this roof, literature was
regarded almost as a necessary part of table garnishing.

‘I thought it would be bigger than this,’ Yule muttered, as he opened the
volume in a way peculiar to bookish men.

A page was turned down, as if to draw attention to some passage. Yule put
on his eyeglasses, and soon made a discovery which had the effect of
completing the transformation of his visage. His eyes glinted, his chin
worked in pleasurable emotion. In a moment he handed the book to Marian,
indicating the small type of a foot-note; it embodied an effusive eulogy—introduced
a propos of some literary discussion—of ‘Mr Alfred Yule’s critical
acumen, scholarly research, lucid style,’ and sundry other distinguished

‘That is kind of him,’ said Marian.

‘Good old Hinks! I suppose I must try to get him half-a-dozen readers.’

‘May I see?’ asked Mrs Yule, under her breath, bending to Marian.

Her daughter passed on the volume, and Mrs Yule read the footnote with
that look of slow apprehension which is so pathetic when it signifies the
heart’s good-will thwarted by the mind’s defect.

‘That’ll be good for you, Alfred, won’t it?’ she said, glancing at her

‘Certainly,’ he replied, with a smile of contemptuous irony. ‘If Hinks
goes on, he’ll establish my reputation.’

And he took a draught of ale, like one who is reinvigorated for the battle
of life. Marian, regarding him askance, mused on what seemed to her a
strange anomaly in his character; it had often surprised her that a man of
his temperament and powers should be so dependent upon the praise and
blame of people whom he justly deemed his inferiors.

Yule was glancing over the pages of the work.

‘A pity the man can’t write English.’ What a vocabulary! Obstruent—reliable—particularization—fabulosity—different
to—averse to—did one ever come across such a mixture of
antique pedantry and modern vulgarism! Surely he has his name from the
German hinken—eh, Marian?’

With a laugh he tossed the book away again. His mood was wholly changed.
He gave various evidences of enjoying the meal, and began to talk freely
with his daughter.

‘Finished the authoresses?’

‘Not quite.’

‘No hurry. When you have time I want you to read Ditchley’s new book, and
jot down a selection of his worst sentences. I’ll use them for an article
on contemporary style; it occurred to me this afternoon.’

He smiled grimly. Mrs Yule’s face exhibited much contentment, which became
radiant joy when her husband remarked casually that the custard was very
well made to-day. Dinner over, he rose without ceremony and went off to
his study.

The man had suffered much and toiled stupendously. It was not inexplicable
that dyspepsia, and many another ill that literary flesh is heir to,
racked him sore.

Go back to the days when he was an assistant at a bookseller’s in Holborn.
Already ambition devoured him, and the genuine love of knowledge goaded
his brain. He allowed himself but three or four hours of sleep; he wrought
doggedly at languages, ancient and modern; he tried his hand at metrical
translations; he planned tragedies. Practically he was living in a past
age; his literary ideals were formed on the study of Boswell.

The head assistant in the shop went away to pursue a business which had
come into his hands on the death of a relative; it was a small publishing
concern, housed in an alley off the Strand, and Mr Polo (a singular name,
to become well known in the course of time) had his ideas about its
possible extension. Among other instances of activity he started a penny
weekly paper, called All Sorts, and in the pages of this periodical Alfred
Yule first appeared as an author. Before long he became sub-editor of All
Sorts, then actual director of the paper. He said good-bye to the
bookseller, and his literary career fairly began.

Mr Polo used to say that he never knew a man who could work so many
consecutive hours as Alfred Yule. A faithful account of all that the young
man learnt and wrote from 1855 to 1860—that is, from his
twenty-fifth to his thirtieth year—would have the look of burlesque
exaggeration. He had set it before him to become a celebrated man, and he
was not unaware that the attainment of that end would cost him quite
exceptional labour, seeing that nature had not favoured him with brilliant
parts. No matter; his name should be spoken among men unless he killed
himself in the struggle for success.

In the meantime he married. Living in a garret, and supplying himself with
the materials of his scanty meals, he was in the habit of making purchases
at a little chandler’s shop, where he was waited upon by a young girl of
no beauty, but, as it seemed to him, of amiable disposition. One holiday
he met this girl as she was walking with a younger sister in the streets;
he made her nearer acquaintance, and before long she consented to be his
wife and share his garret. His brothers, John and Edmund, cried out that
he had made an unpardonable fool of himself in marrying so much beneath
him; that he might well have waited until his income improved. This was
all very well, but they might just as reasonably have bidden him reject
plain food because a few years hence he would be able to purchase
luxuries; he could not do without nourishment of some sort, and the time
had come when he could not do without a wife. Many a man with brains but
no money has been compelled to the same step. Educated girls have a
pronounced distaste for London garrets; not one in fifty thousand would
share poverty with the brightest genius ever born. Seeing that marriage is
so often indispensable to that very success which would enable a man of
parts to mate equally, there is nothing for it but to look below one’s own
level, and be grateful to the untaught woman who has pity on one’s

Unfortunately, Alfred Yule was not so grateful as he might have been. His
marriage proved far from unsuccessful; he might have found himself united
to a vulgar shrew, whereas the girl had the great virtues of humility and
kindliness. She endeavoured to learn of him, but her dulness and his
impatience made this attempt a failure; her human qualities had to
suffice. And they did, until Yule began to lift his head above the
literary mob. Previously, he often lost his temper with her, but never
expressed or felt repentance of his marriage; now he began to see only the
disadvantages of his position, and, forgetting the facts of the case, to
imagine that he might well have waited for a wife who could share his
intellectual existence. Mrs Yule had to pass through a few years of much
bitterness. Already a martyr to dyspepsia, and often suffering from
bilious headaches of extreme violence, her husband now and then lost all
control of his temper, all sense of kind feeling, even of decency, and
reproached the poor woman with her ignorance, her stupidity, her low
origin. Naturally enough she defended herself with such weapons as a sense
of cruel injustice supplied. More than once the two all but parted. It did
not come to an actual rupture, chiefly because Yule could not do without
his wife; her tendance had become indispensable. And then there was the
child to consider.

From the first it was Yule’s dread lest Marian should be infected with her
mother’s faults of speech and behaviour. He would scarcely permit his wife
to talk to the child. At the earliest possible moment Marian was sent to a
day-school, and in her tenth year she went as weekly boarder to an
establishment at Fulham; any sacrifice of money to insure her growing up
with the tongue and manners of a lady. It can scarcely have been a light
trial to the mother to know that contact with her was regarded as her
child’s greatest danger; but in her humility and her love for Marian she
offered no resistance. And so it came to pass that one day the little
girl, hearing her mother make some flagrant grammatical error, turned to
the other parent and asked gravely: ‘Why doesn’t mother speak as properly
as we do?’ Well, that is one of the results of such marriages, one of the
myriad miseries that result from poverty.

The end was gained at all hazards. Marian grew up everything that her
father desired. Not only had she the bearing of refinement, but it early
became obvious that nature had well endowed her with brains. From the
nursery her talk was of books, and at the age of twelve she was already
able to give her father some assistance as an amanuensis.

At that time Edmund Yule was still living; he had overcome his prejudices,
and there was intercourse between his household and that of the literary
man. Intimacy it could not be called, for Mrs Edmund (who was the daughter
of a law-stationer) had much difficulty in behaving to Mrs Alfred with
show of suavity. Still, the cousins Amy and Marian from time to time saw
each other, and were not unsuitable companions. It was the death of Amy’s
father that brought these relations to an end; left to the control of her
own affairs Mrs Edmund was not long in giving offence to Mrs Alfred, and
so to Alfred himself. The man of letters might be inconsiderate enough in
his behaviour to his wife, but as soon as anyone else treated her with
disrespect that was quite another matter. Purely on this account he
quarrelled violently with his brother’s widow, and from that day the two
families kept apart.

The chapter of quarrels was one of no small importance in Alfred’s life;
his difficult temper, and an ever-increasing sense of neglected merit,
frequently put him at war with publishers, editors, fellow-authors, and he
had an unhappy trick of exciting the hostility of men who were most likely
to be useful to him. With Mr Polo, for instance, who held him in esteem,
and whose commercial success made him a valuable connection, Alfred
ultimately broke on a trifling matter of personal dignity. Later came the
great quarrel with Clement Fadge, an affair of considerable advantage in
the way of advertisement to both the men concerned. It happened in the
year 1873. At that time Yule was editor of a weekly paper called The
Balance, a literary organ which aimed high, and failed to hit the
circulation essential to its existence. Fadge, a younger man, did
reviewing for The Balance; he was in needy circumstances, and had wrought
himself into Yule’s good opinion by judicious flattery. But with a clear
eye for the main chance Mr Fadge soon perceived that Yule could only be of
temporary use to him, and that the editor of a well-established weekly
which lost no opportunity of throwing scorn upon Yule and all his works
would be a much more profitable conquest. He succeeded in transferring his
services to the more flourishing paper, and struck out a special line of
work by the free exercise of a malicious flippancy which was then without
rival in the periodical press. When he had thoroughly got his hand in, it
fell to Mr Fadge, in the mere way of business, to review a volume of his
old editor’s, a rather pretentious and longwinded but far from worthless
essay ‘On Imagination as a National Characteristic.’ The notice was a
masterpiece; its exquisite virulence set the literary circles chuckling.
Concerning the authorship there was no mystery, and Alfred Yule had the
indiscretion to make a violent reply, a savage assault upon Fadge, in the
columns of The Balance. Fadge desired nothing better; the uproar which
arose—chaff, fury, grave comments, sneering spite—could only
result in drawing universal attention to his anonymous cleverness, and
throwing ridicule upon the heavy, conscientious man. Well, you probably
remember all about it. It ended in the disappearance of Yule’s struggling
paper, and the establishment on a firm basis of Fadge’s reputation.

It would be difficult to mention any department of literary endeavour in
which Yule did not, at one time or another, try his fortune. Turn to his
name in the Museum Catalogue; the list of works appended to it will amuse
you. In his thirtieth year he published a novel; it failed completely, and
the same result awaited a similar experiment five years later. He wrote a
drama of modern life, and for some years strove to get it acted, but in
vain; finally it appeared ‘for the closet’—giving Clement Fadge such
an opportunity as he seldom enjoyed. The one noteworthy thing about these
productions, and about others of equally mistaken direction, was the
sincerity of their workmanship. Had Yule been content to manufacture a
novel or a play with due disregard for literary honour, he might perchance
have made a mercantile success; but the poor fellow had not pliancy enough
for this. He took his efforts au grand serieux; thought he was producing
works of art; pursued his ambition in a spirit of fierce
conscientiousness. In spite of all, he remained only a journeyman. The
kind of work he did best was poorly paid, and could bring no fame. At the
age of fifty he was still living in a poor house in an obscure quarter. He
earned enough for his actual needs, and was under no pressing fear for the
morrow, so long as his faculties remained unimpaired; but there was no
disguising from himself that his life had been a failure. And the thought
tormented him.

Now there had come unexpectedly a gleam of hope. If indeed, the man
Rackett thought of offering him the editorship of The Study he might even
yet taste the triumphs for which he had so vehemently longed. The Study
was a weekly paper of fair repute. Fadge had harmed it, no doubt of that,
by giving it a tone which did not suit the majority of its readers—serious
people, who thought that the criticism of contemporary writing offered an
opportunity for something better than a display of malevolent wit. But a
return to the old earnestness would doubtless set all right again. And the
joy of sitting in that dictatorial chair! The delight of having his own
organ once more, of making himself a power in the world of letters, of
emphasising to a large audience his developed methods of criticism!

An embittered man is a man beset by evil temptations. The Study contained
each week certain columns of flying gossip, and when he thought of this,
Yule also thought of Clement Fadge, and sundry other of his worst enemies.
How the gossip column can be used for hostile purposes, yet without the
least overt offence, he had learnt only too well. Sometimes the mere
omission of a man’s name from a list of authors can mortify and injure. In
our day the manipulation of such paragraphs has become a fine art; but you
recall numerous illustrations. Alfred knew well enough how incessantly the
tempter would be at his ear; he said to himself that in certain instances
yielding would be no dishonour. He himself had many a time been
mercilessly treated; in the very interest of the public it was good that
certain men should suffer a snubbing, and his fingers itched to have hold
of the editorial pen. Ha, ha! Like the war-horse he snuffed the battle
afar off.

No work this evening, though there were tasks which pressed for
completion. His study—the only room on the ground level except the
dining-room—was small, and even a good deal of the floor was
encumbered with books, but he found space for walking nervously hither and
thither. He was doing this when, about half-past nine, his wife appeared
at the door, bringing him a cup of coffee and some biscuits, his wonted
supper. Marian generally waited upon him at this time, and he asked why
she had not come.

‘She has one of her headaches again, I’m sorry to say,’ Mrs Yule replied.
‘I persuaded her to go to bed early.’

Having placed the tray upon the table—books had to be pushed aside—she
did not seem disposed to withdraw.

‘Are you busy, Alfred?’


‘I thought I should like just to speak of something.’

She was using the opportunity of his good humour. Yule spoke to her with
the usual carelessness, but not forbiddingly.

‘What is it? Those Holloway people, I’ll warrant.’

‘No, no! It’s about Marian. She had a letter from one of those young
ladies this afternoon.’

‘What young ladies?’ asked Yule, with impatience of this circuitous

‘The Miss Milvains.’

‘Well, there’s no harm that I know of. They’re decent people.’

‘Yes; so you told me. But she began to speak about their brother, and—’

‘What about him? Do say what you want to say, and have done with it!’

‘I can’t help thinking, Alfred, that she’s disappointed you didn’t ask him
to come here.’

Yule stared at her in slight surprise. He was still not angry, and seemed
quite willing to consider this matter suggested to him so timorously.

‘Oh, you think so? Well, I don’t know. Why should I have asked him? It was
only because Miss Harrow seemed to wish it that I saw him down there. I
have no particular interest in him. And as for—’

He broke off and seated himself. Mrs Yule stood at a distance.

‘We must remember her age,’ she said.

‘Why yes, of course.’

He mused, and began to nibble a biscuit.

‘And you know, Alfred, she never does meet any young men. I’ve often
thought it wasn’t right to her.’

‘H’m! But this lad Milvain is a very doubtful sort of customer. To begin
with, he has nothing, and they tell me his mother for the most part
supports him. I don’t quite approve of that. She isn’t well off, and he
ought to have been making a living by now.

He has a kind of cleverness, may do something; but there’s no being sure
of that.’

These thoughts were not coming into his mind for the first time. On the
occasion when he met Milvain and Marian together in the country road he
had necessarily reflected upon the possibilities of such intercourse, and
with the issue that he did not care to give any particular encouragement
to its continuance. He of course heard of Milvain’s leave-taking call, and
he purposely refrained from seeing the young man after that. The matter
took no very clear shape in his meditations; he saw no likelihood that
either of the young people would think much of the other after their
parting, and time enough to trouble one’s head with such subjects when
they could no longer be postponed. It would not have been pleasant to him
to foresee a life of spinsterhood for his daughter; but she was young, and—she
was a valuable assistant.

How far did that latter consideration weigh with him? He put the question
pretty distinctly to himself now that his wife had broached the matter
thus unexpectedly. Was he prepared to behave with deliberate selfishness?
Never yet had any conflict been manifested between his interests and
Marian’s; practically he was in the habit of counting upon her aid for an
indefinite period.

If indeed he became editor of The Study, why, in that case her assistance
would be less needful. And indeed it seemed probable that young Milvain
had a future before him.

‘But, in any case,’ he said aloud, partly continuing his thoughts, partly
replying to a look of disappointment on his wife’s face, ‘how do you know
that he has any wish to come and see Marian?’

‘I don’t know anything about it, of course.’

‘And you may have made a mistake about her. What made you think she—had
him in mind?’

‘Well, it was her way of speaking, you know. And then, she asked if you
had got a dislike to him.’

‘She did? H’m! Well, I don’t think Milvain is any good to Marian. He’s
just the kind of man to make himself agreeable to a girl for the fun of
the thing.’

Mrs Yule looked alarmed.

‘Oh, if you really think that, don’t let him come. I wouldn’t for

‘I don’t say it for certain.’ He took a sip of his coffee. ‘I have had no
opportunity of observing him with much attention. But he’s not the kind of
man I care for.’

‘Then no doubt it’s better as it is.’

‘Yes. I don’t see that anything could be done now. We shall see whether he
gets on. I advise you not to mention him to her.’

‘Oh no, I won’t.’

She moved as if to go away, but her heart had been made uneasy by that
short conversation which followed on Marian’s reading the letter, and
there were still things she wished to put into words.

‘If those young ladies go on writing to her, I dare say they’ll often
speak about their brother.’

‘Yes, it’s rather unfortunate.’

‘And you know, Alfred, he may have asked them to do it.’

‘I suppose there’s one subject on which all women can be subtle,’ muttered
Yule, smiling. The remark was not a kind one, but he did not make it worse
by his tone.

The listener failed to understand him, and looked with her familiar
expression of mental effort.

‘We can’t help that,’ he added, with reference to her suggestion. ‘If he
has any serious thoughts, well, let him go on and wait for opportunities.’

‘It’s a great pity, isn’t it, that she can’t see more people—of the
right kind?’

‘No use talking about it. Things are as they are. I can’t see that her
life is unhappy.’

‘It isn’t very happy.’

‘You think not?’

‘I’m sure it isn’t.’

‘If I get The Study things may be different. Though—But it’s no use
talking about what can’t be helped. Now don’t you go encouraging her to
think herself lonely, and so on. It’s best for her to keep close to work,
I’m sure of that.’

‘Perhaps it is.’

‘I’ll think it over.’

Mrs Yule silently left the room, and went back to her sewing.

She had understood that ‘Though—’ and the ‘what can’t be helped.’
Such allusions reminded her of a time unhappier than the present, when she
had been wont to hear plainer language. She knew too well that, had she
been a woman of education, her daughter would not now be suffering from

It was her own choice that she did not go with her husband and Marian to
John Yule’s. She made an excuse that the house could not be left to one
servant; but in any case she would have remained at home, for her presence
must needs be an embarrassment both to father and daughter. Alfred was
always ashamed of her before strangers; he could not conceal his feeling,
either from her or from other people who had reason for observing him.
Marian was not perhaps ashamed, but such companionship put restraint upon
her freedom. And would it not always be the same? Supposing Mr Milvain
were to come to this house, would it not repel him when he found what sort
of person Marian’s mother was?

She shed a few tears over her needlework.

At midnight the study door opened. Yule came to the dining-room to see
that all was right, and it surprised him to find his wife still sitting

‘Why are you so late?’

‘I’ve forgot the time.’

‘Forgotten, forgotten. Don’t go back to that kind of language again. Come,
put the light out.’



Of the acquaintances Yule had retained from his earlier years several were
in the well-defined category of men with unpresentable wives. There was
Hinks, for instance, whom, though in anger he spoke of him as a bore,
Alfred held in some genuine regard. Hinks made perhaps a hundred a year
out of a kind of writing which only certain publishers can get rid of and
of this income he spent about a third on books. His wife was the daughter
of a laundress, in whose house he had lodged thirty years ago, when new to
London but already long-acquainted with hunger; they lived in complete
harmony, but Mrs Hinks, who was four years the elder, still spoke the
laundress tongue, unmitigated and immitigable. Another pair were Mr and
Mrs Gorbutt. In this case there were no narrow circumstances to contend
with, for the wife, originally a nursemaid, not long after her marriage
inherited house property from a relative. Mr Gorbutt deemed himself a
poet; since his accession to an income he had published, at his own
expense, a yearly volume of verses; the only result being to keep alive
rancour in his wife, who was both parsimonious and vain. Making no secret
of it, Mrs Gorbutt rued the day on which she had wedded a man of letters,
when by waiting so short a time she would have been enabled to aim at a
prosperous tradesman, who kept his gig and had everything handsome about
him. Mrs Yule suspected, not without reason, that this lady had an
inclination to strong liquors. Thirdly came Mr and Mrs Christopherson, who
were poor as church mice. Even in a friend’s house they wrangled
incessantly, and made tragi-comical revelations of their home life. The
husband worked casually at irresponsible journalism, but his chosen study
was metaphysics; for many years he had had a huge and profound book on
hand, which he believed would bring him fame, though he was not so
unsettled in mind as to hope for anything else. When an article or two had
earned enough money for immediate necessities he went off to the British
Museum, and then the difficulty was to recall him to profitable exertions.
Yet husband and wife had an affection for each other. Mrs Christopherson
came from Camberwell, where her father, once upon a time, was the smallest
of small butchers. Disagreeable stories were whispered concerning her
earlier life, and probably the metaphysician did not care to look back in
that direction. They had had three children; all were happily buried.

These men were capable of better things than they had done or would ever
do; in each case their failure to fulfil youthful promise was largely
explained by the unpresentable wife. They should have waited; they might
have married a social equal at something between fifty and sixty.

Another old friend was Mr Quarmby. Unwedded he, and perpetually exultant
over men who, as he phrased it, had noosed themselves. He made a fair
living, but, like Dr Johnson, had no passion for clean linen.

Yule was not disdainful of these old companions, and the fact that all had
a habit of looking up to him increased his pleasure in their occasional
society. If, as happened once or twice in half a year, several of them
were gathered together at his house, he tasted a sham kind of social and
intellectual authority which he could not help relishing. On such
occasions he threw off his habitual gloom and talked vigorously, making
natural display of his learning and critical ability. The topic, sooner or
later, was that which is inevitable in such a circle—the demerits,
the pretentiousness, the personal weaknesses of prominent contemporaries
in the world of letters. Then did the room ring with scornful laughter,
with boisterous satire, with shouted irony, with fierce invective. After
an evening of that kind Yule was unwell and miserable for several days.

It was not to be expected that Mr Quarmby, inveterate chatterbox of the
Reading-room and other resorts, should keep silence concerning what he had
heard of Mr Rackett’s intentions. The rumour soon spread that Alfred Yule
was to succeed Fadge in the direction of The Study, with the necessary
consequence that Yule found himself an object of affectionate interest to
a great many people of whom he knew little or nothing. At the same time
the genuine old friends pressed warmly about him, with congratulations,
with hints of their sincere readiness to assist in filling the columns of
the paper. All this was not disagreeable, but in the meantime Yule had
heard nothing whatever from Mr Rackett himself and his doubts did not
diminish as week after week went by.

The event justified him. At the end of October appeared an authoritative
announcement that Fadge’s successor would be—not Alfred Yule, but a
gentleman who till of late had been quietly working as a sub-editor in the
provinces, and who had neither friendships nor enmities among the people
of the London literary press. A young man, comparatively fresh from the
university, and said to be strong in pure scholarship. The choice, as you
are aware, proved a good one, and The Study became an organ of more repute
than ever.

Yule had been secretly conscious that it was not to men such as he that
positions of this kind are nowadays entrusted. He tried to persuade
himself that he was not disappointed. But when Mr Quarmby approached him
with blank face, he spoke certain wrathful words which long rankled in
that worthy’s mind. At home he kept sullen silence.

No, not to such men as he—poor, and without social recommendations.
Besides, he was growing too old. In literature, as in most other pursuits,
the press of energetic young men was making it very hard for a veteran
even to hold the little grazing-plot he had won by hard fighting. Still,
Quarmby’s story had not been without foundation; it was true that the
proprietor of The Study had for a moment thought of Alfred Yule, doubtless
as the natural contrast to Clement Fadge, whom he would have liked to
mortify if the thing were possible. But counsellors had proved to Mr
Rackett the disadvantages of such a choice.

Mrs Yule and her daughter foresaw but too well the results of this
disappointment, notwithstanding that Alfred announced it to them with dry
indifference. The month that followed was a time of misery for all in the
house. Day after day Yule sat at his meals in sullen muteness; to his wife
he scarcely spoke at all, and his conversation with Marian did not go
beyond necessary questions and remarks on topics of business. His face
became so strange a colour that one would have thought him suffering from
an attack of jaundice; bilious headaches exasperated his savage mood. Mrs
Yule knew from long experience how worse than useless it was for her to
attempt consolation; in silence was her only safety. Nor did Marian
venture to speak directly of what had happened. But one evening, when she
had been engaged in the study and was now saying ‘Good-night,’ she laid
her cheek against her father’s, an unwonted caress which had a strange
effect upon him. The expression of sympathy caused his thoughts to reveal
themselves as they never yet had done before his daughter.

‘It might have been very different with me,’ he exclaimed abruptly, as if
they had already been conversing on the subject. ‘When you think of my
failures—and you must often do so now you are grown up and
understand things—don’t forget the obstacles that have been in my
way. I don’t like you to look upon your father as a thickhead who couldn’t
be expected to succeed. Look at Fadge. He married a woman of good social
position; she brought him friends and influence. But for that he would
never have been editor of The Study, a place for which he wasn’t in the
least fit. But he was able to give dinners; he and his wife went into
society; everybody knew him and talked of him. How has it been with me? I
live here like an animal in its hole, and go blinking about if by chance I
find myself among the people with whom I ought naturally to associate. If
I had been able to come in direct contact with Rackett and other men of
that kind, to dine with them, and have them to dine with me, to belong to
a club, and so on, I shouldn’t be what I am at my age. My one opportunity—when
I edited The Balance—wasn’t worth much; there was no money behind
the paper; we couldn’t hold out long enough. But even then, if I could
have assumed my proper social standing, if I could have opened my house
freely to the right kind of people—How was it possible?’

Marian could not raise her head. She recognised the portion of truth in
what he said, but it shocked her that he should allow himself to speak
thus. Her silence seemed to remind him how painful it must be to her to
hear these accusations of her mother, and with a sudden ‘Good-night’ he
dismissed her.

She went up to her room, and wept over the wretchedness of all their
lives. Her loneliness had seemed harder to bear than ever since that last
holiday. For a moment, in the lanes about Finden, there had come to her a
vision of joy such as fate owed her youth; but it had faded, and she could
no longer hope for its return. She was not a woman, but a mere machine for
reading and writing. Did her father never think of this? He was not the
only one to suffer from the circumstances in which poverty had involved

She had no friends to whom she could utter her thoughts. Dora Milvain had
written a second time, and more recently had come a letter from Maud; but
in replying to them she could not give a true account of herself.
Impossible, to them. From what she wrote they would imagine her
contentedly busy, absorbed in the affairs of literature. To no one could
she make known the aching sadness of her heart, the dreariness of life as
it lay before her.

That beginning of half-confidence between her and her mother had led to
nothing. Mrs Yule found no second opportunity of speaking to her husband
about Jasper Milvain, and purposely she refrained from any further hint or
question to Marian. Everything must go on as hitherto.

The days darkened. Through November rains and fogs Marian went her usual
way to the Museum, and toiled there among the other toilers. Perhaps once
a week she allowed herself to stray about the alleys of the Reading-room,
scanning furtively those who sat at the desks, but the face she might
perchance have discovered was not there.

One day at the end of the month she sat with books open before her, but by
no effort could fix her attention upon them. It was gloomy, and one could
scarcely see to read; a taste of fog grew perceptible in the warm,
headachy air. Such profound discouragement possessed her that she could
not even maintain the pretence of study; heedless whether anyone observed
her, she let her hands fall and her head droop. She kept asking herself
what was the use and purpose of such a life as she was condemned to lead.
When already there was more good literature in the world than any mortal
could cope with in his lifetime, here was she exhausting herself in the
manufacture of printed stuff which no one even pretended to be more than a
commodity for the day’s market. What unspeakable folly! To write—was
not that the joy and the privilege of one who had an urgent message for
the world?

Her father, she knew well, had no such message; he had abandoned all
thought of original production, and only wrote about writing.

She herself would throw away her pen with joy but for the need of earning
money. And all these people about her, what aim had they save to make new
books out of those already existing, that yet newer books might in turn be
made out of theirs? This huge library, growing into unwieldiness,
threatening to become a trackless desert of print—how intolerably it
weighed upon the spirit!

Oh, to go forth and labour with one’s hands, to do any poorest, commonest
work of which the world had truly need! It was ignoble to sit here and
support the paltry pretence of intellectual dignity. A few days ago her
startled eye had caught an advertisement in the newspaper, headed
‘Literary Machine’; had it then been invented at last, some automaton to
supply the place of such poor creatures as herself to turn out books and
articles? Alas! the machine was only one for holding volumes conveniently,
that the work of literary manufacture might be physically lightened. But
surely before long some Edison would make the true automaton; the problem
must be comparatively such a simple one. Only to throw in a given number
of old books, and have them reduced, blended, modernised into a single one
for to-day’s consumption.

The fog grew thicker; she looked up at the windows beneath the dome and
saw that they were a dusky yellow. Then her eye discerned an official
walking along the upper gallery, and in pursuance of her grotesque humour,
her mocking misery, she likened him to a black, lost soul, doomed to
wander in an eternity of vain research along endless shelves. Or again,
the readers who sat here at these radiating lines of desks, what were they
but hapless flies caught in a huge web, its nucleus the great circle of
the Catalogue? Darker, darker. From the towering wall of volumes seemed to
emanate visible motes, intensifying the obscurity; in a moment the
book-lined circumference of the room would be but a featureless

But then flashed forth the sputtering whiteness of the electric light, and
its ceaseless hum was henceforth a new source of headache. It reminded her
how little work she had done to-day; she must, she must force herself to
think of the task in hand. A machine has no business to refuse its duty.
But the pages were blue and green and yellow before her eyes; the
uncertainty of the light was intolerable. Right or wrong she would go
home, and hide herself, and let her heart unburden itself of tears.

On her way to return books she encountered Jasper Milvain. Face to face;
no possibility of his avoiding her.

And indeed he seemed to have no such wish. His countenance lighted up with
unmistakable pleasure.

‘At last we meet, as they say in the melodramas. Oh, do let me help you
with those volumes, which won’t even let you shake hands. How do you do?
How do you like this weather? And how do you like this light?’

‘It’s very bad.’

‘That’ll do both for weather and light, but not for yourself. How glad I
am to see you! Are you just going?’


‘I have scarcely been here half-a-dozen times since I came back to

‘But you are writing still?’

‘Oh yes! But I draw upon my genius, and my stores of observation, and the
living world.’

Marian received her vouchers for the volumes, and turned to face Jasper
again. There was a smile on her lips.

‘The fog is terrible,’ Milvain went on. ‘How do you get home?’

‘By omnibus from Tottenham Court Road.’

‘Then do let me go a part of the way with you. I live in Mornington Road—up
yonder, you know. I have only just come in to waste half an hour, and
after all I think I should be better at home. Your father is all right, I

‘He is not quite well.’

‘I’m sorry to hear that. You are not exactly up to the mark, either. What
weather! What a place to live in, this London, in winter! It would be a
little better down at Finden.’

‘A good deal better, I should think. If the weather were bad, it would be
bad in a natural way; but this is artificial misery.’

‘I don’t let it affect me much,’ said Milvain. ‘Just of late I have been
in remarkably good spirits. I’m doing a lot of work. No end of work—more
than I’ve ever done.’

‘I am very glad.’

‘Where are your out-of-door things? I think there’s a ladies’ vestry
somewhere, isn’t there?’

‘Oh yes.’

‘Then will you go and get ready? I’ll wait for you in the hall. But,
by-the-bye, I am taking it for granted that you were going alone.’

‘I was, quite alone.’

The ‘quite’ seemed excessive; it made Jasper smile.

‘And also,’ he added, ‘that I shall not annoy you by offering my company?’

‘Why should it annoy me?’


Milvain had only to wait a minute or two. He surveyed Marian from head to
foot when she appeared—an impertinence as unintentional as that
occasionally noticeable in his speech—and smiled approval. They went
out into the fog, which was not one of London’s densest, but made walking
disagreeable enough.

‘You have heard from the girls, I think?’ Jasper resumed.

‘Your sisters? Yes; they have been so kind as to write to me.’

‘Told you all about their great work? I hope it’ll be finished by the end
of the year. The bits they have sent me will do very well indeed. I knew
they had it in them to put sentences together. Now I want them to think of
patching up something or other for The English Girl; you know the paper?’

‘I have heard of it.’

‘I happen to know Mrs Boston Wright, who edits it. Met her at a house the
other day, and told her frankly that she would have to give my sisters
something to do. It’s the only way to get on; one has to take it for
granted that people are willing to help you. I have made a host of new
acquaintances just lately.’

‘I’m glad to hear it,’ said Marian.

‘Do you know—but how should you? I am going to write for the new
magazine, The Current.’


‘Edited by that man Fadge.’


‘Your father has no affection for him, I know.’

‘He has no reason to have, Mr Milvain.’

‘No, no. Fadge is an offensive fellow, when he likes; and I fancy he very
often does like. Well, I must make what use of him I can.

You won’t think worse of me because I write for him?’

‘I know that one can’t exercise choice in such things.’

‘True. I shouldn’t like to think that you regard me as a Fadge-like
individual, a natural Fadgeite.’

Marian laughed.

‘There’s no danger of my thinking that.’

But the fog was making their eyes water and getting into their throats. By
when they reached Tottenham Court Road they were both thoroughly
uncomfortable. The ‘bus had to be waited for, and in the meantime they
talked scrappily, coughily. In the vehicle things were a little better,
but here one could not converse with freedom.

‘What pestilent conditions of life!’ exclaimed Jasper, putting his face
rather near to Marian’s. ‘I wish to goodness we were back in those quiet
fields—you remember?—with the September sun warm about us.
Shall you go to Finden again before long?’

‘I really don’t know.’

‘I’m sorry to say my mother is far from well. In any case I must go at
Christmas, but I’m afraid it won’t be a cheerful visit.’

Arrived in Hampstead Road he offered his hand for good-bye.

‘I wanted to talk about all sorts of things. But perhaps I shall find you
again some day.’

He jumped out, and waved his hat in the lurid fog.

Shortly before the end of December appeared the first number of The
Current. Yule had once or twice referred to the forthcoming magazine with
acrid contempt, and of course he did not purchase a copy.

‘So young Milvain has joined Fadge’s hopeful standard,’ he remarked, a day
or two later, at breakfast. ‘They say his paper is remarkably clever; I
could wish it had appeared anywhere else.

Evil communications, &c.’

‘But I shouldn’t think there’s any personal connection,’ said Marian.

‘Very likely not. But Milvain has been invited to contribute, you see.

‘Do you think he ought to have refused?’

‘Oh no. It’s nothing to me; nothing whatever.’

Mrs Yule glanced at her daughter, but Marian seemed unconcerned. The
subject was dismissed. In introducing it Yule had had his purpose; there
had always been an unnatural avoidance of Milvain’s name in conversation,
and he wished to have an end of this. Hitherto he had felt a troublesome
uncertainty regarding his position in the matter. From what his wife had
told him it seemed pretty certain that Marian was disappointed by the
abrupt closing of her brief acquaintance with the young man, and Yule’s
affection for his daughter caused him to feel uneasy in the thought that
perhaps he had deprived her of a chance of happiness. His conscience
readily took hold of an excuse for justifying the course he had followed.
Milvain had gone over to the enemy. Whether or not the young man
understood how relentless the hostility was between Yule and Fadge
mattered little; the probability was that he knew all about it. In any
case intimate relations with him could not have survived this alliance
with Fadge, so that, after all, there had been wisdom in letting the
acquaintance lapse. To be sure, nothing could have come of it. Milvain was
the kind of man who weighed opportunities; every step he took would be
regulated by considerations of advantage; at all events that was the
impression his character had made upon Yule. Any hopes that Marian might
have been induced to form would assuredly have ended in disappointment. It
was kindness to interpose before things had gone so far.

Henceforth, if Milvain’s name was unavoidable, it should be mentioned just
like that of any other literary man. It seemed very unlikely indeed that
Marian would continue to think of him with any special and personal
interest. The fact of her having got into correspondence with his sisters
was unfortunate, but this kind of thing rarely went on for very long.

Yule spoke of the matter with his wife that evening.

‘By-the-bye, has Marian heard from those girls at Finden lately?’

‘She had a letter one afternoon last week.’

‘Do you see these letters?’

‘No; she told me what was in them at first, but now she doesn’t.’

‘She hasn’t spoken to you again of Milvain?’

‘Not a word.’

‘Well, I understood what I was about,’ Yule remarked, with the confident
air of one who doesn’t wish to remember that he had ever felt doubtful.
‘There was no good in having the fellow here.

He has got in with a set that I don’t at all care for. If she ever says
anything—you understand—you can just let me know.’

Marian had already procured a copy of The Current, and read it privately.
Of the cleverness of Milvain’s contribution there could be no two
opinions; it drew the attention of the public, and all notices of the new
magazine made special reference to this article. With keen interest Marian
sought after comments of the press; when it was possible she cut them out
and put them carefully away.

January passed, and February. She saw nothing of Jasper. A letter from
Dora in the first week of March made announcement that the ‘Child’s
History of the English Parliament’ would be published very shortly; it
told her, too, that Mrs Milvain had been very ill indeed, but that she
seemed to recover a little strength as the weather improved. Of Jasper
there was no mention.

A week later came the news that Mrs Milvain had suddenly died.

This letter was received at breakfast-time. The envelope was an ordinary
one, and so little did Marian anticipate the nature of its contents that
at the first sight of the words she uttered an exclamation of pain. Her
father, who had turned from the table to the fireside with his newspaper,
looked round and asked what was the matter.

‘Mrs Milvain died the day before yesterday.’


He averted his face again and seemed disposed to say no more. But in a few
moments he inquired:

‘What are her daughters likely to do?’

‘I have no idea.’

‘Do you know anything of their circumstances?’

‘I believe they will have to depend upon themselves.’

Nothing more was said. Afterwards Mrs Yule made a few sympathetic
inquiries, but Marian was very brief in her replies.

Ten days after that, on a Sunday afternoon when Marian and her mother were
alone in the sitting-room, they heard the knock of a visitor at the front
door. Yule was out, and there was no likelihood of the visitor’s wishing
to see anyone but him. They listened; the servant went to the door, and,
after a murmur of voices, came to speak to her mistress.

‘It’s a gentleman called Mr Milvain,’ the girl reported, in a way that
proved how seldom callers presented themselves. ‘He asked for Mr Yule, and
when I said he was out, then he asked for Miss Yule.’ Mother and daughter
looked anxiously at each other. Mrs Yule was nervous and helpless.

‘Show Mr Milvain into the study,’ said Marian, with sudden decision.

‘Are you going to see him there?’ asked her mother in a hurried whisper.

‘I thought you would prefer that to his coming in here.’

‘Yes—yes. But suppose father comes back before he’s gone?’

‘What will it matter? You forget that he asked for father first.’

‘Oh yes! Then don’t wait.’

Marian, scarcely less agitated than her mother, was just leaving the room,
when she turned back again.

‘If father comes in, you will tell him before he goes into the study?’

‘Yes, I will.’

The fire in the study was on the point of extinction; this was the first
thing Marian’s eye perceived on entering, and it gave her assurance that
her father would not be back for some hours. Evidently he had intended it
to go out; small economies of this kind, unintelligible to people who have
always lived at ease, had been the life-long rule with him. With a
sensation of gladness at having free time before her, Marian turned to
where Milvain was standing, in front of one of the bookcases. He wore no
symbol of mourning, but his countenance was far graver than usual, and
rather paler. They shook hands in silence.

‘I am so grieved—’ Marian began with broken voice.

‘Thank you. I know the girls have told you all about it. We knew for the
last month that it must come before long, though there was a deceptive
improvement just before the end.’

‘Please to sit down, Mr Milvain. Father went out not long ago, and I don’t
think he will be back very soon.’

‘It was not really Mr Yule I wished to see,’ said Jasper, frankly. ‘If he
had been at home I should have spoken with him about what I have in mind,
but if you will kindly give me a few minutes it will be much better.’

Marian glanced at the expiring fire. Her curiosity as to what Milvain had
to say was mingled with an anxious doubt whether it was not too late to
put on fresh coals; already the room was growing very chill, and this
appearance of inhospitality troubled her.

‘Do you wish to save it?’ Jasper asked, understanding her look and

‘I’m afraid it has got too low.’

‘I think not. Life in lodgings has made me skilful at this kind of thing;
let me try my hand.’

He took the tongs and carefully disposed small pieces of coal upon the
glow that remained. Marian stood apart with a feeling of shame and
annoyance. But it is so seldom that situations in life arrange themselves
with dramatic propriety; and, after all, this vulgar necessity made the
beginning of the conversation easier.

‘That will be all right now,’ said Jasper at length, as little tongues of
flame began to shoot here and there.

Marian said nothing, but seated herself and waited.

‘I came up to town yesterday,’ Jasper began. ‘Of course we have had a
great deal to do and think about. Miss Harrow has been very kind indeed to
the girls; so have several of our old friends in Wattleborough. It was
necessary to decide at once what Maud and Dora are going to do, and it is
on their account that I have come to see you.

The listener kept silence, with a face of sympathetic attention.

‘We have made up our minds that they may as well come to London. It’s a
bold step; I’m by no means sure that the result will justify it. But I
think they are perhaps right in wishing to try it.’

‘They will go on with literary work?’

‘Well, it’s our hope that they may be able to. Of course there’s no chance
of their earning enough to live upon for some time. But the matter stands
like this. They have a trifling sum of money, on which, at a pinch, they
could live in London for perhaps a year and a half. In that time they may
find their way to a sort of income; at all events, the chances are that a
year and a half hence I shall be able to help them to keep body and soul

The money of which he spoke was the debt owed to their father by William
Milvain. In consequence of Mrs Milvain’s pressing application, half of
this sum had at length been paid and the remainder was promised in a
year’s time, greatly to Jasper’s astonishment. In addition, there would be
the trifle realised by the sale of furniture, though most of this might
have to go in payment of rent unless the house could be relet immediately.

‘They have made a good beginning,’ said Marian.

She spoke mechanically, for it was impossible to keep her thoughts under
control. If Maud and Dora came to live in London it might bring about a
most important change in her life; she could scarcely imagine the
happiness of having two such friends always near. On the other hand, how
would it be regarded by her father? She was at a loss amid conflicting

‘It’s better than if they had done nothing at all,’ Jasper replied to her
remark. ‘And the way they knocked that trifle together promises well. They
did it very quickly, and in a far more workmanlike way than I should have
thought possible.’

‘No doubt they share your own talent.’

‘Perhaps so. Of course I know that I have talent of a kind, though I don’t
rate it very high. We shall have to see whether they can do anything more
than mere booksellers’ work; they are both very young, you know. I think
they may be able to write something that’ll do for The English Girl, and
no doubt I can hit upon a second idea that will appeal to Jolly and Monk.
At all events, they’ll have books within reach, and better opportunities
every way than at Finden.’

‘How do their friends in the country think of it?’

‘Very dubiously; but then what else was to be expected? Of course, the
respectable and intelligible path marked out for both of them points to a
lifetime of governessing. But the girls have no relish for that; they’d
rather do almost anything. We talked over all the aspects of the situation
seriously enough—it is desperately serious, no doubt of that. I told
them fairly all the hardships they would have to face—described the
typical London lodgings, and so on. Still, there’s an adventurous vein in
them, and they decided for the risk. If it came to the worst I suppose
they could still find governess work.’

‘Let us hope better things.’

‘Yes. But now, I should have felt far more reluctant to let them come here
in this way hadn’t it been that they regard you as a friend. To-morrow
morning you will probably hear from one or both of them. Perhaps it would
have been better if I had left them to tell you all this, but I felt I
should like to see you and—put it in my own way. I think you’ll
understand this feeling, Miss Yule. I wanted, in fact, to hear from
yourself that you would be a friend to the poor girls.’

‘Oh, you already know that! I shall be so very glad to see them often.’

Marian’s voice lent itself very naturally and sweetly to the expression of
warm feeling. Emphasis was not her habit; it only needed that she should
put off her ordinary reserve, utter quietly the emotional thought which so
seldom might declare itself, and her tones had an exquisite womanliness.

Jasper looked full into her face.

‘In that case they won’t miss the comfort of home so much. Of course they
will have to go into very modest lodgings indeed. I have already been
looking about. I should like to find rooms for them somewhere near my own
place; it’s a decent neighbourhood, and the park is at hand, and then they
wouldn’t be very far from you. They thought it might be possible to make a
joint establishment with me, but I’m afraid that’s out of the question.

The lodgings we should want in that case, everything considered, would
cost more than the sum of our expenses if we live apart. Besides, there’s
no harm in saying that I don’t think we should get along very well
together. We’re all of us rather quarrelsome, to tell the truth, and we
try each other’s tempers.’

Marian smiled and looked puzzled.

‘Shouldn’t you have thought that?’

‘I have seen no signs of quarrelsomeness.’

‘I’m not sure that the worst fault is on my side. Why should one condemn
oneself against conscience? Maud is perhaps the hardest to get along with.
She has a sort of arrogance, an exaggeration of something I am quite aware
of in myself. You have noticed that trait in me?’

‘Arrogance—I think not. You have self-confidence.’

‘Which goes into extremes now and then. But, putting myself aside, I feel
pretty sure that the girls won’t seem quarrelsome to you; they would have
to be very fractious indeed before that were possible.’

‘We shall continue to be friends, I am sure.’

Jasper let his eyes wander about the room.

‘This is your father’s study?’


‘Perhaps it would have seemed odd to Mr Yule if I had come in and begun to
talk to him about these purely private affairs. He knows me so very
slightly. But, in calling here for the first time—’

An unusual embarrassment checked him.

‘I will explain to father your very natural wish to speak of these
things,’ said Marian, with tact.

She thought uneasily of her mother in the next room. To her there appeared
no reason whatever why Jasper should not be introduced to Mrs Yule, yet
she could not venture to propose it. Remembering her father’s last remarks
about Milvain in connection with Fadge’s magazine, she must wait for
distinct permission before offering the young man encouragement to repeat
his visit. Perhaps there was complicated trouble in store for her;
impossible to say how her father’s deep-rooted and rankling antipathies
might affect her intercourse even with the two girls. But she was of
independent years; she must be allowed the choice of her own friends. The
pleasure she had in seeing Jasper under this roof, in hearing him talk
with such intimate friendliness, strengthened her to resist timid

‘When will your sisters arrive?’ she asked.

‘I think in a very few days. When I have fixed upon lodgings for them I
must go back to Finden; then they will return with me as soon as we can
get the house emptied. It’s rather miserable selling things one has lived
among from childhood. A friend in Wattleborough will house for us what we
really can’t bear to part with.’

‘It must be very sad,’ Marian murmured.

‘You know,’ said the other suddenly, ‘that it’s my fault the girls are
left in such a hard position?’

Marian looked at him with startled eyes. His tone was quite unfamiliar to

‘Mother had an annuity,’ he continued. ‘It ended with her life, but if it
hadn’t been for me she could have saved a good deal out of it. Until the
last year or two I have earned nothing, and I have spent more than was
strictly necessary. Well, I didn’t live like that in mere recklessness; I
knew I was preparing myself for remunerative work. But it seems too bad
now. I’m sorry for it. I wish I had found some way of supporting myself.
The end of mother’s life was made far more unhappy than it need have been.
I should like you to understand all this.’

The listener kept her eyes on the ground.

‘Perhaps the girls have hinted it to you?’ Jasper added.


‘Selfishness—that’s one of my faults. It isn’t a brutal kind of
selfishness; the thought of it often enough troubles me. If I were rich, I
should be a generous and good man; I know I should. So would many another
poor fellow whose worst features come out under hardship. This isn’t a
heroic type; of course not. I am a civilised man, that’s all.’

Marian could say nothing.

‘You wonder why I am so impertinent as to talk about myself like this. I
have gone through a good deal of mental pain these last few weeks, and
somehow I can’t help showing you something of my real thoughts. Just
because you are one of the few people I regard with sincere respect. I
don’t know you very well, but quite well enough to respect you. My sisters
think of you in the same way. I shall do many a base thing in life, just
to get money and reputation; I tell you this that you mayn’t be surprised
if anything of that kind comes to your ears. I can’t afford to live as I
should like to.’

She looked up at him with a smile.

‘People who are going to live unworthily don’t declare it in this way.’

‘I oughtn’t to; a few minutes ago I had no intention of saying such
things. It means I am rather overstrung, I suppose; but it’s all true,

He rose, and began to run his eye along the shelves nearest to him.

‘Well, now I will go, Miss Yule.’

Marian stood up as he approached.

‘It’s all very well,’ he said, smiling, ‘for me to encourage my sisters in
the hope that they may earn a living; but suppose I can’t even do it
myself? It’s by no means certain that I shall make ends meet this year.’

‘You have every reason to hope, I think.’

‘I like to hear people say that, but it’ll mean savage work. When we were
all at Finden last year, I told the girls that it would be another twelve
months before I could support myself. Now I am forced to do it. And I
don’t like work; my nature is lazy. I shall never write for writing’s
sake, only to make money. All my plans and efforts will have money in view—all.
I shan’t allow anything to come in the way of my material advancement.’

‘I wish you every success,’ said Marian, without looking at him, and
without a smile.

‘Thank you. But that sounds too much like good-bye. I trust we are to be
friends, for all that?’

‘Indeed, I hope we may be.’

They shook hands, and he went towards the door. But before opening it, he

‘Did you read that thing of mine in The Current?’

‘Yes, I did.’

‘It wasn’t bad, I think?’

‘It seemed to me very clever.’

‘Clever—yes, that’s the word. It had a success, too. I have as good
a thing half done for the April number, but I’ve felt too heavy-hearted to
go on with it. The girls shall let you know when they are in town.’

Marian followed him into the passage, and watched him as he opened the
front door. When it had closed, she went back into the study for a few
minutes before rejoining her mother.


After all, there came a day when Edwin Reardon found himself regularly at
work once more, ticking off his stipulated quantum of manuscript each
four-and-twenty hours. He wrote a very small hand; sixty written slips of
the kind of paper he habitually used would represent—thanks to the
astonishing system which prevails in such matters: large type, wide
spacing, frequency of blank pages—a passable three-hundred-page
volume. On an average he could write four such slips a day; so here we
have fifteen days for the volume, and forty-five for the completed book.

Forty-five days; an eternity in the looking forward. Yet the calculation
gave him a faint-hearted encouragement. At that rate he might have his
book sold by Christmas. It would certainly not bring him a hundred pounds;
seventy-five perhaps. But even that small sum would enable him to pay the
quarter’s rent, and then give him a short time, if only two or three
weeks, of mental rest. If such rest could not be obtained all was at an
end with him. He must either find some new means of supporting himself and
his family, or—have done with life and its responsibilities

The latter alternative was often enough before him. He seldom slept for
more than two or three consecutive hours in the night, and the time of
wakefulness was often terrible. The various sounds which marked the stages
from midnight to dawn had grown miserably familiar to him; worst torture
to his mind was the chiming and striking of clocks. Two of these were in
general audible, that of Marylebone parish church, and that of the
adjoining workhouse; the latter always sounded several minutes after its
ecclesiastical neighbour, and with a difference of note which seemed to
Reardon very appropriate—a thin, querulous voice, reminding one of
the community it represented. After lying awake for awhile he would hear
quarters sounding; if they ceased before the fourth he was glad, for he
feared to know what time it was. If the hour was complete, he waited
anxiously for its number. Two, three, even four, were grateful; there was
still a long time before he need rise and face the dreaded task, the
horrible four blank slips of paper that had to be filled ere he might
sleep again. But such restfulness was only for a moment; no sooner had the
workhouse bell become silent than he began to toil in his weary
imagination, or else, incapable of that, to vision fearful hazards of the
future. The soft breathing of Amy at his side, the contact of her warm
limbs, often filled him with intolerable dread. Even now he did not
believe that Amy loved him with the old love, and the suspicion was like a
cold weight at his heart that to retain even her wifely sympathy, her
wedded tenderness, he must achieve the impossible.

The impossible; for he could no longer deceive himself with a hope of
genuine success. If he earned a bare living, that would be the utmost. And
with bare livelihood Amy would not, could not, be content.

If he were to die a natural death it would be well for all. His wife and
the child would be looked after; they could live with Mrs Edmund Yule, and
certainly it would not be long before Amy married again, this time a man
of whose competency to maintain her there would be no doubt. His own
behaviour had been cowardly selfishness. Oh yes, she had loved him, had
been eager to believe in him. But there was always that voice of warning
in his mind; he foresaw—he knew—

And if he killed himself? Not here; no lurid horrors for that poor girl
and her relatives; but somewhere at a distance, under circumstances which
would render the recovery of his body difficult, yet would leave no doubt
of his death. Would that, again, be cowardly? The opposite, when once it
was certain that to live meant poverty and wretchedness. Amy’s grief,
however sincere, would be but a short trial compared with what else might
lie before her. The burden of supporting her and Willie would be a very
slight one if she went to live in her mother’s house. He considered the
whole matter night after night, until perchance it happened that sleep had
pity upon him for an hour before the time of rising.

Autumn was passing into winter. Dark days, which were always an oppression
to his mind, began to be frequent, and would soon succeed each other
remorselessly. Well, if only each of them represented four written slips.

Milvain’s advice to him had of course proved useless. The sensational
title suggested nothing, or only ragged shapes of incomplete humanity that
fluttered mockingly when he strove to fix them. But he had decided upon a
story of the kind natural to him; a ‘thin’ story, and one which it would
be difficult to spin into three volumes. His own, at all events. The title
was always a matter for head-racking when the book was finished; he had
never yet chosen it before beginning.

For a week he got on at the desired rate; then came once more the crisis
he had anticipated.

A familiar symptom of the malady which falls upon outwearied imagination.
There were floating in his mind five or six possible subjects for a book,
all dating back to the time when he first began novel-writing, when ideas
came freshly to him. If he grasped desperately at one of these, and did
his best to develop it, for a day or two he could almost content himself;
characters, situations, lines of motive, were laboriously schemed, and he
felt ready to begin writing. But scarcely had he done a chapter or two
when all the structure fell into flatness. He had made a mistake. Not this
story, but that other one, was what he should have taken. The other one in
question, left out of mind for a time, had come back with a face of new
possibility; it invited him, tempted him to throw aside what he had
already written. Good; now he was in more hopeful train. But a few days,
and the experience repeated itself. No, not this story, but that third
one, of which he had not thought for a long time. How could he have
rejected so hopeful a subject?

For months he had been living in this way; endless circling, perpetual
beginning, followed by frustration. A sign of exhaustion, it of course
made exhaustion more complete. At times he was on the border-land of
imbecility; his mind looked into a cloudy chaos, a shapeless whirl of
nothings. He talked aloud to himself, not knowing that he did so. Little
phrases which indicated dolorously the subject of his preoccupation often
escaped him in the street: ‘What could I make of that, now?’ ‘Well,
suppose I made him—?’ ‘But no, that wouldn’t do,’ and so on. It had
happened that he caught the eye of some one passing fixed in surprise upon
him; so young a man to be talking to himself in evident distress!

The expected crisis came, even now that he was savagely determined to go
on at any cost, to write, let the result be what it would. His will
prevailed. A day or two of anguish such as there is no describing to the
inexperienced, and again he was dismissing slip after slip, a sigh of
thankfulness at the completion of each one. It was a fraction of the
whole, a fraction, a fraction.

The ordering of his day was thus. At nine, after breakfast, he sat down to
his desk, and worked till one. Then came dinner, followed by a walk. As a
rule he could not allow Amy to walk with him, for he had to think over the
remainder of the day’s toil, and companionship would have been fatal. At
about half-past three he again seated himself; and wrote until half-past
six, when he had a meal. Then once more to work from half-past seven to
ten. Numberless were the experiments he had tried for the day’s division.
The slightest interruption of the order for the time being put him out of
gear; Amy durst not open his door to ask however necessary a question.

Sometimes the three hours’ labour of a morning resulted in half-a-dozen
lines, corrected into illegibility. His brain would not work; he could not
recall the simplest synonyms; intolerable faults of composition drove him
mad. He would write a sentence beginning thus: ‘She took a book with a
look of—;’ or thus: ‘A revision of this decision would have made him
an object of derision.’ Or, if the period were otherwise inoffensive, it
ran in a rhythmic gallop which was torment to the ear. All this, in spite
of the fact that his former books had been noticeably good in style. He
had an appreciation of shapely prose which made him scorn himself for the
kind of stuff he was now turning out. ‘I can’t help it; it must go; the
time is passing.’

Things were better, as a rule, in the evening. Occasionally he wrote a
page with fluency which recalled his fortunate years; and then his heart
gladdened, his hand trembled with joy.

Description of locality, deliberate analysis of character or motive,
demanded far too great an effort for his present condition. He kept as
much as possible to dialogue; the space is filled so much more quickly,
and at a pinch one can make people talk about the paltriest incidents of

There came an evening when he opened the door and called to Amy.

‘What is it?’ she answered from the bedroom. ‘I’m busy with Willie.’

‘Come as soon as you are free.’

In ten minutes she appeared. There was apprehension on her face; she
feared he was going to lament his inability to work. Instead of that, he
told her joyfully that the first volume was finished.

‘Thank goodness!’ she exclaimed. ‘Are you going to do any more to-night?’

‘I think not—if you will come and sit with me.’

‘Willie doesn’t seem very well. He can’t get to sleep.’

‘You would like to stay with him?’

‘A little while. I’ll come presently.’

She closed the door. Reardon brought a high-backed chair to the fireside,
and allowed himself to forget the two volumes that had still to be
struggled through, in a grateful sense of the portion that was achieved.
In a few minutes it occurred to him that it would be delightful to read a
scrap of the ‘Odyssey’; he went to the shelves on which were his classical
books, took the desired volume, and opened it where Odysseus speaks to

‘For never yet did I behold one of mortals like to thee, neither man nor
woman; I am awed as I look upon thee. In Delos once, hard by the altar of
Apollo, I saw a young palm-tree shooting up with even such a grace.’

Yes, yes; THAT was not written at so many pages a day, with a workhouse
clock clanging its admonition at the poet’s ear. How it freshened the
soul! How the eyes grew dim with a rare joy in the sounding of those nobly
sweet hexameters!

Amy came into the room again.

‘Listen,’ said Reardon, looking up at her with a bright smile. ‘Do you
remember the first time that I read you this?’

And he turned the speech into free prose. Amy laughed.

‘I remember it well enough. We were alone in the drawing-room; I had told
the others that they must make shift with the dining-room for that
evening. And you pulled the book out of your pocket unexpectedly. I
laughed at your habit of always carrying little books about.’

The cheerful news had brightened her. If she had been summoned to hear
lamentations her voice would not have rippled thus soothingly. Reardon
thought of this, and it made him silent for a minute.

‘The habit was ominous,’ he said, looking at her with an uncertain smile.
‘A practical literary man doesn’t do such things.’

‘Milvain, for instance. No.’

With curious frequency she mentioned the name of Milvain. Her
unconsciousness in doing so prevented Reardon from thinking about the
fact; still, he had noted it.

‘Did you understand the phrase slightingly?’ he asked.

‘Slightingly? Yes, a little, of course. It always has that sense on your
lips, I think.’

In the light of this answer he mused upon her readily-offered instance.
True, he had occasionally spoken of Jasper with something less than
respect, but Amy was not in the habit of doing so.

‘I hadn’t any such meaning just then,’ he said. ‘I meant quite simply that
my bookish habits didn’t promise much for my success as a novelist.’

‘I see. But you didn’t think of it in that way at the time.’

He sighed.

‘No. At least—no.’

‘At least what?’

‘Well, no; on the whole I had good hope.’

Amy twisted her fingers together impatiently.

‘Edwin, let me tell you something. You are getting too fond of speaking in
a discouraging way. Now, why should you do so? I don’t like it. It has one
disagreeable effect on me, and that is, when people ask me about you, how
you are getting on, I don’t quite know how to answer. They can’t help
seeing that I am uneasy. I speak so differently from what I used to.’

‘Do you, really?’

‘Indeed I can’t help it. As I say, it’s very much your own fault.’

‘Well, but granted that I am not of a very sanguine nature, and that I
easily fall into gloomy ways of talk, what is Amy here for?’

‘Yes, yes. But—’


‘I am not here only to try and keep you in good spirits, am I?’

She asked it prettily, with a smile like that of maidenhood.

‘Heaven forbid! I oughtn’t to have put it in that absolute way. I was half
joking, you know. But unfortunately it’s true that I can’t be as
light-spirited as I could wish. Does that make you impatient with me?’

‘A little. I can’t help the feeling, and I ought to try to overcome it.
But you must try on your side as well. Why should you have said that thing
just now?’

‘You’re quite right. It was needless.’

‘A few weeks ago I didn’t expect you to be cheerful. Things began to look
about as bad as they could. But now that you’ve got a volume finished,
there’s hope once more.’

Hope? Of what quality? Reardon durst not say what rose in his thoughts. ‘A
very small, poor hope. Hope of money enough to struggle through another
half year, if indeed enough for that.’ He had learnt that Amy was not to
be told the whole truth about anything as he himself saw it. It was a
pity. To the ideal wife a man speaks out all that is in him; she had
infinitely rather share his full conviction than be treated as one from
whom facts must be disguised. She says: ‘Let us face the worst and talk of
it together, you and I.’ No, Amy was not the ideal wife from that point of
view. But the moment after this half-reproach had traversed his
consciousness he condemned himself; and looked with the joy of love into
her clear eyes.

‘Yes, there’s hope once more, my dearest. No more gloomy talk to-night! I
have read you something, now you shall read something to me; it is a long
time since I delighted myself with listening to you. What shall it be?’

‘I feel rather too tired to-night.’

‘Do you?’

‘I have had to look after Willie so much. But read me some more Homer; I
shall be very glad to listen.’

Reardon reached for the book again, but not readily. His face showed
disappointment. Their evenings together had never been the same since the
birth of the child; Willie was always an excuse—valid enough—for
Amy’s feeling tired. The little boy had come between him and the mother,
as must always be the case in poor homes, most of all where the poverty is
relative. Reardon could not pass the subject without a remark, but he
tried to speak humorously.

‘There ought to be a huge public creche in London. It’s monstrous that an
educated mother should have to be nursemaid.’

‘But you know very well I think nothing of that. A creche, indeed! No
child of mine should go to any such place.’

There it was. She grudged no trouble on behalf of the child. That was
love; whereas—But then maternal love was a mere matter of course.

‘As soon as you get two or three hundred pounds for a book,’ she added,
laughing, ‘there’ll be no need for me to give so much time.’

‘Two or three hundred pounds!’ He repeated it with a shake of the head.
‘Ah, if that were possible!’

‘But that’s really a paltry sum. What would fifty novelists you could name
say if they were offered three hundred pounds for a book? How much do you
suppose even Markland got for his last?’

‘Didn’t sell it at all, ten to one. Gets a royalty.’

‘Which will bring him five or six hundred pounds before the book ceases to
be talked of.’

‘Never mind. I’m sick of the word “pounds.”’

‘So am I.’

She sighed, commenting thus on her acquiescence.

‘But look, Amy. If I try to be cheerful in spite of natural dumps,
wouldn’t it be fair for you to put aside thoughts of money?’

‘Yes. Read some Homer, dear. Let us have Odysseus down in Hades, and Ajax
stalking past him. Oh, I like that!’

So he read, rather coldly at first, but soon warming. Amy sat with folded
arms, a smile on her lips, her brows knitted to the epic humour. In a few
minutes it was as if no difficulties threatened their life. Every now and
then Reardon looked up from his translating with a delighted laugh, in
which Amy joined.

When he had returned the book to the shelf he stepped behind his wife’s
chair, leaned upon it, and put his cheek against hers.


‘Yes, dear?’

‘Do you still love me a little?’

‘Much more than a little.’

‘Though I am sunk to writing a wretched pot-boiler?’

‘Is it so bad as all that?’

‘Confoundedly bad. I shall be ashamed to see it in print; the proofs will
be a martyrdom.’

‘Oh, but why? why?’

‘It’s the best I can do, dearest. So you don’t love me enough to hear that

‘If I didn’t love you, I might be calmer about it, Edwin. It’s dreadful to
me to think of what they will say in the reviews.’

‘Curse the reviews!’

His mood had changed on the instant. He stood up with darkened face,
trembling angrily.

‘I want you to promise me something, Amy. You won’t read a single one of
the notices unless it is forced upon your attention. Now, promise me that.
Neglect them absolutely, as I do. They’re not worth a glance of your eyes.
And I shan’t be able to bear it if I know you read all the contempt that
will be poured on me.’

‘I’m sure I shall be glad enough to avoid it; but other people, our
friends, read it. That’s the worst.’

‘You know that their praise would be valueless, so have strength to
disregard the blame. Let our friends read and talk as much as they like.
Can’t you console yourself with the thought that I am not contemptible,
though I may have been forced to do poor work?’

‘People don’t look at it in that way.’

‘But, darling,’ he took her hands strongly in his own, ‘I want you to
disregard other people. You and I are surely everything to each other? Are
you ashamed of me, of me myself?’

‘No, not ashamed of you. But I am sensitive to people’s talk and

‘But that means they make you feel ashamed of me. What else?’

There was silence.

‘Edwin, if you find you are unable to do good work, you mustn’t do bad. We
must think of some other way of making a living.’

‘Have you forgotten that you urged me to write a trashy sensational

She coloured and looked annoyed.

‘You misunderstood me. A sensational story needn’t be trash. And then, you
know, if you had tried something entirely unlike your usual work, that
would have been excuse enough if people had called it a failure.’

‘People! People!’

‘We can’t live in solitude, Edwin, though really we are not far from it.’
He did not dare to make any reply to this. Amy was so exasperatingly
womanlike in avoiding the important issue to which he tried to confine
her; another moment, and his tone would be that of irritation. So he
turned away and sat down to his desk, as if he had some thought of
resuming work.

‘Will you come and have some supper?’ Amy asked, rising.

‘I have been forgetting that to-morrow morning’s chapter has still to be
thought out.’

‘Edwin, I can’t think this book will really be so poor. You couldn’t
possibly give all this toil for no result.’

‘No; not if I were in sound health. But I am far from it.’

‘Come and have supper with me, dear, and think afterwards.’

He turned and smiled at her.

‘I hope I shall never be able to resist an invitation from you, sweet.’

The result of all this was, of course, that he sat down in anything but
the right mood to his work next morning. Amy’s anticipation of criticism
had made it harder than ever for him to labour at what he knew to be bad.
And, as ill-luck would have it, in a day or two he caught his first
winter’s cold. For several years a succession of influenzas, sore-throats,
lumbagoes, had tormented him from October to May; in planning his present
work, and telling himself that it must be finished before Christmas, he
had not lost sight of these possible interruptions. But he said to
himself: ‘Other men have worked hard in seasons of illness; I must do the
same.’ All very well, but Reardon did not belong to the heroic class. A
feverish cold now put his powers and resolution to the test. Through one
hideous day he nailed himself to the desk—and wrote a quarter of a
page. The next day Amy would not let him rise from bed; he was wretchedly
ill. In the night he had talked about his work deliriously, causing her no
slight alarm.

‘If this goes on,’ she said to him in the morning, ‘you’ll have brain
fever. You must rest for two or three days.’

‘Teach me how to. I wish I could.’

Rest had indeed become out of the question. For two days he could not
write, but the result upon his mind was far worse than if he had been at
the desk. He looked a haggard creature when he again sat down with the
accustomed blank slip before him.

The second volume ought to have been much easier work than the first; it
proved far harder. Messieurs and mesdames the critics are wont to point
out the weakness of second volumes; they are generally right, simply
because a story which would have made a tolerable book (the common run of
stories) refuses to fill three books. Reardon’s story was in itself weak,
and this second volume had to consist almost entirely of laborious
padding. If he wrote three slips a day he did well.

And the money was melting, melting, despite Amy’s efforts at economy. She
spent as little as she could; not a luxury came into their home; articles
of clothing all but indispensable were left unpurchased. But to what
purpose was all this? Impossible, now, that the book should be finished
and sold before the money had all run out.

At the end of November, Reardon said to his wife one morning:

‘To-morrow I finish the second volume.’

‘And in a week,’ she replied, ‘we shan’t have a shilling left.’

He had refrained from making inquiries, and Amy had forborne to tell him
the state of things, lest it should bring him to a dead stop in his
writing. But now they must needs discuss their position.

‘In three weeks I can get to the end,’ said Reardon, with unnatural
calmness. ‘Then I will go personally to the publishers, and beg them to
advance me something on the manuscript before they have read it.’

‘Couldn’t you do that with the first two volumes?’

‘No, I can’t; indeed I can’t. The other thing will be bad enough; but to
beg on an incomplete book, and such a book—I can’t!’

There were drops on his forehead.

‘They would help you if they knew,’ said Amy in a low voice.

‘Perhaps; I can’t say. They can’t help every poor devil. No; I will sell
some books. I can pick out fifty or sixty that I shan’t much miss.’

Amy knew what a wrench this would be. The imminence of distress seemed to
have softened her.

‘Edwin, let me take those two volumes to the publishers, and ask—’

‘Heavens! no. That’s impossible. Ten to one you will be told that my work
is of such doubtful value that they can’t offer even a guinea till the
whole book has been considered. I can’t allow you to go, dearest. This
morning I’ll choose some books that I can spare, and after dinner I’ll ask
a man to come and look at them. Don’t worry yourself; I can finish in
three weeks, I’m sure I can. If I can get you three or four pounds you
could make it do, couldn’t you?’


She averted her face as she spoke.

‘You shall have that.’ He still spoke very quietly. ‘If the books won’t
bring enough, there’s my watch—oh, lots of things.’

He turned abruptly away, and Amy went on with her household work.


It was natural that Amy should hint dissatisfaction with the loneliness in
which her days were mostly spent. She had never lived in a large circle of
acquaintances; the narrowness of her mother’s means restricted the family
to intercourse with a few old friends and such new ones as were content
with teacup entertainment; but her tastes were social, and the maturing
process which followed upon her marriage made her more conscious of this
than she had been before. Already she had allowed her husband to
understand that one of her strongest motives in marrying him was the
belief that he would achieve distinction. At the time she doubtless
thought of his coming fame only—or principally—as it concerned
their relations to each other; her pride in him was to be one phase of her
love. Now she was well aware that no degree of distinction in her husband
would be of much value to her unless she had the pleasure of witnessing
its effect upon others; she must shine with reflected light before an
admiring assembly.

The more conscious she became of this requirement of her nature, the more
clearly did she perceive that her hopes had been founded on an error.
Reardon would never be a great man; he would never even occupy a prominent
place in the estimation of the public. The two things, Amy knew, might be
as different as light and darkness; but in the grief of her disappointment
she would rather have had him flare into a worthless popularity than
flicker down into total extinction, which it almost seemed was to be his

She knew so well how ‘people’ were talking of him and her. Even her
unliterary acquaintances understood that Reardon’s last novel had been
anything but successful, and they must of course ask each other how the
Reardons were going to live if the business of novel-writing proved
unremunerative. Her pride took offence at the mere thought of such
conversations. Presently she would become an object of pity; there would
be talk of ‘poor Mrs Reardon.’ It was intolerable.

So during the last half year she had withheld as much as possible from the
intercourse which might have been one of her chief pleasures. And to
disguise the true cause she made pretences which were a satire upon her
state of mind—alleging that she had devoted herself to a serious
course of studies, that the care of house and child occupied all the time
she could spare from her intellectual pursuits. The worst of it was, she
had little faith in the efficacy of these fictions; in uttering them she
felt an unpleasant warmth upon her cheeks, and it was not difficult to
detect a look of doubt in the eyes of the listener. She grew angry with
herself for being dishonest, and with her husband for making such
dishonesty needful.

The female friend with whom she had most trouble was Mrs Carter. You
remember that on the occasion of Reardon’s first meeting with his future
wife, at the Grosvenor Gallery, there were present his friend Carter and a
young lady who was shortly to bear the name of that spirited young man.
The Carters had now been married about a year; they lived in Bayswater,
and saw much of a certain world which imitates on a lower plane the
amusements and affectations of society proper. Mr Carter was still
secretary to the hospital where Reardon had once earned his twenty
shillings a week, but by voyaging in the seas of charitable enterprise he
had come upon supplementary sources of income; for instance, he held the
post of secretary to the Barclay Trust, a charity whose moderate funds
were largely devoted to the support of gentlemen engaged in administering
it. This young man, with his air of pleasing vivacity, had early
ingratiated himself with the kind of people who were likely to be of use
to him; he had his reward in the shape of offices which are only procured
through private influence. His wife was a good-natured, lively, and rather
clever girl; she had a genuine regard for Amy, and much respect for
Reardon. Her ambition was to form a circle of distinctly intellectual
acquaintances, and she was constantly inviting the Reardons to her house;
a real live novelist is not easily drawn into the world where Mrs Carter
had her being, and it annoyed her that all attempts to secure Amy and her
husband for five-o’clock teas and small parties had of late failed.

On the afternoon when Reardon had visited a second-hand bookseller with a
view of raising money—he was again shut up in his study, dolorously
at work—Amy was disturbed by the sound of a visitor’s rat-tat; the
little servant went to the door, and returned followed by Mrs Carter.

Under the best of circumstances it was awkward to receive any but intimate
friends during the hours when Reardon sat at his desk. The little
dining-room (with its screen to conceal the kitchen range) offered nothing
more than homely comfort; and then the servant had to be disposed of by
sending her into the bedroom to take care of Willie. Privacy, in the
strict sense, was impossible, for the servant might listen at the door
(one room led out of the other) to all the conversation that went on; yet
Amy could not request her visitors to speak in a low tone. For the first
year these difficulties had not been felt; Reardon made a point of leaving
the front room at his wife’s disposal from three to six; it was only when
dread of the future began to press upon him that he sat in the study all
day long. You see how complicated were the miseries of the situation; one
torment involved another, and in every quarter subjects of discontent were

Mrs Carter would have taken it ill had she known that Amy did not regard
her as strictly an intimate. They addressed each other by their Christian
names, and conversed without ceremony; but Amy was always dissatisfied
when the well-dressed young woman burst with laughter and animated talk
into this abode of concealed poverty. Edith was not the kind of person
with whom one can quarrel; she had a kind heart, and was never
disagreeably pretentious. Had circumstances allowed it, Amy would have
given frank welcome to such friendship; she would have been glad to accept
as many invitations as Edith chose to offer. But at present it did her
harm to come in contact with Mrs Carter; it made her envious, cold to her
husband, resentful against fate.

‘Why can’t she leave me alone?’ was the thought that rose in her mind as
Edith entered. ‘I shall let her see that I don’t want her here.’

‘Your husband at work?’ Edith asked, with a glance in the direction of the
study, as soon as they had exchanged kisses and greetings.

‘Yes, he is busy.’

‘And you are sitting alone, as usual. I feared you might be out; an
afternoon of sunshine isn’t to be neglected at this time of year.’

‘Is there sunshine?’ Amy inquired coldly.

‘Why, look! Do you mean to say you haven’t noticed it? What a comical
person you are sometimes! I suppose you have been over head and ears in
books all day. How is Willie?’

‘Very well, thank you.’

‘Mayn’t I see him?’

‘If you like.’

Amy stepped to the bedroom door and bade the servant bring Willie for
exhibition. Edith, who as yet had no child of her own, always showed the
most flattering admiration of this infant; it was so manifestly sincere
that the mother could not but be moved to a grateful friendliness whenever
she listened to its expression. Even this afternoon the usual effect
followed when Edith had made a pretty and tender fool of herself for
several minutes. Amy bade the servant make tea.

At this moment the door from the passage opened, and Reardon looked in.

‘Well, if this isn’t marvellous!’ cried Edith. ‘I should as soon have
expected the heavens to fall!’

‘As what?’ asked Reardon, with a pale smile.

‘As you to show yourself when I am here.’

‘I should like to say that I came on purpose to see you, Mrs Carter, but
it wouldn’t be true. I’m going out for an hour, so that you can take
possession of the other room if you like, Amy.’

‘Going out?’ said Amy, with a look of surprise.

‘Nothing—nothing. I mustn’t stay.’

He just inquired of Mrs Carter how her husband was, and withdrew. The door
of the flat was heard to close after him.

‘Let us go into the study, then,’ said Amy, again in rather a cold voice.

On Reardon’s desk were lying slips of blank paper. Edith, approaching on
tiptoe with what was partly make believe, partly genuine, awe, looked at
the literary apparatus, then turned with a laugh to her friend.

‘How delightful it must be to sit down and write about people one has
invented! Ever since I have known you and Mr Reardon I have been tempted
to try if I couldn’t write a story.’

‘Have you?’

‘And I’m sure I don’t know how you can resist the temptation. I feel sure
you could write books almost as clever as your husband’s.’

‘I have no intention of trying.’

‘You don’t seem very well to-day, Amy.’

‘Oh, I think I am as well as usual.’

She guessed that her husband was once more brought to a standstill, and
this darkened her humour again.

‘One of my reasons for coming,’ said Edith, ‘was to beg and entreat and
implore you and Mr Reardon to dine with us next Wednesday. Now, don’t put
on such a severe face! Are you engaged that evening?’

‘Yes; in the ordinary way. Edwin can’t possibly leave his work.’

‘But for one poor evening! It’s such ages since we saw you.’

‘I’m very sorry. I don’t think we shall ever be able to accept invitations
in future.’

Amy spoke thus at the prompting of a sudden impulse. A minute ago, no such
definite declaration was in her mind.

‘Never?’ exclaimed Edith. ‘But why? Whatever do you mean?’

‘We find that social engagements consume too much time,’ Amy replied, her
explanation just as much of an impromptu as the announcement had been.
‘You see, one must either belong to society or not. Married people can’t
accept an occasional invitation from friends and never do their social
duty in return.

We have decided to withdraw altogether—at all events for the
present. I shall see no one except my relatives.’

Edith listened with a face of astonishment.

‘You won’t even see ME?’ she exclaimed.

‘Indeed, I have no wish to lose your friendship. Yet I am ashamed to ask
you to come here when I can never return your visits.’

‘Oh, please don’t put it in that way! But it seems so very strange.’

Edith could not help conjecturing the true significance of this resolve.
But, as is commonly the case with people in easy circumstances, she found
it hard to believe that her friends were so straitened as to have a
difficulty in supporting the ordinary obligations of a civilised state.

‘I know how precious your husband’s time is,’ she added, as if to remove
the effect of her last remark. ‘Surely, there’s no harm in my saying—we
know each other well enough—you wouldn’t think it necessary to
devote an evening to entertaining us just because you had given us the
pleasure of your company. I put it very stupidly, but I’m sure you
understand me, Amy. Don’t refuse just to come to our house now and then.’

‘I’m afraid we shall have to be consistent, Edith.’

‘But do you think this is a WISE thing to do?’


‘You know what you once told me, about how necessary it was for a novelist
to study all sorts of people. How can Mr Reardon do this if he shuts
himself up in the house? I should have thought he would find it necessary
to make new acquaintances.’

‘As I said,’ returned Amy, ‘it won’t be always like this. For the present,
Edwin has quite enough “material.”’

She spoke distantly; it irritated her to have to invent excuses for the
sacrifice she had just imposed on herself. Edith sipped the tea which had
been offered her, and for a minute kept silence.

‘When will Mr Reardon’s next book be published?’ she asked at length.

‘I’m sure I don’t know. Not before the spring.’

‘I shall look so anxiously for it. Whenever I meet new people I always
turn the conversation to novels, just for the sake of asking them if they
know your husband’s books.’

She laughed merrily.

‘Which is seldom the case, I should think,’ said Amy, with a smile of

‘Well, my dear, you don’t expect ordinary novel-readers to know about Mr
Reardon. I wish my acquaintances were a better kind of people; then, of
course, I should hear of his books more often. But one has to make the
best of such society as offers. If you and your husband forsake me, I
shall feel it a sad loss; I shall indeed.’

Amy gave a quick glance at the speaker’s face.

‘Oh, we must be friends just the same,’ she said, more naturally than she
had spoken hitherto. ‘But don’t ask us to come and dine just now. All
through this winter we shall be very busy, both of us. Indeed, we have
decided not to accept any invitations at all.’

‘Then, so long as you let me come here now and then, I must give in. I
promise not to trouble you with any more complaining. But how you can live
such a life I don’t know. I consider myself more of a reader than women
generally are, and I should be mortally offended if anyone called me
frivolous; but I must have a good deal of society. Really and truly, I
can’t live without it.’

‘No?’ said Amy, with a smile which meant more than Edith could interpret.
It seemed slightly condescending.

‘There’s no knowing; perhaps if I had married a literary man—-’ She
paused, smiling and musing. ‘But then I haven’t, you see.’ She laughed.
‘Albert is anything but a bookworm, as you know.’

‘You wouldn’t wish him to be.’

‘Oh no! Not a bookworm. To be sure, we suit each other very well indeed.
He likes society just as much as I do. It would be the death of him if he
didn’t spend three-quarters of every day with lively people.’

‘That’s rather a large portion. But then you count yourself among the
lively ones.’

They exchanged looks, and laughed together.

‘Of course you think me rather silly to want to talk so much with silly
people,’ Edith went on. ‘But then there’s generally some amusement to be
got, you know. I don’t take life quite so seriously as you do. People are
people, after all; it’s good fun to see how they live and hear how they

Amy felt that she was playing a sorry part. She thought of sour grapes,
and of the fox who had lost his tail. Worst of all, perhaps Edith
suspected the truth. She began to make inquiries about common
acquaintances, and fell into an easier current of gossip.

A quarter of an hour after the visitor’s departure Reardon came back. Amy
had guessed aright; the necessity of selling his books weighed upon him so
that for the present he could do nothing. The evening was spent gloomily,
with very little conversation.

Next day came the bookseller to make his inspection. Reardon had chosen
out and ranged upon a table nearly a hundred volumes. With a few
exceptions, they had been purchased second-hand. The tradesman examined
them rapidly.

‘What do you ask?’ he inquired, putting his head aside.

‘I prefer that you should make an offer,’ Reardon replied, with the
helplessness of one who lives remote from traffic.

‘I can’t say more than two pounds ten.’

‘That is at the rate of sixpence a volume—-?’

‘To me that’s about the average value of books like these.’

Perhaps the offer was a fair one; perhaps it was not. Reardon had neither
time nor spirit to test the possibilities of the market; he was ashamed to
betray his need by higgling.

‘I’ll take it,’ he said, in a matter-of-fact voice.

A messenger was sent for the books that afternoon. He stowed them
skilfully in two bags, and carried them downstairs to a cart that was

Reardon looked at the gaps left on his shelves. Many of those vanished
volumes were dear old friends to him; he could have told you where he had
picked them up and when; to open them recalled a past moment of
intellectual growth, a mood of hope or despondency, a stage of struggle.
In most of them his name was written, and there were often pencilled notes
in the margin. Of course he had chosen from among the most valuable he
possessed; such a multitude must else have been sold to make this sum of
two pounds ten. Books are cheap, you know. At need, one can buy a Homer
for fourpence, a Sophocles for sixpence. It was not rubbish that he had
accumulated at so small expenditure, but the library of a poor student—battered
bindings, stained pages, supplanted editions. He loved his books, but
there was something he loved more, and when Amy glanced at him with eyes
of sympathy he broke into a cheerful laugh.

‘I’m only sorry they have gone for so little. Tell me when the money is
nearly at an end again, and you shall have more. It’s all right; the novel
will be done soon.’

And that night he worked until twelve o’clock, doggedly, fiercely.

The next day was Sunday. As a rule he made it a day of rest, and almost
perforce, for the depressing influence of Sunday in London made work too
difficult. Then, it was the day on which he either went to see his own
particular friends or was visited by them.

‘Do you expect anyone this evening?’ Amy inquired.

‘Biffen will look in, I dare say. Perhaps Milvain.’

‘I think I shall take Willie to mother’s. I shall be back before eight.’

‘Amy, don’t say anything about the books.’

‘No, no.’

‘I suppose they always ask you when we think of removing over the way?’

He pointed in a direction that suggested Marylebone Workhouse. Amy tried
to laugh, but a woman with a child in her arms has no keen relish for such

‘I don’t talk to them about our affairs,’ she said.

‘That’s best.’

She left home about three o’clock, the servant going with her to carry the

At five a familiar knock sounded through the flat; it was a heavy rap
followed by half-a-dozen light ones, like a reverberating echo, the last
stroke scarcely audible. Reardon laid down his book, but kept his pipe in
his mouth, and went to the door. A tall, thin man stood there, with a
slouch hat and long grey overcoat. He shook hands silently, hung his hat
in the passage, and came forward into the study.

His name was Harold Biffen, and, to judge from his appearance, he did not
belong to the race of common mortals. His excessive meagreness would all
but have qualified him to enter an exhibition in the capacity of living
skeleton, and the garments which hung upon this framework would perhaps
have sold for three-and-sixpence at an old-clothes dealer’s. But the man
was superior to these accidents of flesh and raiment. He had a fine face:
large, gentle eyes, nose slightly aquiline, small and delicate mouth.
Thick black hair fell to his coat-collar; he wore a heavy moustache and a
full beard. In his gait there was a singular dignity; only a man of
cultivated mind and graceful character could move and stand as he did.

His first act on entering the room was to take from his pocket a pipe, a
pouch, a little tobacco-stopper, and a box of matches, all of which he
arranged carefully on a corner of the central table. Then he drew forward
a chair and seated himself.

‘Take your top-coat off;’ said Reardon.

‘Thanks, not this evening.’

‘Why the deuce not?’

‘Not this evening, thanks.’

The reason, as soon as Reardon sought for it, was obvious. Biffen had no
ordinary coat beneath the other. To have referred to this fact would have
been indelicate; the novelist of course understood it, and smiled, but
with no mirth.

‘Let me have your Sophocles,’ were the visitor’s next words.

Reardon offered him a volume of the Oxford Pocket Classics.

‘I prefer the Wunder, please.’

‘It’s gone, my boy.’


‘Wanted a little cash.’

Biffen uttered a sound in which remonstrance and sympathy were blended.

‘I’m sorry to hear that; very sorry. Well, this must do. Now, I want to
know how you scan this chorus in the “Oedipus Rex.”’

Reardon took the volume, considered, and began to read aloud with metric

‘Choriambics, eh?’ cried the other. ‘Possible, of course; but treat them
as Ionics a minore with an anacrusis, and see if they don’t go better.’

He involved himself in terms of pedantry, and with such delight that his
eyes gleamed. Having delivered a technical lecture, he began to read in
illustration, producing quite a different effect from that of the rhythm
as given by his friend. And the reading was by no means that of a pedant,
rather of a poet.

For half an hour the two men talked Greek metres as if they lived in a
world where the only hunger known could be satisfied by grand or sweet

They had first met in an amusing way. Not long after the publication of
his book ‘On Neutral Ground’ Reardon was spending a week at Hastings. A
rainy day drove him to the circulating library, and as he was looking
along the shelves for something readable a voice near at hand asked the
attendant if he had anything ‘by Edwin Reardon.’ The novelist turned in
astonishment; that any casual mortal should inquire for his books seemed
incredible. Of course there was nothing by that author in the library, and
he who had asked the question walked out again. On the morrow Reardon
encountered this same man at a lonely part of the shore; he looked at him,
and spoke a word or two of common civility; they got into conversation,
with the result that Edwin told the story of yesterday. The stranger
introduced himself as Harold Biffen, an author in a small way, and a
teacher whenever he could get pupils; an abusive review had interested him
in Reardon’s novels, but as yet he knew nothing of them but the names.

Their tastes were found to be in many respects sympathetic, and after
returning to London they saw each other frequently. Biffen was always in
dire poverty, and lived in the oddest places; he had seen harder trials
than even Reardon himself. The teaching by which he partly lived was of a
kind quite unknown to the respectable tutorial world. In these days of
examinations, numbers of men in a poor position—clerks chiefly—conceive
a hope that by ‘passing’ this, that, or the other formal test they may
open for themselves a new career. Not a few such persons nourish
preposterous ambitions; there are warehouse clerks privately preparing
(without any means or prospect of them) for a call to the Bar, drapers’
assistants who ‘go in’ for the preliminary examination of the College of
Surgeons, and untaught men innumerable who desire to procure enough show
of education to be eligible for a curacy. Candidates of this stamp
frequently advertise in the newspapers for cheap tuition, or answer
advertisements which are intended to appeal to them; they pay from
sixpence to half-a-crown an hour—rarely as much as the latter sum.
Occasionally it happened that Harold Biffen had three or four such pupils
in hand, and extraordinary stories he could draw from his large experience
in this sphere.

Then as to his authorship.—But shortly after the discussion of Greek
metres he fell upon the subject of his literary projects, and, by no means
for the first time, developed the theory on which he worked.

‘I have thought of a new way of putting it. What I really aim at is an
absolute realism in the sphere of the ignobly decent. The field, as I
understand it, is a new one; I don’t know any writer who has treated
ordinary vulgar life with fidelity and seriousness. Zola writes deliberate
tragedies; his vilest figures become heroic from the place they fill in a
strongly imagined drama. I want to deal with the essentially unheroic,
with the day-to-day life of that vast majority of people who are at the
mercy of paltry circumstance. Dickens understood the possibility of such
work, but his tendency to melodrama on the one hand, and his humour on the
other, prevented him from thinking of it. An instance, now. As I came
along by Regent’s Park half an hour ago a man and a girl were walking
close in front of me, love-making; I passed them slowly and heard a good
deal of their talk—it was part of the situation that they should pay
no heed to a stranger’s proximity. Now, such a love-scene as that has
absolutely never been written down; it was entirely decent, yet vulgar to
the nth power. Dickens would have made it ludicrous—a gross
injustice. Other men who deal with low-class life would perhaps have
preferred idealising it—an absurdity. For my own part, I am going to
reproduce it verbatim, without one single impertinent suggestion of any
point of view save that of honest reporting. The result will be something
unutterably tedious. Precisely. That is the stamp of the ignobly decent
life. If it were anything but tedious it would be untrue. I speak, of
course, of its effect upon the ordinary reader.’

‘I couldn’t do it,’ said Reardon.

‘Certainly you couldn’t. You—well, you are a psychological realist
in the sphere of culture. You are impatient of vulgar circumstances.’

‘In a great measure because my life has been martyred by them.’

‘And for that very same reason I delight in them,’ cried Biffen. ‘You are
repelled by what has injured you; I am attracted by it. This divergence is
very interesting; but for that, we should have resembled each other so
closely. You know that by temper we are rabid idealists, both of us.’

‘I suppose so.’

‘But let me go on. I want, among other things, to insist upon the fateful
power of trivial incidents. No one has yet dared to do this seriously. It
has often been done in farce, and that’s why farcical writing so often
makes one melancholy. You know my stock instances of the kind of thing I
mean. There was poor Allen, who lost the most valuable opportunity of his
life because he hadn’t a clean shirt to put on; and Williamson, who would
probably have married that rich girl but for the grain of dust that got
into his eye, and made him unable to say or do anything at the critical

Reardon burst into a roar of laughter.

‘There you are!’ cried Biffen, with friendly annoyance. ‘You take the
conventional view. If you wrote of these things you would represent them
as laughable.’

‘They are laughable,’ asserted the other, ‘however serious to the persons
concerned. The mere fact of grave issues in life depending on such paltry
things is monstrously ludicrous. Life is a huge farce, and the advantage
of possessing a sense of humour is that it enables one to defy fate with
mocking laughter.’

‘That’s all very well, but it isn’t an original view. I am not lacking in
sense of humour, but I prefer to treat these aspects of life from an
impartial standpoint. The man who laughs takes the side of a cruel
omnipotence, if one can imagine such a thing.

I want to take no side at all; simply to say, Look, this is the kind of
thing that happens.’

‘I admire your honesty, Biffen,’ said Reardon, sighing. ‘You will never
sell work of this kind, yet you have the courage to go on with it because
you believe in it.’

‘I don’t know; I may perhaps sell it some day.’

‘In the meantime,’ said Reardon, laying down his pipe, ‘suppose we eat a
morsel of something. I’m rather hungry.’

In the early days of his marriage Reardon was wont to offer the friends
who looked in on Sunday evening a substantial supper; by degrees the meal
had grown simpler, until now, in the depth of his poverty, he made no
pretence of hospitable entertainment. It was only because he knew that
Biffen as often as not had nothing whatever to eat that he did not
hesitate to offer him a slice of bread and butter and a cup of tea. They
went into the back room, and over the Spartan fare continued to discuss
aspects of fiction.

‘I shall never,’ said Biffen, ‘write anything like a dramatic scene. Such
things do happen in life, but so very rarely that they are nothing to my
purpose. Even when they happen, by-the-bye, it is in a shape that would be
useless to the ordinary novelist; he would have to cut away this
circumstance, and add that. Why? I should like to know. Such
conventionalism results from stage necessities. Fiction hasn’t yet
outgrown the influence of the stage on which it originated. Whatever a man
writes FOR EFFECT is wrong and bad.’

‘Only in your view. There may surely exist such a thing as the ART of

‘It is worked out. We must have a rest from it. You, now—the best
things you have done are altogether in conflict with novelistic
conventionalities. It was because that blackguard review of “On Neutral
Ground” clumsily hinted this that I first thought of you with interest.
No, no; let us copy life. When the man and woman are to meet for a great
scene of passion, let it all be frustrated by one or other of them having
a bad cold in the head, and so on. Let the pretty girl get a disfiguring
pimple on her nose just before the ball at which she is going to shine.
Show the numberless repulsive features of common decent life. Seriously,
coldly; not a hint of facetiousness, or the thing becomes different.’

About eight o’clock Reardon heard his wife’s knock at the door. On opening
he saw not only Amy and the servant, the latter holding Willie in her
arms, but with them Jasper Milvain.

‘I have been at Mrs Yule’s,’ Jasper explained as he came in. ‘Have you
anyone here?’


‘Ah, then we’ll discuss realism.’

‘That’s over for the evening. Greek metres also.’

‘Thank Heaven!’

The three men seated themselves with joking and laughter, and the smoke of
their pipes gathered thickly in the little room. It was half an hour
before Amy joined them. Tobacco was no disturbance to her, and she enjoyed
the kind of talk that was held on these occasions; but it annoyed her that
she could no longer play the hostess at a merry supper-table.

‘Why ever are you sitting in your overcoat, Mr Biffen?’ were her first
words when she entered.

‘Please excuse me, Mrs Reardon. It happens to be more convenient this

She was puzzled, but a glance from her husband warned her not to pursue
the subject.

Biffen always behaved to Amy with a sincerity of respect which had made
him a favourite with her. To him, poor fellow, Reardon seemed supremely
blessed. That a struggling man of letters should have been able to marry,
and such a wife, was miraculous in Biffen’s eyes. A woman’s love was to
him the unattainable ideal; already thirty-five years old, he had no
prospect of ever being rich enough to assure himself a daily dinner;
marriage was wildly out of the question. Sitting here, he found it very
difficult not to gaze at Amy with uncivil persistency. Seldom in his life
had he conversed with educated women, and the sound of this clear voice
was always more delightful to him than any music.

Amy took a place near to him, and talked in her most charming way of such
things as she knew interested him. Biffen’s deferential attitude as he
listened and replied was in strong contrast with the careless ease which
marked Jasper Milvain. The realist would never smoke in Amy’s presence,
but Jasper puffed jovial clouds even whilst she was conversing with him.

‘Whelpdale came to see me last night,’ remarked Milvain, presently. ‘His
novel is refused on all hands. He talks of earning a living as a
commission agent for some sewing-machine people.’

‘I can’t understand how his book should be positively refused,’ said
Reardon. ‘The last wasn’t altogether a failure.’

‘Very nearly. And this one consists of nothing but a series of
conversations between two people. It is really a dialogue, not a novel at
all. He read me some twenty pages, and I no longer wondered that he
couldn’t sell it.’

‘Oh, but it has considerable merit,’ put in Biffen. ‘The talk is
remarkably true.’

‘But what’s the good of talk that leads to nothing?’ protested Jasper.

‘It’s a bit of real life.’

‘Yes, but it has no market value. You may write what you like, so long as
people are willing to read you. Whelpdale’s a clever fellow, but he can’t
hit a practical line.’

‘Like some other people I have heard of;’ said Reardon, laughing.

‘But the odd thing is, that he always strikes one as practical-minded.
Don’t you feel that, Mrs Reardon?’

He and Amy talked for a few minutes, and Reardon, seemingly lost in
meditation, now and then observed them from the corner of his eye.

At eleven o’clock husband and wife were alone again.

‘You don’t mean to say,’ exclaimed Amy, ‘that Biffen has sold his coat?’

‘Or pawned it.’

‘But why not the overcoat?’

‘Partly, I should think, because it’s the warmer of the two; partly,
perhaps, because the other would fetch more.’

‘That poor man will die of starvation, some day, Edwin.’

‘I think it not impossible.’

‘I hope you gave him something to eat?’

‘Oh yes. But I could see he didn’t like to take as much as he wanted. I
don’t think of him with so much pity as I used to; that’s a result of
suffering oneself.’

Amy set her lips and sighed.


The last volume was written in fourteen days. In this achievement Reardon
rose almost to heroic pitch, for he had much to contend with beyond the
mere labour of composition. Scarcely had he begun when a sharp attack of
lumbago fell upon him; for two or three days it was torture to support
himself at the desk, and he moved about like a cripple. Upon this ensued
headaches, sore-throat, general enfeeblement. And before the end of the
fortnight it was necessary to think of raising another small sum of money;
he took his watch to the pawnbroker’s (you can imagine that it would not
stand as security for much), and sold a few more books. All this
notwithstanding, here was the novel at length finished. When he had
written ‘The End’ he lay back, closed his eyes, and let time pass in
blankness for a quarter of an hour.

It remained to determine the title. But his brain refused another effort;
after a few minutes’ feeble search he simply took the name of the chief
female character, Margaret Home. That must do for the book. Already, with
the penning of the last word, all its scenes, personages, dialogues had
slipped away into oblivion; he knew and cared nothing more about them.

‘Amy, you will have to correct the proofs for me. Never as long as I live
will I look upon a page of this accursed novel. It has all but killed me.’

‘The point is,’ replied Amy, ‘that here we have it complete. Pack it up
and take it to the publishers’ to-morrow morning.’

‘I will.’

‘And—you will ask them to advance you a few pounds?’

‘I must.’

But that undertaking was almost as hard to face as a rewriting of the last
volume would have been. Reardon had such superfluity of sensitiveness
that, for his own part, he would far rather have gone hungry than ask for
money not legally his due. To-day there was no choice. In the ordinary
course of business it would be certainly a month before he heard the
publishers’ terms, and perhaps the Christmas season might cause yet more
delay. Without borrowing, he could not provide for the expenses of more
than another week or two.

His parcel under his arm, he entered the ground-floor office, and desired
to see that member of the firm with whom he had previously had personal
relations. This gentleman was not in town; he would be away for a few
days. Reardon left the manuscript, and came out into the street again.

He crossed, and looked up at the publishers’ windows from the opposite
pavement. ‘Do they suspect in what wretched circumstances I am? Would it
surprise them to know all that depends upon that budget of paltry
scribbling? I suppose not; it must be a daily experience with them. Well,
I must write a begging letter.’

It was raining and windy. He went slowly homewards, and was on the point
of entering the public door of the flats when his uneasiness became so
great that he turned and walked past. If he went in, he must at once write
his appeal for money, and he felt that he could not. The degradation
seemed too great.

Was there no way of getting over the next few weeks? Rent, of course,
would be due at Christmas, but that payment might be postponed; it was
only a question of buying food and fuel. Amy had offered to ask her mother
for a few pounds; it would be cowardly to put this task upon her now that
he had promised to meet the difficulty himself. What man in all London
could and would lend him money? He reviewed the list of his acquaintances,
but there was only one to whom he could appeal with the slightest hope—that
was Carter.

Half an hour later he entered that same hospital door through which, some
years ago, he had passed as a half-starved applicant for work. The matron
met him.

‘Is Mr Carter here?’

‘No, sir. But we expect him any minute. Will you wait?’

He entered the familiar office, and sat down. At the table where he had
been wont to work, a young clerk was writing. If only all the events of
the last few years could be undone, and he, with no soul dependent upon
him, be once more earning his pound a week in this room! What a happy man
he was in those days!

Nearly half an hour passed. It is the common experience of beggars to have
to wait. Then Carter came in with quick step; he wore a heavy ulster of
the latest fashion, new gloves, a resplendent silk hat; his cheeks were
rosy from the east wind.

‘Ha, Reardon! How do? how do? Delighted to see you!’

‘Are you very busy?’

‘Well, no, not particularly. A few cheques to sign, and we’re just getting
out our Christmas appeals. You remember?’

He laughed gaily. There was a remarkable freedom from snobbishness in this
young man; the fact of Reardon’s intellectual superiority had long ago
counteracted Carter’s social prejudices.

‘I should like to have a word with you.’

‘Right you are!’

They went into a small inner room. Reardon’s pulse beat at fever-rate; his
tongue was cleaving to his palate.

‘What is it, old man?’ asked the secretary, seating himself and flinging
one of his legs over the other. ‘You look rather seedy, do you know. Why
the deuce don’t you and your wife look us up now and then?’

‘I’ve had a hard pull to finish my novel.’

‘Finished, is it? I’m glad to hear that. When’ll it be out? I’ll send
scores of people to Mudie’s after it.

‘Thanks; but I don’t think much of it, to tell you the truth.’

‘Oh, we know what that means.’

Reardon was talking like an automaton. It seemed to him that he turned
screws and pressed levers for the utterance of his next words.

‘I may as well say at once what I have come for. Could you lend me ten
pounds for a month—in fact, until I get the money for my book?’

The secretary’s countenance fell, though not to that expression of utter
coldness which would have come naturally under the circumstances to a
great many vivacious men. He seemed genuinely embarrassed.

‘By Jove! I—confound it! To tell you the truth, I haven’t ten pounds
to lend. Upon my word, I haven’t, Reardon! These infernal housekeeping
expenses! I don’t mind telling you, old man, that Edith and I have been
pushing the pace rather.’ He laughed, and thrust his hands down into his
trousers-pockets. ‘We pay such a darned rent, you know—hundred and
twenty-five. We’ve only just been saying we should have to draw it mild
for the rest of the winter. But I’m infernally sorry; upon my word I am.’

‘And I am sorry to have annoyed you by the unseasonable request.’

‘Devilish seasonable, Reardon, I assure you!’ cried the secretary, and
roared at his joke. It put him into a better temper than ever, and he said
at length: ‘I suppose a fiver wouldn’t be much use?—For a month, you
say?—I might manage a fiver, I think.’

‘It would be very useful. But on no account if——’

‘No, no; I could manage a fiver, for a month. Shall I give you a cheque?’

‘I’m ashamed——’

‘Not a bit of it! I’ll go and write the cheque.’

Reardon’s face was burning. Of the conversation that followed when Carter
again presented himself he never recalled a word. The bit of paper was
crushed together in his hand. Out in the street again, he all but threw it
away, dreaming for the moment that it was a ‘bus ticket or a patent
medicine bill.

He reached home much after the dinner-hour. Amy was surprised at his long

‘Got anything?’ she asked.


It was half his intention to deceive her, to say that the publishers had
advanced him five pounds. But that would be his first word of untruth to
Amy, and why should he be guilty of it? He told her all that had happened.
The result of this frankness was something that he had not anticipated;
Amy exhibited profound vexation.

‘Oh, you SHOULDN’T have done that!’ she exclaimed. ‘Why didn’t you come
home and tell me? I would have gone to mother at once.’

‘But does it matter?’

‘Of course it does,’ she replied sharply. ‘Mr Carter will tell his wife,
and how pleasant that is?’

‘I never thought of that. And perhaps it wouldn’t have seemed to me so
annoying as it does to you.’

‘Very likely not.’

She turned abruptly away, and stood at a distance in gloomy muteness.

‘Well,’ she said at length, ‘there’s no helping it now. Come and have your

‘You have taken away my appetite.’

‘Nonsense! I suppose you’re dying of hunger.’

They had a very uncomfortable meal, exchanging few words. On Amy’s face
was a look more resembling bad temper than anything Reardon had ever seen
there. After dinner he went and sat alone in the study. Amy did not come
near him. He grew stubbornly angry; remembering the pain he had gone
through, he felt that Amy’s behaviour to him was cruel. She must come and
speak when she would.

At six o’clock she showed her face in the doorway and asked if he would
come to tea.

‘Thank you,’ he replied, ‘I had rather stay here.’

‘As you please.’

And he sat alone until about nine. It was only then he recollected that he
must send a note to the publishers, calling their attention to the parcel
he had left. He wrote it, and closed with a request that they would let
him hear as soon as they conveniently could. As he was putting on his hat
and coat to go out and post the letter Amy opened the dining-room door.

‘You’re going out?’


‘Shall you be long?’

‘I think not.’

He was away only a few minutes. On returning he went first of all into the
study, but the thought of Amy alone in the other room would not let him
rest. He looked in and saw that she was sitting without a fire.

‘You can’t stay here in the cold, Amy.’

‘I’m afraid I must get used to it,’ she replied, affecting to be closely
engaged upon some sewing.

That strength of character which it had always delighted him to read in
her features was become an ominous hardness. He felt his heart sink as he
looked at her.

‘Is poverty going to have the usual result in our case?’ he asked, drawing

‘I never pretended that I could be indifferent to it.’

‘Still, don’t you care to try and resist it?’

She gave no answer. As usual in conversation with an aggrieved woman it
was necessary to go back from the general to the particular.

‘I’m afraid,’ he said, ‘that the Carters already knew pretty well how
things were going with us.’

‘That’s a very different thing. But when it comes to asking them for money—’

‘I’m very sorry. I would rather have done anything if I had known how it
would annoy you.’

‘If we have to wait a month, five pounds will be very little use to us.’

She detailed all manner of expenses that had to be met—outlay there
was no possibility of avoiding so long as their life was maintained on its
present basis.

‘However, you needn’t trouble any more about it. I’ll see to it. Now you
are free from your book try to rest.’

‘Come and sit by the fire. There’s small chance of rest for me if we are
thinking unkindly of each other.’

A doleful Christmas. Week after week went by and Reardon knew that Amy
must have exhausted the money he had given her. But she made no more
demands upon him, and necessaries were paid for in the usual way. He
suffered from a sense of humiliation; sometimes he found it difficult to
look in his wife’s face.

When the publishers’ letter came it contained an offer of seventy-five
pounds for the copyright of ‘Margaret Home,’ twenty-five more to be paid
if the sale in three-volume form should reach a certain number of copies.

Here was failure put into unmistakable figures. Reardon said to himself
that it was all over with his profession of authorship. The book could not
possibly succeed even to the point of completing his hundred pounds; it
would meet with universal contempt, and indeed deserved nothing better.

‘Shall you accept this?’ asked Amy, after dreary silence.

‘No one else would offer terms as good.’

‘Will they pay you at once?’

‘I must ask them to.’

Well, it was seventy-five pounds in hand. The cheque came as soon as it
was requested, and Reardon’s face brightened for the moment. Blessed
money! root of all good, until the world invent some saner economy.

‘How much do you owe your mother?’ he inquired, without looking at Amy.

‘Six pounds,’ she answered coldly.

‘And five to Carter; and rent, twelve pounds ten. We shall have a matter
of fifty pounds to go on with.’


The prudent course was so obvious that he marvelled at Amy’s failing to
suggest it. For people in their circumstances to be paying a rent of fifty
pounds when a home could be found for half the money was recklessness;
there would be no difficulty in letting the flat for this last year of
their lease, and the cost of removal would be trifling. The mental relief
of such a change might enable him to front with courage a problem in any
case very difficult, and, as things were, desperate. Three months ago, in
a moment of profoundest misery, he had proposed this step; courage failed
him to speak of it again, Amy’s look and voice were too vivid in his
memory. Was she not capable of such a sacrifice for his sake? Did she
prefer to let him bear all the responsibility of whatever might result
from a futile struggle to keep up appearances?

Between him and her there was no longer perfect confidence. Her silence
meant reproach, and—whatever might have been the case before—there
was no doubt that she now discussed him with her mother, possibly with
other people. It was not likely that she concealed his own opinion of the
book he had just finished; all their acquaintances would be prepared to
greet its publication with private scoffing or with mournful shaking of
the head. His feeling towards Amy entered upon a new phase. The stability
of his love was a source of pain; condemning himself, he felt at the same
time that he was wronged. A coldness which was far from representing the
truth began to affect his manner and speech, and Amy did not seem to
notice it, at all events she made no kind of protest. They no longer
talked of the old subjects, but of those mean concerns of material life
which formerly they had agreed to dismiss as quickly as possible. Their
relations to each other—not long ago an inexhaustible topic—would
not bear spoken comment; both were too conscious of the danger-signal when
they looked that way.

In the time of waiting for the publishers’ offer, and now again when he
was asking himself how he should use the respite granted him, Reardon
spent his days at the British Museum. He could not read to much purpose,
but it was better to sit here among strangers than seem to be idling under
Amy’s glance. Sick of imaginative writing, he turned to the studies which
had always been most congenial, and tried to shape out a paper or two like
those he had formerly disposed of to editors. Among his unused material
lay a mass of notes he had made in a reading of Diogenes Laertius, and it
seemed to him now that he might make something salable out of these
anecdotes of the philosophers. In a happier mood he could have written
delightfully on such a subject—not learnedly, but in the strain of a
modern man whose humour and sensibility find free play among the classic
ghosts; even now he was able to recover something of the light touch which
had given value to his published essays.

Meanwhile the first number of The Current had appeared, and Jasper Milvain
had made a palpable hit. Amy spoke very often of the article called
‘Typical Readers,’ and her interest in its author was freely manifested.
Whenever a mention of Jasper came under her notice she read it out to her
husband. Reardon smiled and appeared glad, but he did not care to discuss
Milvain with the same frankness as formerly.

One evening at the end of January he told Amy what he had been writing at
the Museum, and asked her if she would care to hear it read.

‘I began to wonder what you were doing,’ she replied.

‘Then why didn’t you ask me?’

‘I was rather afraid to.’

‘Why afraid?’

‘It would have seemed like reminding you that—you know what I mean.’

‘That a month or two more will see us at the same crisis again. Still, I
had rather you had shown an interest in my doings.’

After a pause Amy asked:

‘Do you think you can get a paper of this kind accepted?’

‘It isn’t impossible. I think it’s rather well done. Let me read you a

‘Where will you send it?’ she interrupted.

‘To The Wayside.’

‘Why not try The Current? Ask Milvain to introduce you to Mr Fadge. They
pay much better, you know.’

‘But this isn’t so well suited for Fadge. And I much prefer to be
independent, as long as it’s possible.’

‘That’s one of your faults, Edwin,’ remarked his wife, mildly. ‘It’s only
the strongest men that can make their way independently. You ought to use
every means that offers.’

‘Seeing that I am so weak?’

‘I didn’t think it would offend you. I only meant—-’

‘No, no; you are quite right. Certainly, I am one of the men who need all
the help they can get. But I assure you, this thing won’t do for The

‘What a pity you will go back to those musty old times! Now think of that
article of Milvain’s. If only you could do something of that kind! What do
people care about Diogenes and his tub and his lantern?’

‘My dear girl, Diogenes Laertius had neither tub nor lantern, that I know
of. You are making a mistake; but it doesn’t matter.’

‘No, I don’t think it does.’ The caustic note was not very pleasant on
Amy’s lips. ‘Whoever he was, the mass of readers will be frightened by his

‘Well, we have to recognise that the mass of readers will never care for
anything I do.’

‘You will never convince me that you couldn’t write in a popular way if
you tried. I’m sure you are quite as clever as Milvain—’

Reardon made an impatient gesture.

‘Do leave Milvain aside for a little! He and I are as unlike as two men
could be. What’s the use of constantly comparing us?’

Amy looked at him. He had never spoken to her so brusquely.

‘How can you say that I am constantly comparing you?’

‘If not in spoken words, then in your thoughts.’

‘That’s not a very nice thing to say, Edwin.’

‘You make it so unmistakable, Amy. What I mean is, that you are always
regretting the difference between him and me. You lament that I can’t
write in that attractive way. Well, I lament it myself—for your
sake. I wish I had Milvain’s peculiar talent, so that I could get
reputation and money. But I haven’t, and there’s an end of it. It
irritates a man to be perpetually told of his disadvantages.’

‘I will never mention Milvain’s name again,’ said Amy coldly.

‘Now that’s ridiculous, and you know it.’

‘I feel the same about your irritation. I can’t see that I have given any
cause for it.’

‘Then we’ll talk no more of the matter.’

Reardon threw his manuscript aside and opened a book. Amy never asked him
to resume his intention of reading what he had written.

However, the paper was accepted. It came out in The Wayside for March, and
Reardon received seven pounds ten for it. By that time he had written
another thing of the same gossipy kind, suggested by Pliny’s Letters. The
pleasant occupation did him good, but there was no possibility of pursuing
this course. ‘Margaret Home’ would be published in April; he might get the
five-and-twenty pounds contingent upon a certain sale, yet that could in
no case be paid until the middle of the year, and long before then he
would be penniless. His respite drew to an end.

But now he took counsel of no one; as far as it was possible he lived in
solitude, never seeing those of his acquaintances who were outside the
literary world, and seldom even his colleagues. Milvain was so busy that
he had only been able to look in twice or thrice since Christmas, and
Reardon nowadays never went to Jasper’s lodgings.

He had the conviction that all was over with the happiness of his married
life, though how the events which were to express this ruin would shape
themselves he could not foresee. Amy was revealing that aspect of her
character to which he had been blind, though a practical man would have
perceived it from the first; so far from helping him to support poverty,
she perhaps would even refuse to share it with him. He knew that she was
slowly drawing apart; already there was a divorce between their minds, and
he tortured himself in uncertainty as to how far he retained her
affections. A word of tenderness, a caress, no longer met with response
from her; her softest mood was that of mere comradeship. All the warmth of
her nature was expended upon the child; Reardon learnt how easy it is for
a mother to forget that both parents have a share in her offspring.

He was beginning to dislike the child. But for Willie’s existence Amy
would still love him with undivided heart; not, perhaps, so passionately
as once, but still with lover’s love. And Amy understood—or, at all
events, remarked—this change in him. She was aware that he seldom
asked a question about Willie, and that he listened with indifference when
she spoke of the little fellow’s progress. In part offended, she was also
in part pleased.

But for the child, mere poverty, he said to himself, should never have
sundered them. In the strength of his passion he could have overcome all
her disappointments; and, indeed, but for that new care, he would most
likely never have fallen to this extremity of helplessness. It is natural
in a weak and sensitive man to dream of possibilities disturbed by the
force of circumstance. For one hour which he gave to conflict with his
present difficulties, Reardon spent many in contemplation of the happiness
that might have been.

Even yet, it needed but a little money to redeem all. Amy had no
extravagant aspirations; a home of simple refinement and freedom from
anxiety would restore her to her nobler self. How could he find fault with
her? She knew nothing of such sordid life as he had gone through, and to
lack money for necessities seemed to her degrading beyond endurance. Why,
even the ordinary artisan’s wife does not suffer such privations as hers
at the end of the past year. For lack of that little money his life must
be ruined. Of late he had often thought about the rich uncle, John Yule,
who might perhaps leave something to Amy; but the hope was so uncertain.
And supposing such a thing were to happen; would it be perfectly easy to
live upon his wife’s bounty—perhaps exhausting a small capital, so
that, some years hence, their position would be no better than before? Not
long ago, he could have taken anything from Amy’s hand; would it be so
simple since the change that had come between them?

Having written his second magazine-article (it was rejected by two
editors, and he had no choice but to hold it over until sufficient time
had elapsed to allow of his again trying The Wayside), he saw that he must
perforce plan another novel. But this time he was resolute not to
undertake three volumes. The advertisements informed him that numbers of
authors were abandoning that procrustean system; hopeless as he was, he
might as well try his chance with a book which could be written in a few
weeks. And why not a glaringly artificial story with a sensational title?
It could not be worse than what he had last written.

So, without a word to Amy, he put aside his purely intellectual work and
began once more the search for a ‘plot.’ This was towards the end of
February. The proofs of ‘Margaret Home’ were coming in day by day; Amy had
offered to correct them, but after all he preferred to keep his shame to
himself as long as possible, and with a hurried reading he dismissed sheet
after sheet. His imagination did not work the more happily for this
repugnant task; still, he hit at length upon a conception which seemed
absurd enough for the purpose before him. Whether he could persevere with
it even to the extent of one volume was very doubtful. But it should not
be said of him that he abandoned his wife and child to penury without one
effort of the kind that Milvain and Amy herself had recommended.

Writing a page or two of manuscript daily, and with several holocausts to
retard him, he had done nearly a quarter of the story when there came a
note from Jasper telling of Mrs Milvain’s death. He handed it across the
breakfast-table to Amy, and watched her as she read it.

‘I suppose it doesn’t alter his position,’ Amy remarked, without much

‘I suppose not appreciably. He told me once his mother had a sufficient
income; but whatever she leaves will go to his sisters, I should think. He
has never said much to me.’

Nearly three weeks passed before they heard anything more from Jasper
himself; then he wrote, again from the country, saying that he purposed
bringing his sisters to live in London. Another week, and one evening he
appeared at the door.

A want of heartiness in Reardon’s reception of him might have been
explained as gravity natural under the circumstances. But Jasper had
before this become conscious that he was not welcomed here quite so
cheerily as in the old days. He remarked it distinctly on that evening
when he accompanied Amy home from Mrs Yule’s; since then he had allowed
his pressing occupations to be an excuse for the paucity of his visits. It
seemed to him perfectly intelligible that Reardon, sinking into literary
insignificance, should grow cool to a man entering upon a successful
career; the vein of cynicism in Jasper enabled him to pardon a weakness of
this kind, which in some measure flattered him. But he both liked and
respected Reardon, and at present he was in the mood to give expression to
his warmer feelings.

‘Your book is announced, I see,’ he said with an accent of pleasure, as
soon as he had seated himself.

‘I didn’t know it.’

‘Yes. “New novel by the author of ‘On Neutral Ground.’” Down for the
sixteenth of April. And I have a proposal to make about it. Will you let
me ask Fadge to have it noticed in “Books of the Month,” in the May

‘I strongly advise you to let it take its chance. The book isn’t worth
special notice, and whoever undertook to review it for Fadge would either
have to lie, or stultify the magazine.’

Jasper turned to Amy.

‘Now what is to be done with a man like this? What is one to say to him,
Mrs Reardon?’

‘Edwin dislikes the book,’ Amy replied, carelessly.

‘That has nothing to do with the matter. We know quite well that in
anything he writes there’ll be something for a well-disposed reviewer to
make a good deal of. If Fadge will let me, I should do the thing myself.’

Neither Reardon nor his wife spoke.

‘Of course,’ went on Milvain, looking at the former, ‘if you had rather I
left it alone—’

‘I had much rather. Please don’t say anything about it.’

There was an awkward silence. Amy broke it by saying:

‘Are your sisters in town, Mr Milvain?’

‘Yes. We came up two days ago. I found lodgings for them not far from
Mornington Road. Poor girls! they don’t quite know where they are, yet. Of
course they will keep very quiet for a time, then I must try to get
friends for them. Well, they have one already—your cousin, Miss
Yule. She has already been to see them.’

‘I’m very glad of that.’

Amy took an opportunity of studying his face. There was again a silence as
if of constraint. Reardon, glancing at his wife, said with hesitation:

‘When they care to see other visitors, I’m sure Amy would be very glad—’

‘Certainly!’ his wife added.

‘Thank you very much. Of course I knew I could depend on Mrs Reardon to
show them kindness in that way. But let me speak frankly of something. My
sisters have made quite a friend of Miss Yule, since she was down there
last year. Wouldn’t that’—he turned to Amy—‘cause you a little

Amy had a difficulty in replying. She kept her eyes on the ground.

‘You have had no quarrel with your cousin,’ remarked Reardon.

‘None whatever. It’s only my mother and my uncle.’

‘I can’t imagine Miss Yule having a quarrel with anyone,’ said Jasper.
Then he added quickly: ‘Well, things must shape themselves naturally. We
shall see. For the present they will be fully occupied. Of course it’s
best that they should be. I shall see them every day, and Miss Yule will
come pretty often, I dare say.’

Reardon caught Amy’s eye, but at once looked away again.

‘My word!’ exclaimed Milvain, after a moment’s meditation. ‘It’s well this
didn’t happen a year ago. The girls have no income; only a little cash to
go on with. We shall have our work set. It’s a precious lucky thing that I
have just got a sort of footing.’

Reardon muttered an assent.

‘And what are you doing now?’ Jasper inquired suddenly.

‘Writing a one-volume story.’

‘I’m glad to hear that. Any special plan for its publication?’


‘Then why not offer it to Jedwood? He’s publishing a series of one-volume
novels. You know of Jedwood, don’t you? He was Culpepper’s manager;
started business about half a year ago, and it looks as if he would do
well. He married that woman—what’s her name?—Who wrote “Mr
Henderson’s Wives”?’

‘Never heard of it.’

‘Nonsense!—Miss Wilkes, of course. Well, she married this fellow
Jedwood, and there was a great row about something or other between him
and her publishers. Mrs Boston Wright told me all about it. An astonishing
woman that; a cyclopaedia of the day’s small talk. I’m quite a favourite
with her; she’s promised to help the girls all she can. Well, but I was
talking about Jedwood. Why not offer him this book of yours? He’s eager to
get hold of the new writers. Advertises hugely; he has the whole back page
of The Study about every other week. I suppose Miss Wilkes’s profits are
paying for it. He has just given Markland two hundred pounds for a paltry
little tale that would scarcely swell out to a volume. Markland told me
himself. You know that I’ve scraped an acquaintance with him? Oh! I
suppose I haven’t seen you since then. He’s a dwarfish fellow with only
one eye. Mrs Boston Wright cries him up at every opportunity.’

‘Who IS Mrs Boston Wright?’ asked Reardon, laughing impatiently.

‘Edits The English Girl, you know. She’s had an extraordinary life. Was
born in Mauritius—no, Ceylon—I forget; some such place.
Married a sailor at fifteen. Was shipwrecked somewhere, and only restored
to life after terrific efforts;—her story leaves it all rather
vague. Then she turns up as a newspaper correspondent at the Cape. Gave up
that, and took to some kind of farming, I forget where. Married again
(first husband lost in aforementioned shipwreck), this time a Baptist
minister, and began to devote herself to soup-kitchens in Liverpool.
Husband burned to death, somewhere. She’s next discovered in the thick of
literary society in London. A wonderful woman, I assure you. Must be
nearly fifty, but she looks twenty-five.’

He paused, then added impulsively:

‘Let me take you to one of her evenings—nine on Thursday. Do
persuade him, Mrs Reardon?’

Reardon shook his head.

‘No, no. I should be horribly out of my element.’

‘I can’t see why. You would meet all sorts of well-known people; those you
ought to have met long ago. Better still, let me ask her to send an
invitation for both of you. I’m sure you’d like her, Mrs Reardon. There’s
a good deal of humbug about her, it’s true, but some solid qualities as
well. No one has a word to say against her. And it’s a splendid
advertisement to have her for a friend. She’ll talk about your books and
articles till all is blue.’

Amy gave a questioning look at her husband. But Reardon moved in an
uncomfortable way.

‘We’ll see about it,’ he said. ‘Some day, perhaps.’

‘Let me know whenever you feel disposed. But about Jedwood: I happen to
know a man who reads for him.’

‘Heavens!’ cried Reardon. ‘Who don’t you know?’

‘The simplest thing in the world. At present it’s a large part of my
business to make acquaintances. Why, look you; a man who has to live by
miscellaneous writing couldn’t get on without a vast variety of
acquaintances. One’s own brain would soon run dry; a clever fellow knows
how to use the brains of other people.’

Amy listened with an unconscious smile which expressed keen interest.

‘Oh,’ pursued Jasper, ‘when did you see Whelpdale last?’

‘Haven’t seen him for a long time.’

‘You don’t know what he’s doing? The fellow has set up as a “literary
adviser.” He has an advertisement in The Study every week. “To Young
Authors and Literary Aspirants”—something of the kind. “Advice given
on choice of subjects, MSS. read, corrected, and recommended to
publishers. Moderate terms.” A fact! And what’s more, he made six guineas
in the first fortnight; so he says, at all events. Now that’s one of the
finest jokes I ever heard. A man who can’t get anyone to publish his own
books makes a living by telling other people how to write!’

‘But it’s a confounded swindle!’

‘Oh, I don’t know. He’s capable of correcting the grammar of “literary
aspirants,” and as for recommending to publishers—well, anyone can
recommend, I suppose.’

Reardon’s indignation yielded to laughter.

‘It’s not impossible that he may thrive by this kind of thing.’

‘Not at all,’ assented Jasper.

Shortly after this he looked at his watch.

‘I must be off, my friends. I have something to write before I can go to
my truckle-bed, and it’ll take me three hours at least.

‘Good-bye, old man. Let me know when your story’s finished, and we’ll talk
about it. And think about Mrs Boston Wright; oh, and about that review in
The Current. I wish you’d let me do it. Talk it over with your guide,
philosopher, and friend.’

He indicated Amy, who laughed in a forced way.

When he was gone, the two sat without speaking for several minutes.

‘Do you care to make friends with those girls?’ asked Reardon at length.

‘I suppose in decency I must call upon them?’

‘I suppose so.’

‘You may find them very agreeable.’

‘Oh yes.’

They conversed with their own thoughts for a while. Then Reardon burst out

‘Well, there’s the successful man, you see. Some day he’ll live in a
mansion, and dictate literary opinions to the universe.’

‘How has he offended you?’

‘Offended me? Not at all. I am glad of his cheerful prospects.’

‘Why should you refuse to go among those people? It might be good for you
in several ways.’

‘If the chance had come when I was publishing my best work, I dare say I
shouldn’t have refused. But I certainly shall not present myself as the
author of “Margaret Home,” and the rubbish I’m now writing.’

‘Then you must cease to write rubbish.’

‘Yes. I must cease to write altogether.’

‘And do what?’

‘I wish to Heaven I knew!’


In the spring list of Mr Jedwood’s publications, announcement was made of
a new work by Alfred Yule. It was called ‘English Prose in the Nineteenth
Century,’ and consisted of a number of essays (several of which had
already seen the light in periodicals) strung into continuity. The final
chapter dealt with contemporary writers, more especially those who served
to illustrate the author’s theme—that journalism is the destruction
of prose style: on certain popular writers of the day there was an
outpouring of gall which was not likely to be received as though it were
sweet ointment. The book met with rather severe treatment in critical
columns; it could scarcely be ignored (the safest mode of attack when
one’s author has no expectant public), and only the most skilful could
write of it in a hostile spirit without betraying that some of its strokes
had told. An evening newspaper which piqued itself on independence
indulged in laughing appreciation of the polemical chapter, and the next
day printed a scornful letter from a thinly-disguised correspondent who
assailed both book and reviewer. For the moment people talked more of
Alfred Yule than they had done since his memorable conflict with Clement

The publisher had hoped for this. Mr Jedwood was an energetic and sanguine
man, who had entered upon his business with a determination to rival in a
year or so the houses which had slowly risen into commanding stability. He
had no great capital, but the stroke of fortune which had wedded him to a
popular novelist enabled him to count on steady profit from one source,
and boundless faith in his own judgment urged him to an initial outlay
which made the prudent shake their heads. He talked much of ‘the new era,’
foresaw revolutions in publishing and book-selling, planned every week a
score of untried ventures which should appeal to the democratic generation
just maturing; in the meantime, was ready to publish anything which seemed
likely to get talked about.

The May number of The Current, in its article headed ‘Books of the Month,’
devoted about half a page to ‘English Prose in the Nineteenth Century.’
This notice was a consummate example of the flippant style of attack.
Flippancy, the most hopeless form of intellectual vice, was a
characterising note of Mr Fadge’s periodical; his monthly comments on
publications were already looked for with eagerness by that growing class
of readers who care for nothing but what can be made matter of ridicule.
The hostility of other reviewers was awkward and ineffectual compared with
this venomous banter, which entertained by showing that in the book under
notice there was neither entertainment nor any other kind of interest. To
assail an author without increasing the number of his readers is the
perfection of journalistic skill, and The Current, had it stood alone,
would fully have achieved this end. As it was, silence might have been
better tactics. But Mr Fadge knew that his enemy would smart under the
poisoned pin-points, and that was something gained.

On the day that The Current appeared, its treatment of Alfred Yule was
discussed in Mr Jedwood’s private office. Mr Quarmby, who had intimate
relations with the publisher, happened to look in just as a young man (one
of Mr Jedwood’s ‘readers’) was expressing a doubt whether Fadge himself
was the author of the review.

‘But there’s Fadge’s thumb-mark all down the page,’ cried Mr Quarmby.

‘He inspired the thing, of course; but I rather think it was written by
that fellow Milvain.’

‘Think so?’ asked the publisher.

‘Well, I know with certainty that the notice of Markland’s novel is his
writing, and I have reasons for suspecting that he did Yule’s book as

‘Smart youngster, that,’ remarked Mr Jedwood. ‘Who is he, by-the-bye?’

‘Somebody’s illegitimate son, I believe,’ replied the source of
trustworthy information, with a laugh. ‘Denham says he met him in New York
a year or two ago, under another name.

‘Excuse me,’ interposed Mr Quarmby, ‘there’s some mistake in all that.’

He went on to state what he knew, from Yule himself, concerning Milvain’s
history. Though in this instance a corrector, Mr Quarmby took an
opportunity, a few hours later, of informing Mr Hinks that the attack on
Yule in The Current was almost certainly written by young Milvain, with
the result that when the rumour reached Yule’s ears it was delivered as an
undoubted and well-known fact.

It was a month prior to this that Milvain made his call upon Marian Yule,
on the Sunday when her father was absent. When told of the visit, Yule
assumed a manner of indifference, but his daughter understood that he was
annoyed. With regard to the sisters who would shortly be living in London,
he merely said that Marian must behave as discretion directed her. If she
wished to invite the Miss Milvains to St Paul’s Crescent, he only begged
that the times and seasons of the household might not be disturbed.

As her habit was, Marian took refuge in silence. Nothing could have been
more welcome to her than the proximity of Maud and Dora, but she foresaw
that her own home would not be freely open to them; perhaps it might be
necessary to behave with simple frankness, and let her friends know the
embarrassments of the situation. But that could not be done in the first
instance; the unkindness would seem too great. A day after the arrival of
the girls, she received a note from Dora, and almost at once replied to it
by calling at her friends’ lodgings. A week after that, Maud and Dora came
to St Paul’s Crescent; it was Sunday, and Mr Yule purposely kept away from
home. They had only been once to the house since then, again without
meeting Mr Yule. Marian, however, visited them at their lodgings
frequently; now and then she met Jasper there. The latter never spoke of
her father, and there was no question of inviting him to repeat his call.

In the end, Marian was obliged to speak on the subject with her mother.
Mrs Yule offered an occasion by asking when the Miss Milvains were coming

‘I don’t think I shall ever ask them again,’ Marian replied.

Her mother understood, and looked troubled.

‘I must tell them how it is, that’s all,’ the girl went on. ‘They are
sensible; they won’t be offended with me.’

‘But your father has never had anything to say against them,’ urged Mrs
Yule. ‘Not a word to me, Marian. I’d tell you the truth if he had.’

‘It’s too disagreeable, all the same. I can’t invite them here with
pleasure. Father has grown prejudiced against them all, and he won’t
change. No, I shall just tell them.’

‘It’s very hard for you,’ sighed her mother. ‘If I thought I could do any
good by speaking—but I can’t, my dear.’

‘I know it, mother. Let us go on as we did before.’

The day after this, when Yule came home about the hour of dinner, he
called Marian’s name from within the study. Marian had not left the house
to-day; her work had been set, in the shape of a long task of copying from
disorderly manuscript. She left the sitting-room in obedience to her
father’s summons.

‘Here’s something that will afford you amusement,’ he said, holding to her
the new number of The Current, and indicating the notice of his book.

She read a few lines, then threw the thing on to the table.

‘That kind of writing sickens me,’ she exclaimed, with anger in her eyes.
‘Only base and heartless people can write in that way. You surely won’t
let it trouble you?’

‘Oh, not for a moment,’ her father answered, with exaggerated show of
calm. ‘But I am surprised that you don’t see the literary merit of the
work. I thought it would distinctly appeal to you.’

There was a strangeness in his voice, as well as in the words, which
caused her to look at him inquiringly. She knew him well enough to
understand that such a notice would irritate him profoundly; but why
should he go out of his way to show it her, and with this peculiar
acerbity of manner?

‘Why do you say that, father?’

‘It doesn’t occur to you who may probably have written it?’

She could not miss his meaning; astonishment held her mute for a moment,
then she said:

‘Surely Mr Fadge wrote it himself?’

‘I am told not. I am informed on very good authority that one of his young
gentlemen has the credit of it.’

‘You refer, of course, to Mr Milvain,’ she replied quietly. ‘But I think
that can’t be true.’

He looked keenly at her. He had expected a more decided protest.

‘I see no reason for disbelieving it.’

‘I see every reason, until I have your evidence.’

This was not at all Marian’s natural tone in argument with him. She was
wont to be submissive.

‘I was told,’ he continued, hardening face and voice, ‘by someone who had
it from Jedwood.’

Yule was conscious of untruth in this statement, but his mood would not
allow him to speak ingenuously, and he wished to note the effect upon
Marian of what he said. There were two beliefs in him: on the one hand, he
recognised Fadge in every line of the writing; on the other, he had a
perverse satisfaction in convincing himself that it was Milvain who had
caught so successfully the master’s manner. He was not the kind of man who
can resist an opportunity of justifying, to himself and others, a course
into which he has been led by mingled feelings, all more or less

‘How should Jedwood know?’ asked Marian.

Yule shrugged his shoulders.

‘As if these things didn’t get about among editors and publishers!’

‘In this case, there’s a mistake.’

‘And why, pray?’ His voice trembled with choler. ‘Why need there be a

‘Because Mr Milvain is quite incapable of reviewing your book in such a

‘There is your mistake, my girl. Milvain will do anything that’s asked of
him, provided he’s well enough paid.’

Marian reflected. When she raised her eyes again they were perfectly calm.

‘What has led you to think that?’

‘Don’t I know the type of man? Noscitur ex sociis—have you Latin
enough for that?’

‘You’ll find that you are misinformed,’ Marian replied, and therewith went
from the room.

She could not trust herself to converse longer. A resentment such as her
father had never yet excited in her—such, indeed, as she had seldom,
if ever, conceived—threatened to force utterance for itself in words
which would change the current of her whole life. She saw her father in
his worst aspect, and her heart was shaken by an unnatural revolt from
him. Let his assurance of what he reported be ever so firm, what right had
he to make this use of it? His behaviour was spiteful. Suppose he
entertained suspicions which seemed to make it his duty to warn her
against Milvain, this was not the way to go about it. A father actuated by
simple motives of affection would never speak and look thus.

It was the hateful spirit of literary rancour that ruled him; the spirit
that made people eager to believe all evil, that blinded and maddened.
Never had she felt so strongly the unworthiness of the existence to which
she was condemned. That contemptible review, and now her father’s ignoble
passion—such things were enough to make all literature appear a
morbid excrescence upon human life.

Forgetful of the time, she sat in her bedroom until a knock at the door,
and her mother’s voice, admonished her that dinner was waiting. An impulse
all but caused her to say that she would rather not go down for the meal,
that she wished to be left alone. But this would be weak peevishness. She
just looked at the glass to see that her face bore no unwonted signs, and
descended to take her place as usual.

Throughout the dinner there passed no word of conversation. Yule was at
his blackest; he gobbled a few mouthfuls, then occupied himself with the
evening paper. On rising, he said to Marian:

‘Have you copied the whole of that?’

The tone would have been uncivil if addressed to an impertinent servant.

‘Not much more than half,’ was the cold reply.

‘Can you finish it to-night?’

‘I’m afraid not. I am going out.’

‘Then I must do it myself’

And he went to the study.

Mrs Yule was in an anguish of nervousness.

‘What is it, dear?’ she asked of Marian, in a pleading whisper. ‘Oh, don’t
quarrel with your father! Don’t!’

‘I can’t be a slave, mother, and I can’t be treated unjustly.’

‘What is it? Let me go and speak to him.’

‘It’s no use. We CAN’T live in terror.’

For Mrs Yule this was unimaginable disaster. She had never dreamt that
Marian, the still, gentle Marian, could be driven to revolt. And it had
come with the suddenness of a thunderclap. She wished to ask what had
taken place between father and daughter in the brief interview before
dinner; but Marian gave her no chance, quitting the room upon those last
trembling words.

The girl had resolved to visit her friends, the sisters, and tell them
that in future they must never come to see her at home. But it was no easy
thing for her to stifle her conscience, and leave her father to toil over
that copying which had need of being finished. Not her will, but her
exasperated feeling, had replied to him that she would not do the work;
already it astonished her that she had really spoken such words. And as
the throbbing of her pulses subsided, she saw more clearly into the
motives of this wretched tumult which possessed her. Her mind was harassed
with a fear lest in defending Milvain she had spoken foolishly. Had he not
himself said to her that he might be guilty of base things, just to make
his way? Perhaps it was the intolerable pain of imagining that he had
already made good his words, which robbed her of self-control and made her
meet her father’s rudeness with defiance.

Impossible to carry out her purpose; she could not deliberately leave the
house and spend some hours away with the thought of such wrath and misery
left behind her. Gradually she was returning to her natural self; fear and
penitence were chill at her heart.

She went down to the study, tapped, and entered.

‘Father, I said something that I did not really mean. Of course I shall go
on with the copying and finish it as soon as possible.’

‘You will do nothing of the kind, my girl.’ He was in his usual place,
already working at Marian’s task; he spoke in a low, thick voice. ‘Spend
your evening as you choose, I have no need of you.’

‘I behaved very ill-temperedly. Forgive me, father.’

‘Have the goodness to go away. You hear me?’

His eyes were inflamed, and his discoloured teeth showed themselves
savagely. Marian durst not, really durst not approach him. She hesitated,
but once more a sense of hateful injustice moved within her, and she went
away as quietly as she had entered.

She said to herself that now it was her perfect right to go whither she
would. But the freedom was only in theory; her submissive and timid nature
kept her at home—and upstairs in her own room; for, if she went to
sit with her mother, of necessity she must talk about what had happened,
and that she felt unable to do. Some friend to whom she could unbosom all
her sufferings would now have been very precious to her, but Maud and Dora
were her only intimates, and to them she might not make the full
confession which gives solace.

Mrs Yule did not venture to intrude upon her daughter’s privacy. That
Marian neither went out nor showed herself in the house proved her
troubled state, but the mother had no confidence in her power to comfort.
At the usual time she presented herself in the study with her husband’s
coffee; the face which was for an instant turned to her did not invite
conversation, but distress obliged her to speak.

‘Why are you cross with Marian, Alfred?’

‘You had better ask what she means by her extraordinary behaviour.’

A word of harsh rebuff was the most she had expected. Thus encouraged, she
timidly put another question.

‘How has she behaved?’

‘I suppose you have ears?’

‘But wasn’t there something before that? You spoke so angry to her.’

‘Spoke so angry, did I? She is out, I suppose?’

‘No, she hasn’t gone out.’

‘That’ll do. Don’t disturb me any longer.’

She did not venture to linger.

The breakfast next morning seemed likely to pass without any interchange
of words. But when Yule was pushing back his chair, Marian—who
looked pale and ill—addressed a question to him about the work she
would ordinarily have pursued to-day at the Reading-room. He answered in a
matter-of-fact tone, and for a few minutes they talked on the subject much
as at any other time. Half an hour after, Marian set forth for the Museum
in the usual way. Her father stayed at home.

It was the end of the episode for the present. Marian felt that the best
thing would be to ignore what had happened, as her father evidently
purposed doing. She had asked his forgiveness, and it was harsh in him to
have repelled her; but by now she was able once more to take into
consideration all his trials and toils, his embittered temper and the new
wound he had received. That he should resume his wonted manner was
sufficient evidence of regret on his part. Gladly she would have unsaid
her resentful words; she had been guilty of a childish outburst of temper,
and perhaps had prepared worse sufferings for the future.

And yet, perhaps it was as well that her father should be warned. She was
not all submission, he might try her beyond endurance; there might come a
day when perforce she must stand face to face with him, and make it known
she had her own claims upon life. It was as well he should hold that
possibility in view.

This evening no work was expected of her. Not long after dinner she
prepared for going out; to her mother she mentioned she should be back
about ten o’clock.

‘Give my kind regards to them, dear—if you like to,’ said Mrs Yule
just above her breath.

‘Certainly I will.’


Marian walked to the nearest point of Camden Road, and there waited for an
omnibus, which conveyed her to within easy reach of the street where Maud
and Dora Milvain had their lodgings. This was at the north-east of
Regent’s Park, and no great distance from Mornington Road, where Jasper
still dwelt.

On learning that the young ladies were at home and alone, she ascended to
the second floor and knocked.

‘That’s right!’ exclaimed Dora’s pleasant voice, as the door opened and
the visitor showed herself. And then came the friendly greeting which
warmed Marian’s heart, the greeting which until lately no house in London
could afford her.

The girls looked oddly out of place in this second-floor sitting-room,
with its vulgar furniture and paltry ornaments. Maud especially so, for
her fine figure was well displayed by the dress of mourning, and her pale,
handsome face had as little congruence as possible with a background of
humble circumstances.

Dora impressed one as a simpler nature, but she too had distinctly the
note of refinement which was out of harmony with these surroundings. They
occupied only two rooms, the sleeping-chamber being double-bedded; they
purchased food for themselves and prepared their own meals, excepting
dinner. During the first week a good many tears were shed by both of them;
it was not easy to transfer themselves from the comfortable country home
to this bare corner of lodgers’ London. Maud, as appeared at the first
glance, was less disposed than her sister to make the best of things; her
countenance wore an expression rather of discontent than of sorrow, and
she did not talk with the same readiness as Dora.

On the round table lay a number of books; when disturbed, the sisters had
been engaged in studious reading.

‘I’m not sure that I do right in coming again so soon,’ said Marian as she
took off her things. ‘Your time is precious.’

‘So are you,’ replied Dora, laughing. ‘It’s only under protest that we
work in the evening when we have been hard at it all day.’

‘We have news for you, too,’ said Maud, who sat languidly on an uneasy

‘Good, I hope?’

‘Someone called to see us yesterday. I dare say you can guess who it was.’

‘Amy, perhaps?’


‘And how did you like her?’

The sisters seemed to have a difficulty in answering. Dora was the first
to speak.

‘We thought she was sadly out of spirits. Indeed she told us that she
hasn’t been very well lately. But I think we shall like her if we come to
know her better.’

‘It was rather awkward, Marian,’ the elder sister explained. ‘We felt
obliged to say something about Mr Reardon’s books, but we haven’t read any
of them yet, you know, so I just said that I hoped soon to read his new
novel. “I suppose you have seen reviews of it?” she asked at once. Of
course I ought to have had the courage to say no, but I admitted that I
had seen one or two—Jasper showed us them. She looked very much
annoyed, and after that we didn’t find much to talk about.’

‘The reviews are very disagreeable,’ said Marian with a troubled face. ‘I
have read the book since I saw you the other day, and I am afraid it isn’t
good, but I have seen many worse novels more kindly reviewed.’

‘Jasper says it’s because Mr Reardon has no friends among the

‘Still,’ replied Marian, ‘I’m afraid they couldn’t have given the book
much praise, if they wrote honestly. Did Amy ask you to go and see her?’

‘Yes, but she said it was uncertain how long they would be living at their
present address. And really, we can’t feel sure whether we should be
welcome or not just now.’

Marian listened with bent head. She too had to make known to her friends
that they were not welcome in her own home; but she knew not how to utter
words which would sound so unkind.

‘Your brother,’ she said after a pause, ‘will soon find suitable friends
for you.’

‘Before long,’ replied Dora, with a look of amusement, ‘he’s going to take
us to call on Mrs Boston Wright. I hardly thought he was serious at first,
but he says he really means it.’

Marian grew more and more silent. At home she had felt that it would not
be difficult to explain her troubles to these sympathetic girls, but now
the time had come for speaking, she was oppressed by shame and anxiety.
True, there was no absolute necessity for making the confession this
evening, and if she chose to resist her father’s prejudice, things might
even go on in a seemingly natural way. But the loneliness of her life had
developed in her a sensitiveness which could not endure situations such as
the present; difficulties which are of small account to people who take
their part in active social life, harassed her to the destruction of all
peace. Dora was not long in noticing the dejected mood which had come upon
her friend.

‘What’s troubling you, Marian?’

‘Something I can hardly bear to speak of. Perhaps it will be the end of
your friendship for me, and I should find it very hard to go back to my
old solitude.’

The girls gazed at her, in doubt at first whether she spoke seriously.

‘What can you mean?’ Dora exclaimed. ‘What crime have you been

Maud, who leaned with her elbows on the table, searched Marian’s face
curiously, but said nothing.

‘Has Mr Milvain shown you the new number of The Current?’ Marian went on
to ask.

They replied with a negative, and Maud added:

‘He has nothing in it this month, except a review.’

‘A review?’ repeated Marian in a low voice.

‘Yes; of somebody’s novel.’

‘Markland’s,’ supplied Dora.

Marian drew a breath, but remained for a moment with her eyes cast down.

‘Do go on, dear,’ urged Dora. ‘Whatever are you going to tell us?’

‘There’s a notice of father’s book,’ continued the other, ‘a very
ill-natured one; it’s written by the editor, Mr Fadge. Father and he have
been very unfriendly for a long time. Perhaps Mr Milvain has told you
something about it?’

Dora replied that he had.

‘I don’t know how it is in other professions,’ Marian resumed, ‘but I hope
there is less envy, hatred and malice than in this of ours. The name of
literature is often made hateful to me by the things I hear and read. My
father has never been very fortunate, and many things have happened to
make him bitter against the men who succeed; he has often quarrelled with
people who were at first his friends, but never so seriously with anyone
as with Mr Fadge. His feeling of enmity goes so far that it includes even
those who are in any way associated with Mr Fadge. I am sorry to say’—she
looked with painful anxiety from one to the other of her hearers—‘this
has turned him against your brother, and—’

Her voice was checked by agitation.

‘We were afraid of this,’ said Dora, in a tone of sympathy.

‘Jasper feared it might be the case,’ added Maud, more coldly, though with

‘Why I speak of it at all,’ Marian hastened to say, ‘is because I am so
afraid it should make a difference between yourselves and me.’

‘Oh! don’t think that!’ Dora exclaimed.

‘I am so ashamed,’ Marian went on in an uncertain tone, ‘but I think it
will be better if I don’t ask you to come and see me. It sounds
ridiculous; it is ridiculous and shameful. I couldn’t complain if you
refused to have anything more to do with me.’

‘Don’t let it trouble you,’ urged Maud, with perhaps a trifle more of
magnanimity in her voice than was needful. We quite understand. Indeed, it
shan’t make any difference to us.’

But Marian had averted her face, and could not meet these assurances with
any show of pleasure. Now that the step was taken she felt that her
behaviour had been very weak. Unreasonable harshness such as her father’s
ought to have been met more steadily; she had no right to make it an
excuse for such incivility to her friends. Yet only in some such way as
this could she make known to Jasper Milvain how her father regarded him,
which she felt it necessary to do. Now his sisters would tell him, and
henceforth there would be a clear understanding on both sides. That state
of things was painful to her, but it was better than ambiguous relations.

‘Jasper is very sorry about it,’ said Dora, glancing rapidly at Marian.

‘But his connection with Mr Fadge came about in such a natural way,’ added
the eldest sister. ‘And it was impossible for him to refuse

‘Impossible; I know,’ Marian replied earnestly. ‘Don’t think that I wish
to justify my father. But I can understand him, and it must be very
difficult for you to do so. You can’t know, as I do, how intensely he has
suffered in these wretched, ignoble quarrels. If only you will let me come
here still, in the same way, and still be as friendly to me. My home has
never been a place to which I could have invited friends with any comfort,
even if I had had any to invite. There were always reasons—but I
can’t speak of them.’

‘My dear Marian,’ appealed Dora, ‘don’t distress yourself so! Do believe
that nothing whatever has happened to change our feeling to you. Has
there, Maud?’

‘Nothing whatever. We are not unreasonable girls, Marian.’

‘I am more grateful to you than I can say.’

It had seemed as if Marian must give way to the emotions which all but
choked her voice; she overcame them, however, and presently was able to
talk in pretty much her usual way, though when she smiled it was but
faintly. Maud tried to lead her thoughts in another direction by speaking
of work in which she and Dora were engaged. Already the sisters were doing
a new piece of compilation for Messrs Jolly and Monk; it was more exacting
than their initial task for the book market, and would take a much longer

A couple of hours went by, and Marian had just spoken of taking her leave,
when a man’s step was heard rapidly ascending the nearest flight of

‘Here’s Jasper,’ remarked Dora, and in a moment there sounded a short,
sharp summons at the door.

Jasper it was; he came in with radiant face, his eyes blinking before the

‘Well, girls! Ha! how do you do, Miss Yule? I had just the vaguest sort of
expectation that you might be here. It seemed a likely night; I don’t know
why. I say, Dora, we really must get two or three decent easy-chairs for
your room. I’ve seen some outside a second-hand furniture shop in
Hampstead Road, about six shillings apiece. There’s no sitting on chairs
such as these.’

That on which he tried to dispose himself, when he had flung aside his
trappings, creaked and shivered ominously.

‘You hear? I shall come plump on to the floor, if I don’t mind. My word,
what a day I have had! I’ve just been trying what I really could do in one
day if I worked my hardest. Now just listen; it deserves to be chronicled
for the encouragement of aspiring youth. I got up at 7.30, and whilst I
breakfasted I read through a volume I had to review. By 10.30 the review
was written—three-quarters of a column of the Evening Budget.’

‘Who is the unfortunate author?’ interrupted Maud, caustically.

‘Not unfortunate at all. I had to crack him up; otherwise I couldn’t have
done the job so quickly. It’s the easiest thing in the world to write
laudation; only an inexperienced grumbler would declare it was easier to
find fault. The book was Billington’s “Vagaries”; pompous idiocy, of
course, but he lives in a big house and gives dinners. Well, from 10.30 to
11, I smoked a cigar and reflected, feeling that the day wasn’t badly
begun. At eleven I was ready to write my Saturday causerie for the Will o’
the Wisp; it took me till close upon one o’clock, which was rather too
long. I can’t afford more than an hour and a half for that job. At one, I
rushed out to a dirty little eating-house in Hampstead Road. Was back
again by a quarter to two, having in the meantime sketched a paper for The
West End. Pipe in mouth, I sat down to leisurely artistic work; by five,
half the paper was done; the other half remains for to-morrow. From five
to half-past I read four newspapers and two magazines, and from half-past
to a quarter to six I jotted down several ideas that had come to me whilst
reading. At six I was again in the dirty eating-house, satisfying a
ferocious hunger. Home once more at 6.45, and for two hours wrote steadily
at a long affair I have in hand for The Current. Then I came here,
thinking hard all the way. What say you to this? Have I earned a night’s

‘And what’s the value of it all?’ asked Maud.

‘Probably from ten to twelve guineas, if I calculated.’

‘I meant, what was the literary value of it?’ said his sister, with a

‘Equal to that of the contents of a mouldy nut.’

‘Pretty much what I thought.’

‘Oh, but it answers the purpose,’ urged Dora, ‘and it does no one any

‘Honest journey-work!’ cried Jasper. ‘There are few men in London capable
of such a feat. Many a fellow could write more in quantity, but they
couldn’t command my market. It’s rubbish, but rubbish of a very special
kind, of fine quality.’

Marian had not yet spoken, save a word or two in reply to Jasper’s
greeting; now and then she just glanced at him, but for the most part her
eyes were cast down. Now Jasper addressed her.

‘A year ago, Miss Yule, I shouldn’t have believed myself capable of such
activity. In fact I wasn’t capable of it then.’

‘You think such work won’t be too great a strain upon you?’ she asked.

‘Oh, this isn’t a specimen day, you know. To-morrow I shall very likely do
nothing but finish my West End article, in an easy two or three hours.
There’s no knowing; I might perhaps keep up the high pressure if I tried.
But then I couldn’t dispose of all the work. Little by little—or
perhaps rather quicker than that—I shall extend my scope. For
instance, I should like to do two or three leaders a week for one of the
big dailies. I can’t attain unto that just yet.’

‘Not political leaders?’

‘By no means. That’s not my line. The kind of thing in which one makes a
column out of what would fill six lines of respectable prose. You call a
cigar a “convoluted weed,” and so on, you know; that passes for
facetiousness. I’ve never really tried my hand at that style yet; I
shouldn’t wonder if I managed it brilliantly. Some day I’ll write a few
exercises; just take two lines of some good prose writer, and expand them
into twenty, in half-a-dozen different ways. Excellent mental gymnastics!’

Marian listened to his flow of talk for a few minutes longer, then took
the opportunity of a brief silence to rise and put on her hat. Jasper
observed her, but without rising; he looked at his sisters in a hesitating
way. At length he stood up, and declared that he too must be off. This
coincidence had happened once before when he met Marian here in the

‘At all events, you won’t do any more work to-night,’ said Dora.

‘No; I shall read a page of something or other over a glass of whisky, and
seek the sleep of a man who has done his duty.’

‘Why the whisky?’ asked Maud.

‘Do you grudge me such poor solace?’

‘I don’t see the need of it.’

‘Nonsense, Maud!’ exclaimed her sister. ‘He needs a little stimulant when
he works so hard.’

Each of the girls gave Marian’s hand a significant pressure as she took
leave of them, and begged her to come again as soon as she had a free
evening. There was gratitude in her eyes.

The evening was clear, and not very cold.

‘It’s rather late for you to go home,’ said Jasper, as they left the
house. ‘May I walk part of the way with you?’

Marian replied with a low ‘Thank you.’

‘I think you get on pretty well with the girls, don’t you?’

‘I hope they are as glad of my friendship as I am of theirs.’

‘Pity to see them in a place like that, isn’t it? They ought to have a
good house, with plenty of servants. It’s bad enough for a civilised man
to have to rough it, but I hate to see women living in a sordid way. Don’t
you think they could both play their part in a drawing-room, with a little

‘Surely there’s no doubt of it.’

‘Maud would look really superb if she were handsomely dressed. She hasn’t
a common face, by any means. And Dora is pretty, I think. Well, they shall
go and see some people before long. The difficulty is, one doesn’t like it
to be known that they live in such a crib; but I daren’t advise them to go
in for expense. One can’t be sure that it would repay them, though—Now,
in my own case, if I could get hold of a few thousand pounds I should know
how to use it with the certainty of return; it would save me, probably, a
clear ten years of life; I mean, I should go at a jump to what I shall be
ten years hence without the help of money. But they have such a miserable
little bit of capital, and everything is still so uncertain. One daren’t
speculate under the circumstances.’

Marian made no reply.

‘You think I talk of nothing but money?’ Jasper said suddenly, looking
down into her face.

‘I know too well what it means to be without money.’

‘Yes, but—you do just a little despise me?’

‘Indeed, I don’t, Mr Milvain.’

‘If that is sincere, I’m very glad. I take it in a friendly sense. I am
rather despicable, you know; it’s part of my business to be so. But a
friend needn’t regard that. There is the man apart from his necessities.’

The silence was then unbroken till they came to the lower end of Park
Street, the junction of roads which lead to Hampstead, to Highgate, and to

‘Shall you take an omnibus?’ Jasper asked.

She hesitated.

‘Or will you give me the pleasure of walking on with you? You are tired,

‘Not the least.’

For the rest of her answer she moved forward, and they crossed into the
obscurity of Camden Road.

‘Shall I be doing wrong, Mr Milvain,’ Marian began in a very low voice,
‘if I ask you about the authorship of something in this month’s Current?’

‘I’m afraid I know what you refer to. There’s no reason why I shouldn’t
answer a question of the kind.’

‘It was Mr Fadge himself who reviewed my father’s book?’

‘It was—confound him! I don’t know another man who could have done
the thing so vilely well.’

‘I suppose he was only replying to my father’s attack upon him and his

‘Your father’s attack is honest and straightforward and justifiable and
well put. I read that chapter of his book with huge satisfaction. But has
anyone suggested that another than Fadge was capable of that masterpiece?’

‘Yes. I am told that Mr Jedwood, the publisher, has somehow made a

‘Jedwood? And what mistake?’

‘Father heard that you were the writer.’

‘I?’ Jasper stopped short. They were in the rays of a street-lamp, and
could see each other’s faces. ‘And he believes that?’

‘I’m afraid so.’

‘And you believe—believed it?’

‘Not for a moment.’

‘I shall write a note to Mr Yule.’

Marian was silent a while, then said:

‘Wouldn’t it be better if you found a way of letting Mr Jedwood know the

‘Perhaps you are right.’

Jasper was very grateful for the suggestion. In that moment he had
reflected how rash it would be to write to Alfred Yule on such a subject,
with whatever prudence in expressing himself. Such a letter, coming under
the notice of the great Fadge, might do its writer serious harm.

‘Yes, you are right,’ he repeated. ‘I’ll stop that rumour at its source. I
can’t guess how it started; for aught I know, some enemy hath done this,
though I don’t quite discern the motive. Thank you very much for telling
me, and still more for refusing to believe that I could treat Mr Yule in
that way, even as a matter of business. When I said that I was despicable,
I didn’t mean that I could sink quite to such a point as that. If only
because it was your father—’

He checked himself and they walked on for several yards without speaking.

‘In that case,’ Jasper resumed at length, ‘your father doesn’t think of me
in a very friendly way?’

‘He scarcely could—’

‘No, no. And I quite understand that the mere fact of my working for Fadge
would prejudice him against me. But that’s no reason, I hope, why you and
I shouldn’t be friends?’

‘I hope not.’

‘I don’t know that my friendship is worth much,’ Jasper continued, talking
into the upper air, a habit of his when he discussed his own character. ‘I
shall go on as I have begun, and fight for some of the good things of
life. But your friendship is valuable. If I am sure of it, I shall be at
all events within sight of the better ideals.’

Marian walked on with her eyes upon the ground. To her surprise she
discovered presently that they had all but reached St Paul’s Crescent.

‘Thank you for having come so far,’ she said, pausing.

‘Ah, you are nearly home. Why, it seems only a few minutes since we left
the girls. Now I’ll run back to the whisky of which Maud disapproves.’

‘May it do you good!’ said Marian with a laugh.

A speech of this kind seemed unusual upon her lips. Jasper smiled as he
held her hand and regarded her.

‘Then you can speak in a joking way?’

‘Do I seem so very dull?’

‘Dull, by no means. But sage and sober and reticent—and exactly what
I like in my friend, because it contrasts with my own habits. All the
better that merriment lies below it. Goodnight, Miss Yule.’

He strode off and in a minute or two turned his head to look at the slight
figure passing into darkness.

Marian’s hand trembled as she tried to insert her latch-key. When she had
closed the door very quietly behind her she went to the sitting-room; Mrs
Yule was just laying aside the sewing on which she had occupied herself
throughout the lonely evening.

‘I’m rather late,’ said the girl, in a voice of subdued joyousness.

‘Yes; I was getting a little uneasy, dear.’

‘Oh, there’s no danger.’

‘You have been enjoying yourself, I can see.’

‘I have had a pleasant evening.’

In the retrospect it seemed the pleasantest she had yet spent with her
friends, though she had set out in such a different mood. Her mind was
relieved of two anxieties; she felt sure that the girls had not taken ill
what she told them, and there was no longer the least doubt concerning the
authorship of that review in The Current.

She could confess to herself now that the assurance from Jasper’s lips was
not superfluous. He might have weighed profit against other
considerations, and have written in that way of her father; she had not
felt that absolute confidence which defies every argument from human
frailty. And now she asked herself if faith of that unassailable kind is
ever possible; is it not only the poet’s dream, the far ideal?

Marian often went thus far in her speculation. Her candour was allied with
clear insight into the possibilities of falsehood; she was not readily the
victim of illusion; thinking much, and speaking little, she had not come
to her twenty-third year without perceiving what a distance lay between a
girl’s dream of life as it might be and life as it is. Had she invariably
disclosed her thoughts, she would have earned the repute of a very
sceptical and slightly cynical person.

But with what rapturous tumult of the heart she could abandon herself to a
belief in human virtues when their suggestion seemed to promise her a
future of happiness!

Alone in her room she sat down only to think of Jasper Milvain, and
extract from the memory of his words, his looks, new sustenance for her
hungry heart. Jasper was the first man who had ever evinced a man’s
interest in her. Until she met him she had not known a look of compliment
or a word addressed to her emotions. He was as far as possible from
representing the lover of her imagination, but from the day of that long
talk in the fields near Wattleborough the thought of him had supplanted
dreams. On that day she said to herself: I could love him if he cared to
seek my love. Premature, perhaps; why, yes, but one who is starving is not
wont to feel reluctance at the suggestion of food. The first man who had
approached her with display of feeling and energy and youthful
self-confidence; handsome too, it seemed to her. Her womanhood went
eagerly to meet him.

Since then she had made careful study of his faults. Each conversation had
revealed to her new weakness and follies. With the result that her love
had grown to a reality.

He was so human, and a youth of all but monastic seclusion had prepared
her to love the man who aimed with frank energy at the joys of life. A
taint of pedantry would have repelled her. She did not ask for high
intellect or great attainments; but vivacity, courage, determination to
succeed, were delightful to her senses. Her ideal would not have been a
literary man at all; certainly not a man likely to be prominent in
journalism; rather a man of action, one who had no restraints of commerce
or official routine. But in Jasper she saw the qualities that attracted
her apart from the accidents of his position. Ideal personages do not
descend to girls who have to labour at the British Museum; it seemed a
marvel to her, and of good augury, that even such a man as Jasper should
have crossed her path.

It was as though years had passed since their first meeting. Upon her
return to London had followed such long periods of hopelessness. Yet
whenever they encountered each other he had look and speech for her with
which surely he did not greet every woman. From the first his way of
regarding her had shown frank interest. And at length had come the
confession of his ‘respect,’ his desire to be something more to her than a
mere acquaintance. It was scarcely possible that he should speak as he
several times had of late if he did not wish to draw her towards him.

That was the hopeful side of her thoughts. It was easy to forget for a
time those words of his which one might think were spoken as distinct
warning; but they crept into the memory, unwelcome, importunate, as soon
as imagination had built its palace of joy. Why did he always recur to the
subject of money? ‘I shall allow nothing to come in my way;’ he once said
that as if meaning, ‘certainly not a love affair with a girl who is
penniless.’ He emphasised the word ‘friend,’ as if to explain that he
offered and asked nothing more than friendship.

But it only meant that he would not be in haste to declare himself. Of a
certainty there was conflict between his ambition and his love, but she
recognised her power over him and exulted in it. She had observed his
hesitancy this evening, before he rose to accompany her from the house;
her heart laughed within her as the desire drew him. And henceforth such
meetings would be frequent, with each one her influence would increase.
How kindly fate had dealt with her in bringing Maud and Dora to London!

It was within his reach to marry a woman who would bring him wealth. He
had that in mind; she understood it too well. But not one moment’s
advantage would she relinquish. He must choose her in her poverty, and be
content with what his talents could earn for him. Her love gave her the
right to demand this sacrifice; let him ask for her love, and the
sacrifice would no longer seem one, so passionately would she reward him.

He would ask it. To-night she was full of a rich confidence, partly, no
doubt, the result of reaction from her miseries. He had said at parting
that her character was so well suited to his; that he liked her. And then
he had pressed her hand so warmly. Before long he would ask her love.

The unhoped was all but granted her. She could labour on in the valley of
the shadow of books, for a ray of dazzling sunshine might at any moment
strike into its musty gloom.


The past twelve months had added several years to Edwin Reardon’s seeming
age; at thirty-three he would generally have been taken for forty. His
bearing, his personal habits, were no longer those of a young man; he
walked with a stoop and pressed noticeably on the stick he carried; it was
rare for him to show the countenance which tells of present cheerfulness
or glad onward-looking; there was no spring in his step; his voice had
fallen to a lower key, and often he spoke with that hesitation in choice
of words which may be noticed in persons whom defeat has made
self-distrustful. Ceaseless perplexity and dread gave a wandering,
sometimes a wild, expression to his eyes.

He seldom slept, in the proper sense of the word; as a rule he was
conscious all through the night of ‘a kind of fighting’ between physical
weariness and wakeful toil of the mind. It often happened that some wholly
imaginary obstacle in the story he was writing kept him under a sense of
effort throughout the dark hours; now and again he woke, reasoned with
himself, and remembered clearly that the torment was without cause, but
the short relief thus afforded soon passed in the recollection of real
distress. In his unsoothing slumber he talked aloud, frequently wakening
Amy; generally he seemed to be holding a dialogue with someone who had
imposed an intolerable task upon him; he protested passionately, appealed,
argued in the strangest way about the injustice of what was demanded. Once
Amy heard him begging for money—positively begging, like some poor
wretch in the street; it was horrible, and made her shed tears; when he
asked what he had been saying, she could not bring herself to tell him.

When the striking clocks summoned him remorselessly to rise and work he
often reeled with dizziness. It seemed to him that the greatest happiness
attainable would be to creep into some dark, warm corner, out of the sight
and memory of men, and lie there torpid, with a blessed half-consciousness
that death was slowly overcoming him. Of all the sufferings collected into
each four-and-twenty hours this of rising to a new day was the worst.

The one-volume story which he had calculated would take him four or five
weeks was with difficulty finished in two months. March winds made an
invalid of him; at one time he was threatened with bronchitis, and for
several days had to abandon even the effort to work. In previous winters
he had been wont to undergo a good deal of martyrdom from the London
climate, but never in such a degree as now; mental illness seemed to have
enfeebled his body.

It was strange that he succeeded in doing work of any kind, for he had no
hope from the result. This one last effort he would make, just to complete
the undeniableness of his failure, and then literature should be thrown
behind him; what other pursuit was possible to him he knew not, but
perhaps he might discover some mode of earning a livelihood. Had it been a
question of gaining a pound a week, as in the old days, he might have
hoped to obtain some clerkship like that at the hospital, where no
commercial experience or aptitude was demanded; but in his present
position such an income would be useless. Could he take Amy and the child
to live in a garret? On less than a hundred a year it was scarcely
possible to maintain outward decency. Already his own clothing began to
declare him poverty-stricken, and but for gifts from her mother Amy would
have reached the like pass. They lived in dread of the pettiest casual
expense, for the day of pennilessness was again approaching.

Amy was oftener from home than had been her custom.

Occasionally she went away soon after breakfast, and spent the whole day
at her mother’s house. ‘It saves food,’ she said with a bitter laugh, when
Reardon once expressed surprise that she should be going again so soon.

‘And gives you an opportunity of bewailing your hard fate,’ he returned

The reproach was ignoble, and he could not be surprised that Amy left the
house without another word to him. Yet he resented that, as he had
resented her sorrowful jest. The feeling of unmanliness in his own
position tortured him into a mood of perversity. Through the day he wrote
only a few lines, and on Amy’s return he resolved not to speak to her.
There was a sense of repose in this change of attitude; he encouraged
himself in the view that Amy was treating him with cruel neglect. She,
surprised that her friendly questions elicited no answer, looked into his
face and saw a sullen anger of which hitherto Reardon had never seemed
capable. Her indignation took fire, and she left him to himself.

For a day or two he persevered in his muteness, uttering a word only when
it could not be avoided. Amy was at first so resentful that she
contemplated leaving him to his ill-temper and dwelling at her mother’s
house until he chose to recall her. But his face grew so haggard in fixed
misery that compassion at length prevailed over her injured pride. Late in
the evening she went to the study, and found him sitting unoccupied.


‘What do you want?’ he asked indifferently.

‘Why are you behaving to me like this?’

‘Surely it makes no difference to you how I behave? You can easily forget
that I exist, and live your own life.’

‘What have I done to make this change in you?’

‘Is it a change?’

‘You know it is.’

‘How did I behave before?’ he asked, glancing at her.

‘Like yourself—kindly and gently.’

‘If I always did so, in spite of things that might have embittered another
man’s temper, I think it deserved some return of kindness from you.’

‘What “things” do you mean?’

‘Circumstances for which neither of us is to blame.’

‘I am not conscious of having failed in kindness,’ said Amy, distantly.

‘Then that only shows that you have forgotten your old self, and utterly
changed in your feeling to me. When we first came to live here could you
have imagined yourself leaving me alone for long, miserable days, just
because I was suffering under misfortunes? You have shown too plainly that
you don’t care to give me the help even of a kind word. You get away from
me as often as you can, as if to remind me that we have no longer any
interests in common. Other people are your confidants; you speak of me to
them as if I were purposely dragging you down into a mean condition.’

‘How can you know what I say about you?’

‘Isn’t it true?’ he asked, flashing an angry glance at her.

‘It is not true. Of course I have talked to mother about our difficulties;
how could I help it?’

‘And to other people.’

‘Not in a way that you could find fault with.’

‘In a way that makes me seem contemptible to them. You show them that I
have made you poor and unhappy, and you are glad to have their sympathy.’

‘What you mean is, that I oughtn’t to see anyone. There’s no other way of
avoiding such a reproach as this. So long as I don’t laugh and sing before
people, and assure them that things couldn’t be more hopeful, I shall be
asking for their sympathy, and against you. I can’t understand your

‘I’m afraid there is very little in me that you can understand. So long as
my prospects seemed bright, you could sympathise readily enough; as soon
as ever they darkened, something came between us. Amy, you haven’t done
your duty. Your love hasn’t stood the test as it should have done. You
have given me no help; besides the burden of cheerless work I have had to
bear that of your growing coldness. I can’t remember one instance when you
have spoken to me as a wife might—a wife who was something more than
a man’s housekeeper.’

The passion in his voice and the harshness of the accusation made her
unable to reply.

‘You said rightly,’ he went on, ‘that I have always been kind and gentle.
I never thought I could speak to you or feel to you in any other way. But
I have undergone too much, and you have deserted me. Surely it was too
soon to do that. So long as I endeavoured my utmost, and loved you the
same as ever, you might have remembered all you once said to me. You might
have given me help, but you haven’t cared to.’

The impulses which had part in this outbreak were numerous and complex. He
felt all that he expressed, but at the same time it seemed to him that he
had the choice between two ways of uttering his emotion—the tenderly
appealing and the sternly reproachful: he took the latter course because
it was less natural to him than the former. His desire was to impress Amy
with the bitter intensity of his sufferings; pathos and loving words
seemed to have lost their power upon her, but perhaps if he yielded to
that other form of passion she would be shaken out of her coldness. The
stress of injured love is always tempted to speech which seems its
contradiction. Reardon had the strangest mixture of pain and pleasure in
flinging out these first words of wrath that he had ever addressed to Amy;
they consoled him under the humiliating sense of his weakness, and yet he
watched with dread his wife’s countenance as she listened to him. He hoped
to cause her pain equal to his own, for then it would be in his power at
once to throw off this disguise and soothe her with every softest word his
heart could suggest. That she had really ceased to love him he could not,
durst not, believe; but his nature demanded frequent assurance of
affection. Amy had abandoned too soon the caresses of their ardent time;
she was absorbed in her maternity, and thought it enough to be her
husband’s friend. Ashamed to make appeal directly for the tenderness she
no longer offered, he accused her of utter indifference, of abandoning him
and all but betraying him, that in self-defence she might show what really
was in her heart.

But Amy made no movement towards him.

‘How can you say that I have deserted you?’ she returned, with cold
indignation. ‘When did I refuse to share your poverty? When did I grumble
at what we have had to go through?’

‘Ever since the troubles really began you have let me know what your
thoughts were, even if you didn’t speak them. You have never shared my lot
willingly. I can’t recall one word of encouragement from you, but many,
many which made the struggle harder for me.’

‘Then it would be better for you if I went away altogether, and left you
free to do the best for yourself. If that is what you mean by all this,
why not say it plainly? I won’t be a burden to you. Someone will give me a

‘And you would leave me without regret? Your only care would be that you
were still bound to me?’

‘You must think of me what you like. I don’t care to defend myself.’

‘You won’t admit, then, that I have anything to complain of? I seem to you
simply in a bad temper without a cause?’

‘To tell you the truth, that’s just what I do think. I came here to ask
what I had done that you were angry with me, and you break out furiously
with all sorts of vague reproaches. You have much to endure, I know that,
but it’s no reason why you should turn against me. I have never neglected
my duty. Is the duty all on my side? I believe there are very few wives
who would be as patient as I have been.’

Reardon gazed at her for a moment, then turned away. The distance between
them was greater than he had thought, and now he repented of having given
way to an impulse so alien to his true feelings; anger only estranged her,
whereas by speech of a different kind he might have won the caress for
which he hungered.

Amy, seeing that he would say nothing more, left him to himself.

It grew late in the night. The fire had gone out, but Reardon still sat in
the cold room. Thoughts of self-destruction were again haunting him, as
they had done during the black months of last year. If he had lost Amy’s
love, and all through the mental impotence which would make it hard for
him even to earn bread, why should he still live? Affection for his child
had no weight with him; it was Amy’s child rather than his, and he had
more fear than pleasure in the prospect of Willie’s growing to manhood.

He had just heard the workhouse clock strike two, when, without the
warning of a footstep, the door opened. Amy came in; she wore her
dressing-gown, and her hair was arranged for the night.

‘Why do you stay here?’ she asked.

It was not the same voice as before. He saw that her eyes were red and

‘Have you been crying, Amy?’

‘Never mind. Do you know what time it is?’

He went towards her.

‘Why have you been crying?’

‘There are many things to cry for.’

‘Amy, have you any love for me still, or has poverty robbed me of it all?’

‘I have never said that I didn’t love you. Why do you accuse me of such

He took her in his arms and held her passionately and kissed her face
again and again. Amy’s tears broke forth anew.

‘Why should we come to such utter ruin?’ she sobbed. ‘Oh, try, try if you
can’t save us even yet! You know without my saying it that I do love you;
it’s dreadful to me to think all our happy life should be at an end, when
we thought of such a future together. Is it impossible? Can’t you work as
you used to and succeed as we felt confident you would? Don’t despair yet,
Edwin; do, do try, whilst there is still time!’

‘Darling, darling—if only I COULD!’

‘I have thought of something, dearest. Do as you proposed last year; find
a tenant for the flat whilst we still have a little money, and then go
away into some quiet country place, where you can get back your health and
live for very little, and write another book—a good book, that’ll
bring you reputation again. I and Willie can go and live at mother’s for
the summer months. Do this! It would cost you so little, living alone,
wouldn’t it? You would know that I was well cared for; mother would be
willing to have me for a few months, and it’s easy to explain that your
health has failed, that you’re obliged to go away for a time.’

‘But why shouldn’t you go with me, if we are to let this place?’

‘We shouldn’t have enough money. I want to free your mind from the burden
whilst you are writing. And what is before us if we go on in this way? You
don’t think you will get much for what you’re writing now, do you?’

Reardon shook his head.

‘Then how can we live even till the end of the year? Something must be
done, you know. If we get into poor lodgings, what hope is there that
you’ll be able to write anything good?’

‘But, Amy, I have no faith in my power of—’

‘Oh, it would be different! A few days—a week or a fortnight of real
holiday in this spring weather. Go to some seaside place. How is it
possible that all your talent should have left you? It’s only that you
have been so anxious and in such poor health. You say I don’t love you,
but I have thought and thought what would be best for you to do, how you
could save yourself. How can you sink down to the position of a poor clerk
in some office? That CAN’T be your fate, Edwin; it’s incredible. Oh, after
such bright hopes, make one more effort! Have you forgotten that we were
to go to the South together—you were to take me to Italy and Greece?
How can that ever be if you fail utterly in literature? How can you ever
hope to earn more than bare sustenance at any other kind of work?’

He all but lost consciousness of her words in gazing at the face she held
up to his.

‘You love me? Say again that you love me!’

‘Dear, I love you with all my heart. But I am so afraid of the future. I
can’t bear poverty; I have found that I can’t bear it. And I dread to
think of your becoming only an ordinary man—’

Reardon laughed.

‘But I am NOT “only an ordinary man,” Amy! If I never write another line,
that won’t undo what I have done. It’s little enough, to be sure; but you
know what I am. Do you only love the author in me? Don’t you think of me
apart from all that I may do or not do? If I had to earn my living as a
clerk, would that make me a clerk in soul?’

‘You shall not fall to that! It would be too bitter a shame to lose all
you have gained in these long years of work. Let me plan for you; do as I
wish. You are to be what we hoped from the first. Take all the summer
months. How long will it be before you can finish this short book?’

‘A week or two.’

‘Then finish it, and see what you can get for it. And try at once to find
a tenant to take this place off our hands; that would be twenty-five
pounds saved for the rest of the year. You could live on so little by
yourself, couldn’t you?’

‘Oh, on ten shillings a week, if need be.’

‘But not to starve yourself, you know. Don’t you feel that my plan is a
good one? When I came to you to-night I meant to speak of this, but you
were so cruel—’

‘Forgive me, dearest love! I was half a madman. You have been so cold to
me for a long time.’

‘I have been distracted. It was as if we were drawing nearer and nearer to
the edge of a cataract.’

‘Have you spoken to your mother about this?’ he asked uneasily.

‘No—not exactly this. But I know she will help us in this way.’

He had seated himself and was holding her in his arms, his face laid
against hers.

‘I shall dread to part from you, Amy. That’s such a dangerous thing to do.
It may mean that we are never to live as husband and wife again.’

‘But how could it? It’s just to prevent that danger. If we go on here till
we have no money—what’s before us then? Wretched lodgings at the
best. And I am afraid to think of that. I can’t trust myself if that
should come to pass.’

‘What do you mean?’ he asked anxiously.

‘I hate poverty so. It brings out all the worst things in me; you know I
have told you that before, Edwin?’

‘But you would never forget that you are my wife?’

‘I hope not. But—I can’t think of it; I can’t face it! That would be
the very worst that can befall us, and we are going to try our utmost to
escape from it. Was there ever a man who did as much as you have done in
literature and then sank into hopeless poverty?’

‘Oh, many!’

‘But at your age, I mean. Surely not at your age?’

‘I’m afraid there have been such poor fellows. Think how often one hears
of hopeful beginnings, new reputations, and then—you hear no more.
Of course it generally means that the man has gone into a different
career; but sometimes, sometimes—’


‘The abyss.’ He pointed downward. ‘Penury and despair and a miserable

‘Oh, but those men haven’t a wife and child! They would struggle—’

‘Darling, they do struggle. But it’s as if an ever-increasing weight were
round their necks; it drags them lower and lower. The world has no pity on
a man who can’t do or produce something it thinks worth money. You may be
a divine poet, and if some good fellow doesn’t take pity on you you will
starve by the roadside. Society is as blind and brutal as fate. I have no
right to complain of my own ill-fortune; it’s my own fault (in a sense)
that I can’t continue as well as I began; if I could write books as good
as the early ones I should earn money. For all that, it’s hard that I must
be kicked aside as worthless just because I don’t know a trade.’

‘It shan’t be! I have only to look into your face to know that you will
succeed after all. Yours is the kind of face that people come to know in

He kissed her hair, and her eyes, and her mouth.

‘How well I remember your saying that before! Why have you grown so good
to me all at once, my Amy? Hearing you speak like that I feel there’s
nothing beyond my reach. But I dread to go away from you. If I find that
it is hopeless; if I am alone somewhere, and know that the effort is all
in vain—’


‘Well, I can leave you free. If I can’t support you, it will be only just
that I should give you back your freedom.’

‘I don’t understand—’

She raised herself and looked into his eyes.

‘We won’t talk of that. If you bid me go on with the struggle, I shall do

Amy had hidden her face, and lay silently in his arms for a minute or two.
Then she murmured:

‘It is so cold here, and so late. Come!’

‘So early. There goes three o’clock.’

The next day they talked much of this new project. As there was sunshine
Amy accompanied her husband for his walk in the afternoon; it was long
since they had been out together. An open carriage that passed, followed
by two young girls on horseback, gave a familiar direction to Reardon’s

‘If one were as rich as those people! They pass so close to us; they see
us, and we see them; but the distance between is infinity. They don’t
belong to the same world as we poor wretches. They see everything in a
different light; they have powers which would seem supernatural if we were
suddenly endowed with them.’

‘Of course,’ assented his companion with a sigh.

‘Just fancy, if one got up in the morning with the thought that no
reasonable desire that occurred to one throughout the day need remain
ungratified! And that it would be the same, any day and every day, to the
end of one’s life! Look at those houses; every detail, within and without,
luxurious. To have such a home as that!’

‘And they are empty creatures who live there.’

‘They do live, Amy, at all events. Whatever may be their faculties, they
all have free scope. I have often stood staring at houses like these until
I couldn’t believe that the people owning them were mere human beings like
myself. The power of money is so hard to realise; one who has never had it
marvels at the completeness with which it transforms every detail of life.
Compare what we call our home with that of rich people; it moves one to
scornful laughter. I have no sympathy with the stoical point of view;
between wealth and poverty is just the difference between the whole man
and the maimed. If my lower limbs are paralysed I may still be able to
think, but then there is such a thing in life as walking. As a poor devil
I may live nobly; but one happens to be made with faculties of enjoyment,
and those have to fall into atrophy. To be sure, most rich people don’t
understand their happiness; if they did, they would move and talk like
gods—which indeed they are.’

Amy’s brow was shadowed. A wise man, in Reardon’s position, would not have
chosen this subject to dilate upon.

‘The difference,’ he went on, ‘between the man with money and the man
without is simply this: the one thinks, “How shall I use my life?” and the
other, “How shall I keep myself alive?” A physiologist ought to be able to
discover some curious distinction between the brain of a person who has
never given a thought to the means of subsistence, and that of one who has
never known a day free from such cares. There must be some special
cerebral development representing the mental anguish kept up by poverty.’

‘I should say,’ put in Amy, ‘that it affects every function of the brain.
It isn’t a special point of suffering, but a misery that colours every

‘True. Can I think of a single subject in all the sphere of my experience
without the consciousness that I see it through the medium of poverty? I
have no enjoyment which isn’t tainted by that thought, and I can suffer no
pain which it doesn’t increase. The curse of poverty is to the modern
world just what that of slavery was to the ancient. Rich and destitute
stand to each other as free man and bond. You remember the line of Homer I
have often quoted about the demoralising effect of enslavement; poverty
degrades in the same way.’

‘It has had its effect upon me—I know that too well,’ said Amy, with
bitter frankness.

Reardon glanced at her, and wished to make some reply, but he could not
say what was in his thoughts.

He worked on at his story. Before he had reached the end of it, ‘Margaret
Home’ was published, and one day arrived a parcel containing the six
copies to which an author is traditionally entitled. Reardon was not so
old in authorship that he could open the packet without a slight flutter
of his pulse. The book was tastefully got up; Amy exclaimed with pleasure
as she caught sight of the cover and lettering:

‘It may succeed, Edwin. It doesn’t look like a book that fails, does it?’

She laughed at her own childishness. But Reardon had opened one of the
volumes, and was glancing over the beginning of a chapter.

‘Good God!’ he cried. ‘What hellish torment it was to write that page! I
did it one morning when the fog was so thick that I had to light the lamp.
It brings cold sweat to my forehead to read the words. And to think that
people will skim over it without a suspicion of what it cost the writer!—What
execrable style! A potboy could write better narrative.’

‘Who are to have copies?’

‘No one, if I could help it. But I suppose your mother will expect one?’


‘I suppose so,’ he replied indifferently. ‘But not unless he asks for it.
Poor old Biffen, of course; though it’ll make him despise me. Then one for
ourselves. That leaves two—to light the fire with. We have been
rather short of fire-paper since we couldn’t afford our daily newspaper.’

‘Will you let me give one to Mrs Carter?’

‘As you please.’

He took one set and added it to the row of his productions which stood on
a topmost shelf Amy laid her hand upon his shoulder and contemplated the
effect of this addition.

‘The works of Edwin Reardon,’ she said, with a smile.

‘The work, at all events—rather a different thing, unfortunately.
Amy, if only I were back at the time when I wrote “On Neutral Ground,” and
yet had you with me! How full my mind was in those days! Then I had only
to look, and I saw something; now I strain my eyes, but can make out
nothing more than nebulous grotesques. I used to sit down knowing so well
what I had to say; now I strive to invent, and never come at anything.
Suppose you pick up a needle with warm, supple fingers; try to do it when
your hand is stiff and numb with cold; there’s the difference between my
manner of work in those days and what it is now.’

‘But you are going to get back your health. You will write better than

‘We shall see. Of course there was a great deal of miserable struggle even
then, but I remember it as insignificant compared with the hours of
contented work. I seldom did anything in the mornings except think and
prepare; towards evening I felt myself getting ready, and at last I sat
down with the first lines buzzing in my head. And I used to read a great
deal at the same time. Whilst I was writing “On Neutral Ground” I went
solidly through the “Divina Commedia,” a canto each day. Very often I
wrote till after midnight, but occasionally I got my quantum finished much
earlier, and then I used to treat myself to a ramble about the streets. I
can recall exactly the places where some of my best ideas came to me. You
remember the scene in Prendergast’s lodgings? That flashed on me late one
night as I was turning out of Leicester Square into the slum that leads to
Clare Market; ah, how well I remember! And I went home to my garret in a
state of delightful fever, and scribbled notes furiously before going to

‘Don’t trouble; it’ll all come back to you.’

‘But in those days I hadn’t to think of money. I could look forward and
see provision for my needs. I never asked myself what I should get for the
book; I assure you, that never came into my head—never. The work was
done for its own sake. No hurry to finish it; if I felt that I wasn’t up
to the mark, I just waited till the better mood returned. “On Neutral
Ground” took me seven months; now I have to write three volumes in nine
weeks, with the lash stinging on my back if I miss a day.’

He brooded for a little.

‘I suppose there must be some rich man somewhere who has read one or two
of my books with a certain interest. If only I could encounter him and
tell him plainly what a cursed state I am in, perhaps he would help me to
some means of earning a couple of pounds a week. One has heard of such

‘In the old days.’

‘Yes. I doubt if it ever happens now. Coleridge wouldn’t so easily meet
with his Gillman nowadays. Well, I am not a Coleridge, and I don’t ask to
be lodged under any man’s roof; but if I could earn money enough to leave
me good long evenings unspoilt by fear of the workhouse—’

Amy turned away, and presently went to look after her little boy.

A few days after this they had a visit from Milvain. He came about ten
o’clock in the evening.

‘I’m not going to stay,’ he announced. ‘But where’s my copy of “Margaret
Home”? I am to have one, I suppose?’

‘I have no particular desire that you should read it,’ returned Reardon.

‘But I HAVE read it, my dear fellow. Got it from the library on the day of
publication; I had a suspicion that you wouldn’t send me a copy. But I
must possess your opera omnia.’

‘Here it is. Hide it away somewhere.—You may as well sit down for a
few minutes.’

‘I confess I should like to talk about the book, if you don’t mind. It
isn’t so utterly and damnably bad as you make out, you know. The
misfortune was that you had to make three volumes of it. If I had leave to
cut it down to one, it would do you credit.

The motive is good enough.’

‘Yes. Just good enough to show how badly it’s managed.’

Milvain began to expatiate on that well-worn topic, the evils of the
three-volume system.

‘A triple-headed monster, sucking the blood of English novelists. One
might design an allegorical cartoon for a comic literary paper.
By-the-bye, why doesn’t such a thing exist?—a weekly paper treating
of things and people literary in a facetious spirit. It would be caviare
to the general, but might be supported, I should think. The editor would
probably be assassinated, though.’

‘For anyone in my position,’ said Reardon, ‘how is it possible to abandon
the three volumes? It is a question of payment. An author of moderate
repute may live on a yearly three-volume novel—I mean the man who is
obliged to sell his book out and out, and who gets from one to two hundred
pounds for it. But he would have to produce four one-volume novels to
obtain the same income; and I doubt whether he could get so many published
within the twelve months. And here comes in the benefit of the libraries;
from the commercial point of view the libraries are indispensable. Do you
suppose the public would support the present number of novelists if each
book had to be purchased? A sudden change to that system would throw
three-fourths of the novelists out of work.’

‘But there’s no reason why the libraries shouldn’t circulate novels in one

‘Profits would be less, I suppose. People would take the minimum

‘Well, to go to the concrete, what about your own one-volume?’

‘All but done.’

‘And you’ll offer it to Jedwood? Go and see him personally. He’s a very
decent fellow, I believe.’

Milvain stayed only half an hour. The days when he was wont to sit and
talk at large through a whole evening were no more; partly because of his
diminished leisure, but also for a less simple reason—the growth of
something like estrangement between him and Reardon.

‘You didn’t mention your plans,’ said Amy, when the visitor had been gone
some time.


Reardon was content with the negative, and his wife made no further

The result of advertising the flat was that two or three persons called to
make inspection. One of them, a man of military appearance, showed himself
anxious to come to terms; he was willing to take the tenement from next
quarter-day (June), but wished, if possible, to enter upon possession
sooner than that.

‘Nothing could be better,’ said Amy in colloquy with her husband. ‘If he
will pay for the extra time, we shall be only too glad.’

Reardon mused and looked gloomy. He could not bring himself to regard the
experiment before him with hopefulness, and his heart sank at the thought
of parting from Amy.

‘You are very anxious to get rid of me,’ he answered, trying to smile.

‘Yes, I am,’ she exclaimed; ‘but simply for your own good, as you know
very well.’

‘Suppose I can’t sell this book?’

‘You will have a few pounds. Send your “Pliny” article to The Wayside. If
you come to an end of all your money, mother shall lend you some.’

‘I am not very likely to do much work in that case.’

‘Oh, but you will sell the book. You’ll get twenty pounds for it, and that
alone would keep you for three months. Think—three months of the
best part of the year at the seaside! Oh, you will do wonders!’

The furniture was to be housed at Mrs Yule’s. Neither of them durst speak
of selling it; that would have sounded too ominous. As for the locality of
Reardon’s retreat, Amy herself had suggested Worthing, which she knew from
a visit a few years ago; the advantages were its proximity to London, and
the likelihood that very cheap lodgings could be found either in the town
or near it. One room would suffice for the hapless author, and his
expenses, beyond a trifling rent, would be confined to mere food.

Oh yes, he might manage on considerably less than a pound a week.

Amy was in much better spirits than for a long time; she appeared to have
convinced herself that there was no doubt of the issue of this perilous
scheme; that her husband would write a notable book, receive a
satisfactory price for it, and so re-establish their home. Yet her moods
varied greatly. After all, there was delay in the letting of the flat, and
this caused her annoyance. It was whilst the negotiations were still
pending that she made her call upon Maud and Dora Milvain; Reardon did not
know of her intention to visit them until it had been carried out. She
mentioned what she had done in almost a casual manner.

‘I had to get it over,’ she said, when Reardon exhibited surprise, ‘and I
don’t think I made a very favourable impression.’

‘You told them, I suppose, what we are going to do?’

‘No; I didn’t say a word of it.’

‘But why not? It can’t be kept a secret. Milvain will have heard of it
already, I should think, from your mother.’

‘From mother? But it’s the rarest thing for him to go there. Do you
imagine he is a constant visitor? I thought it better to say nothing until
the thing is actually done. Who knows what may happen?’

She was in a strange, nervous state, and Reardon regarded her uneasily. He
talked very little in these days, and passed hours in dark reverie. His
book was finished, and he awaited the publisher’s decision.



One of Reardon’s minor worries at this time was the fear that by chance he
might come upon a review of ‘Margaret Home.’ Since the publication of his
first book he had avoided as far as possible all knowledge of what the
critics had to say about him; his nervous temperament could not bear the
agitation of reading these remarks, which, however inept, define an author
and his work to so many people incapable of judging for themselves. No man
or woman could tell him anything in the way of praise or blame which he
did not already know quite well; commendation was pleasant, but it so
often aimed amiss, and censure was for the most part so unintelligent. In
the case of this latest novel he dreaded the sight of a review as he would
have done a gash from a rusty knife. The judgments could not but be
damnatory, and their expression in journalistic phrase would disturb his
mind with evil rancour. No one would have insight enough to appreciate the
nature and cause of his book’s demerits; every comment would be wide of
the mark; sneer, ridicule, trite objection, would but madden him with a
sense of injustice.

His position was illogical—one result of the moral weakness which
was allied with his aesthetic sensibility. Putting aside the worthlessness
of current reviewing, the critic of an isolated book has of course nothing
to do with its author’s state of mind and body any more than with the
condition of his purse. Reardon would have granted this, but he could not
command his emotions. He was in passionate revolt against the base
necessities which compelled him to put forth work in no way representing
his healthy powers, his artistic criterion. Not he had written this book,
but his accursed poverty. To assail him as the author was, in his feeling,
to be guilty of brutal insult. When by ill-hap a notice in one of the
daily papers came under his eyes, it made his blood boil with a fierceness
of hatred only possible to him in a profoundly morbid condition; he could
not steady his hand for half an hour after. Yet this particular critic
only said what was quite true—that the novel contained not a single
striking scene and not one living character; Reardon had expressed himself
about it in almost identical terms. But he saw himself in the position of
one sickly and all but destitute man against a relentless world, and every
blow directed against him appeared dastardly. He could have cried
‘Coward!’ to the writer who wounded him.

The would-be sensational story which was now in Mr Jedwood’s hands had
perhaps more merit than ‘Margaret Home’; its brevity, and the fact that
nothing more was aimed at than a concatenation of brisk events, made it
not unreadable. But Reardon thought of it with humiliation. If it were
published as his next work it would afford final proof to such sympathetic
readers as he might still retain that he had hopelessly written himself
out, and was now endeavouring to adapt himself to an inferior public. In
spite of his dire necessities he now and then hoped that Jedwood might
refuse the thing.

At moments he looked with sanguine eagerness to the three or four months
he was about to spend in retirement, but such impulses were the mere
outcome of his nervous disease. He had no faith in himself under present
conditions; the permanence of his sufferings would mean the sure
destruction of powers he still possessed, though they were not at his
command. Yet he believed that his mind was made up as to the advisability
of trying this last resource; he was impatient for the day of departure,
and in the interval merely killed time as best he might. He could not
read, and did not attempt to gather ideas for his next book; the delusion
that his mind was resting made an excuse to him for the barrenness of day
after day. His ‘Pliny’ article had been despatched to The Wayside, and
would possibly be accepted. But he did not trouble himself about this or
other details; it was as though his mind could do nothing more than grasp
the bald fact of impending destitution; with the steps towards that final
stage he seemed to have little concern.

One evening he set forth to make a call upon Harold Biffen, whom he had
not seen since the realist called to acknowledge the receipt of a copy of
‘Margaret Home’ left at his lodgings when he was out. Biffen resided in
Clipstone Street, a thoroughfare discoverable in the dim district which
lies between Portland Place and Tottenham Court Road. On knocking at the
door of the lodging-house, Reardon learnt that his friend was at home. He
ascended to the third storey and tapped at a door which allowed rays of
lamplight to issue from great gaps above and below. A sound of voices came
from within, and on entering he perceived that Biffen was engaged with a

‘They didn’t tell me you had a visitor,’ he said. ‘I’ll call again later.’

‘No need to go away,’ replied Biffen, coming forward to shake hands. ‘Take
a book for a few minutes. Mr Baker won’t mind.’

It was a very small room, with a ceiling so low that the tall lodger could
only just stand upright with safety; perhaps three inches intervened
between his head and the plaster, which was cracked, grimy, cobwebby. A
small scrap of weedy carpet lay in front of the fireplace; elsewhere the
chinky boards were unconcealed. The furniture consisted of a round table,
which kept such imperfect balance on its central support that the lamp
entrusted to it looked in a dangerous position, of three small
cane-bottomed chairs, a small wash-hand-stand with sundry rude
appurtenances, and a chair-bedstead which the tenant opened at the hour of
repose and spread with certain primitive trappings at present kept in a
cupboard. There was no bookcase, but a few hundred battered volumes were
arranged some on the floor and some on a rough chest. The weather was too
characteristic of an English spring to make an empty grate agreeable to
the eye, but Biffen held it an axiom that fires were unseasonable after
the first of May.

The individual referred to as Mr Baker, who sat at the table in the
attitude of a student, was a robust, hard-featured, black-haired young man
of two-or three-and-twenty; judging from his weather-beaten cheeks and
huge hands, as well as from the garb he wore, one would have presumed that
study was not his normal occupation. There was something of the riverside
about him; he might be a dockman, or even a bargeman. He looked
intelligent, however, and bore himself with much modesty.

‘Now do endeavour to write in shorter sentences,’ said Biffen, who sat
down by him and resumed the lesson, Reardon having taken up a volume.
‘This isn’t bad—it isn’t bad at all, I assure you; but you have put
all you had to say into three appalling periods, whereas you ought to have
made about a dozen.’

‘There it is, sir; there it is!’ exclaimed the man, smoothing his wiry
hair. ‘I can’t break it up. The thoughts come in a lump, if I may say so.
To break it up—there’s the art of compersition.’

Reardon could not refrain from a glance at the speaker, and Biffen, whose
manner was very grave and kindly, turned to his friend with an explanation
of the difficulties with which the student was struggling.

‘Mr Baker is preparing for the examination of the outdoor Customs
Department. One of the subjects is English composition, and really, you
know, that isn’t quite such a simple matter as some people think.’

Baker beamed upon the visitor with a homely, good-natured smile.

‘I can make headway with the other things, sir,’ he said, striking the
table lightly with his clenched fist. ‘There’s handwriting, there’s
orthography, there’s arithmetic; I’m not afraid of one of ‘em, as Mr
Biffen’ll tell you, sir. But when it comes to compersition, that brings
out the sweat on my forehead, I do assure you.

‘You’re not the only man in that case, Mr Baker,’ replied Reardon.

‘It’s thought a tough job in general, is it, sir?’

‘It is indeed.’

‘Two hundred marks for compersition,’ continued the man. ‘Now how many
would they have given me for this bit of a try, Mr Biffen?’

‘Well, well; I can’t exactly say. But you improve; you improve, decidedly.
Peg away for another week or two.’

‘Oh, don’t fear me, sir! I’m not easily beaten when I’ve set my mind on a
thing, and I’ll break up the compersition yet, see if I don’t!’

Again his fist descended upon the table in a way that reminded one of the
steam-hammer cracking a nut.

The lesson proceeded for about ten minutes, Reardon, under pretence of
reading, following it with as much amusement as anything could excite in
him nowadays. At length Mr Baker stood up, collected his papers and books,
and seemed about to depart; but, after certain uneasy movements and
glances, he said to Biffen in a subdued voice:

‘Perhaps I might speak to you outside the door a minute, sir?’

He and the teacher went out, the door closed, and Reardon heard sounds of
muffled conversation. In a minute or two a heavy footstep descended the
stairs, and Biffen re-entered the room.

‘Now that’s a good, honest fellow,’ he said, in an amused tone. ‘It’s my
pay-night, but he didn’t like to fork out money before you. A very unusual
delicacy in a man of that standing. He pays me sixpence for an hour’s
lesson; that brings me two shillings a week. I sometimes feel a little
ashamed to take his money, but then the fact is he’s a good deal better
off than I am.’

‘Will he get a place in the Customs, do you think?’

‘Oh, I’ve no doubt of it. If it seemed unlikely, I should have told him so
before this. To be sure, that’s a point I have often to consider, and once
or twice my delicacy has asserted itself at the expense of my pocket.
There was a poor consumptive lad came to me not long ago and wanted Latin
lessons; talked about going in for the London Matric., on his way to the
pulpit. I couldn’t stand it. After a lesson or two I told him his cough
was too bad, and he had no right to study until he got into better health;
that was better, I think, than saying plainly he had no chance on earth.
But the food I bought with his money was choking me. Oh yes, Baker will
make his way right enough. A good, modest fellow.

You noticed how respectfully he spoke to me? It doesn’t make any
difference to him that I live in a garret like this; I’m a man of
education, and he can separate this fact from my surroundings.’

‘Biffen, why don’t you get some decent position? Surely you might.’

‘What position? No school would take me; I have neither credentials nor
conventional clothing. For the same reason I couldn’t get a private
tutorship in a rich family. No, no; it’s all right. I keep myself alive,
and I get on with my work.—By-the-bye, I’ve decided to write a book
called “Mr Bailey, Grocer.”’

‘What’s the idea?’

‘An objectionable word, that. Better say: “What’s the reality?” Well, Mr
Bailey is a grocer in a little street by here. I have dealt with him for a
long time, and as he’s a talkative fellow I’ve come to know a good deal
about him and his history. He’s fond of talking about the struggle he had
in his first year of business. He had no money of his own, but he married
a woman who had saved forty-five pounds out of a cat’s-meat business. You
should see that woman! A big, coarse, squinting creature; at the time of
the marriage she was a widow and forty-two years old. Now I’m going to
tell the true story of Mr Bailey’s marriage and of his progress as a
grocer. It’ll be a great book—a great book!’

He walked up and down the room, fervid with his conception.

‘There’ll be nothing bestial in it, you know. The decently ignoble—as
I’ve so often said. The thing’ll take me a year at least. I shall do it
slowly, lovingly. One volume, of course; the length of the ordinary French
novel. There’s something fine in the title, don’t you think? “Mr Bailey,

‘I envy you, old fellow,’ said Reardon, sighing. ‘You have the right fire
in you; you have zeal and energy. Well, what do you think I have decided
to do?’

‘I should like to hear.’

Reardon gave an account of his project. The other listened gravely, seated
across a chair with his arms on the back.

‘Your wife is in agreement with this?’

‘Oh yes.’ He could not bring himself to say that Amy had suggested it.
‘She has great hopes that the change will be just what I need.’

‘I should say so too—if you were going to rest. But if you have to
set to work at once it seems to me very doubtful.’

‘Never mind. For Heaven’s sake don’t discourage me! If this fails I think—upon
my soul, I think I shall kill myself.’

‘Pooh!’ exclaimed Biffen, gently. ‘With a wife like yours?’

‘Just because of that.’

‘No, no; there’ll be some way out of it. By-the-bye, I passed Mrs Reardon
this morning, but she didn’t see me. It was in Tottenham Court Road, and
Milvain was with her. I felt myself too seedy in appearance to stop and

‘In Tottenham Court Road?’

That was not the detail of the story which chiefly held Reardon’s
attention, yet he did not purposely make a misleading remark. His mind
involuntarily played this trick.

‘I only saw them just as they were passing,’ pursued Biffen. ‘Oh, I knew I
had something to tell you! Have you heard that Whelpdale is going to be

Reardon shook his head in a preoccupied way.

‘I had a note from him this morning, telling me. He asked me to look him
up to-night, and he’d let me know all about it. Let’s go together, shall

‘I don’t feel much in the humour for Whelpdale. I’ll walk with you, and go
on home.’

‘No, no; come and see him. It’ll do you good to talk a little.—But I
must positively eat a mouthful before we go. I’m afraid you won’t care to

He opened his cupboard, and brought out a loaf of bread and a saucer of
dripping, with salt and pepper.

‘Better dripping this than I’ve had for a long time. I get it at Mr
Bailey’s—that isn’t his real name, of course. He assures me it comes
from a large hotel where his wife’s sister is a kitchen-maid, and that
it’s perfectly pure; they very often mix flour with it, you know, and
perhaps more obnoxious things that an economical man doesn’t care to
reflect upon. Now, with a little pepper and salt, this bread and dripping
is as appetising food as I know. I often make a dinner of it.’

‘I have done the same myself before now. Do you ever buy pease-pudding?’

‘I should think so! I get magnificent pennyworths at a shop in Cleveland
Street, of a very rich quality indeed. Excellent faggots they have there,
too. I’ll give you a supper of them some night before you go.’

Biffen rose to enthusiasm in the contemplation of these dainties.

He ate his bread and dripping with knife and fork; this always made the
fare seem more substantial.

‘Is it very cold out?’ he asked, rising from the table. ‘Need I put my
overcoat on?’

This overcoat, purchased second-hand three years ago, hung on a door-nail.
Comparative ease of circumstances had restored to the realist his ordinary
indoor garment—a morning coat of the cloth called diagonal, rather
large for him, but in better preservation than the other articles of his

Reardon judging the overcoat necessary, his friend carefully brushed it
and drew it on with a caution which probably had reference to starting
seams. Then he put into the pocket his pipe, his pouch, his
tobacco-stopper, and his matches, murmuring to himself a Greek iambic line
which had come into his head a propos of nothing obvious.

‘Go out,’ he said, ‘and then I’ll extinguish the lamp. Mind the second
step down, as usual.’

They issued into Clipstone Street, turned northward, crossed Euston Road,
and came into Albany Street, where, in a house of decent exterior, Mr
Whelpdale had his present abode. A girl who opened the door requested them
to walk up to the topmost storey.

A cheery voice called to them from within the room at which they knocked.
This lodging spoke more distinctly of civilisation than that inhabited by
Biffen; it contained the minimum supply of furniture needed to give it
somewhat the appearance of a study, but the articles were in good
condition. One end of the room was concealed by a chintz curtain; scrutiny
would have discovered behind the draping the essential equipments of a

Mr Whelpdale sat by the fire, smoking a cigar. He was a plain-featured but
graceful and refined-looking man of thirty, with wavy chestnut hair and a
trimmed beard which became him well. At present he wore a dressing-gown
and was without collar.

‘Welcome, gents both!’ he cried facetiously. ‘Ages since I saw you,
Reardon. I’ve been reading your new book. Uncommonly good things in it
here and there—uncommonly good.’

Whelpdale had the weakness of being unable to tell a disagreeable truth,
and a tendency to flattery which had always made Reardon rather
uncomfortable in his society. Though there was no need whatever of his
mentioning ‘Margaret Home,’ he preferred to frame smooth fictions rather
than keep a silence which might be construed as unfavourable criticism.

‘In the last volume,’ he went on, ‘I think there are one or two things as
good as you ever did; I do indeed.’

Reardon made no acknowledgment of these remarks. They irritated him, for
he knew their insincerity. Biffen, understanding his friend’s silence,
struck in on another subject.

‘Who is this lady of whom you write to me?’

‘Ah, quite a story! I’m going to be married, Reardon. A serious marriage.
Light your pipes, and I’ll tell you all about it. Startled you, I suppose,
Biffen? Unlikely news, eh? Some people would call it a rash step, I dare
say. We shall just take another room in this house, that’s all. I think I
can count upon an income of a couple of guineas a week, and I have plans
without end that are pretty sure to bring in coin.’

Reardon did not care to smoke, but Biffen lit his pipe and waited with
grave interest for the romantic narrative. Whenever he heard of a poor
man’s persuading a woman to share his poverty he was eager of details;
perchance he himself might yet have that heavenly good fortune.

‘Well,’ began Whelpdale, crossing his legs and watching a wreath he had
just puffed from the cigar, ‘you know all about my literary advisership.
The business goes on reasonably well. I’m going to extend it in ways I’ll
explain to you presently. About six weeks ago I received a letter from a
lady who referred to my advertisements, and said she had the manuscript of
a novel which she would like to offer for my opinion. Two publishers had
refused it, but one with complimentary phrases, and she hoped it mightn’t
be impossible to put the thing into acceptable shape. Of course I wrote
optimistically, and the manuscript was sent to me.

Well, it wasn’t actually bad—by Jove! you should have seen some of
the things I have been asked to recommend to publishers! It wasn’t
hopelessly bad by any means, and I gave serious thought to it. After
exchange of several letters I asked the authoress to come and see me, that
we might save postage stamps and talk things over. She hadn’t given me her
address: I had to direct to a stationer’s in Bayswater. She agreed to
come, and did come. I had formed a sort of idea, but of course I was quite
wrong. Imagine my excitement when there came in a very beautiful girl, a
tremendously interesting girl, about one-and-twenty—just the kind of
girl that most strongly appeals to me; dark, pale, rather
consumptive-looking, slender—no, there’s no describing her; there
really isn’t! You must wait till you see her.’

‘I hope the consumption was only a figure of speech,’ remarked Biffen in
his grave way.

‘Oh, there’s nothing serious the matter, I think. A slight cough, poor

‘The deuce!’ interjected Reardon.

‘Oh, nothing, nothing! It’ll be all right. Well, now, of course we talked
over the story—in good earnest, you know. Little by little I induced
her to speak of herself—this, after she’d come two or three times—and
she told me lamentable things. She was absolutely alone in London, and
hadn’t had sufficient food for weeks; had sold all she could of her
clothing; and so on. Her home was in Birmingham; she had been driven away
by the brutality of a stepmother; a friend lent her a few pounds, and she
came to London with an unfinished novel. Well, you know, this kind of
thing would be enough to make me soft-hearted to any girl, let alone one
who, to begin with, was absolutely my ideal. When she began to express a
fear that I was giving too much time to her, that she wouldn’t be able to
pay my fees, and so on, I could restrain myself no longer. On the spot I
asked her to marry me. I didn’t practise any deception, mind. I told her I
was a poor devil who had failed as a realistic novelist and was earning
bread in haphazard ways; and I explained frankly that I thought we might
carry on various kinds of business together: she might go on with her
novel-writing, and—so on. But she was frightened; I had been too
abrupt. That’s a fault of mine, you know; but I was so confoundedly afraid
of losing her. And I told her as much, plainly.’

Biffen smiled.

‘This would be exciting,’ he said, ‘if we didn’t know the end of the

‘Yes. Pity I didn’t keep it a secret. Well, she wouldn’t say yes, but I
could see that she didn’t absolutely say no. “In any case,” I said,
“you’ll let me see you often? Fees be hanged! I’ll work day and night for
you. I’ll do my utmost to get your novel accepted.” And I implored her to
let me lend her a little money. It was very difficult to persuade her, but
at last she accepted a few shillings. I could see in her face that she was
hungry. Just imagine! A beautiful girl absolutely hungry; it drove me

But that was a great point gained. After that we saw each other almost
every day, and at last—she consented! Did indeed! I can hardly
believe it yet. We shall be married in a fortnight’s time.’

‘I congratulate you,’ said Reardon.

‘So do I,’ sighed Biffen.

‘The day before yesterday she went to Birmingham to see her father and
tell him all about the affair. I agreed with her it was as well; the old
fellow isn’t badly off; and he may forgive her for running away, though
he’s under his wife’s thumb, it appears. I had a note yesterday. She had
gone to a friend’s house for the first day. I hoped to have heard again
this morning—must to-morrow, in any case. I live, as you may
imagine, in wild excitement. Of course, if the old man stumps up a wedding
present, all the better. But I don’t care; we’ll make a living somehow.
What do you think I’m writing just now? An author’s Guide. You know the
kind of thing; they sell splendidly. Of course I shall make it a good
advertisement of my business. Then I have a splendid idea. I’m going to
advertise: “Novel-writing taught in ten lessons!” What do you think of
that? No swindle; not a bit of it. I am quite capable of giving the
ordinary man or woman ten very useful lessons. I’ve been working out the
scheme; it would amuse you vastly, Reardon. The first lesson deals with
the question of subjects, local colour—that kind of thing. I gravely
advise people, if they possibly can, to write of the wealthy middle class;
that’s the popular subject, you know. Lords and ladies are all very well,
but the real thing to take is a story about people who have no titles, but
live in good Philistine style. I urge study of horsey matters especially;
that’s very important. You must be well up, too, in military grades, know
about Sandhurst, and so on. Boating is an important topic. You see? Oh, I
shall make a great thing of this. I shall teach my wife carefully, and
then let her advertise lessons to girls; they’ll prefer coming to a woman,
you know.’

Biffen leant back and laughed noisily.

‘How much shall you charge for the course?’ asked Reardon.

‘That’ll depend. I shan’t refuse a guinea or two; but some people may be
made to pay five, perhaps.’

Someone knocked at the door, and a voice said:

‘A letter for you, Mr Whelpdale.’

He started up, and came back into the room with face illuminated.

‘Yes, it’s from Birmingham; posted this morning. Look what an exquisite
hand she writes!’

He tore open the envelope. In delicacy Reardon and Biffen averted their
eyes. There was silence for a minute, then a strange ejaculation from
Whelpdale caused his friends to look up at him. He had gone pale, and was
frowning at the sheet of paper which trembled in his hand.

‘No bad news, I hope?’ Biffen ventured to say.

Whelpdale let himself sink into a chair.

‘Now if this isn’t too bad!’ he exclaimed in a thick voice. ‘If this isn’t
monstrously unkind! I never heard anything so gross as this—never!’

The two waited, trying not to smile.

‘She writes—that she has met an old lover—in Birmingham—that
it was with him she had quarrelled-not with her father at all—that
she ran away to annoy him and frighten him—that she has made it up
again, and they’re going to be married!’

He let the sheet fall, and looked so utterly woebegone that his friends at
once exerted themselves to offer such consolation as the case admitted of.
Reardon thought better of Whelpdale for this emotion; he had not believed
him capable of it.

‘It isn’t a case of vulgar cheating!’ cried the forsaken one presently.
‘Don’t go away thinking that. She writes in real distress and penitence—she
does indeed. Oh, the devil! Why did I let her go to Birmingham? A
fortnight more, and I should have had her safe. But it’s just like my
luck. Do you know that this is the third time I’ve been engaged to be
married?—no, by Jove, the fourth! And every time the girl has got
out of it at the last moment. What an unlucky beast I am! A girl who was
positively my ideal! I haven’t even a photograph of her to show you; but
you’d be astonished at her face. Why, in the devil’s name, did I let her
go to Birmingham?’

The visitors had risen. They felt uncomfortable, for it seemed as if
Whelpdale might find vent for his distress in tears.

‘We had better leave you,’ suggested Biffen. ‘It’s very hard—it is

‘Look here! Read the letter for yourselves! Do!’

They declined, and begged him not to insist.

‘But I want you to see what kind of girl she is. It isn’t a case of
farcical deceiving—not a bit of it! She implores me to forgive her,
and blames herself no end. Just my luck! The third—no, the fourth
time, by Jove! Never was such an unlucky fellow with women. It’s because
I’m so damnably poor; that’s it, of course!’

Reardon and his companion succeeded at length in getting away, though not
till they had heard the virtues and beauty of the vanished girl described
again and again in much detail. Both were in a state of depression as they
left the house.

‘What think you of this story?’ asked Biffen. ‘Is this possible in a woman
of any merit?’

‘Anything is possible in a woman,’ Reardon replied, harshly.

They walked in silence as far as Portland Road Station. There, with an
assurance that he would come to a garret-supper before leaving London,
Reardon parted from his friend and turned westward.

As soon as he had entered, Amy’s voice called to him:

‘Here’s a letter from Jedwood, Edwin!’

He stepped into the study.

‘It came just after you went out, and it has been all I could do to resist
the temptation to open it.’

‘Why shouldn’t you have opened it?’ said her husband, carelessly.

He tried to do so himself, but his shaking hand thwarted him at first.
Succeeding at length, he found a letter in the publisher’s own writing,
and the first word that caught his attention was ‘regret.’ With an angry
effort to command himself he ran through the communication, then held it
out to Amy.

She read, and her countenance fell. Mr Jedwood regretted that the story
offered to him did not seem likely to please that particular public to
whom his series of one-volume novels made appeal. He hoped it would be
understood that, in declining, he by no means expressed an adverse
judgment on the story itself &c.

‘It doesn’t surprise me,’ said Reardon. ‘I believe he is quite right. The
thing is too empty to please the better kind of readers, yet not vulgar
enough to please the worse.’

‘But you’ll try someone else?’

‘I don’t think it’s much use.’

They sat opposite each other, and kept silence. Jedwood’s letter slipped
from Amy’s lap to the ground.

‘So,’ said Reardon, presently, ‘I don’t see how our plan is to be carried

‘Oh, it must be!’

‘But how?’

‘You’ll get seven or eight pounds from The Wayside. And—hadn’t we
better sell the furniture, instead of—’

His look checked her.

‘It seems to me, Amy, that your one desire is to get away from me, on
whatever terms.’

‘Don’t begin that over again!’ she exclaimed, fretfully. ‘If you don’t
believe what I say—’

They were both in a state of intolerable nervous tension. Their voices
quivered, and their eyes had an unnatural brightness.

‘If we sell the furniture,’ pursued Reardon, ‘that means you’ll never come
back to me. You wish to save yourself and the child from the hard life
that seems to be before us.’

‘Yes, I do; but not by deserting you. I want you to go and work for us
all, so that we may live more happily before long. Oh, how wretched this

She burst into hysterical weeping. But Reardon, instead of attempting to
soothe her, went into the next room, where he sat for a long time in the
dark. When he returned Amy was calm again; her face expressed a cold

‘Where did you go this morning?’ he asked, as if wishing to talk of common

‘I told you. I went to buy those things for Willie.’

‘Oh yes.’

There was a silence.

‘Biffen passed you in Tottenham Court Road,’ he added.

‘I didn’t see him.’

‘No; he said you didn’t.’

‘Perhaps,’ said Amy, ‘it was just when I was speaking to Mr Milvain.’

‘You met Milvain?’


‘Why didn’t you tell me?’

‘I’m sure I don’t know. I can’t mention every trifle that happens.’

‘No, of course not.’

Amy closed her eyes, as if in weariness, and for a minute or two Reardon
observed her countenance.

‘So you think we had better sell the furniture.’

‘I shall say nothing more about it. You must do as seems best to you,

‘Are you going to see your mother to-morrow?’

‘Yes. I thought you would like to come too.’

‘No; there’s no good in my going.’

He again rose, and that night they talked no more of their difficulties,
though on the morrow (Sunday) it would be necessary to decide their course
in every detail.


Amy did not go to church. Before her marriage she had done so as a mere
matter of course, accompanying her mother, but Reardon’s attitude with
regard to the popular religion speedily became her own; she let the
subject lapse from her mind, and cared neither to defend nor to attack
where dogma was concerned. She had no sympathies with mysticism; her
nature was strongly practical, with something of zeal for intellectual
attainment superadded.

This Sunday morning she was very busy with domestic minutiae. Reardon
noticed what looked like preparations for packing, and being as little
disposed for conversation as his wife, he went out and walked for a couple
of hours in the Hampstead region. Dinner over, Amy at once made ready for
her journey to Westbourne Park.

‘Then you won’t come?’ she said to her husband.

‘No. I shall see your mother before I go away, but I don’t care to till
you have settled everything.’

It was half a year since he had met Mrs Yule. She never came to their
dwelling, and Reardon could not bring himself to visit her.

‘You had very much rather we didn’t sell the furniture?’ Amy asked.

‘Ask your mother’s opinion. That shall decide.’

‘There’ll be the expense of moving it, you know. Unless money comes from
The Wayside, you’ll only have two or three pounds left.’

Reardon made no reply. He was overcome by the bitterness of shame.

‘I shall say, then,’ pursued Amy, who spoke with averted face, ‘that I am
to go there for good on Tuesday? I mean, of course, for the summer

‘I suppose so.’

Then he turned suddenly upon her.

‘Do you really imagine that at the end of the summer I shall be a rich
man? What do you mean by talking in this way? If the furniture is sold to
supply me with a few pounds for the present, what prospect is there that I
shall be able to buy new?’

‘How can we look forward at all?’ replied Amy. ‘It has come to the
question of how we are to subsist. I thought you would rather get money in
this way than borrow of mother—when she has the expense of keeping
me and Willie.’

‘You are right,’ muttered Reardon. ‘Do as you think best.’ Amy was in her
most practical mood, and would not linger for purposeless talk. A few
minutes, and Reardon was left alone.

He stood before his bookshelves and began to pick out the volumes which he
would take away with him. Just a few, the indispensable companions of a
bookish man who still clings to life—his Homer, his Shakespeare—

The rest must be sold. He would get rid of them to-morrow morning. All
together they might bring him a couple of sovereigns.

Then his clothing. Amy had fulfilled all the domestic duties of a wife;
his wardrobe was in as good a state as circumstances allowed. But there
was no object in burdening himself with winter garments, for, if he lived
through the summer at all, he would be able to repurchase such few poor
things as were needful; at present he could only think of how to get
together a few coins. So he made a heap of such things as might be sold.

The furniture? If it must go, the price could scarcely be more than ten or
twelve pounds; well, perhaps fifteen. To be sure, in this way his summer’s
living would be abundantly provided for.

He thought of Biffen enviously. Biffen, if need be, could support life on
three or four shillings a week, happy in the thought that no mortal had a
claim upon him. If he starved to death—well, many another lonely man
has come to that end. If he preferred to kill himself, who would be
distressed? Spoilt child of fortune!

The bells of St Marylebone began to clang for afternoon service. In the
idleness of dull pain his thoughts followed their summons, and he
marvelled that there were people who could imagine it a duty or find it a
solace to go and sit in that twilight church and listen to the droning of
prayers. He thought of the wretched millions of mankind to whom life is so
barren that they must needs believe in a recompense beyond the grave. For
that he neither looked nor longed. The bitterness of his lot was that this
world might be a sufficing paradise to him if only he could clutch a poor
little share of current coin. He had won the world’s greatest prize—a
woman’s love—but could not retain it because his pockets were empty.

That he should fail to make a great name, this was grievous disappointment
to Amy, but this alone would not have estranged her. It was the dread and
shame of penury that made her heart cold to him. And he could not in his
conscience scorn her for being thus affected by the vulgar circumstances
of life; only a few supreme natures stand unshaken under such a trial, and
though his love of Amy was still passionate, he knew that her place was
among a certain class of women, and not on the isolated pinnacle where he
had at first visioned her. It was entirely natural that she shrank at the
test of squalid suffering. A little money, and he could have rested secure
in her love, for then he would have been able to keep ever before her the
best qualities of his heart and brain. Upon him, too, penury had its
debasing effect; as he now presented himself he was not a man to be
admired or loved. It was all simple and intelligible enough—a
situation that would be misread only by shallow idealism.

Worst of all, she was attracted by Jasper Milvain’s energy and promise of
success. He had no ignoble suspicions of Amy, but it was impossible for
him not to see that she habitually contrasted the young journalist, who
laughingly made his way among men, with her grave, dispirited husband, who
was not even capable of holding such position as he had gained. She
enjoyed Milvain’s conversation, it put her into a good humour; she liked
him personally, and there could be no doubt that she had observed a
jealous tendency in Reardon’s attitude to his former friend—always a
harmful suggestion to a woman. Formerly she had appreciated her husband’s
superiority; she had smiled at Milvain’s commoner stamp of mind and
character. But tedious repetition of failure had outwearied her, and now
she saw Milvain in the sunshine of progress, dwelt upon the worldly
advantages of gifts and a temperament such as his. Again, simple and
intelligible enough.

Living apart from her husband, she could not be expected to forswear
society, and doubtless she would see Milvain pretty often. He called
occasionally at Mrs Yule’s, and would not do so less often when he knew
that Amy was to be met there. There would be chance encounters like that
of yesterday, of which she had chosen to keep silence.

A dark fear began to shadow him. In yielding thus passively to stress of
circumstances, was he not exposing his wife to a danger which outweighed
all the ills of poverty? As one to whom she was inestimably dear, was he
right in allowing her to leave him, if only for a few months? He knew very
well that a man of strong character would never have entertained this
project. He had got into the way of thinking of himself as too weak to
struggle against the obstacles on which Amy insisted, and of looking for
safety in retreat; but what was to be the end of this weakness if the
summer did not at all advance him? He knew better than Amy could how
unlikely it was that he should recover the energies of his mind in so
short a time and under such circumstances; only the feeble man’s
temptation to postpone effort had made him consent to this step, and now
that he was all but beyond turning back, the perils of which he had
thought too little forced themselves upon his mind.

He rose in anguish, and stood looking about him as if aid might somewhere
be visible.

Presently there was a knock at the front door, and on opening he beheld
the vivacious Mr Carter. This gentleman had only made two or three calls
here since Reardon’s marriage; his appearance was a surprise.

‘I hear you are leaving town for a time,’ he exclaimed. ‘Edith told me
yesterday, so I thought I’d look you up.’

He was in spring costume, and exhaled fresh odours. The contrast between
his prosperous animation and Reardon’s broken-spirited quietness could not
have been more striking.

‘Going away for your health, they tell me. You’ve been working too hard,
you know. You mustn’t overdo it. And where do you think of going to?’

‘It isn’t at all certain that I shall go,’ Reardon replied. ‘I thought of
a few weeks—somewhere at the seaside.’

‘I advise you to go north,’ went on Carter cheerily. ‘You want a tonic,
you know. Get up into Scotland and do some boating and fishing—that
kind of thing. You’d come back a new man. Edith and I had a turn up there
last year, you know; it did me heaps of good.’

‘Oh, I don’t think I should go so far as that.’

‘But that’s just what you want—a regular change, something bracing.
You don’t look at all well, that’s the fact. A winter in London tries any
man—it does me, I know. I’ve been seedy myself these last few weeks.
Edith wants me to take her over to Paris at the end of this month, and I
think it isn’t a bad idea; but I’m so confoundedly busy. In the autumn we
shall go to Norway, I think; it seems to be the right thing to do
nowadays. Why shouldn’t you have a run over to Norway? They say it can be
done very cheaply; the steamers take you for next to nothing.’

He talked on with the joyous satisfaction of a man whose income is
assured, and whose future teems with a succession of lively holidays.
Reardon could make no answer to such suggestions; he sat with a fixed
smile on his face.

‘Have you heard,’ said Carter, presently, ‘that we’re opening a branch of
the hospital in the City Road?’

‘No; I hadn’t heard of it.’

‘It’ll only be for out-patients. Open three mornings and three evenings

‘Who’ll represent you there?’

‘I shall look in now and then, of course;
there’ll be a clerk, like at the old place.’

He talked of the matter in detail—of the doctors who would attend,
and of certain new arrangements to be tried.

‘Have you engaged the clerk?’ Reardon asked.

‘Not yet. I think I know a man who’ll suit me, though.’

‘You wouldn’t be disposed to give me the chance?’

Reardon spoke huskily, and ended with a broken laugh.

‘You’re rather above my figure nowadays, old man!’ exclaimed Carter,
joining in what he considered the jest.

‘Shall you pay a pound a week?’

‘Twenty-five shillings. It’ll have to be a man who can be trusted to take
money from the paying patients.’

‘Well, I am serious. Will you give me the place?’

Carter gazed at him, and checked another laugh.

‘What the deuce do you mean?’

‘The fact is,’ Reardon replied, ‘I want variety of occupation. I can’t
stick at writing for more than a month or two at a time. It’s because I
have tried to do so that—well, practically, I have broken down. If
you will give me this clerkship, it will relieve me from the necessity of
perpetually writing novels; I shall be better for it in every way. You
know that I’m equal to the job; you can trust me; and I dare say I shall
be more useful than most clerks you could get.’

It was done, most happily done, on the first impulse. A minute more of
pause, and he could not have faced the humiliation. His face burned, his
tongue was parched.

‘I’m floored!’ cried Carter. ‘I shouldn’t have thought—but of
course, if you really want it. I can hardly believe yet that you’re
serious, Reardon.’

‘Why not? Will you promise me the work?’

‘Well, yes.’

‘When shall I have to begin?’

‘The place’ll be opened to-morrow week. But how about your holiday?’

‘Oh, let that stand over. It’ll be holiday enough to occupy myself in a
new way. An old way, too; I shall enjoy it.’

He laughed merrily, relieved beyond measure at having come to what seemed
an end of his difficulties. For half an hour they continued to talk over
the affair.

‘Well, it’s a comical idea,’ said Carter, as he took his leave, ‘but you
know your own business best.’

When Amy returned, Reardon allowed her to put the child to bed before he
sought any conversation. She came at length and sat down in the study.

‘Mother advises us not to sell the furniture,’ were her first words.

‘I’m glad of that, as I had quite made up my mind not to.’ There was a
change in his way of speaking which she at once noticed.

‘Have you thought of something?’

‘Yes. Carter has been here, and he happened to mention that they’re
opening an out-patient department of the hospital, in the City Road. He’ll
want someone to help him there. I asked for the post, and he promised it

The last words were hurried, though he had resolved to speak with
deliberation. No more feebleness; he had taken a decision, and would act
upon it as became a responsible man.

‘The post?’ said Amy. ‘What post?’

‘In plain English, the clerkship. It’ll be the same work as I used to have—registering
patients, receiving their “letters,” and so on. The pay is to be
five-and-twenty shillings a week.’

Amy sat upright and looked steadily at him.

‘Is this a joke?’

‘Far from it, dear. It’s a blessed deliverance.’

‘You have asked Mr Carter to take you back as a clerk?’

‘I have.’

‘And you propose that we shall live on twenty-five shillings a week?’

‘Oh no! I shall be engaged only three mornings in the week and three
evenings. In my free time I shall do literary work, and no doubt I can
earn fifty pounds a year by it—if I have your sympathy to help me.
To-morrow I shall go and look for rooms some distance from here; in
Islington, I think. We have been living far beyond our means; that must
come to an end. We’ll have no more keeping up of sham appearances. If I
can make my way in literature, well and good; in that case our position
and prospects will of course change. But for the present we are poor
people, and must live in a poor way. If our friends like to come and see
us, they must put aside all snobbishness, and take us as we are. If they
prefer not to come, there’ll be an excuse in our remoteness.’

Amy was stroking the back of her hand. After a long silence, she said in a
very quiet, but very resolute tone:

‘I shall not consent to this.’

‘In that case, Amy, I must do without your consent. The rooms will be
taken, and our furniture transferred to them.’

‘To me that will make no difference,’ returned his wife, in the same voice
as before. ‘I have decided—as you told me to—to go with Willie
to mother’s next Tuesday. You, of course, must do as you please. I should
have thought a summer at the seaside would have been more helpful to you;
but if you prefer to live in Islington—’

Reardon approached her, and laid a hand on her shoulder.

‘Amy, are you my wife, or not?’

‘I am certainly not the wife of a clerk who is paid so much a week.’

He had foreseen a struggle, but without certainty of the form Amy’s
opposition would take. For himself he meant to be gently resolute, calmly
regardless of protest. But in a man to whom such self-assertion is a
matter of conscious effort, tremor of the nerves will always interfere
with the line of conduct he has conceived in advance. Already Reardon had
spoken with far more bluntness than he proposed; involuntarily, his voice
slipped from earnest determination to the note of absolutism, and, as is
wont to be the case, the sound of these strange tones instigated him to
further utterances of the same kind. He lost control of himself. Amy’s
last reply went through him like an electric shock, and for the moment he
was a mere husband defied by his wife, the male stung to exertion of his
brute force against the physically weaker sex.

‘However you regard me, you will do what I think fit. I shall not argue
with you. If I choose to take lodgings in Whitechapel, there you will come
and live.’

He met Amy’s full look, and was conscious of that in it which corresponded
to his own brutality. She had become suddenly a much older woman; her
cheeks were tight drawn into thinness, her lips were bloodlessly hard,
there was an unknown furrow along her forehead, and she glared like the
animal that defends itself with tooth and claw.

‘Do as YOU think fit? Indeed!’

Could Amy’s voice sound like that? Great Heaven! With just such accent he
had heard a wrangling woman retort upon her husband at the street corner.
Is there then no essential difference between a woman of this world and
one of that? Does the same nature lie beneath such unlike surfaces?

He had but to do one thing: to seize her by the arm, drag her up from the
chair, dash her back again with all his force—there, the
transformation would be complete, they would stand towards each other on
the natural footing. With an added curse perhaps—Instead of that, he
choked, struggled for breath, and shed tears.

Amy turned scornfully away from him. Blows and a curse would have overawed
her, at all events for the moment; she would have felt: ‘Yes, he is a man,
and I have put my destiny into his hands.’ His tears moved her to a
feeling cruelly exultant; they were the sign of her superiority. It was
she who should have wept, and never in her life had she been further from
such display of weakness.

This could not be the end, however, and she had no wish to terminate the
scene. They stood for a minute without regarding each other, then Reardon
faced to her.

‘You refuse to live with me, then?’

‘Yes, if this is the kind of life you offer me.’

‘You would be more ashamed to share your husband’s misfortunes than to
declare to everyone that you had deserted him?’

‘I shall “declare to everyone” the simple truth. You have the opportunity
of making one more effort to save us from degradation. You refuse to take
the trouble; you prefer to drag me down into a lower rank of life. I can’t
and won’t consent to that. The disgrace is yours; it’s fortunate for me
that I have a decent home to go to.’

‘Fortunate for you!—you make yourself unutterably contemptible. I
have done nothing that justifies you in leaving me. It is for me to judge
what I can do and what I can’t. A good woman would see no degradation in
what I ask of you. But to run away from me just because I am poorer than
you ever thought I should be—’

He was incoherent. A thousand passionate things that he wished to say
clashed together in his mind and confused his speech. Defeated in the
attempt to act like a strong man, he could not yet recover
standing-ground, knew not how to tone his utterances.

‘Yes, of course, that’s how you will put it,’ said Amy. ‘That’s how you
will represent me to your friends. My friends will see it in a different

‘They will regard you as a martyr?’

‘No one shall make a martyr of me, you may be sure. I was unfortunate
enough to marry a man who had no delicacy, no regard for my feelings.—I
am not the first woman who has made a mistake of this kind.’

‘No delicacy? No regard for your feelings?—Have I always utterly
misunderstood you? Or has poverty changed you to a woman I can’t

He came nearer, and gazed desperately into her face. Not a muscle of it
showed susceptibility to the old influences.

‘Do you know, Amy,’ he added in a lower voice, ‘that if we part now, we
part for ever?’

‘I’m afraid that is only too likely.’

She moved aside.

‘You mean that you wish it. You are weary of me, and care for nothing but
how to make yourself free.’

‘I shall argue no more. I am tired to death of it.’

‘Then say nothing, but listen for the last time to my view of the position
we have come to. When I consented to leave you for a time, to go away and
try to work in solitude, I was foolish and even insincere, both to you and
to myself. I knew that I was undertaking the impossible. It was just
putting off the evil day, that was all—putting off the time when I
should have to say plainly: “I can’t live by literature, so I must look
out for some other employment.” I shouldn’t have been so weak but that I
knew how you would regard such a decision as that. I was afraid to tell
the truth—afraid. Now, when Carter of a sudden put this opportunity
before me, I saw all the absurdity of the arrangements we had made. It
didn’t take me a moment to make up my mind. Anything was to be chosen
rather than a parting from you on false pretences, a ridiculous
affectation of hope where there was no hope.’

He paused, and saw that his words had no effect upon her.

‘And a grievous share of the fault lies with you, Amy. You remember very
well when I first saw how dark the future was. I was driven even to say
that we ought to change our mode of living; I asked you if you would be
willing to leave this place and go into cheaper rooms. And you know what
your answer was. Not a sign in you that you would stand by me if the worst
came. I knew then what I had to look forward to, but I durst not believe
it. I kept saying to myself: “She loves me, and as soon as she really
understands—” That was all self-deception. If I had been a wise man,
I should have spoken to you in a way you couldn’t mistake. I should have
told you that we were living recklessly, and that I had determined to
alter it. I have no delicacy? No regard for your feelings? Oh, if I had
had less! I doubt whether you can even understand some of the
considerations that weighed with me, and made me cowardly—though I
once thought there was no refinement of sensibility that you couldn’t
enter into. Yes, I was absurd enough to say to myself: “It will look as if
I had consciously deceived her; she may suffer from the thought that I won
her at all hazards, knowing that I should soon expose her to poverty and
all sorts of humiliation.” Impossible to speak of that again; I had to
struggle desperately on, trying to hope. Oh! if you knew—’

His voice gave way for an instant.

‘I don’t understand how you could be so thoughtless and heartless. You
knew that I was almost mad with anxiety at times. Surely, any woman must
have had the impulse to give what help was in her power. How could you
hesitate? Had you no suspicion of what a relief and encouragement it would
be to me, if you said: “Yes, we must go and live in a simpler way?” If
only as a proof that you loved me, how I should have welcomed that! You
helped me in nothing. You threw all the responsibility upon me—always
bearing in mind, I suppose, that there was a refuge for you. Even now, I
despise myself for saying such things of you, though I know so bitterly
that they are true. It takes a long time to see you as such a different
woman from the one I worshipped. In passion, I can fling out violent
words, but they don’t yet answer to my actual feeling. It will be long
enough yet before I think contemptuously of you. You know that when a
light is suddenly extinguished, the image of it still shows before your
eyes. But at last comes the darkness.’

Amy turned towards him once more.

‘Instead of saying all this, you might be proving that I am wrong. Do so,
and I will gladly confess it.’

‘That you are wrong? I don’t see your meaning.’

‘You might prove that you are willing to do your utmost to save me from

‘Amy, I have done my utmost. I have done more than you can imagine.’

‘No. You have toiled on in illness and anxiety—I know that. But a
chance is offered you now of working in a better way. Till that is tried,
you have no right to give all up and try to drag me down with you.’

‘I don’t know how to answer. I have told you so often—You can’t
understand me!’

‘I can! I can!’ Her voice trembled for the first time. ‘I know that you
are so ready to give in to difficulties. Listen to me, and do as I bid
you.’ She spoke in the strangest tone of command.

It was command, not exhortation, but there was no harshness in her voice.
‘Go at once to Mr Carter. Tell him you have made a ludicrous mistake—in
a fit of low spirits; anything you like to say. Tell him you of course
couldn’t dream of becoming his clerk. To-night; at once! You understand
me, Edwin? Go now, this moment.’

‘Have you determined to see how weak I am? Do you wish to be able to
despise me more completely still?’

‘I am determined to be your friend, and to save you from yourself. Go at
once! Leave all the rest to me. If I have let things take their course
till now, it shan’t be so in future. The responsibility shall be with me.
Only do as I tell you.’

‘You know it’s impossible—’

‘It is not! I will find money. No one shall be allowed to say that we are
parting; no one has any such idea yet. You are going away for your health,
just three summer months. I have been far more careful of appearances than
you imagine, but you give me credit for so little. I will find the money
you need, until you have written another book. I promise; I undertake it.
Then I will find another home for us, of the proper kind. You shall have
no trouble. You shall give yourself entirely to intellectual things.

But Mr Carter must be told at once, before he can spread a report. If he
has spoken, he must contradict what he has said.’

‘But you amaze me, Amy. Do you mean to say that you look upon it as a
veritable disgrace, my taking this clerkship?’

‘I do. I can’t help my nature. I am ashamed through and through that you
should sink to this.’

‘But everyone knows that I was a clerk once!’

‘Very few people know it. And then that isn’t the same thing. It doesn’t
matter what one has been in the past. Especially a literary man; everyone
expects to hear that he was once poor. But to fall from the position you
now have, and to take weekly wages—you surely can’t know how people
of my world regard that.’

‘Of your world? I had thought your world was the same as mine, and knew
nothing whatever of these imbecilities.’

‘It is getting late. Go and see Mr Carter, and afterwards I will talk as
much as you like.’

He might perhaps have yielded, but the unemphasised contempt in that last
sentence was more than he could bear. It demonstrated to him more
completely than set terms could have done what a paltry weakling he would
appear in Amy’s eyes if he took his hat down from the peg and set out to
obey her orders.

‘You are asking too much,’ he said, with unexpected coldness. ‘If my
opinions are so valueless to you that you dismiss them like those of a
troublesome child, I wonder you think it worth while to try and keep up
appearances about me. It is very simple: make known to everyone that you
are in no way connected with the disgrace I have brought upon myself. Put
an advertisement in the newspapers to that effect, if you like—as
men do about their wives’ debts. I have chosen my part. I can’t stultify
myself to please you.’

She knew that this was final. His voice had the true ring of shame in

‘Then go your way, and I will go mine!’

Amy left the room.

When Reardon went into the bedchamber an hour later, he unfolded a
chair-bedstead that stood there, threw some rugs upon it, and so lay down
to pass the night. He did not close his eyes. Amy slept for an hour or two
before dawn, and on waking she started up and looked anxiously about the
room. But neither spoke.

There was a pretence of ordinary breakfast; the little servant
necessitated that. When she saw her husband preparing to go out, Amy asked
him to come into the study.

‘How long shall you be away?’ she asked, curtly.

‘It is doubtful. I am going to look for rooms.’

‘Then no doubt I shall be gone when you come back. There’s no object, now,
in my staying here till to-morrow.’

‘As you please.’

‘Do you wish Lizzie still to come?’

‘No. Please to pay her wages and dismiss her. Here is some money.’

‘I think you had better let me see to that.’

He flung the coin on to the table and opened the door. Amy stepped quickly
forward and closed it again.

‘This is our good-bye, is it?’ she asked, her eyes on the ground.

‘As you wish it—yes.’

‘You will remember that I have not wished it.’

‘In that case, you have only to go with me to the new home.’

‘I can’t.’

‘Then you have made your choice.’

She did not prevent his opening the door this time, and he passed out
without looking at her.

His return was at three in the afternoon. Amy and the child were gone; the
servant was gone. The table in the dining-room was spread as if for one
person’s meal.

He went into the bedroom. Amy’s trunks had disappeared. The child’s cot
was covered over. In the study, he saw that the sovereign he had thrown on
to the table still lay in the same place.

As it was a very cold day he lit a fire. Whilst it burnt up he sat reading
a torn portion of a newspaper, and became quite interested in the report
of a commercial meeting in the City, a thing he would never have glanced
at under ordinary circumstances. The fragment fell at length from his
hands; his head drooped; he sank into a troubled sleep.

About six he had tea, then began the packing of the few books that were to
go with him, and of such other things as could be enclosed in box or
portmanteau. After a couple of hours of this occupation he could no longer
resist his weariness, so he went to bed. Before falling asleep he heard
the two familiar clocks strike eight; this evening they were in unusual
accord, and the querulous notes from the workhouse sounded between the
deeper ones from St Marylebone. Reardon tried to remember when he had last
observed this; the matter seemed to have a peculiar interest for him, and
in dreams he worried himself with a grotesque speculation thence derived.


Before her marriage Mrs Edmund Yule was one of seven motherless sisters
who constituted the family of a dentist slenderly provided in the matter
of income. The pinching and paring which was a chief employment of her
energies in those early days had disagreeable effects upon a character
disposed rather to generosity than the reverse; during her husband’s
lifetime she had enjoyed rather too eagerly all the good things which he
put at her command, sometimes forgetting that a wife has duties as well as
claims, and in her widowhood she indulged a pretentiousness and
querulousness which were the natural, but not amiable, results of suddenly
restricted circumstances.

Like the majority of London people, she occupied a house of which the rent
absurdly exceeded the due proportion of her income, a pleasant foible
turned to such good account by London landlords. Whereas she might have
lived with a good deal of modest comfort, her existence was a perpetual
effort to conceal the squalid background of what was meant for the eyes of
her friends and neighbours. She kept only two servants, who were so ill
paid and so relentlessly overworked that it was seldom they remained with
her for more than three months. In dealings with other people whom she
perforce employed, she was often guilty of incredible meanness; as, for
instance, when she obliged her half-starved dressmaker to purchase
material for her, and then postponed payment alike for that and for the
work itself to the last possible moment. This was not heartlessness in the
strict sense of the word; the woman not only knew that her behaviour was
shameful, she was in truth ashamed of it and sorry for her victims. But
life was a battle. She must either crush or be crushed. With sufficient
means, she would have defrauded no one, and would have behaved generously
to many; with barely enough for her needs, she set her face and defied her
feelings, inasmuch as she believed there was no choice.

She would shed tears over a pitiful story of want, and without shadow of
hypocrisy. It was hard, it was cruel; such things oughtn’t to be allowed
in a world where there were so many rich people. The next day she would
argue with her charwoman about halfpence, and end by paying the poor
creature what she knew was inadequate and unjust. For the simplest reason:
she hadn’t more to give, without submitting to privations which she
considered intolerable.

But whilst she could be a positive hyena to strangers, to those who were
akin to her, and those of whom she was fond, her affectionate kindness was
remarkable. One observes this peculiarity often enough; it reminds one how
savage the social conflict is, in which those little groups of people
stand serried against their common enemies; relentless to all others,
among themselves only the more tender and zealous because of the
ever-impending danger. No mother was ever more devoted. Her son, a
gentleman of quite noteworthy selfishness, had board and lodging beneath
her roof on nominal terms, and under no stress of pecuniary trouble had
Mrs Yule called upon him to make the slightest sacrifice on her behalf.
Her daughter she loved with profound tenderness, and had no will that was
opposed to Amy’s. And it was characteristic of her that her children were
never allowed to understand of what baseness she often became guilty in
the determination to support appearances. John Yule naturally suspected
what went on behind the scenes; on one occasion—since Amy’s marriage—he
had involuntarily overheard a dialogue between his mother and a servant on
the point of departing which made even him feel ashamed. But from Amy
every paltriness and meanness had always been concealed with the utmost
care; Mrs Yule did not scruple to lie heroically when in danger of being
detected by her daughter.

Yet this energetic lady had no social ambitions that pointed above her own
stratum. She did not aim at intimacy with her superiors; merely at
superiority among her intimates. Her circle was not large, but in that
circle she must be regarded with the respect due to a woman of refined
tastes and personal distinction. Her little dinners might be of rare
occurrence, but to be invited must be felt a privilege. ‘Mrs Edmund Yule’
must sound well on people’s lips; never be the occasion of those peculiar
smiles which she herself was rather fond of indulging at the mention of
other people’s names.

The question of Amy’s marriage had been her constant thought from the time
when the little girl shot into a woman grown. For Amy no common match, no
acceptance of a husband merely for money or position. Few men who walked
the earth were mates for Amy. But years went on, and the man of undeniable
distinction did not yet present himself. Suitors offered, but Amy smiled
coldly at their addresses, in private not seldom scornfully, and her
mother, though growing anxious, approved. Then of a sudden appeared Edwin

A literary man? Well, it was one mode of distinction. Happily, a novelist;
novelists now and then had considerable social success.

Mr Reardon, it was true, did not impress one as a man likely to push
forward where the battle called for rude vigour, but Amy soon assured
herself that he would have a reputation far other than that of the average
successful storyteller. The best people would regard him; he would be
welcomed in the penetralia of culture; superior persons would say: ‘Oh, I
don’t read novels as a rule, but of course Mr Reardon’s—’ If that
really were to be the case, all was well; for Mrs Yule could appreciate
social and intellectual differences.

Alas! alas! What was the end of those shining anticipations?

First of all, Mrs Yule began to make less frequent mention of ‘my
son-in-law, Mr Edwin Reardon.’ Next, she never uttered his name save when
inquiries necessitated it. Then, the most intimate of her intimates
received little hints which were not quite easy to interpret. ‘Mr Reardon
is growing so very eccentric—has an odd distaste for society—occupies
himself with all sorts of out-of-the-way interests. No, I’m afraid we
shan’t have another of his novels for some time. I think he writes
anonymously a good deal. And really, such curious eccentricities!’ Many
were the tears she wept after her depressing colloquies with Amy; and, as
was to be expected, she thought severely of the cause of these sorrows. On
the last occasion when he came to her house she received him with such
extreme civility that Reardon thenceforth disliked her, whereas before he
had only thought her a good-natured and silly woman.

Alas for Amy’s marriage with a man of distinction! From step to step of
descent, till here was downright catastrophe. Bitter enough in itself, but
most lamentable with reference to the friends of the family. How was it to
be explained, this return of Amy to her home for several months, whilst
her husband was no further away than Worthing? The bald, horrible truth—impossible!
Yet Mr Milvain knew it, and the Carters must guess it. What colour could
be thrown upon such vulgar distress?

The worst was not yet. It declared itself this May morning, when, quite
unexpectedly, a cab drove up to the house, bringing Amy and her child, and
her trunks, and her band-boxes, and her what-nots.

From the dining-room window Mrs Yule was aware of this arrival, and in a
few moments she learnt the unspeakable cause.

She burst into tears, genuine as ever woman shed.

‘There’s no use in that, mother,’ said Amy, whose temper was in a
dangerous state. ‘Nothing worse can happen, that’s one consolation.’

‘Oh, it’s disgraceful! disgraceful!’ sobbed Mrs Yule. ‘What we are to say
I can NOT think.’

‘I shall say nothing whatever. People can scarcely have the impertinence
to ask us questions when we have shown that they are unwelcome.’

‘But there are some people I can’t help giving some explanation to. My
dear child, he is not in his right mind. I’m convinced of it, there! He is
not in his right mind.’

‘That’s nonsense, mother. He is as sane as I am.’

‘But you have often said what strange things he says and does; you know
you have, Amy. That talking in his sleep; I’ve thought a great deal of it
since you told me about that. And—and so many other things. My love,
I shall give it to be understood that he has become so very odd in his
ways that—’

‘I can’t have that,’ replied Amy with decision. ‘Don’t you see that in
that case I should be behaving very badly?’

‘I can’t see that at all. There are many reasons, as you know very well,
why one shouldn’t live with a husband who is at all suspected of mental
derangement. You have done your utmost for him. And this would be some
sort of explanation, you know. I am so convinced that there is truth in
it, too.’

‘Of course I can’t prevent you from saying what you like, but I think it
would be very wrong to start a rumour of this kind.’

There was less resolve in this utterance. Amy mused, and looked wretched.

‘Come up to the drawing-room, dear,’ said her mother, for they had held
their conversation in the room nearest to the house-door. ‘What a state
your mind must be in! Oh dear! Oh dear!’

She was a slender, well-proportioned woman, still pretty in face, and
dressed in a way that emphasised her abiding charms. Her voice had
something of plaintiveness, and altogether she was of frailer type than
her daughter.

‘Is my room ready?’ Amy inquired on the stairs.

‘I’m sorry to say it isn’t, dear, as I didn’t expect you till tomorrow.
But it shall be seen to immediately.’

This addition to the household was destined to cause grave difficulties
with the domestic slaves. But Mrs Yule would prove equal to the occasion.
On Amy’s behalf she would have worked her servants till they perished of
exhaustion before her eyes.

‘Use my room for the present,’ she added. ‘I think the girl has finished
up there. But wait here; I’ll just go and see to things.’

‘Things’ were not quite satisfactory, as it proved. You should have heard
the change that came in that sweetly plaintive voice when it addressed the
luckless housemaid. It was not brutal; not at all. But so sharp, hard,
unrelenting—the voice of the goddess Poverty herself perhaps sounds
like that.

Mad? Was he to be spoken of in a low voice, and with finger pointing to
the forehead? There was something ridiculous, as well as repugnant, in
such a thought; but it kept possession of Amy’s mind. She was brooding
upon it when her mother came into the drawing-room.

‘And he positively refused to carry out the former plan?’

‘Refused. Said it was useless.’

‘How could it be useless? There’s something so unaccountable in his

‘I don’t think it unaccountable,’ replied Amy. ‘It’s weak and selfish,
that’s all. He takes the first miserable employment that offers rather
than face the hard work of writing another book.’

She was quite aware that this did not truly represent her husband’s
position. But an uneasiness of conscience impelled her to harsh speech.

‘But just fancy!’ exclaimed her mother. ‘What can he mean by asking you to
go and live with him on twenty-five shillings a week? Upon my word. if his
mind isn’t disordered he must have made a deliberate plan to get rid of

Amy shook her head.

‘You mean,’ asked Mrs Yule, ‘that he really thinks it possible for all of
you to be supported on those wages?’

The last word was chosen to express the utmost scorn.

‘He talked of earning fifty pounds a year by writing.’

‘Even then it could only make about a hundred a year. My dear child, it’s
one of two things: either he is out of his mind, or he has purposely cast
you off.’

Amy laughed, thinking of her husband in the light of the latter

‘There’s no need to seek so far for explanations,’ she said. ‘He has
failed, that’s all; just like a man might fail in any other business. He
can’t write like he used to. It may be all the result of ill-health; I
don’t know. His last book, you see, is positively refused. He has made up
his mind that there’s nothing but poverty before him, and he can’t
understand why I should object to live like the wife of a working-man.’

‘Well, I only know that he has placed you in an exceedingly difficult
position. If he had gone away to Worthing for the summer we might have
made it seem natural; people are always ready to allow literary men to do
rather odd things—up to a certain point. We should have behaved as
if there were nothing that called for explanation. But what are we to do

Like her multitudinous kind, Mrs Yule lived only in the opinions of other
people. What others would say was her ceaseless preoccupation. She had
never conceived of life as something proper to the individual;
independence in the directing of one’s course seemed to her only possible
in the case of very eccentric persons, or of such as were altogether out
of society. Amy had advanced, intellectually, far beyond this standpoint,
but lack of courage disabled her from acting upon her convictions.

‘People must know the truth, I suppose,’ she answered dispiritedly.

Now, confession of the truth was the last thing that would occur to Mrs
Yule when social relations were concerned. Her whole existence was based
on bold denial of actualities. And, as is natural in such persons, she had
the ostrich instinct strongly developed; though very acute in the
discovery of her friends’ shams and lies, she deceived herself ludicrously
in the matter of concealing her own embarrassments.

‘But the fact is, my dear,’ she answered, ‘we don’t know the truth
ourselves. You had better let yourself be directed by me. It will be
better, at first, if you see as few people as possible. I suppose you must
say something or other to two or three of your own friends; if you take my
advice you’ll be rather mysterious. Let them think what they like;
anything is better than to say plainly. “My husband can’t support me, and
he has gone to work as a clerk for weekly wages.” Be mysterious, darling;
depend upon it, that’s the safest.’

The conversation was pursued, with brief intervals, all through the day.
In the afternoon two ladies paid a call, but Amy kept out of sight.
Between six and seven John Yule returned from his gentlemanly occupations.
As he was generally in a touchy temper before dinner had soothed him,
nothing was said to him of the latest development of his sister’s affairs
until late in the evening; he was allowed to suppose that Reardon’s
departure for the seaside had taken place a day sooner than had been

Behind the dining-room was a comfortable little chamber set apart as
John’s sanctum; here he smoked and entertained his male friends, and
contemplated the portraits of those female ones who would not have been
altogether at their ease in Mrs Yule’s drawing-room. Not long after dinner
his mother and sister came to talk with him in this retreat.

With some nervousness Mrs Yule made known to him what had taken place.
Amy, the while, stood by the table, and glanced over a magazine that she
had picked up.

‘Well, I see nothing to be surprised at,’ was John’s first remark. ‘It was
pretty certain he’d come to this. But what I want to know is, how long are
we to be at the expense of supporting Amy and her youngster?’

This was practical, and just what Mrs Yule had expected from her son.

‘We can’t consider such things as that,’ she replied. ‘You don’t wish, I
suppose, that Amy should go and live in a back street at Islington, and be
hungry every other day, and soon have no decent clothes?’

‘I don’t think Jack would be greatly distressed,’ Amy put in quietly.

‘This is a woman’s way of talking,’ replied John. ‘I want to know what is
to be the end of it all? I’ve no doubt it’s uncommonly pleasant for
Reardon to shift his responsibilities on to our shoulders. At this rate I
think I shall get married, and live beyond my means until I can hold out
no longer, and then hand my wife over to her relatives, with my
compliments. It’s about the coolest business that ever came under my

‘But what is to be done?’ asked Mrs Yule. ‘It’s no use talking
sarcastically, John, or making yourself disagreeable.’

‘We are not called upon to find a way out of the difficulty. The fact of
the matter is, Reardon must get a decent berth. Somebody or other must
pitch him into the kind of place that suits men who can do nothing in
particular. Carter ought to be able to help, I should think.’

‘You know very well,’ said Amy, ‘that places of that kind are not to be
had for the asking. It may be years before any such opportunity offers.’

‘Confound the fellow! Why the deuce doesn’t he go on with his
novel-writing? There’s plenty of money to be made out of novels.’

‘But he can’t write, Jack. He has lost his talent.’

‘That’s all bosh, Amy. If a fellow has once got into the swing of it he
can keep it up if he likes. He might write his two novels a year easily
enough, just like twenty other men and women. Look here, I could do it
myself if I weren’t too lazy. And that’s what’s the matter with Reardon.
He doesn’t care to work.’

‘I have thought that myself;’ observed Mrs Yule. ‘It really is too
ridiculous to say that he couldn’t write some kind of novels if he chose.
Look at Miss Blunt’s last book; why, anybody could have written that. I’m
sure there isn’t a thing in it I couldn’t have imagined myself.’

‘Well, all I want to know is, what’s Amy going to do if things don’t

‘She shall never want a home as long as I have one to share with her.’

John’s natural procedure, when beset by difficulties, was to find fault
with everyone all round, himself maintaining a position of

‘It’s all very well, mother, but when a girl gets married she takes her
husband, I have always understood, for better or worse, just as a man
takes his wife. To tell the truth, it seems to me Amy has put herself in
the wrong. It’s deuced unpleasant to go and live in back streets, and to
go without dinner now and then, but girls mustn’t marry if they’re afraid
to face these things.’

‘Don’t talk so monstrously, John!’ exclaimed his mother. ‘How could Amy
possibly foresee such things? The case is quite an extraordinary one.’

‘Not so uncommon, I assure you. Some one was telling me the other day of a
married lady—well educated and blameless—who goes to work at a
shop somewhere or other because her husband can’t support her.’

‘And you wish to see Amy working in a shop?’

‘No, I can’t say I do. I’m only telling you that her bad luck isn’t
unexampled. It’s very fortunate for her that she has good-natured

Amy had taken a seat apart. She sat with her head leaning on her hand.

‘Why don’t you go and see Reardon?’ John asked of his mother.

‘What would be the use? Perhaps he would tell me to mind my own business.’

‘By jingo! precisely what you would be doing. I think you ought to see him
and give him to understand that he’s behaving in a confoundedly
ungentlemanly way. Evidently he’s the kind of fellow that wants stirring
up. I’ve half a mind to go and see him myself. Where is this slum that
he’s gone to live in?’

‘We don’t know his address yet.’

‘So long as it’s not the kind of place where one would be afraid of
catching a fever, I think it wouldn’t be amiss for me to look him up.’

‘You’ll do no good by that,’ said Amy, indifferently.

‘Confound it! It’s just because nobody does anything that things have come
to this pass!’

The conversation was, of course, profitless. John could only return again
and again to his assertion that Reardon must get ‘a decent berth.’ At
length Amy left the room in weariness and disgust.

‘I suppose they have quarrelled terrifically,’ said her brother, as soon
as she was gone.

‘I am afraid so.’

‘Well, you must do as you please. But it’s confounded hard lines that you
should have to keep her and the kid. You know I can’t afford to

‘My dear, I haven’t asked you to.’

‘No, but you’ll have the devil’s own job to make ends meet; I know that
well enough.’

‘I shall manage somehow.’

‘All right; you’re a plucky woman, but it’s too bad. Reardon’s a humbug,
that’s my opinion. I shall have a talk with Carter about him. I suppose he
has transferred all their furniture to the slum?’

‘He can’t have removed yet. It was only this morning that he went to
search for lodgings.’

‘Oh, then I tell you what it is: I shall look in there the first thing
to-morrow morning, and just talk to him in a fatherly way. You needn’t say
anything to Amy. But I see he’s just the kind of fellow that, if everyone
leaves him alone, he’ll be content with Carter’s five-and-twenty shillings
for the rest of his life, and never trouble his head about how Amy is

To this proposal Mrs Yule readily assented. On going upstairs she found
that Amy had all but fallen asleep upon a settee in the drawing-room.

‘You are quite worn out with your troubles,’ she said. ‘Go to bed, and
have a good long sleep.’

‘Yes, I will.’

The neat, fresh bedchamber seemed to Amy a delightful haven of rest. She
turned the key in the door with an enjoyment of the privacy thus secured
such as she had never known in her life; for in maidenhood safe solitude
was a matter of course to her, and since marriage she had not passed a
night alone. Willie was fast asleep in a little bed shadowed by her own.
In an impulse of maternal love and gladness she bent over the child and
covered his face with kisses too gentle to awaken him.

How clean and sweet everything was! It is often said, by people who are
exquisitely ignorant of the matter, that cleanliness is a luxury within
reach even of the poorest. Very far from that; only with the utmost
difficulty, with wearisome exertion, with harassing sacrifice, can people
who are pinched for money preserve a moderate purity in their persons and
their surroundings. By painful degrees Amy had accustomed herself to
compromises in this particular which in the early days of her married life
would have seemed intensely disagreeable, if not revolting. A housewife
who lives in the country, and has but a patch of back garden, or even a
good-sized kitchen, can, if she thinks fit, take her place at the wash-tub
and relieve her mind on laundry matters; but to the inhabitant of a
miniature flat in the heart of London anything of that kind is out of the

When Amy began to cut down her laundress’s bill, she did it with a sense
of degradation. One grows accustomed, however, to such unpleasant
necessities, and already she had learnt what was the minimum of
expenditure for one who is troubled with a lady’s instincts.

No, no; cleanliness is a costly thing, and a troublesome thing when
appliances and means have to be improvised. It was, in part, the
understanding she had gained of this side of the life of poverty that made
Amy shrink in dread from the still narrower lodgings to which Reardon
invited her. She knew how subtly one’s self-respect can be undermined by
sordid conditions. The difference between the life of well-to-do educated
people and that of the uneducated poor is not greater in visible details
than in the minutiae of privacy, and Amy must have submitted to an
extraordinary change before it would have been possible for her to live at
ease in the circumstances which satisfy a decent working-class woman. She
was prepared for final parting from her husband rather than try to effect
that change in herself.

She undressed at leisure, and stretched her limbs in the cold, soft,
fragrant bed. A sigh of profound relief escaped her. How good it was to be

And in a quarter of an hour she was sleeping as peacefully as the child
who shared her room.

At breakfast in the morning she showed a bright, almost a happy face. It
was long, long since she had enjoyed such a night’s rest, so undisturbed
with unwelcome thoughts on the threshold of sleep and on awaking. Her life
was perhaps wrecked, but the thought of that did not press upon her; for
the present she must enjoy her freedom. It was like a recovery of
girlhood. There are few married women who would not, sooner or later,
accept with joy the offer of some months of a maidenly liberty. Amy would
not allow herself to think that her wedded life was at an end. With a
woman’s strange faculty of closing her eyes against facts that do not
immediately concern her, she tasted the relief of the present and let the
future lie unregarded. Reardon would get out of his difficulties sooner or
later; somebody or other would help him; that was the dim background of
her agreeable sensations.

He suffered, no doubt. But then it was just as well that he should.
Suffering would perhaps impel him to effort. When he communicated to her
his new address—he could scarcely neglect to do that—she would
send a not unfriendly letter, and hint to him that now was his opportunity
for writing a book, as good a book as those which formerly issued from his
garret-solitude. If he found that literature was in truth a thing of the
past with him, then he must exert himself to obtain a position worthy of
an educated man. Yes, in this way she would write to him, without a word
that could hurt or offend.

She ate an excellent breakfast, and made known her enjoyment of it.

‘I am so glad!’ replied her mother. ‘You have been getting quite thin and

‘Quite consumptive,’ remarked John, looking up from his newspaper. ‘Shall
I make arrangements for a daily landau at the livery stables round here?’

‘You can if you like,’ replied his sister; ‘it would do both mother and me
good, and I have no doubt you could afford it quite well.’

‘Oh, indeed! You’re a remarkable young woman, let me tell you. By-the-bye,
I suppose your husband is breakfasting on bread and water?’

‘I hope not, and I don’t think it very likely.’

‘Jack, Jack!’ interposed Mrs Yule, softly.

Her son resumed his paper, and at the end of the meal rose with an
unwonted briskness to make his preparations for departure.


Nor would it be true to represent Edwin Reardon as rising to the new day
wholly disconsolate. He too had slept unusually well, and with returning
consciousness the sense of a burden removed was more instant than that of
his loss and all the dreary circumstances attaching to it. He had no
longer to fear the effects upon Amy of such a grievous change as from
their homelike flat to the couple of rooms he had taken in Islington; for
the moment, this relief helped him to bear the pain of all that had
happened and the uneasiness which troubled him when he reflected that his
wife was henceforth a charge to her mother.

Of course for the moment only. He had no sooner begun to move about, to
prepare his breakfast (amid the relics of last evening’s meal), to think
of all the detestable work he had to do before to-morrow night, than his
heart sank again. His position was well-nigh as dolorous as that of any
man who awoke that morning to the brutal realities of life. If only for
the shame of it! How must they be speaking of him, Amy’s relatives, and
her friends? A novelist who couldn’t write novels; a husband who couldn’t
support his wife and child; a literate who made eager application for
illiterate work at paltry wages—how interesting it would all sound
in humorous gossip! And what hope had he that things would ever be better
with him?

Had he done well? Had he done wisely? Would it not have been better to
have made that one last effort? There came before him a vision of quiet
nooks beneath the Sussex cliffs, of the long lines of green breakers
bursting into foam; he heard the wave-music, and tasted the briny
freshness of the sea-breeze. Inspiration, after all, would perchance have
come to him.

If Amy’s love had but been of more enduring quality; if she had
strengthened him for this last endeavour with the brave tenderness of an
ideal wife! But he had seen such hateful things in her eyes. Her love was
dead, and she regarded him as the man who had spoilt her hopes of
happiness. It was only for her own sake that she urged him to strive on;
let his be the toil, that hers might be the advantage if he succeeded.

‘She would be glad if I were dead. She would be glad.’

He had the conviction of it. Oh yes, she would shed tears; they come so
easily to women. But to have him dead and out of her way; to be saved from
her anomalous position; to see once more a chance in life; she would
welcome it.

But there was no time for brooding. To-day he had to sell all the things
that were superfluous, and to make arrangements for the removal of his
effects to-morrow. By Wednesday night, in accordance with his agreement,
the flat must be free for the new occupier.

He had taken only two rooms, and fortunately as things were. Three would
have cost more than he was likely to be able to afford for a long time.
The rent of the two was to be six-and-sixpence; and how, if Amy had
consented to come, could he have met the expenses of their living out of
his weekly twenty-five shillings? How could he have pretended to do
literary work in such cramped quarters, he who had never been able to
write a line save in strict seclusion? In his despair he had faced the
impossible. Amy had shown more wisdom, though in a spirit of unkindness.

Towards ten o’clock he was leaving the flat to go and find people who
would purchase his books and old clothing and other superfluities; but
before he could close the door behind him, an approaching step on the
stairs caught his attention. He saw the shining silk hat of a
well-equipped gentleman. It was John Yule.

‘Ha! Good-morning!’ John exclaimed, looking up. ‘A minute or two and I
should have been too late, I see.’

He spoke in quite a friendly way, and, on reaching the landing, shook

‘Are you obliged to go at once? Or could I have a word with you?’

‘Come in.’

They entered the study, which was in some disorder; Reardon made no
reference to circumstances, but offered a chair, and seated himself.

‘Have a cigarette?’ said Yule, holding out a box of them.

‘No, thank you; I don’t smoke so early.’

‘Then I’ll light one myself; it always makes talk easier to me. You’re on
the point of moving, I suppose?’

‘Yes, I am.’

Reardon tried to speak in quite a simple way, with no admission of
embarrassment. He was not successful, and to his visitor the tone seemed
rather offensive.

‘I suppose you’ll let Amy know your new address?’

‘Certainly. Why should I conceal it?’

‘No, no; I didn’t mean to suggest that. But you might be taking it for
granted that—that the rupture was final, I thought.’

There had never been any intimacy between these two men. Reardon regarded
his wife’s brother as rather snobbish and disagreeably selfish; John Yule
looked upon the novelist as a prig, and now of late as a shuffling,
untrustworthy fellow. It appeared to John that his brother-in-law was
assuming a manner wholly unjustifiable, and he had a difficulty in
behaving to him with courtesy. Reardon, on the other hand, felt injured by
the turn his visitor’s remarks were taking, and began to resent the visit

‘I take nothing for granted,’ he said coldly. ‘But I’m afraid nothing is
to be gained by a discussion of our difficulties. The time for that is

‘I can’t quite see that. It seems to me that the time has just come.’

‘Please tell me, to begin with, do you come on Amy’s behalf?’

‘In a way, yes. She hasn’t sent me, but my mother and I are so astonished
at what is happening that it was necessary for one or other of us to see

‘I think it is all between Amy and myself.’

‘Difficulties between husband and wife are generally best left to the
people themselves, I know. But the fact is, there are peculiar
circumstances in the present case. It can’t be necessary for me to explain

Reardon could find no suitable words of reply. He understood what Yule
referred to, and began to feel the full extent of his humiliation.

‘You mean, of course—’ he began; but his tongue failed him.

‘Well, we should really like to know how long it is proposed that Amy
shall remain with her mother.’

John was perfectly self-possessed; it took much to disturb his equanimity.
He smoked his cigarette, which was in an amber mouthpiece, and seemed to
enjoy its flavour. Reardon found himself observing the perfection of the
young man’s boots and trousers.

‘That depends entirely on my wife herself;’ he replied mechanically.

‘How so?’

‘I offer her the best home I can.’

Reardon felt himself a poor, pitiful creature, and hated the well-dressed
man who made him feel so.

‘But really, Reardon,’ began the other, uncrossing and recrossing his
legs, ‘do you tell me in seriousness that you expect Amy to live in such
lodgings as you can afford on a pound a week?’

‘I don’t. I said that I had offered her the best home I could. I know it’s
impossible, of course.’

Either he must speak thus, or break into senseless wrath. It was hard to
hold back the angry words that were on his lips, but he succeeded, and he
was glad he had done so.

‘Then it doesn’t depend on Amy,’ said John.

‘I suppose not.’

‘You see no reason, then, why she shouldn’t live as at present for an
indefinite time?’

To John, whose perspicacity was not remarkable, Reardon’s changed tone
conveyed simply an impression of bland impudence. He eyed his
brother-in-law rather haughtily.

‘I can only say,’ returned the other, who was become wearily indifferent,
‘that as soon as I can afford a decent home I shall give my wife the
opportunity of returning to me.’

‘But, pray, when is that likely to be?’

John had passed the bounds; his manner was too frankly contemptuous.

‘I see no right you have to examine me in this fashion,’ Reardon
exclaimed. ‘With Mrs Yule I should have done my best to be patient if she
had asked these questions; but you are not justified in putting them, at
all events not in this way.’

‘I’m very sorry you speak like this, Reardon,’ said the other, with calm
insolence. ‘It confirms unpleasant ideas, you know.’

‘What do you mean?’

‘Why, one can’t help thinking that you are rather too much at your ease
under the circumstances. It isn’t exactly an everyday thing, you know, for
a man’s wife to be sent back to her own people—’

Reardon could not endure the sound of these words. He interrupted hotly.

‘I can’t discuss it with you. You are utterly unable to comprehend me and
my position, utterly! It would be useless to defend myself. You must take
whatever view seems to you the natural one.’

John, having finished his cigarette, rose.

‘The natural view is an uncommonly disagreeable one,’ he said. ‘However, I
have no intention of quarrelling with you. I’ll only just say that, as I
take a share in the expenses of my mother’s house, this question decidedly
concerns me; and I’ll add that I think it ought to concern you a good deal
more than it seems to.’

Reardon, ashamed already of his violence, paused upon these remarks.

‘It shall,’ he uttered at length, coldly. ‘You have put it clearly enough
to me, and you shan’t have spoken in vain. Is there anything else you wish
to say?’

‘Thank you; I think not.’

They parted with distant civility, and Reardon closed the door behind his

He knew that his character was seen through a distorting medium by Amy’s
relatives, to some extent by Amy herself; but hitherto the reflection that
this must always be the case when a man of his kind is judged by people of
the world had strengthened him in defiance. An endeavour to explain
himself would be maddeningly hopeless; even Amy did not understand aright
the troubles through which his intellectual and moral nature was passing,
and to speak of such experiences to Mrs Yule or to John would be
equivalent to addressing them in alien tongues; he and they had no common
criterion by reference to which he could make himself intelligible. The
practical tone in which John had explained the opposing view of the
situation made it impossible for him to proceed as he had purposed. Amy
would never come to him in his poor lodgings; her mother, her brother, all
her advisers would regard such a thing as out of the question. Very well;
recognising this, he must also recognise his wife’s claim upon him for
material support. It was not in his power to supply her with means
sufficient to live upon, but what he could afford she should have.

When he went out, it was with a different purpose from that of half an
hour ago. After a short search in the direction of Edgware Road, he found
a dealer in second-hand furniture, whom he requested to come as soon as
possible to the flat on a matter of business. An hour later the man kept
his appointment. Having brought him into the study, Reardon said:

‘I wish to sell everything in this flat, with a few exceptions that I’ll
point out to you’.

‘Very good, sir,’ was the reply. ‘Let’s have a look through the rooms.’

That the price offered would be strictly a minimum Reardon knew well
enough. The dealer was a rough and rather dirty fellow, with the
distrustful glance which distinguishes his class. Men of Reardon’s type,
when hapless enough to be forced into vulgar commerce, are doubly at a
disadvantage; not only their ignorance, but their sensitiveness, makes
them ready victims of even the least subtle man of business. To deal on
equal terms with a person you must be able to assert with calm confidence
that you are not to be cheated; Reardon was too well aware that he would
certainly be cheated, and shrank scornfully from the higgling of the
market. Moreover, he was in a half-frenzied state of mind, and cared for
little but to be done with the hateful details of this process of ruin.

He pencilled a list of the articles he must retain for his own use; it
would of course be cheaper to take a bare room than furnished lodgings,
and every penny he could save was of importance to him. The
chair-bedstead, with necessary linen and blankets, a table, two chairs, a
looking-glass—strictly the indispensable things; no need to complete
the list. Then there were a few valuable wedding-presents, which belonged
rather to Amy than to him; these he would get packed and send to
Westbourne Park.

The dealer made his calculation, with many side-glances at the vendor.

‘And what may you ask for the lot?’

‘Please to make an offer.’

‘Most of the things has had a good deal of wear—’

‘I know, I know. Just let me hear what you will give.’

‘Well, if you want a valuation, I say eighteen pound ten.’

It was more than Reardon had expected, though much less than a man who
understood such affairs would have obtained.

‘That’s the most you can give?’

‘Wouldn’t pay me to give a sixpence more. You see—’

He began to point out defects, but Reardon cut him short.

‘Can you take them away at once?’

‘At wunst? Would two o’clock do?’

‘Yes, it would.’

‘And might you want these other things takin’ anywheres?’

‘Yes, but not till to-morrow. They have to go to Islington. What would you
do it for?’

This bargain also was completed, and the dealer went his way. Thereupon
Reardon set to work to dispose of his books; by half-past one he had sold
them for a couple of guineas. At two came the cart that was to take away
the furniture, and at four o’clock nothing remained in the flat save what
had to be removed on the morrow.

The next thing to be done was to go to Islington, forfeit a week’s rent
for the two rooms he had taken, and find a single room at the lowest
possible cost. On the way, he entered an eating-house and satisfied his
hunger, for he had had nothing since breakfast. It took him a couple of
hours to discover the ideal garret; it was found at length in a narrow
little by-way running out of Upper Street. The rent was half-a-crown a

At seven o’clock he sat down in what once was called his study, and wrote
the following letter:

‘Enclosed in this envelope you will find twenty pounds. I have been
reminded that your relatives will be at the expense of your support; it
seemed best to me to sell the furniture, and now I send you all the money
I can spare at present. You will receive to-morrow a box containing
several things I did not feel justified in selling. As soon as I begin to
have my payment from Carter, half of it shall be sent to you every week.
My address is: 5 Manville Street, Upper Street, Islington.—EDWIN

He enclosed the money, in notes and gold, and addressed the envelope to
his wife. She must receive it this very night, and he knew not how to
ensure that save by delivering it himself. So he went to Westbourne Park
by train, and walked to Mrs Yule’s house.

At this hour the family were probably at dinner; yes, the window of the
dining-room showed lights within, whilst those of the drawing-room were in
shadow. After a little hesitation he rang the servants’ bell. When the
door opened, he handed his letter to the girl, and requested that it might
be given to Mrs Reardon as soon as possible. With one more hasty glance at
the window—Amy was perhaps enjoying her unwonted comfort—he
walked quickly away.

As he re-entered what had been his home, its bareness made his heart sink.
An hour or two had sufficed for this devastation; nothing remained upon
the uncarpeted floors but the needments he would carry with him into the
wilderness, such few evidences of civilisation as the poorest cannot well
dispense with. Anger, revolt, a sense of outraged love—all manner of
confused passions had sustained him throughout this day of toil; now he
had leisure to know how faint he was. He threw himself upon his
chair-bedstead, and lay for more than an hour in torpor of body and mind.

But before he could sleep he must eat. Though it was cold, he could not
exert himself to light a fire; there was some food still in the cupboard,
and he consumed it in the fashion of a tired labourer, with the plate on
his lap, using his fingers and a knife. What had he to do with delicacies?

He felt utterly alone in the world. Unless it were Biffen, what mortal
would give him kindly welcome under any roof? These stripped rooms were
symbolical of his life; losing money, he had lost everything. ‘Be thankful
that you exist, that these morsels of food are still granted you. Man has
a right to nothing in this world that he cannot pay for. Did you imagine
that love was an exception? Foolish idealist! Love is one of the first
things to be frightened away by poverty. Go and live upon your
twelve-and-sixpence a week, and on your memories of the past.’

In this room he had sat with Amy on their return from the wedding holiday.
‘Shall you always love me as you do now?’—‘For ever! for ever!’—‘Even
if I disappointed you? If I failed?’—‘How could that affect my
love?’ The voices seemed to be lingering still, in a sad, faint echo, so
short a time it was since those words were uttered.

His own fault. A man has no business to fail; least of all can he expect
others to have time to look back upon him or pity him if he sink under the
stress of conflict. Those behind will trample over his body; they can’t
help it; they themselves are borne onwards by resistless pressure.

He slept for a few hours, then lay watching the light of dawn as it
revealed his desolation.

The morning’s post brought him a large heavy envelope, the aspect of which
for a moment puzzled him. But he recognised the handwriting, and
understood. The editor of The Wayside, in a pleasantly-written note,
begged to return the paper on Pliny’s Letters which had recently been
submitted to him; he was sorry it did not strike him as quite so
interesting as the other contributions from Reardon’s pen.

This was a trifle. For the first time he received a rejected piece of
writing without distress; he even laughed at the artistic completeness of
the situation. The money would have been welcome, but on that very account
he might have known it would not come.

The cart that was to transfer his property to the room in Islington
arrived about mid-day. By that time he had dismissed the last details of
business in relation to the flat, and was free to go back to the obscure
world whence he had risen. He felt that for two years and a half he had
been a pretender. It was not natural to him to live in the manner of
people who enjoy an assured income; he belonged to the class of casual
wage-earners. Back to obscurity!

Carrying a bag which contained a few things best kept in his own care, he
went by train to King’s Cross, and thence walked up Pentonville Hill to
Upper Street and his own little by-way. Manville Street was not
unreasonably squalid; the house in which he had found a home was not
alarming in its appearance, and the woman who kept it had an honest face.
Amy would have shrunk in apprehension, but to one who had experience of
London garrets this was a rather favourable specimen of its kind. The door
closed more satisfactorily than poor Biffen’s, for instance, and there
were not many of those knot-holes in the floor which gave admission to
piercing little draughts; not a pane of the window was cracked, not one. A
man might live here comfortably—could memory be destroyed.

‘There’s a letter come for you,’ said the landlady as she admitted him.
‘You’ll find it on your mantel.’

He ascended hastily. The letter must be from Amy, as no one else knew his
address. Yes, and its contents were these:

‘As you have really sold the furniture, I shall accept half this money
that you send. I must buy clothing for myself and Willie. But the other
ten pounds I shall return to you as soon as possible. As for your offer of
half what you are to receive from Mr Carter, that seems to me ridiculous;
in any case, I cannot take it. If you seriously abandon all further hope
from literature, I think it is your duty to make every effort to obtain a
position suitable to a man of your education.—AMY REARDON.’

Doubtless Amy thought it was her duty to write in this way. Not a word of
sympathy; he must understand that no one was to blame but himself; and
that her hardships were equal to his own.

In the bag he had brought with him there were writing materials. Standing
at the mantelpiece, he forthwith penned a reply to this letter:

‘The money is for your support, as far as it will go. If it comes back to
me I shall send it again. If you refuse to make use of it, you will have
the kindness to put it aside and consider it as belonging to Willie. The
other money of which I spoke will be sent to you once a month. As our
concerns are no longer between us alone, I must protect myself against
anyone who would be likely to accuse me of not giving you what I could
afford. For your advice I thank you, but remember that in withdrawing from
me your affection you have lost all right to offer me counsel.’

He went out and posted this at once.

By three o’clock the furniture of his room was arranged. He had not kept a
carpet; that was luxury, and beyond his due. His score of volumes must
rank upon the mantelpiece; his clothing must be kept in the trunk. Cups,
plates, knives, forks, and spoons would lie in the little open cupboard,
the lowest section of which was for his supply of coals. When everything
was in order he drew water from a tap on the landing and washed himself;
then, with his bag, went out to make purchases. A loaf of bread, butter,
sugar, condensed milk; a remnant of tea he had brought with him. On
returning, he lit as small a fire as possible, put on his kettle, and sat
down to meditate.

How familiar it all was to him! And not unpleasant, for it brought back
the days when he had worked to such good purpose. It was like a
restoration of youth.

Of Amy he would not think. Knowing his bitter misery, she could write to
him in cold, hard words, without a touch even of womanly feeling. If ever
they were to meet again, the advance must be from her side. He had no more
tenderness for her until she strove to revive it.

Next morning he called at the hospital to see Carter. The secretary’s
peculiar look and smile seemed to betray a knowledge of what had been
going on since Sunday, and his first words confirmed this impression of

‘You have removed, I hear?’

‘Yes; I had better give you my new address.’

Reardon’s tone was meant to signify that further remark on the subject
would be unwelcome. Musingly, Carter made a note of the address.

‘You still wish to go on with this affair?’


‘Come and have some lunch with me, then, and afterwards we’ll go to the
City Road and talk things over on the spot.’

The vivacious young man was not quite so genial as of wont, but he
evidently strove to show that the renewal of their relations as employer
and clerk would make no difference in the friendly intercourse which had
since been established; the invitation to lunch evidently had this

‘I suppose,’ said Carter, when they were seated in a restaurant, ‘you
wouldn’t object to anything better, if a chance turned up?’

‘I should take it, to be sure.’

‘But you don’t want a job that would occupy all your time? You’re going on
with writing, of course?’

‘Not for the present, I think.’

‘Then you would like me to keep a look-out? I haven’t anything in view—nothing
whatever. But one hears of things sometimes.’

‘I should be obliged to you if you could help me to anything

Having brought himself to this admission, Reardon felt more at ease. To
what purpose should he keep up transparent pretences? It was manifestly
his duty to earn as much money as he could, in whatever way. Let the man
of letters be forgotten; he was seeking for remunerative employment, just
as if he had never written a line.

Amy did not return the ten pounds, and did not write again. So,
presumably, she would accept the moiety of his earnings; he was glad of
it. After paying half-a-crown for rent, there would be left ten shillings.
Something like three pounds that still remained to him he would not
reckon; this must be for casualties.

Half-a-sovereign was enough for his needs; in the old times he had counted
it a competency which put his mind quite at rest.

The day came, and he entered upon his duties in City Road. It needed but
an hour or two, and all the intervening time was cancelled; he was back
once more in the days of no reputation, a harmless clerk, a decent


It was more than a fortnight after Reardon’s removal to Islington when
Jasper Milvain heard for the first time of what had happened. He was
coming down from the office of the Will-o’-the-Wisp one afternoon, after a
talk with the editor concerning a paragraph in his last week’s causerie
which had been complained of as libellous, and which would probably lead
to the ‘case’ so much desired by everyone connected with the paper, when
someone descending from a higher storey of the building overtook him and
laid a hand on his shoulder. He turned and saw Whelpdale.

‘What brings you on these premises?’ he asked, as they shook hands.

‘A man I know has just been made sub-editor of Chat, upstairs. He has half
promised to let me do a column of answers to correspondents.’

‘Cosmetics? Fashions? Cookery?’

‘I’m not so versatile as all that, unfortunately. No, the general
information column. “Will you be so good as to inform me, through the
medium of your invaluable paper, what was the exact area devastated by the
Great Fire of London?”—that kind of thing, you know. Hopburn—that’s
the fellow’s name—tells me that his predecessor always called the
paper Chat-moss, because of the frightful difficulty he had in filling it
up each week. By-the-bye, what a capital column that is of yours in
Will-o’-the-Wisp. I know nothing like it in English journalism; upon my
word I don’t!’

‘Glad you like it. Some people are less fervent in their admiration.’

Jasper recounted the affair which had just been under discussion in the

‘It may cost a couple of thousands, but the advertisement is worth that,
Patwin thinks. Barlow is delighted; he wouldn’t mind paying double the
money to make those people a laughing-stock for a week or two.’

They issued into the street, and walked on together; Milvain, with his
keen eye and critical smile, unmistakably the modern young man who
cultivates the art of success; his companion of a less pronounced type,
but distinguished by a certain subtlety of countenance, a blending of the
sentimental and the shrewd.

‘Of course you know all about the Reardons?’ said Whelpdale.

‘Haven’t seen or heard of them lately. What is it?’

‘Then you don’t know that they have parted?’


‘I only heard about it last night; Biffen told me. Reardon is doing
clerk’s work at a hospital somewhere in the East-end, and his wife has
gone to live at her mother’s house.’

‘Ho, ho!’ exclaimed Jasper, thoughtfully. ‘Then the crash has come. Of
course I knew it must be impending. I’m sorry for Reardon.’

‘I’m sorry for his wife.’

‘Trust you for thinking of women first, Whelpdale.’

‘It’s in an honourable way, my dear fellow. I’m a slave to women, true,
but all in an honourable way. After that last adventure of mine most men
would be savage and cynical, wouldn’t they, now? I’m nothing of the kind.
I think no worse of women—not a bit. I reverence them as much as
ever. There must be a good deal of magnanimity in me, don’t you think?’

Jasper laughed unrestrainedly.

‘But it’s the simple truth,’ pursued the other. ‘You should have seen the
letter I wrote to that girl at Birmingham—all charity and
forgiveness. I meant it, every word of it. I shouldn’t talk to everyone
like this, you know; but it’s as well to show a friend one’s best
qualities now and then.’

‘Is Reardon still living at the old place?’

‘No, no. They sold up everything and let the flat. He’s in lodgings
somewhere or other. I’m not quite intimate enough with him to go and see
him under the circumstances. But I’m surprised you know nothing about it.’

‘I haven’t seen much of them this year. Reardon—well, I’m afraid he
hasn’t very much of the virtue you claim for yourself. It rather annoys
him to see me going ahead.’

‘Really? His character never struck me in that way.’

‘You haven’t come enough in contact with him. At all events, I can’t
explain his change of manner in any other way. But I’m sorry for him; I
am, indeed. At a hospital? I suppose Carter has given him the old job

‘Don’t know. Biffen doesn’t talk very freely about it; there’s a good deal
of delicacy in Biffen, you know. A thoroughly good-hearted fellow. And so
is Reardon, I believe, though no doubt he has his weaknesses.’

‘Oh, an excellent fellow! But weakness isn’t the word. Why, I foresaw all
this from the very beginning. The first hour’s talk I ever had with him
was enough to convince me that he’d never hold his own. But he really
believed that the future was clear before him; he imagined he’d go on
getting more and more for his books. An extraordinary thing that that girl
had such faith in him!’

They parted soon after this, and Milvain went homeward, musing upon what
he had heard. It was his purpose to spend the whole evening on some work
which pressed for completion, but he found an unusual difficulty in
settling to it. About eight o’clock he gave up the effort, arrayed himself
in the costume of black and white, and journeyed to Westbourne Park, where
his destination was the house of Mrs Edmund Yule. Of the servant who
opened to him he inquired if Mrs Yule was at home, and received an answer
in the affirmative.

‘Any company with her?’

‘A lady—Mrs Carter.’

‘Then please to give my name, and ask if Mrs Yule can see me.’

He was speedily conducted to the drawing-room, where he found the lady of
the house, her son, and Mrs Carter. For Mrs Reardon his eye sought in

‘I’m so glad you have come,’ said Mrs Yule, in a confidential tone. ‘I
have been wishing to see you. Of course, you know of our sad trouble?’

‘I have heard of it only to-day.’

‘From Mr Reardon himself?’

‘No; I haven’t seen him.’

‘I do wish you had! We should have been so anxious to know how he
impressed you.’

‘How he impressed me?’

‘My mother has got hold of the notion,’ put in John Yule, ‘that he’s not
exactly compos mentis. I’ll admit that he went on in a queer sort of way
the last time I saw him.’

‘And my husband thinks he is rather strange,’ remarked Mrs Carter.

‘He has gone back to the hospital, I understand—’

‘To a new branch that has just been opened in the City Road,’ replied Mrs
Yule. ‘And he’s living in a dreadful place—one of the most shocking
alleys in the worst part of Islington. I should have gone to see him, but
I really feel afraid; they give me such an account of the place. And
everyone agrees that he has such a very wild look, and speaks so

‘Between ourselves,’ said John, ‘there’s no use in exaggerating. He’s
living in a vile hole, that’s true, and Carter says he looks miserably
ill, but of course he may be as sane as we are.

Jasper listened to all this with no small astonishment.

‘And Mrs Reardon?’ he asked.

‘I’m sorry to say she is far from well,’ replied Mrs Yule. ‘To-day she has
been obliged to keep her room. You can imagine what a shock it has been to
her. It came with such extraordinary suddenness. Without a word of
warning, her husband announced that he had taken a clerkship and was going
to remove immediately to the East-end. Fancy! And this when he had already
arranged, as you know, to go to the South Coast and write his next book
under the influences of the sea air. He was anything but well; we all knew
that, and we had all joined in advising him to spend the summer at the
seaside. It seemed better that he should go alone; Mrs Reardon would, of
course, have gone down for a few days now and then. And at a moment’s
notice everything is changed, and in such a dreadful way! I cannot believe
that this is the behaviour of a sane man!’

Jasper understood that an explanation of the matter might have been given
in much more homely terms; it was natural that Mrs Yule should leave out
of sight the sufficient, but ignoble, cause of her son-in-law’s behaviour.

‘You see in what a painful position we are placed,’ continued the
euphemistic lady. ‘It is so terrible even to hint that Mr Reardon is not
responsible for his actions, yet how are we to explain to our friends this
extraordinary state of things?’

‘My husband is afraid Mr Reardon may fall seriously ill,’ said Mrs Carter.
‘And how dreadful! In such a place as that!’

‘It would be so kind of you to go and see him, Mr Milvain,’ urged Mrs
Yule. ‘We should be so glad to hear what you think.’

‘Certainly, I will go,’ replied Jasper. ‘Will you give me his address?’

He remained for an hour, and before his departure the subject was
discussed with rather more frankness than at first; even the word ‘money’
was once or twice heard.

‘Mr Carter has very kindly promised,’ said Mrs Yule, ‘to do his best to
hear of some position that would be suitable. It seems a most shocking
thing that a successful author should abandon his career in this
deliberate way; who could have imagined anything of the kind two years
ago? But it is clearly quite impossible for him to go on as at present—if
there is really no reason for believing his mind disordered.’

A cab was summoned for Mrs Carter, and she took her leave, suppressing her
native cheerfulness to the tone of the occasion. A minute or two after,
Milvain left the house.

He had walked perhaps twenty yards, almost to the end of the silent street
in which his friends’ house was situated, when a man came round the corner
and approached him. At once he recognised the figure, and in a moment he
was face to face with Reardon. Both stopped. Jasper held out his hand, but
the other did not seem to notice it.

‘You are coming from Mrs Yule’s?’ said Reardon, with a strange smile.

By the gaslight his face showed pale and sunken, and he met Jasper’s look
with fixedness.

‘Yes, I am. The fact is, I went there to hear of your address. Why haven’t
you let me know about all this?’

‘You went to the flat?’

‘No, I was told about you by Whelpdale.’

Reardon turned in the direction whence he had come, and began to walk
slowly; Jasper kept beside him.

‘I’m afraid there’s something amiss between us, Reardon,’ said the latter,
just glancing at his companion.

‘There’s something amiss between me and everyone,’ was the reply, in an
unnatural voice.

‘You look at things too gloomily. Am I detaining you, by-the-bye? You were


‘Then come to my rooms, and let us see if we can’t talk more in the old

‘Your old way of talk isn’t much to my taste, Milvain. It has cost me too

Jasper gazed at him. Was there some foundation for Mrs Yule’s
seeming extravagance? This reply sounded so meaningless, and so unlike
Reardon’s manner of speech, that the younger man experienced a sudden

‘Cost you too much? I don’t understand you.’

They had turned into a broader thoroughfare, which, however, was little
frequented at this hour. Reardon, his hands thrust into the pockets of a
shabby overcoat and his head bent forward, went on at a slow pace,
observant of nothing. For a moment or two he delayed reply, then said in
an unsteady voice:

‘Your way of talking has always been to glorify success, to insist upon it
as the one end a man ought to keep in view. If you had talked so to me
alone, it wouldn’t have mattered. But there was generally someone else
present. Your words had their effect; I can see that now. It’s very much
owing to you that I am deserted, now that there’s no hope of my ever

Jasper’s first impulse was to meet this accusation with indignant denial,
but a sense of compassion prevailed. It was so painful to see the defeated
man wandering at night near the house where his wife and child were
comfortably sheltered; and the tone in which he spoke revealed such
profound misery.

‘That’s a most astonishing thing to say,’ Jasper replied. ‘Of course I
know nothing of what has passed between you and your wife, but I feel
certain that I have no more to do with what has happened than any other of
your acquaintances.’

‘You may feel as certain as you will, but your words and your example have
influenced my wife against me. You didn’t intend that; I don’t suppose it
for a moment. It’s my misfortune, that’s all.’

‘That I intended nothing of the kind, you need hardly say, I should think.
But you are deceiving yourself in the strangest way. I’m afraid to speak
plainly; I’m afraid of offending you. But can you recall something that I
said about the time of your marriage? You didn’t like it then, and
certainly it won’t be pleasant to you to remember it now. If you mean that
your wife has grown unkind to you because you are unfortunate, there’s no
need to examine into other people’s influence for an explanation of that.’

Reardon turned his face towards the speaker.

‘Then you have always regarded my wife as a woman likely to fail me in
time of need?’

‘I don’t care to answer a question put in that way. If we are no longer to
talk with the old friendliness, it’s far better we shouldn’t discuss
things such as this.’

‘Well, practically you have answered. Of course I remember those words of
yours that you refer to. Whether you were right or wrong doesn’t affect
what I say.’

He spoke with a dull doggedness, as though mental fatigue did not allow
him to say more.

‘It’s impossible to argue against such a charge,’ said Milvain. ‘I am
convinced it isn’t true, and that’s all I can answer. But perhaps you
think this extraordinary influence of mine is still being used against

‘I know nothing about it,’ Reardon replied, in the same unmodulated voice.

‘Well, as I have told you, this was my first visit to Mrs Yule’s since
your wife has been there, and I didn’t see her; she isn’t very well, and
keeps her room. I’m glad it happened so—that I didn’t meet her.
Henceforth I shall keep away from the family altogether, so long, at all
events, as your wife remains with them. Of course I shan’t tell anyone
why; that would be impossible. But you shan’t have to fear that I am
decrying you. By Jove! an amiable figure you make of me!’

‘I have said what I didn’t wish to say, and what I oughtn’t to have said.
You must misunderstand me; I can’t help it.’

Reardon had been walking for hours, and was, in truth, exhausted.

He became mute. Jasper, whose misrepresentation was wilful, though not
maliciously so, also fell into silence; he did not believe that his
conversations with Amy had seriously affected the course of events, but he
knew that he had often said things to her in private which would scarcely
have fallen from his lips if her husband had been present—little
depreciatory phrases, wrong rather in tone than in terms, which came of
his irresistible desire to assume superiority whenever it was possible.
He, too, was weak, but with quite another kind of weakness than Reardon’s.
His was the weakness of vanity, which sometimes leads a man to commit
treacheries of which he would believe himself incapable. Self-accused, he
took refuge in the pretence of misconception, which again was a betrayal
of littleness.

They drew near to Westbourne Park station.

‘You are living a long way from here,’ Jasper said, coldly. ‘Are you going
by train?’

‘No. You said my wife was ill?’

‘Oh, not ill. At least, I didn’t understand that it was anything serious.
Why don’t you walk back to the house?’

‘I must judge of my own affairs.’

‘True; I beg your pardon. I take the train here, so I’ll say good-night.’

They nodded to each other, but did not shake hands.

A day or two later, Milvain wrote to Mrs Yule, and told her that he had
seen Reardon; he did not describe the circumstances under which the
interview had taken place, but gave it as his opinion that Reardon was in
a state of nervous illness, and made by suffering quite unlike himself.
That he might be on the way to positive mental disease seemed likely
enough. ‘Unhappily, I myself can be of no use to him; he has not the same
friendly feeling for me as he used to have. But it is very certain that
those of his friends who have the power should exert themselves to raise
him out of this fearful slough of despond. If he isn’t effectually helped,
there’s no saying what may happen. One thing is certain, I think: he is
past helping himself. Sane literary work cannot be expected from him. It
seems a monstrous thing that so good a fellow, and one with such excellent
brains too, should perish by the way when influential people would have no
difficulty in restoring him to health and usefulness.’

All the months of summer went by. Jasper kept his word, and never visited
Mrs Yule’s house; but once in July he met that lady at the Carters’, and
heard then, what he knew from other sources, that the position of things
was unchanged. In August, Mrs Yule spent a fortnight at the seaside, and
Amy accompanied her. Milvain and his sisters accepted an invitation to
visit friends at Wattleborough, and were out of town about three weeks,
the last ten days being passed in the Isle of Wight; it was an extravagant
holiday, but Dora had been ailing, and her brother declared that they
would all work better for the change. Alfred Yule, with his wife and
daughter, rusticated somewhere in Kent. Dora and Marian exchanged letters,
and here is a passage from one written by the former:

‘Jasper has shown himself in an unusually amiable light since we left
town. I looked forward to this holiday with some misgivings, as I know by
experience that it doesn’t do for him and us to be too much together; he
gets tired of our company, and then his selfishness—believe me, he
has a good deal of it—comes out in a way we don’t appreciate. But I
have never known him so forbearing. To me he is particularly kind, on
account of my headaches and general shakiness. It isn’t impossible that
this young man, if all goes well with him, may turn out far better than
Maud and I ever expected. But things will have to go very well, if the
improvement is to be permanent. I only hope he may make a lot of money
before long. If this sounds rather gross to you, I can only say that
Jasper’s moral nature will never be safe as long as he is exposed to the
risks of poverty. There are such people, you know. As a poor man, I
wouldn’t trust him out of my sight; with money, he will be a tolerable
creature—as men go.’

Dora, no doubt, had her reasons for writing in this strain. She would not
have made such remarks in conversation with her friend, but took the
opportunity of being at a distance to communicate them in writing.

On their return, the two girls made good progress with the book they were
manufacturing for Messrs Jolly and Monk, and early in October it was
finished. Dora was now writing little things for The English Girl, and
Maud had begun to review an occasional novel for an illustrated paper. In
spite of their poor lodgings, they had been brought into social relations
with Mrs Boston Wright and a few of her friends; their position was
understood, and in accepting invitations they had no fear lest unwelcome
people should pounce down upon them in their shabby little sitting-room.
The younger sister cared little for society such as Jasper procured them;
with Marian Yule for a companion she would have been quite content to
spend her evenings at home. But Maud relished the introduction to
strangers. She was admired, and knew it. Prudence could not restrain her
from buying a handsomer dress than those she had brought from her country
home, and it irked her sorely that she might not reconstruct all her
equipment to rival the appearance of well-to-do girls whom she studied and
envied. Her disadvantages, for the present, were insuperable. She had no
one to chaperon her; she could not form intimacies because of her poverty.
A rare invitation to luncheon, a permission to call at the sacred hour of
small-talk—this was all she could hope for.

‘I advise you to possess your soul in patience,’ Jasper said to her, as
they talked one day on the sea-shore. ‘You are not to blame that you live
without conventional protection, but it necessitates your being very
careful. These people you are getting to know are not rigid about social
observances, and they won’t exactly despise you for poverty; all the same,
their charity mustn’t be tested too severely. Be very quiet for the
present; let it be seen that you understand that your position isn’t quite
regular—I mean, of course, do so in a modest and nice way. As soon
as ever it’s possible, we’ll arrange for you to live with someone who will
preserve appearances. All this is contemptible, of course; but we belong
to a contemptible society, and can’t help ourselves. For Heaven’s sake,
don’t spoil your chances by rashness; be content to wait a little, till
some more money comes in.’

Midway in October, about half-past eight one evening, Jasper received an
unexpected visit from Dora. He was in his sitting-room, smoking and
reading a novel.

‘Anything wrong?’ he asked, as his sister entered.

‘No; but I’m alone this evening, and I thought I would see if you were in.

‘Where’s Maud, then?’

‘She went to see the Lanes this afternoon, and Mrs Lane invited her to go
to the Gaiety to-night; she said a friend whom she had invited couldn’t
come, and the ticket would be wasted. Maud went back to dine with them.
She’ll come home in a cab.’

‘Why is Mrs Lane so affectionate all at once? Take your things off; I have
nothing to do.’

‘Miss Radway was going as well.’

‘Who’s Miss Radway?’

‘Don’t you know her? She’s staying with the Lanes. Maud says she writes
for The West End.’

‘And will that fellow Lane be with them?’

‘I think not.’

Jasper mused, contemplating the bowl of his pipe.

‘I suppose she was in rare excitement?’

‘Pretty well. She has wanted to go to the Gaiety for a long time. There’s
no harm, is there?’

Dora asked the question with that absent air which girls are wont to
assume when they touch on doubtful subjects.

‘Harm, no. Idiocy and lively music, that’s all. It’s too late, or I’d have
taken you, for the joke of the thing. Confound it! she ought to have
better dresses.’

‘Oh, she looked very nice, in that best.’

‘Pooh! But I don’t care for her to be running about with the Lanes. Lane
is too big a blackguard; it reflects upon his wife to a certain extent.’

They gossiped for half an hour, then a tap at the door interrupted them;
it was the landlady.

‘Mr Whelpdale has called to see you, sir. I mentioned as Miss Milvain was
here, so he said he wouldn’t come up unless you sent to ask him.’

Jasper smiled at Dora, and said in a low voice.

‘What do you say? Shall he come up? He can behave himself.’

‘Just as you please, Jasper.’

‘Ask him to come up, Mrs Thompson, please.’

Mr Whelpdale presented himself. He entered with much more ceremony than
when Milvain was alone; on his visage was a grave respectfulness, his step
was light, his whole bearing expressed diffidence and pleasurable

‘My younger sister, Whelpdale,’ said Jasper, with subdued amusement.

The dealer in literary advice made a bow which did him no discredit, and
began to speak in a low, reverential tone not at all disagreeable to the
ear. His breeding, in truth, had been that of a gentleman, and it was only
of late years that he had fallen into the hungry region of New Grub

‘How’s the “Manual” going off?’ Milvain inquired.

‘Excellently! We have sold nearly six hundred.’

‘My sister is one of your readers. I believe she has studied the book with
much conscientiousness.’

‘Really? You have really read it, Miss Milvain?’

Dora assured him that she had, and his delight knew no bounds.

‘It isn’t all rubbish, by any means,’ said Jasper, graciously. ‘In the
chapter on writing for magazines, there are one or two very good hints.
What a pity you can’t apply your own advice, Whelpdale!’

‘Now that’s horribly unkind of you!’ protested the other. ‘You might have
spared me this evening. But unfortunately it’s quite true, Miss Milvain. I
point the way, but I haven’t been able to travel it myself. You mustn’t
think I have never succeeded in getting things published; but I can’t keep
it up as a profession.

Your brother is the successful man. A marvellous facility! I envy him. Few
men at present writing have such talent.’

‘Please don’t make him more conceited than he naturally is,’ interposed

‘What news of Biffen?’ asked Jasper, presently.

‘He says he shall finish “Mr Bailey, Grocer,” in about a month. He read me
one of the later chapters the other night. It’s really very fine; most
remarkable writing, it seems to me. It will be scandalous if he can’t get
it published; it will, indeed.’

‘I do hope he may!’ said Dora, laughing. ‘I have heard so much of “Mr
Bailey,” that it will be a great disappointment if I am never to read it.’

‘I’m afraid it would give you very little pleasure,’ Whelpdale replied,
hesitatingly. ‘The matter is so very gross.’

‘And the hero grocer!’ shouted Jasper, mirthfully. ‘Oh, but it’s quite
decent; only rather depressing. The decently ignoble—or, the ignobly
decent? Which is Biffen’s formula? I saw him a week ago, and he looked
hungrier than ever.’

‘Ah, but poor Reardon! I passed him at King’s Cross not long ago.

He didn’t see me—walks with his eyes on the ground always—and
I hadn’t the courage to stop him. He’s the ghost of his old self.
He can’t
live long.’

Dora and her brother exchanged a glance. It was a long time since Jasper
had spoken to his sisters about the Reardons; nowadays he seldom heard
either of husband or wife.

The conversation that went on was so agreeable to Whelpdale, that he lost
consciousness of time. It was past eleven o’clock when Jasper felt obliged
to remind him.

‘Dora, I think I must be taking you home.’

The visitor at once made ready for departure, and his leave-taking was as
respectful as his entrance had been. Though he might not say what he
thought, there was very legible upon his countenance a hope that he would
again be privileged to meet Miss Dora Milvain.

‘Not a bad fellow, in his way,’ said Jasper, when Dora and he were alone

‘Not at all.’

She had heard the story of Whelpdale’s hapless wooing half a year ago, and
her recollection of it explained the smile with which she spoke.

‘Never get on, I’m afraid,’ Jasper pursued. ‘He has his allowance of
twenty pounds a year, and makes perhaps fifty or sixty more. If I were in
his position, I should go in for some kind of regular business; he has
people who could help him. Good-natured fellow; but what’s the use of that
if you’ve no money?’

They set out together, and walked to the girls’ lodgings. Dora was about
to use her latch-key, but Jasper checked her. ‘No. There’s a light in the
kitchen still; better knock, as we’re so late.’

‘But why?’

‘Never mind; do as I tell you.’

The landlady admitted them, and Jasper spoke a word or two with her,
explaining that he would wait until his elder sister’s return; the
darkness of the second-floor windows had shown that Maud was not yet back.

‘What strange fancies you have!’ remarked Dora, when they were upstairs.

‘So have people in general, unfortunately.’

A letter lay on the table. It was addressed to Maud, and Dora recognised
the handwriting as that of a Wattleborough friend.

‘There must be some news here,’ she said. ‘Mrs Haynes wouldn’t write
unless she had something special to say.

Just upon midnight, a cab drew up before the house. Dora ran down to open
the door to her sister, who came in with very bright eyes and more colour
than usual on her cheeks.

‘How late for you to be here!’ she exclaimed, on entering the sitting-room
and seeing Jasper.

‘I shouldn’t have felt comfortable till I knew that you were back all

‘What fear was there?’

She threw off her wraps, laughing.

‘Well, have you enjoyed yourself?’

‘Oh yes!’ she replied, carelessly. ‘This letter for me? What has Mrs
Haynes got to say, I wonder?’

She opened the envelope, and began to glance hurriedly over the sheet of
paper. Then her face changed.

‘What do you think? Mr Yule is dead!’

Dora uttered an exclamation; Jasper displayed the keenest interest.

‘He died yesterday—no, it would be the day before yesterday. He had
a fit of some kind at a public meeting, was taken to the hospital because
it was nearest, and died in a few hours. So that has come, at last! Now
what’ll be the result of it, I wonder?’

‘When shall you be seeing Marian?’ asked her brother.

‘She might come to-morrow evening.’

‘But won’t she go to the funeral?’ suggested Dora.

‘Perhaps; there’s no saying. I suppose her father will, at all events. The
day before yesterday? Then the funeral will be on Saturday, I should

‘Ought I to write to Marian?’ asked Dora.

‘No; I wouldn’t,’ was Jasper’s reply. ‘Better wait till she lets you hear.
That’s sure to be soon. She may have gone to Wattleborough this afternoon,
or be going to-morrow morning.’

The letter from Mrs Haynes was passed from hand to hand. ‘Everybody feels
sure,’ it said, ‘that a great deal of his money will be left for public
purposes. The ground for the park being already purchased, he is sure to
have made provision for carrying out his plans connected with it. But I
hope your friends in London may benefit.’

It was some time before Jasper could put an end to the speculative
conversation and betake himself homewards. And even on getting back to his
lodgings he was little disposed to go to bed. This event of John Yule’s
death had been constantly in his mind, but there was always a fear that it
might not happen for long enough; the sudden announcement excited him
almost as much as if he were a relative of the deceased.

‘Confound his public purposes!’ was the thought upon which he at length


Since the domestic incidents connected with that unpleasant review in The
Current, the relations between Alfred Yule and his daughter had suffered a
permanent change, though not in a degree noticeable by any one but the two
concerned. To all appearances, they worked together and conversed very
much as they had been wont to do; but Marian was made to feel in many
subtle ways that her father no longer had complete confidence in her, no
longer took the same pleasure as formerly in the skill and
conscientiousness of her work, and Yule on his side perceived too clearly
that the girl was preoccupied with something other than her old wish to
aid and satisfy him, that she had a new life of her own alien to, and in
some respects irreconcilable with, the existence in which he desired to
confirm her. There was no renewal of open disagreement, but their
conversations frequently ended by tacit mutual consent, at a point which
threatened divergence; and in Yule’s case every such warning was a cause
of intense irritation. He feared to provoke Marian, and this fear was
again a torture to his pride.

Beyond the fact that his daughter was in constant communication with the
Miss Milvains, he knew, and could discover, nothing of the terms on which
she stood with the girls’ brother, and this ignorance was harder to bear
than full assurance of a disagreeable fact would have been. That a man
like Jasper Milvain, whose name was every now and then forced upon his
notice as a rising periodicalist and a faithful henchman of the
unspeakable Fadge—that a young fellow of such excellent prospects
should seriously attach himself to a girl like Marian seemed to him highly
improbable, save, indeed, for the one consideration, that Milvain, who
assuredly had a very keen eye to chances, might regard the girl as a niece
of old John Yule, and therefore worth holding in view until it was decided
whether or not she would benefit by her uncle’s decease. Fixed in his
antipathy to the young man, he would not allow himself to admit any but a
base motive on Milvain’s side, if, indeed, Marian and Jasper were more to
each other than slight acquaintances; and he persuaded himself that
anxiety for the girl’s welfare was at least as strong a motive with him as
mere prejudice against the ally of Fadge, and, it might be, the reviewer
of ‘English Prose.’ Milvain was quite capable of playing fast and loose
with a girl, and Marian, owing to the peculiar circumstances of her
position, would easily be misled by the pretence of a clever speculator.

That she had never spoken again about the review in The Current might
receive several explanations. Perhaps she had not been able to convince
herself either for or against Milvain’s authorship; perhaps she had reason
to suspect that the young man was the author; perhaps she merely shrank
from reviving a discussion in which she might betray what she desired to
keep secret. This last was the truth. Finding that her father did not
recur to the subject, Marian concluded that he had found himself to be
misinformed. But Yule, though he heard the original rumour denied by
people whom in other matters he would have trusted, would not lay aside
the doubt that flattered his prejudices. If Milvain were not the writer of
the review, he very well might have been; and what certainty could be
arrived at in matters of literary gossip?

There was an element of jealousy in the father’s feeling. If he did not
love Marian with all the warmth of which a parent is capable, at least he
had more affection for her than for any other person, and of this he
became strongly aware now that the girl seemed to be turning from him. If
he lost Marian, he would indeed be a lonely man, for he considered his
wife of no account.

Intellectually again, he demanded an entire allegiance from his daughter;
he could not bear to think that her zeal on his behalf was diminishing,
that perhaps she was beginning to regard his work as futile and antiquated
in comparison with that of the new generation. Yet this must needs be the
result of frequent intercourse with such a man as Milvain. It seemed to
him that he remarked it in her speech and manner, and at times he with
difficulty restrained himself from a reproach or a sarcasm which would
have led to trouble.

Had he been in the habit of dealing harshly with Marian, as with her
mother, of course his position would have been simpler. But he had always
respected her, and he feared to lose that measure of respect with which
she repaid him. Already he had suffered in her esteem, perhaps more than
he liked to think, and the increasing embitterment of his temper kept him
always in danger of the conflict he dreaded. Marian was not like her
mother; she could not submit to tyrannous usage. Warned of that, he did
his utmost to avoid an outbreak of discord, constantly hoping that he
might come to understand his daughter’s position, and perhaps discover
that his greatest fear was unfounded.

Twice in the course of the summer he inquired of his wife whether she knew
anything about the Milvains. But Mrs Yule was not in Marian’s confidence.

‘I only know that she goes to see the young ladies, and that they do
writing of some kind.’

‘She never even mentions their brother to you?’

‘Never. I haven’t heard his name from her since she told me the Miss
Milvains weren’t coming here again.’

He was not sorry that Marian had taken the decision to keep her friends
away from St Paul’s Crescent, for it saved him a recurring annoyance; but,
on the other hand, if they had continued to come, he would not have been
thus completely in the dark as to her intercourse with Jasper; scraps of
information must now and then have been gathered by his wife from the
girls’ talk.

Throughout the month of July he suffered much from his wonted bilious
attacks, and Mrs Yule had to endure a double share of his ill-temper, that
which was naturally directed against her, and that of which Marian was the
cause. In August things were slightly better; but with the return to
labour came a renewal of Yule’s sullenness and savageness. Sundry pieces
of ill-luck of a professional kind—warnings, as he too well
understood, that it was growing more and more difficult for him to hold
his own against the new writers—exasperated his quarrel with
destiny. The gloom of a cold and stormy September was doubly wretched in
that house on the far borders of Camden Town, but in October the sun
reappeared and it seemed to mollify the literary man’s mood. Just when Mrs
Yule and Marian began to hope that this long distemper must surely come to
an end, there befell an incident which, at the best of times, would have
occasioned misery, and which in the present juncture proved disastrous.

It was one morning about eleven. Yule was in his study; Marian was at the
Museum; Mrs Yule had gone shopping. There came a sharp knock at the front
door, and the servant, on opening, was confronted with a decently-dressed
woman, who asked in a peremptory voice if Mrs Yule was at home.

‘No? Then is Mr Yule?’

‘Yes, mum, but I’m afraid he’s busy.’

‘I don’t care, I must see him. Say that Mrs Goby wants to see him at

The servant, not without apprehensions, delivered this message at the door
of the study.

‘Mrs Goby? Who is Mrs Goby?’ exclaimed the man of letters, irate at the

There sounded an answer out of the passage, for the visitor had followed

‘I am Mrs Goby, of the ‘Olloway Road, wife of Mr C. O. Goby, ‘aberdasher.
I just want to speak to you, Mr Yule, if you please, seeing that Mrs Yule
isn’t in.’

Yule started up in fury, and stared at the woman, to whom the servant had
reluctantly given place.

‘What business can you have with me? If you wish to see Mrs Yule, come
again when she is at home.’

‘No, Mr Yule, I will not come again!’ cried the woman, red in the face. ‘I
thought I might have had respectable treatment here, at all events; but I
see you’re pretty much like your relations in the way of behaving to
people, though you do wear better clothes, and—I s’pose—call
yourself a gentleman. I won’t come again, and you shall just hear what
I’ve got to say.

She closed the door violently, and stood in an attitude of robust

‘What’s all this about?’ asked the enraged author, overcoming an impulse
to take Mrs Goby by the shoulders and throw her out—though he might
have found some difficulty in achieving this feat. ‘Who are you? And why
do you come here with your brawling?’

‘I’m the respectable wife of a respectable man—that’s who I am, Mr
Yule, if you want to know. And I always thought Mrs Yule was the same,
from the dealings we’ve had with her at the shop, though not knowing any
more of her, it’s true, except that she lived in St Paul’s Crezzent. And
so she may be respectable, though I can’t say as her husband behaves
himself very much like what he pretends to be. But I can’t say as much for
her relations in Perker Street, ‘Olloway, which I s’pose they’re your
relations as well, at least by marriage. And if they think they’re going
to insult me, and use their blackguard tongues—’

‘What are you talking about?’ shouted Yule, who was driven to frenzy by
the mention of his wife’s humble family. ‘What have I to do with these

‘What have you to do with them? I s’pose they’re your relations, ain’t
they? And I s’pose the girl Annie Rudd is your niece, ain’t she? At least,
she’s your wife’s niece, and that comes to the same thing, I’ve always
understood, though I dare say a gentleman as has so many books about him
can correct me if I’ve made a mistake.’

She looked scornfully, though also with some surprise, round the volumed

‘And what of this girl? Will you have the goodness to say what your
business is?’

‘Yes, I will have the goodness! I s’pose you know very well that I took
your niece Annie Rudd as a domestic servant’—she repeated this
precise definition—‘as a domestic servant, because Mrs Yule ‘appened
to ‘arst me if I knew of a place for a girl of that kind, as hadn’t been
out before, but could be trusted to do her best to give satisfaction to a
good mistress? I s’pose you know that?’

‘I know nothing of the kind. What have I to do with servants?’

‘Well, whether you’ve much to do with them or little, that’s how it was.
And nicely she’s paid me out, has your niece, Miss Rudd. Of all the
trouble I ever had with a girl! And now when she’s run away back ‘ome, and
when I take the trouble to go arfter her, I’m to be insulted and abused as
never was! Oh, they’re a nice respectable family, those Rudds! Mrs Rudd—that’s
Mrs Yule’s sister—what a nice, polite-spoken lady she is, to be
sure? If I was to repeat the language—but there, I wouldn’t lower
myself. And I’ve been a brute of a mistress; I ill-use my servants, and I
don’t give ‘em enough to eat, and I pay ‘em worse than any woman in
London! That’s what I’ve learnt about myself by going to Perker Street,
‘Olloway. And when I come here to ask Mrs Yule what she means by
recommending such a creature, from such a ‘ome, I get insulted by her
gentleman husband.’

Yule was livid with rage, but the extremity of his scorn withheld him from
utterance of what he felt.

‘As I said, all this has nothing to do with me. I will let Mrs Yule know
that you have called. I have no more time to spare.’

Mrs Goby repeated at still greater length the details of her grievance,
but long before she had finished Yule was sitting again at his desk in
ostentatious disregard of her. Finally, the exasperated woman flung open
the door, railed in a loud voice along the passage, and left the house
with an alarming crash.

It was not long before Mrs Yule returned. Before taking off her things,
she went down into the kitchen with certain purchases, and there she
learnt from the servant what had happened during her absence. Fear and
trembling possessed her—the sick, faint dread always excited by her
husband’s wrath—but she felt obliged to go at once to the study. The
scene that took place there was one of ignoble violence on Yule’s part,
and, on that of his wife, of terrified self-accusation, changing at length
to dolorous resentment of the harshness with which she was treated. When
it was over, Yule took his hat and went out.

He did not return for the mid-day meal, and when Marian, late in the
afternoon, came back from the Museum, he was still absent.

Not finding her mother in the parlour, Marian called at the head of the
kitchen stairs. The servant answered, saying that Mrs Yule was up in her
bedroom, and that she didn’t seem well. Marian at once went up and knocked
at the bedroom door. In a moment or two her mother came out, showing a
face of tearful misery.

‘What is it, mother? What’s the matter?’

They went into Marian’s room, where Mrs Yule gave free utterance to her

‘I can’t put up with it, Marian! Your father is too hard with me. I was wrong, I dare say, and I might have known what would have come of
it, but he couldn’t speak to me worse if I did him all the harm I could on
purpose. It’s all about Annie, because I found a place for her at Mrs
Goby’s in the ‘Olloway Road; and now Mrs Goby’s been here and seen your
father, and told him she’s been insulted by the Rudds, because Annie went
off home, and she went after her to make inquiries. And your father’s in
such a passion about it as never was. That woman Mrs Goby rushed into the
study when he was working; it was this morning, when I happened to be out.
And she throws all the blame on me for recommending her such a girl. And I
did it for the best, that I did! Annie promised me faithfully she’d behave
well, and never give me trouble, and she seemed thankful to me, because
she wasn’t happy at home. And now to think of her causing all this
disturbance! I oughtn’t to have done such a thing without speaking about
it to your father; but you know how afraid I am to say a word to him about
those people. And my sister’s told me so often I ought to be ashamed of
myself never helping her and her children; she thinks I could do such a
lot if I only liked. And now that I did try to do something, see what
comes of it!’

Marian listened with a confusion of wretched feelings. But her sympathies
were strongly with her mother; as well as she could understand the broken
story, her father seemed to have no just cause for his pitiless rage,
though such an occasion would be likely enough to bring out his worst

‘Is he in the study?’ she asked.

‘No, he went out at twelve o’clock, and he’s never been back since. I feel
as if I must do something; I can’t bear with it, Marian. He tells me I’m
the curse of his life—yes, he said that. I oughtn’t to tell you, I
know I oughtn’t; but it’s more than I can bear. I’ve always tried to do my
best, but it gets harder and harder for me. But for me he’d never be in
these bad tempers; it’s because he can’t look at me without getting angry.
He says I’ve kept him back all through his life; but for me he might have
been far better off than he is. It may be true; I’ve often enough thought
it. But I can’t bear to have it told me like that, and to see it in his
face every time he looks at me. I shall have to do something. He’d be glad
if only I was out of his way.’

‘Father has no right to make you so unhappy,’ said Marian. ‘I can’t see
that you did anything blameworthy; it seems to me that it was your duty to
try and help Annie, and if it turned out unfortunately, that can’t be
helped. You oughtn’t to think so much of what father says in his anger; I
believe he hardly knows what he does say. Don’t take it so much to heart,

‘I’ve tried my best, Marian,’ sobbed the poor woman, who felt that even
her child’s sympathy could not be perfect, owing to the distance put
between them by Marian’s education and refined sensibilities. ‘I’ve always
thought it wasn’t right to talk to you about such things, but he’s been
too hard with me to-day.’

‘I think it was better you should tell me. It can’t go on like this; I
feel that just as you do. I must tell father that he is making our lives a
burden to us.’

‘Oh, you mustn’t speak to him like that, Marian! I wouldn’t for anything
make unkindness between you and your father; that would be the worst thing
I’d done yet. I’d rather go away and work for my own living than make
trouble between you and him.’

‘It isn’t you who make trouble; it’s father. I ought to have spoken to him
before this; I had no right to stand by and see how much you suffered from
his ill-temper.’

The longer they talked, the firmer grew Marian’s resolve to front her
father’s tyrannous ill-humour, and in one way or another to change the
intolerable state of things. She had been weak to hold her peace so long;
at her age it was a simple duty to interfere when her mother was treated
with such flagrant injustice. Her father’s behaviour was unworthy of a
thinking man, and he must be made to feel that.

Yule did not return. Dinner was delayed for half an hour, then Marian
declared that they would wait no longer. They two made a sorry meal, and
afterwards went together into the sitting-room. At eight o’clock they
heard the front door open, and Yule’s footstep in the passage. Marian

‘Don’t speak till to-morrow!’ whispered her mother, catching at the girl’s
arm. ‘Let it be till to-morrow, Marian!’

‘I must speak! We can’t live in this terror.’

She reached the study just as her father was closing the door behind him.
Yule, seeing her enter, glared with bloodshot eyes; shame and sullen anger
were blended on his countenance.

‘Will you tell me what is wrong, father?’ Marian asked, in a voice which
betrayed her nervous suffering, yet indicated the resolve with which she
had come.

‘I am not at all disposed to talk of the matter,’ he replied, with the
awkward rotundity of phrase which distinguished him in his worst humour.
‘For information you had better go to Mrs Goby—or a person of some
such name—in Holloway Road. I have nothing more to do with it.’

‘It was very unfortunate that the woman came and troubled you about such
things. But I can’t see that mother was to blame; I don’t think you ought
to be so angry with her.’

It cost Marian a terrible effort to address her father in these terms.
When he turned fiercely upon her, she shrank back and felt as if strength
must fail her even to stand.

‘You can’t see that she was to blame? Isn’t it entirely against my wish
that she keeps up any intercourse with those low people? Am I to be
exposed to insulting disturbance in my very study, because she chooses to
introduce girls of bad character as servants to vulgar women?’

‘I don’t think Annie Rudd can be called a girl of bad character, and it
was very natural that mother should try to do something for her. You have
never actually forbidden her to see her relatives.’

‘A thousand times I have given her to understand that I utterly
disapproved of such association. She knew perfectly well that this girl
was as likely as not to discredit her. If she had consulted me, I should
at once have forbidden anything of the kind; she was aware of that. She
kept it secret from me, knowing that it would excite my displeasure. I
will not be drawn into such squalid affairs; I won’t have my name spoken
in such connection. Your mother has only herself to blame if I am angry
with her.’

‘Your anger goes beyond all bounds. At the very worst, mother behaved
imprudently, and with a very good motive. It is cruel that you should make
her suffer as she is doing.’

Marian was being strengthened to resist. Her blood grew hot; the sensation
which once before had brought her to the verge of conflict with her father
possessed her heart and brain.

‘You are not a suitable judge of my behaviour,’ replied Yule, severely.

‘I am driven to speak. We can’t go on living in this way, father. For
months our home has been almost ceaselessly wretched, because of the
ill-temper you are always in. Mother and I must defend ourselves; we can’t
bear it any longer. You must surely feel how ridiculous it is to make such
a thing as happened this morning the excuse for violent anger. How can I
help judging your behaviour? When mother is brought to the point of saying
that she would rather leave home and everything than endure her misery any
longer, I should be wrong if I didn’t speak to you. Why are you so unkind?
What serious cause has mother ever given you?’

‘I refuse to argue such questions with you.’

‘Then you are very unjust. I am not a child, and there’s nothing wrong in
my asking you why home is made a place of misery, instead of being what
home ought to be.’

‘You prove that you are a child, in asking for explanations which ought to
be clear enough to you.’

‘You mean that mother is to blame for everything?’

‘The subject is no fit one to be discussed between a father and his
daughter. If you cannot see the impropriety of it, be so good as to go
away and reflect, and leave me to my occupations.’

Marian came to a pause. But she knew that his rebuke was mere unworthy
evasion; she saw that her father could not meet her look, and this
perception of shame in him impelled her to finish what she had begun.

‘I will say nothing of mother, then, but speak only for myself. I suffer
too much from your unkindness; you ask too much endurance.’

‘You mean that I exact too much work from you?’ asked her father, with a
look which might have been directed to a recalcitrant clerk.

‘No. But that you make the conditions of my work too hard. I live in
constant fear of your anger.’

‘Indeed? When did I last ill-use you, or threaten you?’

‘I often think that threats, or even ill-usage, would be easier to bear
than an unchanging gloom which always seems on the point of breaking into

‘I am obliged to you for your criticism of my disposition and manner, but
unhappily I am too old to reform. Life has made me what I am, and I should
have thought that your knowledge of what my life has been would have gone
far to excuse a lack of cheerfulness in me.’

The irony of this laborious period was full of self-pity. His voice
quavered at the close, and a tremor was noticeable in his stiff frame.

‘It isn’t lack of cheerfulness that I mean, father. That could never have
brought me to speak like this.’

‘If you wish me to admit that I am bad-tempered, surly, irritable—I
make no difficulty about that. The charge is true enough. I can only ask
you again: What are the circumstances that have ruined my temper? When you
present yourself here with a general accusation of my behaviour, I am at a
loss to understand what you ask of me, what you wish me to say or do. I
must beg you to speak plainly. Are you suggesting that I should make
provision for the support of you and your mother away from my intolerable
proximity? My income is not large, as I think you are aware, but of
course, if a demand of this kind is seriously made, I must do my best to
comply with it.’

‘It hurts me very much that you can understand me no better than this.’

‘I am sorry. I think we used to understand each other, but that was before
you were subjected to the influence of strangers.’

In his perverse frame of mind he was ready to give utterance to any
thought which confused the point at issue. This last allusion was
suggested to him by a sudden pang of regret for the pain he was causing
Marian; he defended himself against self-reproach by hinting at the true
reason of much of his harshness.

‘I am subjected to no influence that is hostile to you,’ Marian replied.

‘You may think that. But in such a matter it is very easy for you to
deceive yourself.’

‘Of course I know what you refer to, and I can assure you that I don’t
deceive myself.’

Yule flashed a searching glance at her.

‘Can you deny that you are on terms of friendship with a—a person
who would at any moment rejoice to injure me?’

‘I am friendly with no such person. Will you say whom you are thinking

‘It would be useless. I have no wish to discuss a subject on which we
should only disagree unprofitably.’

Marian kept silence for a moment, then said in a low, unsteady voice:

‘It is perhaps because we never speak of that subject that we are so far
from understanding each other. If you think that Mr Milvain is your enemy,
that he would rejoice to injure you, you are grievously mistaken.’

‘When I see a man in close alliance with my worst enemy, and looking to
that enemy for favour, I am justified in thinking that he would injure me
if the right kind of opportunity offered. One need not be very deeply read
in human nature to have assurance of that.’

‘But I know Mr Milvain!’

‘You know him?’

‘Far better than you can, I am sure. You draw conclusions from general
principles; but I know that they don’t apply in this case.’

‘I have no doubt you sincerely think so. I repeat that nothing can be
gained by such a discussion as this.’

‘One thing I must tell you. There was no truth in your suspicion that Mr
Milvain wrote that review in The Current. He assured me himself that he
was not the writer, that he had nothing to do with it.’

Yule looked askance at her, and his face displayed solicitude, which soon
passed, however, into a smile of sarcasm.

‘The gentleman’s word no doubt has weight with you.’

‘Father, what do you mean?’ broke from Marian, whose eyes of a sudden
flashed stormily. ‘Would Mr Milvain tell me a lie?’

‘I shouldn’t like to say that it is impossible,’ replied her father in the
same tone as before.

‘But—what right have you to insult him so grossly?’

‘I have every right, my dear child, to express an opinion about him or any
other man, provided I do it honestly. I beg you not to strike attitudes
and address me in the language of the stage. You insist on my speaking
plainly, and I have spoken plainly. I warned you that we were not likely
to agree on this topic.’

‘Literary quarrels have made you incapable of judging honestly in things
such as this. I wish I could have done for ever with the hateful
profession that so poisons men’s minds.’

‘Believe me, my girl,’ said her father, incisively, ‘the simpler thing
would be to hold aloof from such people as use the profession in a spirit
of unalloyed selfishness, who seek only material advancement, and who,
whatever connection they form, have nothing but self-interest in view.’

And he glared at her with much meaning. Marian—both had remained
standing all through the dialogue—cast down her eyes and became lost
in brooding.

‘I speak with profound conviction,’ pursued her father, ‘and, however
little you credit me with such a motive, out of desire to guard you
against the dangers to which your inexperience is exposed. It is perhaps
as well that you have afforded me this—’

There sounded at the house-door that duplicated double-knock which
generally announces the bearer of a telegram. Yule interrupted himself,
and stood in an attitude of waiting. The servant was heard to go along the
passage, to open the door, and then return towards the study. Yes, it was
a telegram. Such despatches rarely came to this house; Yule tore the
envelope, read its contents, and stood with gaze fixed upon the slip of
paper until the servant inquired if there was any reply for the boy to
take with him.

‘No reply.’

He slowly crumpled the envelope, and stepped aside to throw it into the
paper-basket. The telegram he laid on his desk. Marian stood all the time
with bent head; he now looked at her with an expression of meditative

‘I don’t know that there’s much good in resuming our conversation,’ he
said, in quite a changed tone, as if something of more importance had
taken possession of his thoughts and had made him almost indifferent to
the past dispute. ‘But of course I am quite willing to hear anything you
would still like to say.

Marian had lost her vehemence. She was absent and melancholy.

‘I can only ask you,’ she replied, ‘to try and make life less of a burden
to us.’

‘I shall have to leave town to-morrow for a few days; no doubt it will be
some satisfaction to you to hear that.’

Marian’s eyes turned involuntarily towards the telegram.

‘As for your occupation in my absence,’ he went on, in a hard tone which
yet had something tremulous, emotional, making it quite different from the
voice he had hitherto used, ‘that will be entirely a matter for your own
judgment. I have felt for some time that you assisted me with less
good-will than formerly, and now that you have frankly admitted it, I
shall of course have very little satisfaction in requesting your aid. I
must leave it to you; consult your own inclination.’

It was resentful, but not savage; between the beginning and the end of his
speech he softened to a sort of self-satisfied pathos.

‘I can’t pretend,’ replied Marian, ‘that I have as much pleasure in the
work as I should have if your mood were gentler.’

‘I am sorry. I might perhaps have made greater efforts to appear at ease
when I was suffering.’

‘Do you mean physical suffering?’

‘Physical and mental. But that can’t concern you. During my absence I will
think of your reproof. I know that it is deserved, in some degree. If it
is possible, you shall have less to complain of in future.’

He looked about the room, and at length seated himself; his eyes were
fixed in a direction away from Marian.

‘I suppose you had dinner somewhere?’ Marian asked, after catching a
glimpse of his worn, colourless face.

‘Oh, I had a mouthful of something. It doesn’t matter.’

It seemed as if he found some special pleasure in assuming this tone of
martyrdom just now. At the same time he was becoming more absorbed in

‘Shall I have something brought up for you, father?’

‘Something—? Oh no, no; on no account.’

He rose again impatiently, then approached his desk, and laid a hand on
the telegram. Marian observed this movement, and examined his face; it was
set in an expression of eagerness.

‘You have nothing more to say, then?’ He turned sharply upon her.

‘I feel that I haven’t made you understand me, but I can say nothing

‘I understand you very well—too well. That you should misunderstand
and mistrust me, I suppose, is natural. You are young, and I am old. You
are still full of hope, and I have been so often deceived and defeated
that I dare not let a ray of hope enter my mind. Judge me; judge me as
hardly as you like. My life has been one long, bitter struggle, and if now—.
I say,’ he began a new sentence, ‘that only the hard side of life has been
shown to me; small wonder if I have become hard myself. Desert me; go your
own way, as the young always do. But bear in mind my warning. Remember the
caution I have given you.’

He spoke in a strangely sudden agitation. The arm with which he leaned
upon the table trembled violently. After a moment’s pause he added, in a
thick voice:

‘Leave me. I will speak to you again in the morning.’

Impressed in a way she did not understand, Marian at once obeyed, and
rejoined her mother in the parlour. Mrs Yule gazed anxiously at her as she

‘Don’t be afraid,’ said Marian, with difficulty bringing herself to speak.
‘I think it will be better.’

‘Was that a telegram that came?’ her mother inquired after a silence.

‘Yes. I don’t know where it was from. But father said he would have to
leave town for a few days.’

They exchanged looks.

‘Perhaps your uncle is very ill,’ said the mother in a low voice.

‘Perhaps so.’

The evening passed drearily. Fatigued with her emotions, Marian went early
to bed; she even slept later than usual in the morning, and on descending
she found her father already at the breakfast-table. No greeting passed,
and there was no conversation during the meal. Marian noticed that her
mother kept glancing at her in a peculiarly grave way; but she felt ill
and dejected, and could fix her thoughts on no subject. As he left the
table Yule said to her:

‘I want to speak to you for a moment. I shall be in the study.’

She joined him there very soon. He looked coldly at her, and said in a
distant tone:

‘The telegram last night was to tell me that your uncle is dead.’


‘He died of apoplexy, at a meeting in Wattleborough. I shall go down this
morning, and of course remain till after the funeral. I see no necessity
for your going, unless, of course, it is your desire to do so.’

‘No; I should do as you wish.’

‘I think you had better not go to the Museum whilst I am away. You will
occupy yourself as you think fit.’

‘I shall go on with the Harrington notes.’

‘As you please. I don’t know what mourning it would be decent for you to
wear; you must consult with your mother about that. That is all I wished
to say.’

His tone was dismissal. Marian had a struggle with herself but she could
find nothing to reply to his cold phrases. And an hour or two afterwards
Yule left the house without leave-taking.

Soon after his departure there was a visitor’s rat-tat at the door; it
heralded Mrs Goby. In the interview which then took place Marian assisted
her mother to bear the vigorous onslaughts of the haberdasher’s wife. For
more than two hours Mrs Goby related her grievances, against the fugitive
servant, against Mrs Yule, against Mr Yule; meeting with no irritating
opposition, she was able in this space of time to cool down to the
temperature of normal intercourse, and when she went forth from the house
again it was in a mood of dignified displeasure which she felt to be some
recompense for the injuries of yesterday.

A result of this annoyance was to postpone conversation between mother and
daughter on the subject of John Yule’s death until a late hour of the
afternoon. Marian was at work in the study, or endeavouring to work, for
her thoughts would not fix themselves on the matter in hand for many
minutes together, and Mrs Yule came in with more than her customary

‘Have you nearly done for to-day, dear?’

‘Enough for the present, I think.’

She laid down her pen, and leant back in the chair.

‘Marian, do you think your father will be rich?’

‘I have no idea, mother. I suppose we shall know very soon.’

Her tone was dreamy. She seemed to herself to be speaking of something
which scarcely at all concerned her, of vague possibilities which did not
affect her habits of thought.

‘If that happens,’ continued Mrs Yule, in a low tone of distress, ‘I don’t
know what I shall do.’

Marian looked at her questioningly.

‘I can’t wish that it mayn’t happen,’ her mother went on; ‘I can’t, for
his sake and for yours; but I don’t know what I shall do. He’d think me
more in his way than ever. He’d wish to have a large house, and live in
quite a different way; and how could I manage then? I couldn’t show
myself; he’d be too much ashamed of me. I shouldn’t be in my place; even
you’d feel ashamed of me.’

‘You mustn’t say that, mother. I have never given you cause to think

‘No, my dear, you haven’t; but it would be only natural. I couldn’t live
the kind of life that you’re fit for. I shall be nothing but a hindrance
and a shame to both of you.’

‘To me you would never be either hindrance or shame; be quite sure of
that. And as for father, I am all but certain that, if he became rich, he
would be a very much kinder man, a better man in every way. It is poverty
that has made him worse than he naturally is; it has that effect on almost
everybody. Money does harm, too, sometimes; but never, I think, to people
who have a good heart and a strong mind. Father is naturally a
warm-hearted man; riches would bring out all the best in him. He would be
generous again, which he has almost forgotten how to be among all his
disappointments and battlings. Don’t be afraid of that change, but hope
for it.’

Mrs Yule gave a troublous sigh, and for a few minutes pondered anxiously.

‘I wasn’t thinking so much about myself’ she said at length. ‘It’s the
hindrance I should be to father. Just because of me, he mightn’t be able
to use his money as he’d wish. He’d always be feeling that if it wasn’t
for me things would be so much better for him and for you as well.’

‘You must remember,’ Marian replied, ‘that at father’s age people don’t
care to make such great changes. His home life, I feel sure, wouldn’t be
so very different from what it is now; he would prefer to use his money in
starting a paper or magazine. I know that would be his first thought. If
more acquaintances came to his house, what would that matter? It isn’t as
if he wished for fashionable society. They would be literary people, and
why ever shouldn’t you meet with them?’

‘I’ve always been the reason why he couldn’t have many friends.’

‘That’s a great mistake. If father ever said that, in his bad temper, he
knew it wasn’t the truth. The chief reason has always been his poverty. It
costs money to entertain friends; time as well. Don’t think in this
anxious way, mother. If we are to be rich, it will be better for all of

Marian had every reason for seeking to persuade herself that this was
true. In her own heart there was a fear of how wealth might affect her
father, but she could not bring herself to face the darker prospect. For
her so much depended on that hope of a revival of generous feeling under
sunny influences.

It was only after this conversation that she began to reflect on all the
possible consequences of her uncle’s death. As yet she had been too much
disturbed to grasp as a reality the event to which she had often looked
forward, though as to something still remote, and of quite uncertain
results. Perhaps at this moment, though she could not know it, the course
of her life had undergone the most important change. Perhaps there was no
more need for her to labour upon this ‘article’ she was manufacturing.

She did not think it probable that she herself would benefit directly by
John Yule’s will. There was no certainty that even her father would, for
he and his brother had never been on cordial terms. But on the whole it
seemed likely that he would inherit money enough to free him from the toil
of writing for periodicals. He himself anticipated that. What else could
be the meaning of those words in which (and it was before the arrival of
the news) he had warned her against ‘people who made connections only with
self-interest in view?’ This threw a sudden light upon her father’s
attitude towards Jasper Milvain. Evidently he thought that Jasper regarded
her as a possible heiress, sooner or later. That suspicion was rankling in
his mind; doubtless it intensified the prejudice which originated in
literary animosity.

Was there any truth in his suspicion? She did not shrink from admitting
that there might be. Jasper had from the first been so frank with her, had
so often repeated that money was at present his chief need. If her father
inherited substantial property, would it induce Jasper to declare himself
more than her friend? She could view the possibility of that, and yet not
for a moment be shaken in her love. It was plain that Jasper could not
think of marrying until his position and prospects were greatly improved;
practically, his sisters depended upon him. What folly it would be to draw
back if circumstances led him to avow what hitherto he had so slightly
disguised! She had the conviction that he valued her for her own sake; if
the obstacle between them could only be removed, what matter how?

Would he be willing to abandon Clement Fadge, and come over to her
father’s side? If Yule were able to found a magazine?

Had she read or heard of a girl who went so far in concessions, Marian
would have turned away, her delicacy offended. In her own case she could
indulge to the utmost that practicality which colours a woman’s thought
even in mid passion. The cold exhibition of ignoble scheming will repel
many a woman who, for her own heart’s desire, is capable of that same
compromise with her strict sense of honour.

Marian wrote to Dora Milvain, telling her what had happened. But she
refrained from visiting her friends.

Each night found her more restless, each morning less able to employ
herself. She shut herself in the study merely to be alone with her
thoughts, to be able to walk backwards and forwards, or sit for hours in
feverish reverie. From her father came no news. Her mother was suffering
dreadfully from suspense, and often had eyes red with weeping. Absorbed in
her own hopes and fears, whilst every hour harassed her more intolerably,
Marian was unable to play the part of an encourager; she had never known
such exclusiveness of self-occupation.

Yule’s return was unannounced. Early in the afternoon, when he had been
absent five days, he entered the house, deposited his travelling-bag in
the passage, and went upstairs. Marian had come out of the study just in
time to see him up on the first landing; at the same moment Mrs Yule
ascended from the kitchen.

‘Wasn’t that father?’

‘Yes, he has gone up.’

‘Did he say anything?’

Marian shook her head. They looked at the travelling-bag, then went into
the parlour and waited in silence for more than a quarter of an hour.
Yule’s foot was heard on the stairs; he came down slowly, paused in the
passage, entered the parlour with his usual grave, cold countenance.


Each day Jasper came to inquire of his sisters if they had news from
Wattleborough or from Marian Yule. He exhibited no impatience, spoke of
the matter in a disinterested tone; still, he came daily.

One afternoon he found Dora working alone. Maud, he was told, had gone to
lunch at Mrs Lane’s.

‘So soon again? She’s getting very thick with those people. And why don’t
they ask you?’

‘Maud has told them that I don’t care to go out.’

‘It’s all very well, but she mustn’t neglect her work. Did she write
anything last night or this morning?’

Dora bit the end of her pen and shook her head.

‘Why not?’

‘The invitation came about five o’clock, and it seemed to unsettle her.’

‘Precisely. That’s what I’m afraid of. She isn’t the kind of girl to stick
at work if people begin to send her invitations. But I tell you what it
is, you must talk seriously to her; she has to get her living, you know.
Mrs Lane and her set are not likely to be much use, that’s the worst of
it; they’ll merely waste her time, and make her discontented.’

His sister executed an elaborate bit of cross-hatching on some waste
paper. Her lips were drawn together, and her brows wrinkled. At length she
broke the silence by saying:

‘Marian hasn’t been yet.’

Jasper seemed to pay no attention; she looked up at him, and saw that he
was in thought.

‘Did you go to those people last night?’ she inquired.

‘Yes. By-the-bye, Miss Rupert was there.’

He spoke as if the name would be familiar to his hearer, but Dora seemed
at a loss.

‘Who is Miss Rupert?’

‘Didn’t I tell you about her? I thought I did. Oh, I met her first of all
at Barlow’s, just after we got back from the seaside. Rather an
interesting girl. She’s a daughter of Manton Rupert, the advertising
agent. I want to get invited to their house; useful people, you know.’

‘But is an advertising agent a gentleman?’

Jasper laughed.

‘Do you think of him as a bill-poster? At all events he is enormously
wealthy, and has a magnificent house at Chislehurst. The girl goes about
with her stepmother. I call her a girl, but she must be nearly thirty, and
Mrs Rupert looks only two or three years older. I had quite a long talk
with her—Miss Rupert, I mean—last night. She told me she was
going to stay next week with the Barlows, so I shall have a run out to
Wimbledon one afternoon.’

Dora looked at him inquiringly.

‘Just to see Miss Rupert?’ she asked, meeting his eyes.

‘To be sure. Why not?’

‘Oh!’ ejaculated his sister, as if the question did not concern her.

‘She isn’t exactly good-looking,’ pursued Jasper, meditatively, with a
quick glance at the listener, ‘but fairly intellectual. Plays very well,
and has a nice contralto voice; she sang that new thing of Tosti’s—what
do you call it? I thought her rather masculine when I first saw her, but
the impression wears off when one knows her better. She rather takes to
me, I fancy.’

‘But—’ began Dora, after a minute’s silence.

‘But what?’ inquired her brother with an air of interest.

‘I don’t quite understand you.’

‘In general, or with reference to some particular?’

‘What right have you to go to places just to see this Miss Rupert?’

‘What right?’ He laughed. ‘I am a young man with my way to make. I can’t
afford to lose any opportunity. If Miss Rupert is so good as to take an
interest in me, I have no objection. She’s old enough to make friends for

‘Oh, then you consider her simply a friend?’

‘I shall see how things go on.’

‘But, pray, do you consider yourself perfectly free?’ asked Dora, with
some indignation.

‘Why shouldn’t I?’

‘Then I think you have been behaving very strangely.’

Jasper saw that she was in earnest. He stroked the back of his head and
smiled at the wall.

‘With regard to Marian, you mean?’

‘Of course I do.’

‘But Marian understands me perfectly. I have never for a moment tried to
make her think that—well, to put it plainly, that I was in love with
her. In all our conversations it has been my one object to afford her
insight into my character, and to explain my position. She has no excuse
whatever for misinterpreting me. And I feel assured that she has done
nothing of the kind.’

‘Very well, if you feel satisfied with yourself—’

‘But come now, Dora; what’s all this about? You are Marian’s friend, and,
of course, I don’t wish you to say a word about her.

But let me explain myself. I have occasionally walked part of the way home
with Marian, when she and I have happened to go from here at the same
time; now there was nothing whatever in our talk at such times that anyone
mightn’t have listened to. We are both intellectual people, and we talk in
an intellectual way. You seem to have rather old-fashioned ideas—provincial
ideas. A girl like Marian Yule claims the new privileges of woman; she
would resent it if you supposed that she couldn’t be friendly with a man
without attributing “intentions” to him—to use the old word. We
don’t live in Wattleborough, where liberty is rendered impossible by the
cackling of gossips.’

‘No, but—’


‘It seems to me rather strange, that’s all. We had better not talk about
it any more.’

‘But I have only just begun to talk about it; I must try to make my
position intelligible to you. Now, suppose—a quite impossible thing—that
Marian inherited some twenty or thirty thousand pounds; I should forthwith
ask her to be my wife.’

‘Oh indeed!’

‘I see no reason for sarcasm. It would be a most rational proceeding. I
like her very much; but to marry her (supposing she would have me) without
money would he a gross absurdity, simply spoiling my career, and leading
to all sorts of discontents.’

‘No one would suggest that you should marry as things are.’

‘No; but please to bear in mind that to obtain money somehow or other—and
I see no other way than by marriage—is necessary to me, and that
with as little delay as possible. I am not at all likely to get a big
editorship for some years to come, and I don’t feel disposed to make
myself prematurely old by toiling for a few hundreds per annum in the
meantime. Now all this I have frankly and fully explained to Marian. I
dare say she suspects what I should do if she came into possession of
money; there’s no harm in that. But she knows perfectly well that, as
things are, we remain intellectual friends.’

‘Then listen to me, Jasper. If we hear that Marian gets nothing from her
uncle, you had better behave honestly, and let her see that you haven’t as
much interest in her as before.’

‘That would be brutality.’

‘It would be honest.’

‘Well, no, it wouldn’t. Strictly speaking, my interest in Marian wouldn’t
suffer at all. I should know that we could be nothing but friends, that’s
all. Hitherto I haven’t known what might come to pass; I don’t know yet.
So far from following your advice, I shall let Marian understand that, if
anything, I am more her friend than ever, seeing that henceforth there can
be no ambiguities.’

‘I can only tell you that Maud would agree with me in what I have been

‘Then both of you have distorted views.’

‘I think not. It’s you who are unprincipled.’

‘My dear girl, haven’t I been showing you that no man could be more
above-board, more straightforward?’

‘You have been talking nonsense, Jasper.’

‘Nonsense? Oh, this female lack of logic! Then my argument has been
utterly thrown away. Now that’s one of the things I like in Miss Rupert;
she can follow an argument and see consequences. And for that matter so
can Marian. I only wish it were possible to refer this question to her.’

There was a tap at the door. Dora called ‘Come in!’ and Marian herself

‘What an odd thing!’ exclaimed Jasper, lowering his voice. ‘I was that
moment saying I wished it were possible to refer a question to you.’

Dora reddened, and stood in an embarrassed attitude.

‘It was the old dispute whether women in general are capable of logic. But
pardon me, Miss Yule; I forget that you have been occupied with sad things
since I last saw you.’

Dora led her to a chair, asking if her father had returned.

‘Yes, he came back yesterday.’

Jasper and his sister could not think it likely that Marian had suffered
much from grief at her uncle’s death; practically John Yule was a stranger
to her. Yet her face bore the signs of acute mental trouble, and it seemed
as if some agitation made it difficult for her to speak. The awkward
silence that fell upon the three was broken by Jasper, who expressed a
regret that he was obliged to take his leave.

‘Maud is becoming a young lady of society,’ he said—just for the
sake of saying something—as he moved towards the door. ‘If she comes
back whilst you are here, Miss Yule, warn her that that is the path of
destruction for literary people.’

‘You should bear that in mind yourself’ remarked Dora, with a significant

‘Oh, I am cool-headed enough to make society serve my own ends.’

Marian turned her head with a sudden movement which was checked before she
had quite looked round to him. The phrase he uttered last appeared to have
affected her in some way; her eyes fell, and an expression of pain was on
her brows for a moment.

‘I can only stay a few minutes,’ she said, bending with a faint smile
towards Dora, as soon as they were alone. ‘I have come on my way from the

‘Where you have tired yourself to death as usual, I can see.’

‘No; I have done scarcely anything. I only pretended to read; my mind is
too much troubled. Have you heard anything about my uncle’s will?’

‘Nothing whatever.’

‘I thought it might have been spoken of in Wattleborough, and some friend
might have written to you. But I suppose there has hardly been time for
that. I shall surprise you very much. Father receives nothing, but I have
a legacy of five thousand pounds.’

Dora kept her eyes down.

‘Then—what do you think?’ continued Marian. ‘My cousin Amy has ten
thousand pounds.’

‘Good gracious! What a difference that will make!’

‘Yes, indeed. And her brother John has six thousand. But nothing to their
mother. There are a good many other legacies, but most of the property
goes to the Wattleborough park—“Yule Park” it will be called—and
to the volunteers, and things of that kind. They say he wasn’t as rich as
people thought.’

‘Do you know what Miss Harrow gets?’

‘She has the house for her life, and fifteen hundred pounds.’

‘And your father nothing whatever?’

‘Nothing. Not a penny. Oh I am so grieved! I think it so unkind, so wrong.
Amy and her brother to have sixteen thousand pounds and father nothing! I
can’t understand it. There was no unkind feeling between him and father.
He knew what a hard life father has had. Doesn’t it seem heartless?’

‘What does your father say?’

‘I think he feels the unkindness more than he does the disappointment; of
course he must have expected something. He came into the room where mother
and I were, and sat down, and began to tell us about the will just as if
he were speaking to strangers about something he had read in the newspaper—that’s
the only way I can describe it. Then he got up and went away into the
study. I waited a little, and then went to him there; he was sitting at
work, as if he hadn’t been away from home at all. I tried to tell him how
sorry I was, but I couldn’t say anything. I began to cry foolishly. He
spoke kindly to me, far more kindly than he has done for a long time; but
he wouldn’t talk about the will, and I had to go away and leave him. Poor
mother! for all she was afraid that we were going to be rich, is
broken-hearted at his disappointment.’

‘Your mother was afraid?’ said Dora.

‘Because she thought herself unfitted for life in a large house, and
feared we should think her in our way.’ She smiled sadly. ‘Poor mother!
she is so humble and so good. I do hope that father will be kinder to her.
But there’s no telling yet what the result of this may be. I feel guilty
when I stand before him.’

‘But he must feel glad that you have five thousand pounds.’

Marian delayed her reply for a moment, her eyes down.

‘Yes, perhaps he is glad of that.’


‘He can’t help thinking, Dora, what use he could have made of it. It has always been his greatest wish to have a literary paper of his own—like
The Study, you know. He would have used the money in that way, I am sure.’

‘But, all the same, he ought to feel pleasure in your good fortune.’

Marian turned to another subject.

‘Think of the Reardons; what a change all at once! What will they do, I
wonder? Surely they won’t continue to live apart?’

‘We shall hear from Jasper.’

Whilst they were discussing the affairs of that branch of the family, Maud
returned. There was ill-humour on her handsome face, and she greeted
Marian but coldly. Throwing off her hat and gloves and mantle she listened
to the repeated story of John Yule’s bequests.

‘But why ever has Mrs Reardon so much more than anyone else?’ she asked.

‘We can only suppose it is because she was the favourite child of the
brother he liked best. Yet at her wedding he gave her nothing, and spoke
contemptuously of her for marrying a literary man.’

‘Fortunate for her poor husband that her uncle was able to forgive her. I
wonder what’s the date of the will? Who knows but he may have rewarded her
for quarrelling with Mr Reardon.’

This excited a laugh.

‘I don’t know when the will was made,’ said Marian. ‘And I don’t know
whether uncle had even heard of the Reardons’ misfortunes. I suppose he
must have done. My cousin John was at the funeral, but not my aunt. I
think it most likely father and John didn’t speak a word to each other.
Fortunately the relatives were lost sight of in the great crowd of
Wattleborough people; there was an enormous procession, of course.’

Maud kept glancing at her sister. The ill-humour had not altogether passed
from her face, but it was now blended with reflectiveness.

A few moments more, and Marian had to hasten home. When she was gone the
sisters looked at each other.

‘Five thousand pounds,’ murmured the elder. ‘I suppose that is considered

‘I suppose so.—He was here when Marian came, but didn’t stay.’

‘Then you’ll take him the news this evening?’

‘Yes,’ replied Dora. Then, after musing, ‘He seemed annoyed that you were
at the Lanes’ again.’

Maud made a movement of indifference.

‘What has been putting you out?’

‘Things were rather stupid. Some people who were to have come didn’t turn
up. And—well, it doesn’t matter.’

She rose and glanced at herself in the little oblong mirror over the

‘Did Jasper ever speak to you of a Miss Rupert?’ asked Dora.

‘Not that I remember.’

‘What do you think? He told me in the calmest way that he didn’t see why
Marian should think of him as anything but the most ordinary friend—said
he had never given her reason to think anything else.’

‘Indeed! And Miss Rupert is someone who has the honour of his preference?’

‘He says she is about thirty, and rather masculine, but a great heiress.
Jasper is shameful!’

‘What do you expect? I consider it is your duty to let Marian know
everything he says. Otherwise you help to deceive her. He has no sense of
honour in such things.’

Dora was so impatient to let her brother have the news that she left the
house as soon as she had had tea on the chance of finding Jasper at home.
She had not gone a dozen yards before she encountered him in person.

‘I was afraid Marian might still be with you,’ he said, laughing. ‘I should have asked the landlady. Well?’

‘We can’t stand talking here. You had better come in.’

He was in too much excitement to wait.

‘Just tell me. What has she?’

Dora walked quickly towards the house, looking annoyed.

‘Nothing at all? Then what has her father?’

‘He has nothing,’ replied his sister, ‘and she has five thousand pounds.’

Jasper walked on with bent head. He said nothing more until he was
upstairs in the sitting-room, where Maud greeted him carelessly.

‘Mrs Reardon anything?’

Dora informed him.

‘What?’ he cried incredulously. ‘Ten thousand? You don’t say so!’

He burst into uproarious laughter.

‘So Reardon is rescued from the slum and the clerk’s desk! Well, I’m glad;
by Jove, I am. I should have liked it better if Marian had had the ten
thousand and he the five, but it’s an excellent joke. Perhaps the next
thing will be that he’ll refuse to have anything to do with his wife’s
money; that would be just like him.’ After amusing himself with this
subject for a few minutes more, he turned to the window and stood there in

‘Are you going to have tea with us?’ Dora inquired.

He did not seem to hear her. On a repetition of the inquiry, he answered

‘Yes, I may as well. Then I can go home and get to work.’

During the remainder of his stay he talked very little, and as Maud also
was in an abstracted mood, tea passed almost in silence. On the point of
departing he asked:

‘When is Marian likely to come here again?’

‘I haven’t the least idea,’ answered Dora.

He nodded, and went his way.

It was necessary for him to work at a magazine article which he had begun
this morning, and on reaching home he spread out his papers in the usual
businesslike fashion. The subject out of which he was manufacturing ‘copy’
had its difficulties, and was not altogether congenial to him; this
morning he had laboured with unwonted effort to produce about a page of
manuscript, and now that he tried to resume the task his thoughts would
not centre upon it. Jasper was too young to have thoroughly mastered the
art of somnambulistic composition; to write, he was still obliged to give
exclusive attention to the matter under treatment. Dr Johnson’s saying,
that a man may write at any time if he will set himself doggedly to it,
was often upon his lips, and had even been of help to him, as no doubt it
has to many another man obliged to compose amid distracting circumstances;
but the formula had no efficacy this evening. Twice or thrice he rose from
his chair, paced the room with a determined brow, and sat down again with
vigorous clutch of the pen; still he failed to excogitate a single
sentence that would serve his purpose.

‘I must have it out with myself before I can do anything,’ was his thought
as he finally abandoned the endeavour. ‘I must make up my mind.’

To this end he settled himself in an easy-chair and began to smoke
cigarettes. Some dozen of these aids to reflection only made him so
nervous that he could no longer remain alone. He put on his hat and
overcoat and went out—to find that it was raining heavily. He
returned for an umbrella, and before long was walking aimlessly about the
Strand, unable to make up his mind whether to turn into a theatre or not.
Instead of doing so, he sought a certain upper room of a familiar
restaurant, where the day’s papers were to be seen, and perchance an
acquaintance might be met. Only half-a-dozen men were there, reading and
smoking, and all were unknown to him. He drank a glass of lager beer,
skimmed the news of the evening, and again went out into the bad weather.

After all it was better to go home. Everything he encountered had an
unsettling effect upon him, so that he was further than ever from the
decision at which he wished to arrive. In Mornington Road he came upon
Whelpdale, who was walking slowly under an umbrella.

‘I’ve just called at your place.’

‘All right; come back if you like.’

‘But perhaps I shall waste your time?’ said Whelpdale, with unusual

Reassured, he gladly returned to the house. Milvain acquainted him with
the fact of John Yule’s death, and with its result so far as it concerned
the Reardons. They talked of how the couple would probably behave under
this decisive change of circumstances.

‘Biffen professes to know nothing about Mrs Reardon,’ said Whelpdale. ‘I
suspect he keeps his knowledge to himself, out of regard for Reardon. It
wouldn’t surprise me if they live apart for a long time yet.’

‘Not very likely. It was only want of money.’

‘They’re not at all suited to each other. Mrs Reardon, no doubt, repents
her marriage bitterly, and I doubt whether Reardon cares much for his

‘As there’s no way of getting divorced they’ll make the best of it. Ten
thousand pounds produce about four hundred a year; it’s enough to live

‘And be miserable on—if they no longer love each other.’

‘You’re such a sentimental fellow!’ cried Jasper. ‘I believe you seriously
think that love—the sort of frenzy you understand by it—ought
to endure throughout married life. How has a man come to your age with
such primitive ideas?’

‘Well, I don’t know. Perhaps you err a little in the opposite direction.’

‘I haven’t much faith in marrying for love, as you know. What’s more, I
believe it’s the very rarest thing for people to be in love with each
other. Reardon and his wife perhaps were an instance; perhaps—I’m
not quite sure about her. As a rule, marriage is the result of a mild
preference, encouraged by circumstances, and deliberately heightened into
strong sexual feeling. You, of all men, know well enough that the same
kind of feeling could be produced for almost any woman who wasn’t

‘The same kind of feeling; but there’s vast difference of degree.’

‘To be sure. I think it’s only a matter of degree. When it rises to the
point of frenzy people may strictly be said to be in love; and, as I tell
you, I think that comes to pass very rarely indeed. For my own part, I
have no experience of it, and think I never shall have.’

‘I can’t say the same.’

They laughed.

‘I dare say you have imagined yourself in love—or really been so for
aught I know—a dozen times. How the deuce you can attach any
importance to such feeling where marriage is concerned I don’t

‘Well, now,’ said Whelpdale, ‘I have never upheld the theory—at
least not since I was sixteen—that a man can be in love only once,
or that there is one particular woman if he misses whom he can never be
happy. There may be thousands of women whom I could love with equal

‘I object to the word “love” altogether. It has been vulgarised. Let us
talk about compatibility. Now, I should say that, no doubt, and speaking
scientifically, there is one particular woman supremely fitted to each
man. I put aside consideration of circumstances; we know that
circumstances will disturb any degree of abstract fitness. But in the
nature of things there must be one woman whose nature is specially well
adapted to harmonise with mine, or with yours. If there were any means of
discovering this woman in each case, then I have no doubt it would be
worth a man’s utmost effort to do so, and any amount of erotic jubilation
would be reasonable when the discovery was made. But the thing is
impossible, and, what’s more, we know what ridiculous fallibility people
display when they imagine they have found the best substitute for that
indiscoverable. This is what makes me impatient with sentimental talk
about marriage. An educated man mustn’t play so into the hands of ironic
destiny. Let him think he wants to marry a woman; but don’t let him
exaggerate his feelings or idealise their nature.’

‘There’s a good deal in all that,’ admitted Whelpdale, though

‘There’s more than a good deal; there’s the last word on the subject. The
days of romantic love are gone by. The scientific spirit has put an end to
that kind of self-deception. Romantic love was inextricably blended with
all sorts of superstitions—belief in personal immortality, in
superior beings, in—all the rest of it. What we think of now is
moral and intellectual and physical compatibility; I mean, if we are
reasonable people.’

‘And if we are not so unfortunate as to fall in love with an
incompatible,’ added Whelpdale, laughing.

‘Well, that is a form of unreason—a blind desire which science could
explain in each case. I rejoice that I am not subject to that form of

‘You positively never were in love!’

‘As you understand it, never. But I have felt a very distinct preference.’

‘Based on what you think compatibility?’

‘Yes. Not strong enough to make me lose sight of prudence and advantage.
No, not strong enough for that.’

He seemed to be reassuring himself.

‘Then of course that can’t be called love,’ said Whelpdale.

‘Perhaps not. But, as I told you, a preference of this kind can be
heightened into emotion, if one chooses. In the case of which I am
thinking it easily might be. And I think it very improbable indeed that I
should repent it if anything led me to indulge such an impulse.’

Whelpdale smiled.

‘This is very interesting. I hope it may lead to something.’

‘I don’t think it will. I am far more likely to marry some woman for whom
I have no preference, but who can serve me materially.’

‘I confess that amazes me. I know the value of money as well as you do,
but I wouldn’t marry a rich woman for whom I had no preference. By Jove,

‘Yes, yes. You are a consistent sentimentalist.’

‘Doomed to perpetual disappointment,’ said the other, looking
disconsolately about the room.

‘Courage, my boy! I have every hope that I shall see you marry and

‘I admit the danger of that. But shall I tell you something I have
observed? Each woman I fall in love with is of a higher type than the one

Jasper roared irreverently, and his companion looked hurt.

‘But I am perfectly serious, I assure you. To go back only three or four
years. There was the daughter of my landlady in Barham Street; well, a
nice girl enough, but limited, decidedly limited.

Next came that girl at the stationer’s—you remember? She was
distinctly an advance, both in mind and person. Then there was Miss
Embleton; yes, I think she made again an advance. She had been at Bedford
College, you know, and was really a girl of considerable attainments;
morally, admirable. Afterwards—’

He paused.

‘The maiden from Birmingham, wasn’t it?’ said Jasper, again exploding.

‘Yes, it was. Well, I can’t be quite sure. But in many respects that girl
was my ideal; she really was.’

‘As you once or twice told me at the time.’

‘I really believe she would rank above Miss Embleton—at all events
from my point of view. And that’s everything, you know. It’s the effect a
woman produces on one that has to be considered.’

‘The next should be a paragon,’ said Jasper.

‘The next?’

Whelpdale again looked about the room, but added nothing, and fell into a
long silence.

When left to himself Jasper walked about a little, then sat down at his
writing-table, for he felt easier in mind, and fancied that he might still
do a couple of hours’ work before going to bed. He did in fact write
half-a-dozen lines, but with the effort came back his former mood. Very
soon the pen dropped, and he was once more in the throes of anxious mental

He sat till after midnight, and when he went to his bedroom it was with a
lingering step, which proved him still a prey to indecision.



Alfred Yule’s behaviour under his disappointment seemed to prove that even
for him the uses of adversity could be sweet. On the day after his return
home he displayed a most unwonted mildness in such remarks as he addressed
to his wife, and his bearing towards Marian was gravely gentle. At meals
he conversed, or rather monologised, on literary topics, with occasionally
one of his grim jokes, pointed for Marian’s appreciation. He became aware
that the girl had been overtaxing her strength of late, and suggested a
few weeks of recreation among new novels. The coldness and gloom which had
possessed him when he made a formal announcement of the news appeared to
have given way before the sympathy manifested by his wife and daughter; he
was now sorrowful, but resigned.

He explained to Marian the exact nature of her legacy. It was to be paid
out of her uncle’s share in a wholesale stationery business, with which
John Yule had been connected for the last twenty years, but from which he
had not long ago withdrawn a large portion of his invested capital. This
house was known as ‘Turberville & Co.,’ a name which Marian now heard
for the first time.

‘I knew nothing of his association with them,’ said her father. ‘They tell
me that seven or eight thousand pounds will be realised from that source;
it seems a pity that the investment was not left to you intact. Whether
there will be any delay in withdrawing the money I can’t say.’

The executors were two old friends of the deceased, one of them a former
partner in his paper-making concern.

On the evening of the second day, about an hour after dinner was over, Mr
Hinks called at the house; as usual, he went into the study. Before long
came a second visitor, Mr Quarmby, who joined Yule and Hinks. The three
had all sat together for some time, when Marian, who happened to be coming
down stairs, saw her father at the study door.

‘Ask your mother to let us have some supper at a quarter to ten,’ he said
urbanely. ‘And come in, won’t you? We are only gossiping.’

It had not often happened that Marian was invited to join parties of this

‘Do you wish me to come?’ she asked.

‘Yes, I should like you to, if you have nothing particular to do.’

Marian informed Mrs Yule that the visitors would have supper, and then
went to the study. Mr Quarmby was smoking a pipe; Mr Hinks, who on grounds
of economy had long since given up tobacco, sat with his hands in his
trouser pockets, and his long, thin legs tucked beneath the chair; both
rose and greeted Marian with more than ordinary warmth.

‘Will you allow me five or six more puffs?’ asked Mr Quarmby, laying one
hand on his ample stomach and elevating his pipe as if it were a glass of
beaded liquor. ‘I shall then have done.’

‘As many more as you like,’ Marian replied.

The easiest chair was placed for her, Mr Hinks hastening to perform this
courtesy, and her father apprised her of the topic they were discussing.

‘What’s your view, Marian? Is there anything to be said for the
establishment of a literary academy in England?’

Mr Quarmby beamed benevolently upon her, and Mr Hinks, his scraggy neck at
full length, awaited her reply with a look of the most respectful

‘I really think we have quite enough literary quarrelling as it is,’ the
girl replied, casting down her eyes and smiling.

Mr Quarmby uttered a hollow chuckle, Mr Hinks laughed thinly and
exclaimed, ‘Very good indeed! Very good!’ Yule affected to applaud with
impartial smile.

‘It wouldn’t harmonise with the Anglo-Saxon spirit,’ remarked Mr Hinks,
with an air of diffident profundity.

Yule held forth on the subject for a few minutes in laboured phrases.
Presently the conversation turned to periodicals, and the three men were
unanimous in an opinion that no existing monthly or quarterly could be
considered as representing the best literary opinion.

‘We want,’ remarked Mr Quarmby, ‘we want a monthly review which shall deal
exclusively with literature. The Fortnightly, the Contemporary—they
are very well in their way, but then they are mere miscellanies. You will
find one solid literary article amid a confused mass of politics and
economics and general clap-trap.’

‘Articles on the currency and railway statistics and views of evolution,’
said Mr Hinks, with a look as if something were grating between his teeth.

‘The quarterlies?’ put in Yule. ‘Well, the original idea of the
quarterlies was that there are not enough important books published to
occupy solid reviewers more than four times a year. That may be true, but
then a literary monthly would include much more than professed reviews.
Hinks’s essays on the historical drama would have come out in it very
well; or your “Spanish Poets,” Quarmby.’

‘I threw out the idea to Jedwood the other day,’ said Mr Quarmby, ‘and he
seemed to nibble at it.’

‘Yes, yes,’ came from Yule; ‘but Jedwood has so many irons in the fire. I
doubt if he has the necessary capital at command just now. No doubt he’s
the man, if some capitalist would join him.’

‘No enormous capital needed,’ opined Mr Quarmby. ‘The thing would pay its
way almost from the first. It would take a place between the literary
weeklies and the quarterlies. The former are too academic, the latter too
massive, for multitudes of people who yet have strong literary tastes.
Foreign publications should be liberally dealt with. But, as Hinks says,
no meddling with the books that are no books—biblia abiblia; nothing
about essays on bimetallism and treatises for or against vaccination.’

Even here, in the freedom of a friend’s study, he laughed his Reading-room
laugh, folding both hands upon his expansive waistcoat.

‘Fiction? I presume a serial of the better kind might be admitted?’ said

‘That would be advisable, no doubt. But strictly of the better kind.’

‘Oh, strictly of the better kind,’ chimed in Mr Hinks.

They pursued the discussion as if they were an editorial committee
planning a review of which the first number was shortly to appear. It
occupied them until Mrs Yule announced at the door that supper was ready.

During the meal Marian found herself the object of unusual attention; her
father troubled to inquire if the cut of cold beef he sent her was to her
taste, and kept an eye on her progress. Mr Hinks talked to her in a tone
of respectful sympathy, and Mr Quarmby was paternally jovial when he
addressed her. Mrs Yule would have kept silence, in her ordinary way, but
this evening her husband made several remarks which he had adapted to her
intellect, and even showed that a reply would be graciously received.

Mother and daughter remained together when the men withdrew to their
tobacco and toddy. Neither made allusion to the wonderful change, but they
talked more light-heartedly than for a long time.

On the morrow Yule began by consulting Marian with regard to the
disposition of matter in an essay he was writing. What she said he weighed
carefully, and seemed to think that she had set his doubts at rest.

‘Poor old Hinks!’ he said presently, with a sigh. ‘Breaking up, isn’t he?
He positively totters in his walk. I’m afraid he’s the kind of man to have
a paralytic stroke; it wouldn’t astonish me to hear at any moment that he
was lying helpless.’

‘What ever would become of him in that case?’

‘Goodness knows! One might ask the same of so many of us. What would
become of me, for instance, if I were incapable of work?’

Marian could make no reply.

‘There’s something I’ll just mention to you,’ he went on in a lowered
tone, ‘though I don’t wish you to take it too seriously. I’m beginning to
have a little trouble with my eyes.’

She looked at him, startled.

‘With your eyes?’

‘Nothing, I hope; but—well, I think I shall see an oculist. One
doesn’t care to face a prospect of failing sight, perhaps of cataract, or
something of that kind; still, it’s better to know the facts, I should

‘By all means go to an oculist,’ said Marian, earnestly.

‘Don’t disturb yourself about it. It may be nothing at all. But in any
case I must change my glasses.’

He rustled over some slips of manuscript, whilst Marian regarded him

‘Now, I appeal to you, Marian,’ he continued: ‘could I possibly save money
out of an income that has never exceeded two hundred and fifty pounds, and
often—I mean even in latter years—has been much less?’

‘I don’t see how you could.’

‘In one way, of course, I have managed it. My life is insured for five
hundred pounds. But that is no provision for possible disablement. If I
could no longer earn money with my pen, what would become of me?’

Marian could have made an encouraging reply, but did not venture to utter
her thoughts.

‘Sit down,’ said her father. ‘You are not to work for a few days, and I
myself shall be none the worse for a morning’s rest. Poor old Hinks! I
suppose we shall help him among us, somehow. Quarmby, of course, is
comparatively flourishing. Well, we have been companions for a quarter of
a century, we three. When I first met Quarmby I was a Grub Street
gazetteer, and I think he was even poorer than I. A life of toil! A life
of toil!’

‘That it has been, indeed.’

‘By-the-bye’—he threw an arm over the back of his chair—‘what
did you think of our imaginary review, the thing we were talking about
last night?’

‘There are so many periodicals,’ replied Marian, doubtfully.

‘So many? My dear child, if we live another ten years we shall see the
number trebled.’

‘Is it desirable?’

‘That there should be such growth of periodicals? Well, from one point of
view, no. No doubt they take up the time which some people would give to
solid literature. But, on the other hand, there’s a far greater number of
people who would probably not read at all, but for the temptations of
these short and new articles; and they may be induced to pass on to
substantial works. Of course it all depends on the quality of the
periodical matter you offer. Now, magazines like’—he named two or
three of popular stamp—‘might very well be dispensed with, unless
one regards them as an alternative to the talking of scandal or any other
vicious result of total idleness. But such a monthly as we projected would
be of distinct literary value. There can be no doubt that someone or other
will shortly establish it.’

‘I am afraid,’ said Marian, ‘I haven’t so much sympathy with literary
undertakings as you would like me to have.’

Money is a great fortifier of self-respect. Since she had become really
conscious of her position as the owner of five thousand pounds, Marian
spoke with a steadier voice, walked with firmer step; mentally she felt
herself altogether a less dependent being. She might have confessed this
lukewarmness towards literary enterprise in the anger which her father
excited eight or nine days ago, but at that time she could not have
uttered her opinion calmly, deliberately, as now. The smile which
accompanied the words was also new; it signified deliverance from

‘I have felt that,’ returned her father, after a slight pause to command
his voice, that it might be suave instead of scornful. ‘I greatly fear
that I have made your life something of a martyrdom——’

‘Don’t think I meant that, father. I am speaking only of the general
question. I can’t be quite so zealous as you are, that’s all. I love
books, but I could wish people were content for a while with those we
already have.’

‘My dear Marian, don’t suppose that I am out of sympathy with you here.
Alas! how much of my work has been mere drudgery, mere labouring for a
livelihood! How gladly I would have spent much more of my time among the
great authors, with no thought of making money of them! If I speak
approvingly of a scheme for a new periodical, it is greatly because of my

He paused and looked at her. Marian returned the look.

‘You would of course write for it,’ she said.

‘Marian, why shouldn’t I edit it? Why shouldn’t it be your property?’

‘My property—?’

She checked a laugh. There came into her mind a more disagreeable
suspicion than she had ever entertained of her father. Was this the
meaning of his softened behaviour? Was he capable of calculated hypocrisy?
That did not seem consistent with his character, as she knew it.

‘Let us talk it over,’ said Yule. He was in visible agitation and his
voice shook. ‘The idea may well startle you at first. It will seem to you
that I propose to make away with your property before you have even come
into possession of it.’ He laughed. ‘But, in fact, what I have in mind is
merely an investment for your capital, and that an admirable one. Five
thousand pounds at three per cent.—one doesn’t care to reckon on
more—represents a hundred and fifty a year. Now, there can be very
little doubt that, if it were invested in literary property such as I have
in mind, it would bring you five times that interest, and before long
perhaps much more. Of course I am now speaking in the roughest outline. I
should have to get trustworthy advice; complete and detailed estimates
would be submitted to you. At present I merely suggest to you this form of

He watched her face eagerly, greedily. When Marian’s eyes rose to his he
looked away.

‘Then, of course,’ she said, ‘you don’t expect me to give any decided

‘Of course not—of course not. I merely put before you the chief
advantages of such an investment. As I am a selfish old fellow, I’ll talk
about the benefit to myself first of all. I should be editor of the new
review; I should draw a stipend sufficient to all my needs—quite
content, at first, to take far less than another man would ask, and to
progress with the advance of the periodical. This position would enable me
to have done with mere drudgery; I should only write when I felt called to
do so—when the spirit moved me.’ Again he laughed, as though
desirous of keeping his listener in good humour. ‘My eyes would be greatly
spared henceforth.’

He dwelt on that point, waiting its effect on Marian. As she said nothing
he proceeded:

‘And suppose I really were doomed to lose my sight in the course of a few
years, am I wrong in thinking that the proprietor of this periodical would
willingly grant a small annuity to the man who had firmly established it?’

‘I see the force of all that,’ said Marian; ‘but it takes for granted that
the periodical will be successful.’

‘It does. In the hands of a publisher like Jedwood—a vigorous man of
the new school—its success could scarcely be doubtful.’

‘Do you think five thousand pounds would be enough to start such a

‘Well, I can say nothing definite on that point. For one thing, the coat
must be made according to the cloth; expenditure can be largely controlled
without endangering success. Then again, I think Jedwood would take a
share in the venture. These are details. At present I only want to
familiarise you with the thought that an investment of this sort will very
probably offer itself to you.’

‘It would be better if we called it a speculation,’ said Marian, smiling

Her one object at present was to oblige her father to understand that the
suggestion by no means lured her. She could not tell him that what he
proposed was out of the question, though as yet that was the light in
which she saw it. His subtlety of approach had made her feel justified in
dealing with him in a matter-of-fact way. He must see that she was not to
be cajoled. Obviously, and in the nature of the case, he was urging a
proposal in which he himself had all faith; but Marian knew his judgment
was far from infallible. It mitigated her sense of behaving unkindly to
reflect that in all likelihood this disposal of her money would be the
worst possible for her own interests, and therefore for his. If, indeed,
his dark forebodings were warranted, then upon her would fall the care of
him, and the steadiness with which she faced that responsibility came from
a hope of which she could not speak.

‘Name it as you will,’ returned her father, hardly suppressing a note of
irritation. ‘True, every commercial enterprise is a speculation. But let
me ask you one question, and beg you to reply frankly. Do you distrust my
ability to conduct this periodical?’

She did. She knew that he was not in touch with the interests of the day,
and that all manner of considerations akin to the prime end of selling his
review would make him an untrustworthy editor.

But how could she tell him this?

‘My opinion would be worthless,’ she replied.

‘If Jedwood were disposed to put confidence in me, you also would?’

‘There’s no need to talk of that now, father. Indeed, I can’t say anything
that would sound like a promise.’

He flashed a glance at her. Then she was more than doubtful?

‘But you have no objection, Marian, to talk in a friendly way of a project
that would mean so much to me?’

‘But I am afraid to encourage you,’ she replied, frankly. ‘It is
impossible for me to say whether I can do as you wish, or not.’

‘Yes, yes; I perfectly understand that. Heaven forbid that I should regard
you as a child to be led independently of your own views and wishes! With
so large a sum of money at stake, it would be monstrous if I acted rashly,
and tried to persuade you to do the same. The matter will have to be most
gravely considered.’

‘Yes.’ She spoke mechanically.

‘But if only it should come to something! You don’t know what it would
mean to me, Marian.’

‘Yes, father; I know very well how you think and feel about it.’

‘Do you?’ He leaned forward, his features working under stress of emotion.
‘If I could see myself the editor of an influential review, all my bygone
toils and sufferings would be as nothing; I should rejoice in them as the
steps to this triumph. Meminisse juvabit! My dear, I am not a man fitted
for subordinate places. My nature is framed for authority. The failure of
all my undertakings rankles so in my heart that sometimes I feel capable
of every brutality, every meanness, every hateful cruelty. To you I have
behaved shamefully. Don’t interrupt me, Marian. I have treated you
abominably, my child, my dear daughter—and all the time with a full
sense of what I was doing. That’s the punishment of faults such as mine. I
hate myself for every harsh word and angry look I have given you; at the
time, I hated myself!’


‘No, no; let me speak, Marian. You have forgiven me; I know it. You were
always ready to forgive, dear. Can I ever forget that evening when I spoke
like a brute, and you came afterwards and addressed me as if the wrong had
been on your side? It burns in my memory. It wasn’t I who spoke; it was
the demon of failure, of humiliation. My enemies sit in triumph, and scorn
at me; the thought of it is infuriating. Have I deserved this? Am I the
inferior of—of those men who have succeeded and now try to trample
on me? No! I am not! I have a better brain and a better heart!’

Listening to this strange outpouring, Marian more than forgave the
hypocrisy of the last day or two. Nay, could it be called hypocrisy? It
was only his better self declared at the impulse of a passionate hope.

‘Why should you think so much of these troubles, father? Is it such a
great matter that narrow-minded people triumph over you?’

‘Narrow-minded?’ He clutched at the word. ‘You admit they are that?’

‘I feel very sure that Mr Fadge is.’

‘Then you are not on his side against me?’

‘How could you suppose such a thing?’

‘Well, well; we won’t talk of that. Perhaps it isn’t a great matter. No—from
a philosophical point of view, such things are unspeakably petty. But I am
not much of a philosopher.’ He laughed, with a break in his voice. ‘Defeat
in life is defeat, after all; and unmerited failure is a bitter curse. You
see, I am not too old to do something yet. My sight is failing, but I can
take care of it. If I had my own review, I would write every now and then
a critical paper in my very best style. You remember poor old Hinks’s note
about me in his book? We laughed at it, but he wasn’t so far wrong. I have
many of those qualities. A man is conscious of his own merits as well as
of his defects. I have done a few admirable things. You remember my paper
on Lord Herbert of Cherbury? No one ever wrote a more subtle piece of
criticism; but it was swept aside among the rubbish of the magazines. And
it’s just because of my pungent phrases that I have excited so much
enmity. Wait! Wait! Let me have my own review, and leisure, and
satisfaction of mind—heavens! what I will write! How I will

‘That is unworthy of you. How much better to ignore your enemies!
In such a position, I should carefully avoid every word that betrayed
personal feeling.’

‘Well, well; you are of course right, my good girl. And I believe I should
do injustice to myself if I made you think that those ignoble motives are
the strongest in me. No; it isn’t so. From my boyhood I have had a
passionate desire of literary fame, deep down below all the surface faults
of my character. The best of my life has gone by, and it drives me to
despair when I feel that I have not gained the position due to me. There
is only one way of doing this now, and that is by becoming the editor of
an important periodical. Only in that way shall I succeed in forcing
people to pay attention to my claims. Many a man goes to his grave
unrecognised, just because he has never had a fair judgment. Nowadays it
is the unscrupulous men of business who hold the attention of the public;
they blow their trumpets so loudly that the voices of honest men have no
chance of being heard.’

Marian was pained by the humility of his pleading with her—for what
was all this but an endeavour to move her sympathies?—and by the
necessity she was under of seeming to turn a deaf ear. She believed that
there was some truth in his estimate of his own powers; though as an
editor he would almost certainly fail, as a man of letters he had probably
done far better work than some who had passed him by on their way to
popularity. Circumstances might enable her to assist him, though not in
the way he proposed. The worst of it was that she could not let him see
what was in her mind. He must think that she was simply balancing her own
satisfaction against his, when in truth she suffered from the conviction
that to yield would be as unwise in regard to her father’s future as it
would be perilous to her own prospect of happiness.

‘Shall we leave this to be talked of when the money has been paid over to
me?’ she said, after a silence.

‘Yes. Don’t suppose I wish to influence you by dwelling on my own
hardships. That would be contemptible. I have only taken this opportunity
of making myself better known to you. I don’t readily talk of myself and
in general my real feelings are hidden by the faults of my temper. In
suggesting how you could do me a great service, and at the same time reap
advantage for yourself I couldn’t but remember how little reason you have
to think kindly of me. But we will postpone further talk. You will think
over what I have said?’

Marian promised that she would, and was glad to bring the conversation to
an end.

When Sunday came, Yule inquired of his daughter if she had any engagement
for the afternoon.

‘Yes, I have,’ she replied, with an effort to disguise her embarrassment.

‘I’m sorry. I thought of asking you to come with me to Quarmby’s. Shall
you be away through the evening?’

‘Till about nine o’clock, I think.’

‘Ah! Never mind, never mind.’

He tried to dismiss the matter as if it were of no moment, but Marian saw
the shadow that passed over his countenance. This was just after
breakfast. For the remainder of the morning she did not meet him, and at
the mid-day dinner he was silent, though he brought no book to the table
with him, as he was wont to do when in his dark moods. Marian talked with
her mother, doing her best to preserve the appearance of cheerfulness
which was natural since the change in Yule’s demeanour.

She chanced to meet her father in the passage just as she was going out.
He smiled (it was more like a grin of pain) and nodded, but said nothing.

When the front door closed, he went into the parlour. Mrs Yule was
reading, or, at all events, turning over a volume of an illustrated

‘Where do you suppose she has gone?’ he asked, in a voice which was only
distant, not offensive.

‘To the Miss Milvains, I believe,’ Mrs Yule answered, looking aside.

‘Did she tell you so?’

‘No. We don’t talk about it.’

He seated himself on the corner of a chair and bent forward, his chin in
his hand.

‘Has she said anything to you about the review?’

‘Not a word.’

She glanced at him timidly, and turned a few pages of her book.

‘I wanted her to come to Quarmby’s, because there’ll be a man there who is
anxious that Jedwood should start a magazine, and it would be useful for
her to hear practical opinions. There’d be no harm if you just spoke to
her about it now and then. Of course if she has made up her mind to refuse
me it’s no use troubling myself any more. I should think you might find
out what’s really going on.’

Only dire stress of circumstances could have brought Alfred Yule to make
distinct appeal for his wife’s help. There was no underhand plotting
between them to influence their daughter; Mrs Yule had as much desire for
the happiness of her husband as for that of Marian, but she felt powerless
to effect anything on either side.

‘If ever she says anything, I’ll let you know.’

‘But it seems to me that you have a right to question her.’

‘I can’t do that, Alfred.’

‘Unfortunately, there are a good many things you can’t do.’ With that
remark, familiar to his wife in substance, though the tone of it was less
caustic than usual, he rose and sauntered from the room. He spent a gloomy
hour in the study, then went off to join the literary circle at Mr


Occasionally Milvain met his sisters as they came out of church on Sunday
morning, and walked home to have dinner with them. He did so to-day,
though the sky was cheerless and a strong north-west wind made it anything
but agreeable to wait about in open spaces.

‘Are you going to Mrs Wright’s this afternoon?’ he asked, as they went on

‘I thought of going,’ replied Maud. ‘Marian will be with Dora.’

‘You ought both to go. You mustn’t neglect that woman.’

He said nothing more just then, but when presently he was alone with Dora
in the sitting-room for a few minutes, he turned with a peculiar smile and
remarked quietly:

‘I think you had better go with Maud this afternoon.’

‘But I can’t. I expect Marian at three.’

‘That’s just why I want you to go.’

She looked her surprise.

‘I want to have a talk with Marian. We’ll manage it in this way. At a
quarter to three you two shall start, and as you go out you can tell the
landlady that if Miss Yule comes she is to wait for you, as you won’t be
long. She’ll come upstairs, and I shall be there. You see?’

Dora turned half away, disturbed a little, but not displeased.

‘And what about Miss Rupert?’ she asked.

‘Oh, Miss Rupert may go to Jericho for all I care. I’m in a magnanimous

‘Very, I’ve no doubt.’

‘Well, you’ll do this? One of the results of poverty, you see; one can’t
even have a private conversation with a friend without plotting to get the
use of a room. But there shall be an end of this state of things.’

He nodded significantly. Thereupon Dora left the room to speak with her

The device was put into execution, and Jasper saw his sisters depart
knowing that they were not likely to return for some three hours. He
seated himself comfortably by the fire and mused. Five minutes had hardly
gone by when he looked at his watch, thinking Marian must be unpunctual.
He was nervous, though he had believed himself secure against such
weakness. His presence here with the purpose he had in his mind seemed to
him distinctly a concession to impulses he ought to have controlled; but
to this resolve he had come, and it was now too late to recommence the
arguments with himself. Too late? Well, not strictly so; he had committed
himself to nothing; up to the last moment of freedom he could always—

That was doubtless Marian’s knock at the front door. He jumped up, walked
the length of the room, sat down on another chair, returned to his former
seat. Then the door opened and Marian came in.

She was not surprised; the landlady had mentioned to her that Mr Milvain
was upstairs, waiting the return of his sisters.

‘I am to make Dora’s excuses,’ Jasper said. ‘She begged you would forgive
her—that you would wait.’

‘Oh yes.’

‘And you were to be sure to take off your hat,’ he added in a laughing
tone; ‘and to let me put your umbrella in the corner—like that.’

He had always admired the shape of Marian’s head, and the beauty of her
short, soft, curly hair. As he watched her uncovering it, he was pleased
with the grace of her arms and the pliancy of her slight figure.

‘Which is usually your chair?’

‘I’m sure I don’t know.’

‘When one goes to see a friend frequently, one gets into regular habits in
these matters. In Biffen’s garret I used to have the most uncomfortable
chair it was ever my lot to sit upon; still, I came to feel an affection
for it. At Reardon’s I always had what was supposed to be the most
luxurious seat, but it was too small for me, and I eyed it resentfully on
sitting down and rising.’

‘Have you any news about the Reardons?’

‘Yes. I am told that Reardon has had the offer of a secretaryship to a
boys’ home, or something of the kind, at Croydon. But I suppose there’ll
be no need for him to think of that now.’

‘Surely not!’

‘Oh there’s no saying.’

‘Why should he do work of that kind now?’

‘Perhaps his wife will tell him that she wants her money all for herself.’

Marian laughed. It was very rarely that Jasper had heard her laugh at all,
and never so spontaneously as this. He liked the music.

‘You haven’t a very good opinion of Mrs Reardon,’ she said.

‘She is a difficult person to judge. I never disliked her, by any means;
but she was decidedly out of place as the wife of a struggling author.
Perhaps I have been a little prejudiced against her since Reardon
quarrelled with me on her account.’

Marian was astonished at this unlooked-for explanation of the rupture
between Milvain and his friend. That they had not seen each other for some
months she knew from Jasper himself but no definite cause had been

‘I may as well let you know all about it,’ Milvain continued, seeing that
he had disconcerted the girl, as he meant to. ‘I met Reardon not long
after they had parted, and he charged me with being in great part the
cause of his troubles.’

The listener did not raise her eyes.

‘You would never imagine what my fault was. Reardon declared that the tone
of my conversation had been morally injurious to his wife. He said I was
always glorifying worldly success, and that this had made her discontented
with her lot. Sounds rather ludicrous, don’t you think?’

‘It was very strange.’

‘Reardon was in desperate earnest, poor fellow. And, to tell you the
truth, I fear there may have been something in his complaint.

I told him at once that I should henceforth keep away from Mrs Edmund
Yule’s; and so I have done, with the result, of course, that they suppose
I condemn Mrs Reardon’s behaviour. The affair was a nuisance, but I had no
choice, I think.’

‘You say that perhaps your talk really was harmful to her.’

‘It may have been, though such a danger never occurred to me.’

‘Then Amy must be very weak-minded.’

‘To be influenced by such a paltry fellow?’

‘To be influenced by anyone in such a way.’

‘You think the worse of me for this story?’ Jasper asked.

‘I don’t quite understand it. How did you talk to her?’

‘As I talk to everyone. You have heard me say the same things many a time.
I simply declare my opinion that the end of literary work—unless one
is a man of genius—is to secure comfort and repute. This doesn’t
seem to me very scandalous. But Mrs Reardon was perhaps too urgent in
repeating such views to her husband. She saw that in my case they were
likely to have solid results, and it was a misery to her that Reardon
couldn’t or wouldn’t work in the same practical way.

‘It was very unfortunate.’

‘And you are inclined to blame me?’

‘No; because I am so sure that you only spoke in the way natural to you,
without a thought of such consequences.’

Jasper smiled.

‘That’s precisely the truth. Nearly all men who have their way to make
think as I do, but most feel obliged to adopt a false tone, to talk about
literary conscientiousness, and so on. I simply say what I think, with no
pretences. I should like to be conscientious, but it’s a luxury I can’t
afford. I’ve told you all this often enough, you know.’


‘But it hasn’t been morally injurious to you,’ he said with a laugh.

‘Not at all. Still I don’t like it.’

Jasper was startled. He gazed at her. Ought he, then, to have dealt with
her less frankly? Had he been mistaken in thinking that the unusual
openness of his talk was attractive to her? She spoke with quite
unaccustomed decision; indeed, he had noticed from her entrance that there
was something unfamiliar in her way of conversing. She was so much more
self-possessed than of wont, and did not seem to treat him with the same
deference, the same subdual of her own personality.

‘You don’t like it?’ he repeated calmly. ‘It has become rather tiresome to

‘I feel sorry that you should always represent yourself in an unfavourable

He was an acute man, but the self-confidence with which he had entered
upon this dialogue, his conviction that he had but to speak when he wished
to receive assurance of Marian’s devotion, prevented him from
understanding the tone of independence she had suddenly adopted. With more
modesty he would have felt more subtly at this juncture, would have
divined that the girl had an exquisite pleasure in drawing back now that
she saw him approaching her with unmistakable purpose, that she wished to
be wooed in less off-hand fashion before confessing what was in her heart.
For the moment he was disconcerted. Those last words of hers had a slight
tone of superiority, the last thing he would have expected upon her lips.

‘Yet I surely haven’t always appeared so—to you?’ he said.

‘No, not always.’

‘But you are in doubt concerning the real man?’

‘I’m not sure that I understand you. You say that you do really think as
you speak.’

‘So I do. I think that there is no choice for a man who can’t bear
poverty. I have never said, though, that I had pleasure in mean
necessities; I accept them because I can’t help it.’

It was a delight to Marian to observe the anxiety with which he turned to
self-defence. Never in her life had she felt this joy of holding a
position of command. It was nothing to her that Jasper valued her more
because of her money; impossible for it to be otherwise. Satisfied that he
did value her, to begin with, for her own sake, she was very willing to
accept money as her ally in the winning of his love. He scarcely loved her
yet, as she understood the feeling, but she perceived her power over him,
and passion taught her how to exert it.

‘But you resign yourself very cheerfully to the necessity,’ she said,
looking at him with merely intellectual eyes.

‘You had rather I lamented my fate in not being able to devote myself to
nobly unremunerative work?’

There was a note of irony here. It caused her a tremor, but she held her

‘That you never do so would make one think—but I won’t speak

‘That I neither care for good work nor am capable of it,’ Jasper finished
her sentence. ‘I shouldn’t have thought it would make you think so.’

Instead of replying she turned her look towards the door. There was a
footstep on the stairs, but it passed.

‘I thought it might be Dora,’ she said.

‘She won’t be here for another couple of hours at least,’ replied Jasper
with a slight smile.

‘But you said—?’

‘I sent her to Mrs Boston Wright’s that I might have an opportunity of
talking to you. Will you forgive the stratagem?’

Marian resumed her former attitude, the faintest smile hovering about her

‘I’m glad there’s plenty of time,’ he continued. ‘I begin to suspect that
you have been misunderstanding me of late. I must set that right.’

‘I don’t think I have misunderstood you.’

‘That may mean something very disagreeable. I know that some people whom I
esteem have a very poor opinion of me, but I can’t allow you to be one of
them. What do I seem to you? What is the result on your mind of all our

‘I have already told you.’

‘Not seriously. Do you believe I am capable of generous feeling?’

‘To say no, would be to put you in the lowest class of men, and that a
very small one.’

‘Good! Then I am not among the basest. But that doesn’t
give me very distinguished claims upon your consideration. Whatever I am,
I am high in some of my ambitions.’

‘Which of them?’

‘For instance, I have been daring enough to hope that you might love me.’

Marian delayed for a moment, then said quietly:

‘Why do you call that daring?’

‘Because I have enough of old-fashioned thought to believe that a woman
who is worthy of a man’s love is higher than he, and condescends in giving
herself to him.’

His voice was not convincing; the phrase did not sound natural on his
lips. It was not thus that she had hoped to hear him speak. Whilst he
expressed himself thus conventionally he did not love her as she desired
to be loved.

‘I don’t hold that view,’ she said.

‘It doesn’t surprise me. You are very reserved on all subjects, and we
have never spoken of this, but of course I know that your thought is never
commonplace. Hold what view you like of woman’s position, that doesn’t
affect mine.’

‘Is yours commonplace, then?’

‘Desperately. Love is a very old and common thing, and I believe I love
you in the old and common way. I think you beautiful, you seem to me
womanly in the best sense, full of charm and sweetness. I know myself a
coarse being in comparison. All this has been felt and said in the same
way by men infinite in variety. Must I find some new expression before you
can believe me?’

Marian kept silence.

‘I know what you are thinking,’ he said. ‘The thought is as inevitable as
my consciousness of it.’

For an instant she looked at him.

‘Yes, you look the thought. Why have I not spoken to you in this way
before? Why have I waited until you are obliged to suspect my sincerity?’

‘My thought is not so easily read, then,’ said Marian.

‘To be sure it hasn’t a gross form, but I know you wish—whatever
your real feeling towards me—that I had spoken a fortnight ago. You
would wish that of any man in my position, merely because it is painful to
you to see a possible insincerity. Well, I am not insincere. I have
thought of you as of no other woman for some time. But—yes, you
shall have the plain, coarse truth, which is good in its way, no doubt. I
was afraid to say that I loved you. You don’t flinch; so far, so good. Now
what harm is there in this confession? In the common course of things I
shouldn’t be in a position to marry for perhaps three or four years, and
even then marriage would mean difficulties, restraints, obstacles. I have
always dreaded the thought of marriage with a poor income. You remember?

      Love in a hut, with water and a crust,
Is—Love forgive us!—cinders, ashes, dust.

You know that is true.’

‘Not always, I dare say.’

‘But for the vast majority of mortals. There’s the instance of the
Reardons. They were in love with each other, if ever two people were; but
poverty ruined everything. I am not in the confidence of either of them,
but I feel sure each has wished the other dead. What else was to be
expected? Should I have dared to take a wife in my present circumstances—a
wife as poor as myself?’

‘You will be in a much better position before long,’ said Marian. ‘If you
loved me, why should you have been afraid to ask me to have confidence in
your future?’

‘It’s all so uncertain. It may be another ten years before I can count on
an income of five or six hundred pounds—if I have to struggle on in
the common way.’

‘But tell me, what is your aim in life? What do you understand by

‘Yes, I will tell you. My aim is to have easy command of all the pleasures
desired by a cultivated man. I want to live among beautiful things, and
never to be troubled by a thought of vulgar difficulties. I want to travel
and enrich my mind in foreign countries. I want to associate on equal
terms with refined and interesting people. I want to be known, to be
familiarly referred to, to feel when I enter a room that people regard me
with some curiosity.’

He looked steadily at her with bright eyes.

‘And that’s all?’ asked Marian.

‘That is very much. Perhaps you don’t know how I suffer in feeling myself
at a disadvantage. My instincts are strongly social, yet I can’t be at my
ease in society, simply because I can’t do justice to myself. Want of
money makes me the inferior of the people I talk with, though I might be
superior to them in most things. I am ignorant in many ways, and merely
because I am poor. Imagine my never having been out of England! It shames
me when people talk familiarly of the Continent. So with regard to all
manner of amusements and pursuits at home. Impossible for me to appear
among my acquaintances at the theatre, at concerts. I am perpetually at a
disadvantage; I haven’t fair play. Suppose me possessed of money enough to
live a full and active life for the next five years; why, at the end of
that time my position would be secure. To him that hath shall be given—you
know how universally true that is.’

‘And yet,’ came in a low voice from Marian, ‘you say that you love me.’

‘You mean that I speak as if no such thing as love existed. But you asked
me what I understood by success. I am speaking of worldly things. Now
suppose I had said to you:

My one aim and desire in life is to win your love. Could you have believed
me? Such phrases are always untrue; I don’t know how it can give anyone
pleasure to hear them. But if I say to you: All the satisfactions I have
described would be immensely heightened if they were shared with a woman
who loved me—there is the simple truth.’

Marian’s heart sank. She did not want truth such as this; she would have
preferred that he should utter the poor, common falsehoods. Hungry for
passionate love, she heard with a sense of desolation all this calm
reasoning. That Jasper was of cold temperament she had often feared; yet
there was always the consoling thought that she did not see with perfect
clearness into his nature. Now and then had come a flash, a hint of
possibilities. She had looked forward with trembling eagerness to some
sudden revelation; but it seemed as if he knew no word of the language
which would have called such joyous response from her expectant soul.

‘We have talked for a long time,’ she said, turning her head as if his
last words were of no significance. ‘As Dora is not coming, I think I will
go now.’

She rose, and went towards the chair on which lay her out-of-door things.
At once Jasper stepped to her side.

‘You will go without giving me any answer?’

‘Answer? To what?’

‘Will you be my wife?’

‘It is too soon to ask me that.’

‘Too soon? Haven’t you known for months that I thought of you with far
more than friendliness?’

‘How was it possible I should know that? You have explained to me why you
would not let your real feelings be understood.’

The reproach was merited, and not easy to be outfaced. He turned away for
an instant, then with a sudden movement caught both her hands.

‘Whatever I have done or said or thought in the past, that is of no
account now. I love you, Marian. I want you to be my wife. I have never
seen any other girl who impressed me as you did from the first. If I had
been weak enough to try to win anyone but you, I should have known that I
had turned aside from the path of my true happiness. Let us forget for a
moment all our circumstances. I hold your hands, and look into your face,
and say that I love you. Whatever answer you give, I love you!’

Till now her heart had only fluttered a little; it was a great part of her
distress that the love she had so long nurtured seemed shrinking together
into some far corner of her being whilst she listened to the discourses
which prefaced Jasper’s declaration. She was nervous, painfully
self-conscious, touched with maidenly shame, but could not abandon herself
to that delicious emotion which ought to have been the fulfilment of all
her secret imaginings. Now at length there began a throbbing in her bosom.
Keeping her face averted, her eyes cast down, she waited for a repetition
of the note that was in that last ‘I love you.’ She felt a change in the
hands that held hers—a warmth, a moist softness; it caused a shock
through her veins.

He was trying to draw her nearer, but she kept at full arm’s length and
looked irresponsive.


She wished to answer, but a spirit of perversity held her tongue.

‘Marian, don’t you love me? Or have I offended you by my way of speaking?’

Persisting, she at length withdrew her hands. Jasper’s face expressed
something like dismay.

‘You have not offended me,’ she said. ‘But I am not sure that you don’t
deceive yourself in thinking, for the moment, that I am necessary to your

The emotional current which had passed from her flesh to his whilst their
hands were linked, made him incapable of standing aloof from her. He saw
that her face and neck were warmer hued, and her beauty became more
desirable to him than ever yet.

‘You are more to me than anything else in the compass of life!’ he
exclaimed, again pressing forward. ‘I think of nothing but you—you
yourself—my beautiful, gentle, thoughtful Marian!’

His arm captured her, and she did not resist. A sob, then a strange little
laugh, betrayed the passion that was at length unfolded in her.

‘You do love me, Marian?’

‘I love you.’

And there followed the antiphony of ardour that finds its first utterance—a
subdued music, often interrupted, ever returning upon the same rich note.

Marian closed her eyes and abandoned herself to the luxury of the dream.
It was her first complete escape from the world of intellectual routine,
her first taste of life. All the pedantry of her daily toil slipped away
like a cumbrous garment; she was clad only in her womanhood. Once or twice
a shudder of strange self-consciousness went through her, and she felt
guilty, immodest; but upon that sensation followed a surge of passionate
joy, obliterating memory and forethought.

‘How shall I see you?’ Jasper asked at length. ‘Where can we meet?’

It was a difficulty. The season no longer allowed lingerings under the
open sky, but Marian could not go to his lodgings, and it seemed
impossible for him to visit her at her home.

‘Will your father persist in unfriendliness to me?’

She was only just beginning to reflect on all that was involved in this
new relation.

‘I have no hope that he will change,’ she said sadly.

‘He will refuse to countenance your marriage?’

‘I shall disappoint him and grieve him bitterly. He has asked me to use my
money in starting a new review.’

‘Which he is to edit?’

‘Yes. Do you think there would be any hope of its success?’

Jasper shook his head.

‘Your father is not the man for that, Marian. I don’t say it
disrespectfully; I mean that he doesn’t seem to me to have that kind of
aptitude. It would be a disastrous speculation.’

‘I felt that. Of course I can’t think of it now.’

She smiled, raising her face to his.

‘Don’t trouble,’ said Jasper. ‘Wait a little, till I have made myself
independent of Fadge and a few other men, and your father shall see how
heartily I wish to be of use to him. He will miss your help, I’m afraid?’

‘Yes. I shall feel it a cruelty when I have to leave him. He has only just
told me that his sight is beginning to fail. Oh, why didn’t his brother
leave him a little money? It was such unkindness! Surely he had a much
better right than Amy, or than myself either. But literature has been a
curse to father all his life. My uncle hated it, and I suppose that was
why he left father nothing.’

‘But how am I to see you often? That’s the first question. I know what I
shall do. I must take new lodgings, for the girls and myself, all in the
same house. We must have two sitting-rooms; then you will come to my room
without any difficulty. These astonishing proprieties are so easily
satisfied after all.’

‘You will really do that?’

‘Yes. I shall go and look for rooms to-morrow. Then when you come you can
always ask for Maud or Dora, you know. They will be very glad of a change
to more respectable quarters.’

‘I won’t stay to see them now, Jasper,’ said Marian, her thoughts turning
to the girls.

‘Very well. You are safe for another hour, but to make certain you shall
go at a quarter to five. Your mother won’t be against us?’

‘Poor mother—no. But she won’t dare to justify me before father.’

‘I feel as if I should play a mean part in leaving it to you to tell your
father. Marian, I will brave it out and go and see him.’

‘Oh, it would be better not to.’

‘Then I will write to him—such a letter as he can’t possibly take in
ill part.’

Marian pondered this proposal.

‘You shall do that, Jasper, if you are willing. But not yet; presently.’

‘You don’t wish him to know at once?’

‘We had better wait a little. You know,’ she added laughing, ‘that my
legacy is only in name mine as yet. The will hasn’t been proved. And then
the money will have to be realised.’

She informed him of the details; Jasper listened with his eyes on the

They were now sitting on chairs drawn close to each other. It was with a
sense of relief that Jasper had passed from dithyrambs to conversation on
practical points; Marian’s excited sensitiveness could not but observe
this, and she kept watching the motions of his countenance. At length he
even let go her hand.

‘You would prefer,’ he said reflectively, ‘that nothing should be said to
your father until that business is finished?’

‘If you consent to it.’

‘Oh, I have no doubt it’s as well.’

Her little phrase of self-subjection, and its tremulous tone, called for
another answer than this. Jasper fell again into thought, and clearly it
was thought of practical things.

‘I think I must go now, Jasper,’ she said.

‘Must you? Well, if you had rather.’

He rose, though she was still seated. Marian moved a few steps away, but
turned and approached him again.

‘Do you really love me?’ she asked, taking one of his hands and folding it
between her own.

‘I do indeed love you, Marian. Are you still doubtful?’

‘You’re not sorry that I must go?’

‘But I am, dearest. I wish we could sit here undisturbed all through the

Her touch had the same effect as before. His blood warmed again, and he
pressed her to his side, stroking her hair and kissing her forehead.

‘Are you sorry I wear my hair short?’ she asked, longing for more praise
than he had bestowed on her.

‘Sorry? It is perfect. Everything else seems vulgar compared with this way
of yours. How strange you would look with plaits and that kind of thing!’

‘I am so glad it pleases you.’

‘There is nothing in you that doesn’t please me, my thoughtful girl.’

‘You called me that before. Do I seem so very thoughtful?’

‘So grave, and sweetly reserved, and with eyes so full of meaning.’

She quivered with delight, her face hidden against his breast.

‘I seem to be new-born, Jasper. Everything in the world is new to me, and
I am strange to myself. I have never known an hour of happiness till now,
and I can’t believe yet that it has come to me.’

She at length attired herself, and they left the house together, of course
not unobserved by the landlady. Jasper walked about half the way to St
Paul’s Crescent. It was arranged that he should address a letter for her
to the care of his sisters; but in a day or two the change of lodgings
would be effected.

When they had parted, Marian looked back. But Jasper was walking quickly
away, his head bent, in profound meditation.


Refuge from despair is often found in the passion of self-pity and that
spirit of obstinate resistance which it engenders. In certain natures the
extreme of self-pity is intolerable, and leads to self-destruction; but
there are less fortunate beings whom the vehemence of their revolt against
fate strengthens to endure in suffering. These latter are rather
imaginative than passionate; the stages of their woe impress them as the
acts of a drama, which they cannot bring themselves to cut short, so
various are the possibilities of its dark motive. The intellectual man who
kills himself is most often brought to that decision by conviction of his
insignificance; self-pity merges in self-scorn, and the humiliated soul is
intolerant of existence. He who survives under like conditions does so
because misery magnifies him in his own estimate.

It was by force of commiserating his own lot that Edwin Reardon continued
to live through the first month after his parting from Amy. Once or twice
a week, sometimes early in the evening, sometimes at midnight or later, he
haunted the street at Westbourne Park where his wife was dwelling, and on
each occasion he returned to his garret with a fortified sense of the
injustice to which he was submitted, of revolt against the circumstances
which had driven him into outer darkness, of bitterness against his wife
for saving her own comfort rather than share his downfall. At times he was
not far from that state of sheer distraction which Mrs Edmund Yule
preferred to suppose that he had reached. An extraordinary arrogance now
and then possessed him; he stood amid his poor surroundings with the
sensations of an outraged exile, and laughed aloud in furious contempt of
all who censured or pitied him.

On hearing from Jasper Milvain that Amy had fallen ill, or at all events
was suffering in health from what she had gone through, he felt a
momentary pang which all but determined him to hasten to her side. The
reaction was a feeling of distinct pleasure that she had her share of
pain, and even a hope that her illness might become grave; he pictured
himself summoned to her sick chamber, imagined her begging his
forgiveness. But it was not merely, nor in great part, a malicious
satisfaction; he succeeded in believing that Amy suffered because she
still had a remnant of love for him. As the days went by and he heard
nothing, disappointment and resentment occupied him. At length he ceased
to haunt the neighbourhood. His desires grew sullen; he became fixed in
the resolve to hold entirely apart and doggedly await the issue.

At the end of each month he sent half the money he had received from
Carter, simply enclosing postal orders in an envelope addressed to his
wife. The first two remittances were in no way acknowledged; the third
brought a short note from Amy:

‘As you continue to send these sums of money, I had perhaps better let you
know that I cannot use them for any purposes of my own. Perhaps a sense of
duty leads you to make this sacrifice, but I am afraid it is more likely
that you wish to remind me every month that you are undergoing privations,
and to pain me in this way. What you have sent I have deposited in the
Post Office Savings’ Bank in Willie’s name, and I shall continue to do so.—A.R.’

For a day or two Reardon persevered in an intention of not replying, but
the desire to utter his turbid feelings became in the end too strong. He

‘I regard it as quite natural that you should put the worst interpretation
on whatever I do. As for my privations, I think very little of them; they
are a trifle in comparison with the thought that I am forsaken just
because my pocket is empty. And I am far indeed from thinking that you can
be pained by whatever I may undergo; that would suppose some generosity in
your nature.’

This was no sooner posted than he would gladly have recalled it. He knew
that it was undignified, that it contained as many falsehoods as lines,
and he was ashamed of himself for having written so. But he could not pen
a letter of retractation, and there remained with him a new cause of
exasperated wretchedness.

Excepting the people with whom he came in contact at the hospital, he had
no society but that of Biffen. The realist visited him once a week, and
this friendship grew closer than it had been in the time of Reardon’s
prosperity. Biffen was a man of so much natural delicacy, that there was a
pleasure in imparting to him the details of private sorrow; though
profoundly sympathetic, he did his best to oppose Reardon’s harsher
judgments of Amy, and herein he gave his friend a satisfaction which might
not be avowed.

‘I really do not see,’ he exclaimed, as they sat in the garret one night
of midsummer, ‘how your wife could have acted otherwise. Of course I am
quite unable to judge the attitude of her mind, but I think, I can’t help
thinking, from what I knew of her, that there has been strictly a
misunderstanding between you.

It was a hard and miserable thing that she should have to leave you for a
time, and you couldn’t face the necessity in a just spirit. Don’t you
think there’s some truth in this way of looking at it?’

‘As a woman, it was her part to soften the hateful necessity; she made it

‘I’m not sure that you don’t demand too much of her. Unhappily, I know
little or nothing of delicately-bred women, but I have a suspicion that
one oughtn’t to expect heroism in them, any more than in the women of the
lower classes. I think of women as creatures to be protected. Is a man
justified in asking them to be stronger than himself?’

‘Of course,’ replied Reardon, ‘there’s no use in demanding more than a
character is capable of. But I believed her of finer stuff. My bitterness
comes of the disappointment.’

‘I suppose there were faults of temper on both sides, and you saw at last
only each other’s weaknesses.’

‘I saw the truth, which had always been disguised from me.’ Biffen
persisted in looking doubtful, and in secret Reardon thanked him for it.

As the realist progressed with his novel, ‘Mr Bailey, Grocer,’ he read the
chapters to Reardon, not only for his own satisfaction, but in great part
because he hoped that this example of productivity might in the end
encourage the listener to resume his own literary tasks. Reardon found
much to criticise in his friend’s work; it was noteworthy that he objected
and condemned with much less hesitation than in his better days, for
sensitive reticence is one of the virtues wont to be assailed by
suffering, at all events in the weaker natures. Biffen purposely urged
these discussions as far as possible, and doubtless they benefited Reardon
for the time; but the defeated novelist could not be induced to undertake
another practical illustration of his own views. Occasionally he had an
impulse to plan a story, but an hour’s turning it over in his mind
sufficed to disgust him. His ideas seemed barren, vapid; it would have
been impossible for him to write half a dozen pages, and the mere thought
of a whole book overcame him with the dread of insurmountable
difficulties, immeasurable toil.

In time, however, he was able to read. He had a pleasure in contemplating
the little collection of sterling books that alone remained to him from
his library; the sight of many volumes would have been a weariness, but
these few—when he was again able to think of books at all—were
as friendly countenances. He could not read continuously, but sometimes he
opened his Shakespeare, for instance, and dreamed over a page or two. From
such glimpses there remained in his head a line or a short passage, which
he kept repeating to himself wherever he went; generally some example of
sweet or sonorous metre which had a soothing effect upon him.

With odd result on one occasion. He was walking in one of the back streets
of Islington, and stopped idly to gaze into the window of some small shop.
Standing thus, he forgot himself and presently recited aloud:

      ‘Caesar, ‘tis his schoolmaster:
An argument that he is pluck’d, when hither
He sends so poor a pinion of his wing,
Which had superfluous kings for messengers
Not many moons gone by.’

The last two lines he uttered a second time, enjoying their magnificent
sound, and then was brought back to consciousness by the loud mocking
laugh of two men standing close by, who evidently looked upon him as a
strayed lunatic.

He kept one suit of clothes for his hours of attendance at the hospital;
it was still decent, and with much care would remain so for a long time.
That which he wore at home and in his street wanderings declared poverty
at every point; it had been discarded before he left the old abode. In his
present state of mind he cared nothing how disreputable he looked to
passers-by. These seedy habiliments were the token of his degradation, and
at times he regarded them (happening to see himself in a shop mirror) with
pleasurable contempt. The same spirit often led him for a meal to the
poorest of eating-houses, places where he rubbed elbows with ragged
creatures who had somehow obtained the price of a cup of coffee and a
slice of bread and butter. He liked to contrast himself with these
comrades in misfortune. ‘This is the rate at which the world esteems me; I
am worth no better provision than this.’ Or else, instead of emphasising
the contrast, he defiantly took a place among the miserables of the nether
world, and nursed hatred of all who were well-to-do.

One of these he desired to regard with gratitude, but found it difficult
to support that feeling. Carter, the vivacious, though at first perfectly
unembarrassed in his relations with the City Road clerk, gradually
exhibited a change of demeanour. Reardon occasionally found the young
man’s eye fixed upon him with a singular expression, and the secretary’s
talk, though still as a rule genial, was wont to suffer curious
interruptions, during which he seemed to be musing on something Reardon
had said, or on some point of his behaviour. The explanation of this was
that Carter had begun to think there might be a foundation for Mrs Yule’s
hypothesis—that the novelist was not altogether in his sound senses.
At first he scouted the idea, but as time went on it seemed to him that
Reardon’s countenance certainly had a gaunt wildness which suggested
disagreeable things. Especially did he remark this after his return from
an August holiday in Norway. On coming for the first time to the City Road
branch he sat down and began to favour Reardon with a lively description
of how he had enjoyed himself abroad; it never occurred to him that such
talk was not likely to inspirit the man who had passed his August between
the garret and the hospital, but he observed before long that his listener
was glancing hither and thither in rather a strange way.

‘You haven’t been ill since I saw you?’ he inquired.

‘Oh no!’

‘But you look as if you might have been. I say, we must manage for you to
have a fortnight off, you know, this month.’

‘I have no wish for it,’ said Reardon. ‘I’ll imagine I have been to
Norway. It has done me good to hear of your holiday.’

‘I’m glad of that; but it isn’t quite the same thing, you know, as having
a run somewhere yourself.’

‘Oh, much better! To enjoy myself may be mere selfishness, but to enjoy
another’s enjoyment is the purest satisfaction, good for body and soul. I
am cultivating altruism.’

‘What’s that?’

‘A highly rarefied form of happiness. The curious thing about it is that
it won’t grow unless you have just twice as much faith in it as is
required for assent to the Athanasian Creed.’


Carter went away more than puzzled. He told his wife that evening that
Reardon had been talking to him in the most extraordinary fashion—no
understanding a word he said.

All this time he was on the look-out for employment that would be more
suitable to his unfortunate clerk. Whether slightly demented or not,
Reardon gave no sign of inability to discharge his duties; he was
conscientious as ever, and might, unless he changed greatly, be relied
upon in positions of more responsibility than his present one. And at
length, early in October, there came to the secretary’s knowledge an
opportunity with which he lost no time in acquainting Reardon. The latter
repaired that evening to Clipstone Street, and climbed to Biffen’s
chamber. He entered with a cheerful look, and exclaimed:

‘I have just invented a riddle; see if you can guess it. Why is a London
lodging-house like the human body?’

Biffen looked with some concern at his friend, so unwonted was a sally of
this kind.

‘Why is a London lodging-house—? Haven’t the least idea.’

‘Because the brains are always at the top. Not bad, I think, eh?’

‘Well, no; it’ll pass. Distinctly professional though. The general public
would fail to see the point, I’m afraid. But what has come to you?’

‘Good tidings. Carter has offered me a place which will be a decided
improvement. A house found—or rooms, at all events—and salary
a hundred and fifty a year.

‘By Plutus! That’s good hearing. Some duties attached, I suppose?’

‘I’m afraid that was inevitable, as things go. It’s the secretaryship of a
home for destitute boys at Croydon. The post is far from a sinecure,
Carter assures me. There’s a great deal of purely secretarial work, and
there’s a great deal of practical work, some of it rather rough, I fancy.
It seems doubtful whether I am exactly the man. The present holder is a
burly fellow over six feet high, delighting in gymnastics, and rather fond
of a fight now and then when opportunity offers. But he is departing at
Christmas—going somewhere as a missionary; and I can have the place
if I choose.’

‘As I suppose you do?’

‘Yes. I shall try it, decidedly.’

Biffen waited a little, then asked:

‘I suppose your wife will go with you?’

‘There’s no saying.’

Reardon tried to answer indifferently, but it could be seen that he was
agitated between hopes and fears.

‘You’ll ask her, at all events?’

‘Oh yes,’ was the half-absent reply.

‘But surely there can be no doubt that she’ll come. A hundred and fifty a
year, without rent to pay. Why, that’s affluence!’

‘The rooms I might occupy are in the home itself. Amy won’t take very
readily to a dwelling of that kind. And Croydon isn’t the most inviting

‘Close to delightful country.’

‘Yes, yes; but Amy doesn’t care about that.’

‘You misjudge her, Reardon. You are too harsh. I implore you not to lose
the chance of setting all right again! If only you could be put into my
position for a moment, and then be offered the companionship of such a
wife as yours!’

Reardon listened with a face of lowering excitement.

‘I should be perfectly within my rights,’ he said sternly, ‘if I merely
told her when I have taken the position, and let her ask me to take her
back—if she wishes.’

‘You have changed a great deal this last year,’ replied Biffen, shaking
his head, ‘a great deal. I hope to see you your old self again before
long. I should have declared it impossible for you to become so rugged. Go
and see your wife, there’s a good fellow.’

‘No; I shall write to her.’

‘Go and see her, I beg you! No good ever came of letter-writing between
two people who have misunderstood each other. Go to Westbourne Park
to-morrow. And be reasonable; be more than reasonable. The happiness of
your life depends on what you do now. Be content to forget whatever wrong
has been done you. To think that a man should need persuading to win back
such a wife!’

In truth, there needed little persuasion. Perverseness, one of the forms
or issues of self-pity, made him strive against his desire, and caused him
to adopt a tone of acerbity in excess of what he felt; but already he had
made up his mind to see Amy. Even if this excuse had not presented itself
he must very soon have yielded to the longing for a sight of his wife’s
face which day by day increased among all the conflicting passions of
which he was the victim. A month or two ago, when the summer sunshine made
his confinement to the streets a daily torture, he convinced himself that
there remained in him no trace of his love for Amy; there were moments
when he thought of her with repugnance, as a cold, selfish woman, who had
feigned affection when it seemed her interest to do so, but brutally
declared her true self when there was no longer anything to be hoped from
him. That was the self-deception of misery. Love, even passion, was still
alive in the depths of his being; the animation with which he sped to his
friend as soon as a new hope had risen was the best proof of his feeling.

He went home and wrote to Amy.

‘I have a reason for wishing to see you. Will you have the kindness to
appoint an hour on Sunday morning when I can speak with you in private? It
must be understood that I shall see no one else.’

She would receive this by the first post to-morrow, Saturday, and
doubtless would let him hear in reply some time in the afternoon.
Impatience allowed him little sleep, and the next day was a long weariness
of waiting. The evening he would have to spend at the hospital; if there
came no reply before the time of his leaving home, he knew not how he
should compel himself to the ordinary routine of work. Yet the hour came,
and he had heard nothing. He was tempted to go at once to Westbourne Park,
but reason prevailed with him. When he again entered the house, having
walked at his utmost speed from the City Road, the letter lay waiting for
him; it had been pushed beneath his door, and when he struck a match he
found that one of his feet was upon the white envelope.

Amy wrote that she would be at home at eleven to-morrow morning. Not
another word.

In all probability she knew of the offer that had been made to him; Mrs
Carter would have told her. Was it of good or of ill omen that she wrote
only these half-dozen words? Half through the night he plagued himself
with suppositions, now thinking that her brevity promised a welcome, now
that she wished to warn him against expecting anything but a cold,
offended demeanour. At seven he was dressed; two hours and a half had to
be killed before he could start on his walk westward. He would have
wandered about the streets, but it rained.

He had made himself as decent as possible in appearance, but he must
necessarily seem an odd Sunday visitor at a house such as Mrs Yule’s. His
soft felt hat, never brushed for months, was a greyish green, and stained
round the band with perspiration. His necktie was discoloured and worn.
Coat and waistcoat might pass muster, but of the trousers the less said
the better. One of his boots was patched, and both were all but heelless.

Very well; let her see him thus. Let her understand what it meant to live
on twelve and sixpence a week.

Though it was cold and wet he could not put on his overcoat. Three years
ago it had been a fairly good ulster; at present, the edges of the sleeves
were frayed, two buttons were missing, and the original hue of the cloth
was indeterminable.

At half-past nine he set out and struggled with his shabby umbrella
against wind and rain. Down Pentonville Hill, up Euston Road, all along
Marylebone Road, then north-westwards towards the point of his
destination. It was a good six miles from the one house to the other, but
he arrived before the appointed time, and had to stray about until the
cessation of bell-clanging and the striking of clocks told him it was
eleven. Then he presented himself at the familiar door.

On his asking for Mrs Reardon, he was at once admitted and led up to the
drawing-room; the servant did not ask his name.

Then he waited for a minute or two, feeling himself a squalid wretch amid
the dainty furniture. The door opened. Amy, in a simple but very becoming
dress, approached to within a yard of him; after the first glance she had
averted her eyes, and she did not offer to shake hands. He saw that his
muddy and shapeless boots drew her attention.

‘Do you know why I have come?’ he asked.

He meant the tone to be conciliatory, but he could not command his voice,
and it sounded rough, hostile.

‘I think so,’ Amy answered, seating herself gracefully. She would have
spoken with less dignity but for that accent of his.

‘The Carters have told you?’

‘Yes; I have heard about it.’

There was no promise in her manner. She kept her face turned away, and
Reardon saw its beautiful profile, hard and cold as though in marble.

‘It doesn’t interest you at all?’

‘I am glad to hear that a better prospect offers for you.’

He did not sit down, and was holding his rusty hat behind his back.

‘You speak as if it in no way concerned yourself. Is that what you wish me
to understand?’

‘Won’t it be better if you tell me why you have come here? As you are
resolved to find offence in whatever I say, I prefer to keep silence.
Please to let me know why you have asked to see me.’

Reardon turned abruptly as if to leave her, but checked himself at a
little distance.

Both had come to this meeting prepared for a renewal of amity, but in
these first few moments each was so disagreeably impressed by the look and
language of the other that a revulsion of feeling undid all the more
hopeful effects of their long severance. On entering, Amy had meant to
offer her hand, but the unexpected meanness of Reardon’s aspect shocked
and restrained her. All but every woman would have experienced that
shrinking from the livery of poverty. Amy had but to reflect, and she
understood that her husband could in no wise help this shabbiness; when he
parted from her his wardrobe was already in a long-suffering condition,
and how was he to have purchased new garments since then? None the less
such attire degraded him in her eyes; it symbolised the melancholy decline
which he had suffered intellectually. On Reardon his wife’s elegance had
the same repellent effect, though this would not have been the case but
for the expression of her countenance. Had it been possible for them to
remain together during the first five minutes without exchange of words,
sympathies might have prevailed on both sides; the first speech uttered
would most likely have harmonised with their gentler thoughts. But the
mischief was done so speedily.

A man must indeed be graciously endowed if his personal appearance can
defy the disadvantage of cheap modern clothing worn into shapelessness.
Reardon had no such remarkable physique, and it was not wonderful that his
wife felt ashamed of him. Strictly ashamed; he seemed to her a social
inferior; the impression was so strong that it resisted all memory of his
spiritual qualities. She might have anticipated this state of things, and
have armed herself to encounter it, but somehow she had not done so. For
more than five months she had been living among people who dressed well;
the contrast was too suddenly forced upon her. She was especially
susceptible in such matters, and had become none the less so under the
demoralising influence of her misfortunes. True, she soon began to feel
ashamed of her shame, but that could not annihilate the natural feeling
and its results.

‘I don’t love him. I can’t love him.’ Thus she spoke to herself, with
immutable decision. She had been doubtful till now, but all doubt was at
an end. Had Reardon been practical man enough to procure by hook or by
crook a decent suit of clothes for this interview, that ridiculous trifle
might have made all the difference in what was to result.

He turned again, and spoke with the harshness of a man who feels that he
is despised, and is determined to show an equal contempt.

‘I came to ask you what you propose to do in case I go to Croydon.’

‘I have no proposal to make whatever.’

‘That means, then, that you are content to go on living here?’

‘If I have no choice, I must make myself content.’

‘But you have a choice.’

‘None has yet been offered me.’

‘Then I offer it now,’ said Reardon, speaking less aggressively. ‘I shall
have a dwelling rent free, and a hundred and fifty pounds a year—perhaps
it would be more in keeping with my station if I say that I shall have
something less than three pounds a week. You can either accept from me
half this money, as up to now, or come and take your place again as my
wife. Please to decide what you will do.’

‘I will let you know by letter in a few days.’

It seemed impossible to her to say she would return, yet a refusal to do
so involved nothing less than separation for the rest of their lives.
Postponement of decision was her only resource.

‘I must know at once,’ said Reardon.

‘I can’t answer at once.’

‘If you don’t, I shall understand you to mean that you refuse to come to
me. You know the circumstances; there is no reason why you should consult
with anyone else. You can answer me immediately if you will.’

‘I don’t wish to answer you immediately,’ Amy replied, paling slightly.

‘Then that decides it. When I leave you we are strangers to each other.’

Amy made a rapid study of his countenance. She had never entertained for a
moment the supposition that his wits were unsettled, but none the less the
constant recurrence of that idea in her mother’s talk had subtly
influenced her against her husband. It had confirmed her in thinking that
his behaviour was inexcusable. And now it seemed to her that anyone might
be justified in holding him demented, so reckless was his utterance.

It was difficult to know him as the man who had loved her so devotedly,
who was incapable of an unkind word or look.

‘If that is what you prefer,’ she said, ‘there must be a formal
separation. I can’t trust my future to your caprice.’

‘You mean it must be put into the hands of a lawyer?’

‘Yes, I do.’

‘That will be the best, no doubt.’

‘Very well; I will speak with my friends about it.’

‘Your friends!’ he exclaimed bitterly. ‘But for those friends of yours,
this would never have happened. I wish you had been alone in the world and

‘A kind wish, all things considered.’

‘Yes, it is a kind wish. Then your marriage with me would have been
binding; you would have known that my lot was yours, and the knowledge
would have helped your weakness. I begin to see how much right there is on
the side of those people who would keep women in subjection. You have been
allowed to act with independence, and the result is that you have ruined
my life and debased your own. If I had been strong enough to treat you as
a child, and bid you follow me wherever my own fortunes led, it would have
been as much better for you as for me. I was weak, and I suffer as all
weak people do.’

‘You think it was my duty to share such a home as you have at present?’

‘You know it was. And if the choice had lain between that and earning your
own livelihood you would have thought that even such a poor home might be
made tolerable. There were possibilities in you of better things than will
ever come out now.’

There followed a silence. Amy sat with her eyes gloomily fixed on the
carpet; Reardon looked about the room, but saw nothing. He had thrown his
hat into a chair, and his fingers worked nervously together behind his

‘Will you tell me,’ he said at length, ‘how your position is regarded by
these friends of yours? I don’t mean your mother and brother, but the
people who come to this house.’

‘I have not asked such people for their opinion.’

‘Still, I suppose some sort of explanation has been necessary in your
intercourse with them. How have you represented your relations with me?’

‘I can’t see that that concerns you.’

‘In a manner it does. Certainly it matters very little to me how I am
thought of by people of this kind, but one doesn’t like to be reviled
without cause. Have you allowed it to be supposed that I have made life
with me intolerable for you?’

‘No, I have not. You insult me by asking the question, but as you don’t
seem to understand feelings of that kind I may as well answer you simply.’

‘Then have you told them the truth? That I became so poor you couldn’t
live with me?’

‘I have never said that in so many words, but no doubt it is understood.
It must be known also that you refused to take the step which might have
helped you out of your difficulties.’

‘What step?’

She reminded him of his intention to spend half a year in working at the

‘I had utterly forgotten it,’ he returned with a mocking laugh. ‘That
shows how ridiculous such a thing would have been.’

‘You are doing no literary work at all?’ Amy asked.

‘Do you imagine that I have the peace of mind necessary for anything of
that sort?’

This was in a changed voice. It reminded her so strongly of her husband
before his disasters that she could not frame a reply.

‘Do you think I am able to occupy myself with the affairs of imaginary

‘I didn’t necessarily mean fiction.’

‘That I can forget myself, then, in the study of literature?—I
wonder whether you really think of me like that. How, in Heaven’s name, do
you suppose I spend my leisure time?’

She made no answer.

‘Do you think I take this calamity as light-heartedly as you do, Amy?’

‘I am far from taking it light-heartedly.’

‘Yet you are in good health. I see no sign that you have suffered.’

She kept silence. Her suffering had been slight enough, and chiefly due to
considerations of social propriety; but she would not avow this, and did
not like to make admission of it to herself. Before her friends she
frequently affected to conceal a profound sorrow; but so long as her child
was left to her she was in no danger of falling a victim to sentimental

‘And certainly I can’t believe it,’ he continued, ‘now you declare your
wish to be formally separated from me.’

‘I have declared no such wish.’

‘Indeed you have. If you can hesitate a moment about returning to me when
difficulties are at an end, that tells me you would prefer final

‘I hesitate for this reason,’ Amy said after reflecting. ‘You are so very
greatly changed from what you used to be, that I think it doubtful if I
could live with you.’

‘Changed?—Yes, that is true, I am afraid. But how do you think this
change will affect my behaviour to you?’

‘Remember how you have been speaking to me.’

‘And you think I should treat you brutally if you came into my power?’

‘Not brutally, in the ordinary sense of the word. But with faults of
temper which I couldn’t bear. I have my own faults. I can’t behave as
meekly as some women can.’

It was a small concession, but Reardon made much of it.

‘Did my faults of temper give you any trouble during the first year of our
married life?’ he asked gently.

‘No,’ she admitted.

‘They began to afflict you when I was so hard driven by difficulties that
I needed all your sympathy, all your forbearance. Did I receive much of
either from you, Amy?’

‘I think you did—until you demanded impossible things of me.’

‘It was always in your power to rule me. What pained me worst, and
hardened me against you, was that I saw you didn’t care to exert your
influence. There was never a time when I could have resisted a word of
yours spoken out of your love for me. But even then, I am afraid, you no
longer loved me, and now—’

He broke off, and stood watching her face.

‘Have you any love for me left?’ burst from his lips, as if the words all
but choked him in the utterance.

Amy tried to shape some evasive answer, but could say nothing.

‘Is there ever so small a hope that I might win some love from you again?’

‘If you wish me to come and live with you when you go to Croydon I will do

‘But that is not answering me, Amy.’

‘It’s all I can say.’

‘Then you mean that you would sacrifice yourself out of—what? Out of
pity for me, let us say.’

‘Do you wish to see Willie?’ asked Amy, instead of replying.

‘No. It is you I have come to see. The child is nothing to me, compared
with you. It is you, who loved me, who became my wife—you only I
care about. Tell me you will try to be as you used to be. Give me only
that hope, Amy; I will ask nothing except that, now.’

‘I can’t say anything except that I will come to Croydon if you wish it.’

‘And reproach me always because you have to live in such a place, away
from your friends, without a hope of the social success which was your
dearest ambition?’

Her practical denial that she loved him wrung this taunt from his
anguished heart. He repented the words as soon as they were spoken.

‘What is the good?’ exclaimed Amy in irritation, rising and moving away
from him. ‘How can I pretend that I look forward to such a life with any

He stood in mute misery, inwardly cursing himself and his fate.

‘I have said I will come,’ she continued, her voice shaken with nervous
tension. ‘Ask me or not, as you please, when you are ready to go there. I
can’t talk about it.’

‘I shall not ask you,’ he replied. ‘I will have no woman slave dragging
out a weary life with me. Either you are my willing wife, or you are
nothing to me.’

‘I am married to you, and that can’t be undone. I repeat that I shan’t
refuse to obey you. I shall say no more.’

She moved to a distance, and there seated herself, half turned from him.

‘I shall never ask you to come,’ said Reardon, breaking a short silence.
‘If our married life is ever to begin again it must be of your seeking.
Come to me of your own will, and I shall never reject you. But I will die
in utter loneliness rather than ask you again.’

He lingered a few moments, watching her; she did not move. Then he took
his hat, went in silence from the room, and left the house.

It rained harder than before. As no trains were running at this hour, he
walked in the direction where he would be likely to meet with an omnibus.
But it was a long time before one passed which was any use to him. When he
reached home he was in cheerless plight enough; to make things pleasanter,
one of his boots had let in water abundantly.

‘The first sore throat of the season, no doubt,’ he muttered to himself.

Nor was he disappointed. By Tuesday the cold had firm grip of him. A day
or two of influenza or sore throat always made him so weak that with
difficulty he supported the least physical exertion; but at present he
must go to his work at the hospital. Why stay at home? To what purpose
spare himself? It was not as if life had any promise for him. He was a
machine for earning so much money a week, and would at least give faithful
work for his wages until the day of final breakdown.

But, midway in the week, Carter discovered how ill his clerk was.

‘You ought to be in bed, my dear fellow, with gruel and mustard plasters
and all the rest of it. Go home and take care of yourself—I insist
upon it.’

Before leaving the office, Reardon wrote a few lines to Biffen, whom he
had visited on the Monday. ‘Come and see me if you can. I am down with a
bad cold, and have to keep in for the rest of the week. All the same, I
feel far more cheerful. Bring a new chapter of your exhilarating romance.’


On her return from church that Sunday Mrs Edmund Yule was anxious to learn
the result of the meeting between Amy and her husband. She hoped fervently
that Amy’s anomalous position would come to an end now that Reardon had
the offer of something better than a mere clerkship. John Yule never
ceased to grumble at his sister’s permanence in the house, especially
since he had learnt that the money sent by Reardon each month was not made
use of; why it should not be applied for household expenses passed his

‘It seems to me,’ he remarked several times, ‘that the fellow only does
his bare duty in sending it. What is it to anyone else whether he lives on
twelve shillings a week or twelve pence? It is his business to support his
wife; if he can’t do that, to contribute as much to her support as
possible. Amy’s scruples are all very fine, if she could afford them; it’s
very nice to pay for your delicacies of feeling out of other people’s

‘There’ll have to be a formal separation,’ was the startling announcement
with which Amy answered her mother’s inquiry as to what had passed.

‘A separation? But, my dear—!’

Mrs Yule could not express her disappointment and dismay.

‘We couldn’t live together; it’s no use trying.’

‘But at your age, Amy! How can you think of anything so shocking? And
then, you know it will be impossible for him to make you a sufficient

‘I shall have to live as well as I can on the seventy-five pounds a year.
If you can’t afford to let me stay with you for that, I must go into cheap
lodgings in the country, like poor Mrs Butcher did.’

This was wild talking for Amy. The interview had upset her, and for the
rest of the day she kept apart in her own room. On the morrow Mrs Yule
succeeded in eliciting a clear account of the conversation which had ended
so hopelessly.

‘I would rather spend the rest of my days in the workhouse than beg him to
take me back,’ was Amy’s final comment, uttered with the earnestness which
her mother understood but too well.

‘But you are willing to go back, dear?’

‘I told him so.’

‘Then you must leave this to me. The Carters will let us know how things
go on, and when it seems to be time I must see Edwin myself.’

‘I can’t allow that. Anything you could say on your own account would be
useless, and there is nothing to say from me.’

Mrs Yule kept her own counsel. She had a full month before her during
which to consider the situation, but it was clear to her that these young
people must be brought together again. Her estimate of Reardon’s mental
condition had undergone a sudden change from the moment when she heard
that a respectable post was within his reach; she decided that he was
‘strange,’ but then all men of literary talent had marked singularities,
and doubtless she had been too hasty in interpreting the peculiar features
natural to a character such as his.

A few days later arrived the news of their relative’s death at

This threw Mrs Yule into a commotion. At first she decided to accompany
her son and be present at the funeral; after changing her mind twenty
times, she determined not to go. John must send or bring back the news as
soon as possible. That it would be of a nature sensibly to affect her own
position, if not that of her children, she had little doubt; her husband
had been the favourite brother of the deceased, and on that account there
was no saying how handsome a legacy she might receive. She dreamt of
houses in South Kensington, of social ambitions gratified even thus late.

On the morning after the funeral came a postcard announcing John’s return
by a certain train, but no scrap of news was added.

‘Just like that irritating boy! We must go to the station to meet him.
You’ll come, won’t you, Amy?’

Amy readily consented, for she too had hopes, though circumstances blurred
them. Mother and daughter were walking about the platform half an hour
before the train was due; their agitation would have been manifest to
anyone observing them. When at length the train rolled in and John was
discovered, they pressed eagerly upon him.

‘Don’t you excite yourself,’ he said gruffly to his mother. ‘There’s no
reason whatever.’

Mrs Yule glanced in dismay at Amy. They followed John to a cab, and took
places with him.

‘Now don’t be provoking, Jack. Just tell us at once.’

‘By all means. You haven’t a penny.’

‘I haven’t? You are joking, ridiculous boy!’

‘Never felt less disposed to, I assure you.’

After staring out of the window for a minute or two, he at length informed
Amy of the extent to which she profited by her uncle’s decease, then made
known what was bequeathed to himself. His temper grew worse every moment,
and he replied savagely to each successive question concerning the other
items of the will.

‘What have you to grumble about?’ asked Amy, whose face was exultant
notwithstanding the drawbacks attaching to her good fortune. ‘If Uncle
Alfred receives nothing at all, and mother has nothing, you ought to think
yourself very lucky.’

‘It’s very easy for you to say that, with your ten thousand.’

‘But is it her own?’ asked Mrs Yule. ‘Is it for her separate use?’

‘Of course it is. She gets the benefit of last year’s Married Woman’s
Property Act. The will was executed in January this year, and I dare say
the old curmudgeon destroyed a former one.

‘What a splendid Act of Parliament that is!’ cried Amy. ‘The only one
worth anything that I ever heard of.’

‘But my dear—’ began her mother, in a tone of protest. However, she
reserved her comment for a more fitting time and place, and merely said:
‘I wonder whether he had heard what has been going on?’

‘Do you think he would have altered his will if he had?’ asked Amy with a
smile of security.

‘Why the deuce he should have left you so much in any case is more than I
can understand,’ growled her brother. ‘What’s the use to me of a paltry
thousand or two? It isn’t enough to invest; isn’t enough to do anything

‘You may depend upon it your cousin Marian thinks her five thousand good
for something,’ said Mrs Yule. ‘Who was at the funeral? Don’t be so surly,
Jack; tell us all about it. I’m sure if anyone has cause to be
ill-tempered it’s poor me.’

Thus they talked, amid the rattle of the cab-wheels. By when they reached
home silence had fallen upon them, and each one was sufficiently occupied
with private thoughts.

Mrs Yule’s servants had a terrible time of it for the next few days. Too
affectionate to turn her ill-temper against John and Amy, she relieved
herself by severity to the domestic slaves, as an English matron is of
course justified in doing. Her daughter’s position caused her even more
concern than before; she constantly lamented to herself: ‘Oh, why didn’t
he die before she was married!’—in which case Amy would never have
dreamt of wedding a penniless author. Amy declined to discuss the new
aspect of things until twenty-four hours after John’s return; then she

‘I shall do nothing whatever until the money is paid to me. And what I
shall do then I don’t know.’

‘You are sure to hear from Edwin,’ opined Mrs Yule.

‘I think not. He isn’t the kind of man to behave in that way.’

‘Then I suppose you are bound to take the first step?’

‘That I shall never do.’

She said so, but the sudden happiness of finding herself wealthy was not
without its softening effect on Amy’s feelings. Generous impulses
alternated with moods of discontent. The thought of her husband in his
squalid lodgings tempted her to forget injuries and disillusions, and to
play the part of a generous wife. It would be possible now for them to go
abroad and spend a year or two in healthful travel; the result in
Reardon’s case might be wonderful. He might recover all the energy of his
imagination, and resume his literary career from the point he had reached
at the time of his marriage.

On the other hand, was it not more likely that he would lapse into a life
of scholarly self-indulgence, such as he had often told her was his ideal?
In that event, what tedium and regret lay before her! Ten thousand pounds
sounded well, but what did it represent in reality? A poor four hundred a
year, perhaps; mere decency of obscure existence, unless her husband could
glorify it by winning fame. If he did nothing, she would be the wife of a
man who had failed in literature. She would not be able to take a place in
society. Life would be supported without struggle; nothing more to be

This view of the future possessed her strongly when, on the second day,
she went to communicate her news to Mrs Carter. This amiable lady had now
become what she always desired to be, Amy’s intimate friend; they saw each
other very frequently, and conversed of most things with much frankness.
It was between eleven and twelve in the morning when Amy paid her visit,
and she found Mrs Carter on the point of going out.

‘I was coming to see you,’ cried Edith. ‘Why haven’t you let me know of
what has happened?’

‘You have heard, I suppose?’

‘Albert heard from your brother.’

‘I supposed he would. And I haven’t felt in the mood for talking about it,
even with you.’

They went into Mrs Carter’s boudoir, a tiny room full of such pretty
things as can be purchased nowadays by anyone who has a few shillings to
spare, and tolerable taste either of their own or at second-hand. Had she
been left to her instincts, Edith would have surrounded herself with
objects representing a much earlier stage of artistic development; but she
was quick to imitate what fashion declared becoming. Her husband regarded
her as a remarkable authority in all matters of personal or domestic

‘And what are you going to do?’ she inquired, examining Amy from head to
foot, as if she thought that the inheritance of so substantial a sum must
have produced visible changes in her friend.

‘I am going to do nothing.’

‘But surely you’re not in low spirits?’

‘What have I to rejoice about?’

They talked for a while before Amy brought herself to utter what she was

‘Isn’t it a most ridiculous thing that married people who both wish to
separate can’t do so and be quite free again?’

‘I suppose it would lead to all sorts of troubles—don’t you think?’

‘So people say about every new step in civilisation. What would have been
thought twenty years ago of a proposal to make all married women
independent of their husbands in money matters? All sorts of absurd
dangers were foreseen, no doubt. And it’s the same now about divorce. In
America people can get divorced if they don’t suit each other—at all
events in some of the States—and does any harm come of it? Just the
opposite I should think.’

Edith mused. Such speculations were daring, but she had grown accustomed
to think of Amy as an ‘advanced’ woman, and liked to imitate her in this

‘It does seem reasonable,’ she murmured.

‘The law ought to encourage such separations, instead of forbidding them,’
Amy pursued. ‘If a husband and wife find that they have made a mistake,
what useless cruelty it is to condemn them to suffer the consequences for
the whole of their lives!’

‘I suppose it’s to make people careful,’ said Edith, with a laugh.

‘If so, we know that it has always failed, and always will fail; so the
sooner such a profitless law is altered the better. Isn’t there some
society for getting that kind of reform? I would subscribe fifty pounds a
year to help it. Wouldn’t you?’

‘Yes, if I had it to spare,’ replied the other.

Then they both laughed, but Edith the more naturally.

‘Not on my own account, you know,’ she added.

‘It’s because women who are happily married can’t and won’t understand the
position of those who are not that there’s so much difficulty in reforming
marriage laws.’

‘But I understand you, Amy, and I grieve about you. What you are to do I
can’t think.’

‘Oh, it’s easy to see what I shall do. Of course I have no choice really.
And I ought to have a choice; that’s the hardship and the wrong of it.
Perhaps if I had, I should find a sort of pleasure in sacrificing myself.’

There were some new novels on the table; Amy took up a volume presently,
and glanced over a page or two.

‘I don’t know how you can go on reading that sort of stuff, book after
book,’ she exclaimed.

‘Oh, but people say this last novel of Markland’s is one of his best.’

‘Best or worst, novels are all the same. Nothing but love, love, love;
what silly nonsense it is! Why don’t people write about the really
important things of life? Some of the French novelists do; several of
Balzac’s, for instance. I have just been reading his “Cousin Pons,” a
terrible book, but I enjoyed it ever so much because it was nothing like a
love story. What rubbish is printed about love!’

‘I get rather tired of it sometimes,’ admitted Edith with amusement.

‘I should hope you do, indeed. What downright lies are accepted as
indisputable! That about love being a woman’s whole life; who believes it
really? Love is the most insignificant thing in most women’s lives. It
occupies a few months, possibly a year or two, and even then I doubt if it
is often the first consideration.’

Edith held her head aside, and pondered smilingly.

‘I’m sure there’s a great opportunity for some clever novelist who will
never write about love at all.’

‘But then it does come into life.’

‘Yes, for a month or two, as I say. Think of the biographies of men and
women; how many pages are devoted to their love affairs? Compare those
books with novels which profess to be biographies, and you see how false
such pictures are. Think of the very words “novel,” “romance”—what
do they mean but exaggeration of one bit of life?’

‘That may be true. But why do people find the subject so interesting?’

‘Because there is so little love in real life. That’s the truth of it. Why
do poor people care only for stories about the rich? The same principle.’

‘How clever you are, Amy!’

‘Am I? It’s very nice to be told so. Perhaps I have some cleverness of a
kind; but what use is it to me? My life is being wasted. I ought to have a
place in the society of clever people. I was never meant to live quietly
in the background. Oh, if I hadn’t been in such a hurry, and so

‘Oh, I wanted to ask you,’ said Edith, soon after this. ‘Do you wish
Albert to say anything about you—at the hospital?’

‘There’s no reason why he shouldn’t.’

‘You won’t even write to say—?’

‘I shall do nothing.’

Since the parting from her husband, there had proceeded in Amy a
noticeable maturing of intellect. Probably the one thing was a consequence
of the other. During that last year in the flat her mind was held captive
by material cares, and this arrest of her natural development doubtless
had much to do with the appearance of acerbity in a character which had
displayed so much sweetness, so much womanly grace. Moreover, it was
arrest at a critical point. When she fell in love with Edwin Reardon her
mind had still to undergo the culture of circumstances; though a woman in
years she had seen nothing of life but a few phases of artificial society,
and her education had not progressed beyond the final schoolgirl stage.
Submitting herself to Reardon’s influence, she passed through what was a
highly useful training of the intellect; but with the result that she
became clearly conscious of the divergence between herself and her
husband. In endeavouring to imbue her with his own literary tastes,
Reardon instructed Amy as to the natural tendencies of her mind, which
till then she had not clearly understood. When she ceased to read with the
eyes of passion, most of the things which were Reardon’s supreme interests
lost their value for her. A sound intelligence enabled her to think and
feel in many directions, but the special line of her growth lay apart from
that in which the novelist and classical scholar had directed her.

When she found herself alone and independent, her mind acted like a spring
when pressure is removed. After a few weeks of desoeuvrement she obeyed
the impulse to occupy herself with a kind of reading alien to Reardon’s
sympathies. The solid periodicals attracted her, and especially those
articles which dealt with themes of social science. Anything that savoured
of newness and boldness in philosophic thought had a charm for her palate.
She read a good deal of that kind of literature which may be defined as
specialism popularised; writing which addresses itself to educated, but
not strictly studious, persons, and which forms the reservoir of
conversation for society above the sphere of turf and west-endism. Thus,
for instance, though she could not undertake the volumes of Herbert
Spencer, she was intelligently acquainted with the tenor of their
contents; and though she had never opened one of Darwin’s books, her
knowledge of his main theories and illustrations was respectable. She was
becoming a typical woman of the new time, the woman who has developed
concurrently with journalistic enterprise.

Not many days after that conversation with Edith Carter, she had occasion
to visit Mudie’s, for the new number of some periodical which contained an
appetising title. As it was a sunny and warm day she walked to New Oxford
Street from the nearest Metropolitan station. Whilst waiting at the
library counter, she heard a familiar voice in her proximity; it was that
of Jasper Milvain, who stood talking with a middle-aged lady. As Amy
turned to look at him his eye met hers; clearly he had been aware of her.
The review she desired was handed to her; she moved aside, and turned over
the pages. Then Milvain walked up.

He was armed cap-a-pie in the fashions of suave society; no Bohemianism of
garb or person, for Jasper knew he could not afford that kind of economy.
On her part, Amy was much better dressed than usual, a costume suited to
her position of bereaved heiress.

‘What a time since we met!’ said Jasper, taking her delicately gloved hand
and looking into her face with his most effective smile.

‘And why?’ asked Amy.

‘Indeed, I hardly know. I hope Mrs Yule is well?’

‘Quite, thank you.’

It seemed as if he would draw back to let her pass, and so make an end of
the colloquy. But Amy, though she moved forward, added a remark:

‘I don’t see your name in any of this month’s magazines.’

‘I have nothing signed this month. A short review in The Current, that’s

‘But I suppose you write as much as ever?’

‘Yes; but chiefly in weekly papers just now. You don’t see the

‘Oh yes. And I think I can generally recognise your hand.’

They issued from the library.

‘Which way are you going?’ Jasper inquired, with something more of the old

‘I walked from Gower Street station, and I think, as it’s so fine, I shall
walk back again.’

He accompanied her. They turned up Museum Street, and Amy, after a short
silence, made inquiry concerning his sisters.

‘I am sorry I saw them only once, but no doubt you thought it better to
let the acquaintance end there.’

‘I really didn’t think of it in that way at all,’ Jasper replied.

naturally understood it so, when you even ceased to call, yourself.’

‘But don’t you feel that there would have been a good deal of awkwardness
in my coming to Mrs Yule’s?’

‘Seeing that you looked at things from my husband’s point of view?’

‘Oh, that’s a mistake! I have only seen your husband once since he went to

Amy gave him a look of surprise.

‘You are not on friendly terms with him?’

‘Well, we have drifted apart. For some reason he seemed to think that my
companionship was not very profitable. So it was better, on the whole,
that I should see neither you nor him.’

Amy was wondering whether he had heard of her legacy. He might have been
informed by a Wattleborough correspondent, even if no one in London had
told him.

‘Do your sisters keep up their friendship with my cousin Marian?’ she
asked, quitting the previous difficult topic.

‘Oh yes!’ He smiled. ‘They see a great deal of each other.’

‘Then of course you have heard of my uncle’s death?’

‘Yes. I hope all your difficulties are now at an end.’

Amy delayed a moment, then said: ‘I hope so,’ without any emphasis.

‘Do you think of spending this winter abroad?’

It was the nearest he could come to a question concerning the future of
Amy and her husband.

‘Everything is still quite uncertain. But tell me something about our old
acquaintances. How does Mr Biffen get on?’

‘I scarcely ever see him, but I think he pegs away at an interminable
novel, which no one will publish when it’s done. Whelpdale I meet

He talked of the latter’s projects and achievements in a lively strain.

‘Your own prospects continue to brighten, no doubt,’ said Amy.

‘I really think they do. Things go fairly well. And I have lately received
a promise of very valuable help.’

‘From whom?’

‘A relative of yours.’

Amy turned to interrogate him with a look.

‘A relative? You mean—?’

‘Yes; Marian.’

They were passing Bedford Square. Amy glanced at the trees, now almost
bare of foliage; then her eyes met Jasper’s, and she smiled significantly.

‘I should have thought your aim would have been far more ambitious,’ she
said, with distinct utterance.

‘Marian and I have been engaged for some time—practically.’

‘Indeed? I remember now how you once spoke of her. And you will be married

‘Probably before the end of the year. I see that you are criticising my
motives. I am quite prepared for that in everyone who knows me and the
circumstances. But you must remember that I couldn’t foresee anything of
this kind. It enables us to marry sooner, that’s all.’

‘I am sure your motives are unassailable,’ replied Amy, still with a
smile. ‘I imagined that you wouldn’t marry for years, and then some
distinguished person. This throws new light upon your character.’

‘You thought me so desperately scheming and cold-blooded?’

‘Oh dear no! But—well, to be sure, I can’t say that I know Marian. I
haven’t seen her for years and years. She may be admirably suited to you.’

‘Depend upon it, I think so.’

‘She’s likely to shine in society? She is a brilliant girl, full of tact
and insight?’

‘Scarcely all that, perhaps.’

He looked dubiously at his companion.

‘Then you have abandoned your old ambitions?’ Amy pursued.

‘Not a bit of it. I am on the way to achieve them.’

‘And Marian is the ideal wife to assist you?’

‘From one point of view, yes. Pray, why all this ironic questioning?’

‘Not ironic at all.’

‘It sounded very much like it, and I know from of old that you have a
tendency that way.’

‘The news surprised me a little, I confess. But I see that I am in danger
of offending you.’

‘Let us wait another five years, and then I will ask your opinion as to
the success of my marriage. I don’t take a step of this kind without
maturely considering it. Have I made many blunders as yet?’

‘As yet, not that I know of.’

‘Do I impress you as one likely to commit follies?’

‘I had rather wait a little before answering that.’

‘That is to say, you prefer to prophesy after the event. Very well, we
shall see.’

In the length of Gower Street they talked of several other things less
personal. By degrees the tone of their conversation had become what it was
used to be, now and then almost confidential.

‘You are still at the same lodgings?’ asked Amy, as they drew near to the
railway station.

‘I moved yesterday, so that the girls and I could be under the same roof—until
the next change.’

‘You will let us know when that takes place?’

He promised, and with exchange of smiles which were something like a
challenge they took leave of each other.


A touch of congestion in the right lung was a warning to Reardon that his
half-year of insufficient food and general waste of strength would make
the coming winter a hard time for him, worse probably than the last.
Biffen, responding in person to the summons, found him in bed, waited upon
by a gaunt, dry, sententious woman of sixty—not the landlady, but a
lodger who was glad to earn one meal a day by any means that offered.

‘It wouldn’t be very nice to die here, would it?’ said the sufferer, with
a laugh which was cut short by a cough. ‘One would like a comfortable
room, at least. Why, I don’t know. I dreamt last night that I was in a
ship that had struck something and was going down; and it wasn’t the
thought of death that most disturbed me, but a horror of being plunged in
the icy water. In fact, I have had just the same feeling on shipboard. I
remember waking up midway between Corfu and Brindisi, on that shaky tub of
a Greek boat; we were rolling a good deal, and I heard a sort of alarmed
rush and shouting up on deck. It was so warm and comfortable in the berth,
and I thought with intolerable horror of the possibility of sousing into
the black depths.’

‘Don’t talk, my boy,’ advised Biffen. ‘Let me read you the new chapter of
“Mr Bailey.” It may induce a refreshing slumber.’

Reardon was away from his duties for a week; he returned to them with a
feeling of extreme shakiness, an indisposition to exert himself, and a
complete disregard of the course that events were taking. It was fortunate
that he had kept aside that small store of money designed for emergencies;
he was able to draw on it now to pay his doctor, and provide himself with
better nourishment than usual. He purchased new boots, too, and some
articles of warm clothing of which he stood in need—an alarming

A change had come over him; he was no longer rendered miserable by
thoughts of Amy—seldom, indeed, turned his mind to her at all. His
secretaryship at Croydon was a haven within view; the income of
seventy-five pounds (the other half to go to his wife) would support him
luxuriously, and for anything beyond that he seemed to care little. Next
Sunday he was to go over to Croydon and see the institution.

One evening of calm weather he made his way to Clipstone Street and
greeted his friend with more show of light-heartedness than he had been
capable of for at least two years.

‘I have been as nearly as possible a happy man all to-day,’ he said, when
his pipe was well lit. ‘Partly the sunshine, I suppose. There’s no saying
if the mood will last, but if it does all is well with me. I regret
nothing and wish for nothing.’

‘A morbid state of mind,’ was Biffen’s opinion.

‘No doubt of that, but I am content to be indebted to morbidness. One must
have a rest from misery somehow. Another kind of man would have taken to
drinking; that has tempted me now and then, I assure you. But I couldn’t
afford it. Did you ever feel tempted to drink merely for the sake of
forgetting trouble?’

‘Often enough. I have done it. I have deliberately spent a certain
proportion of the money that ought to have gone for food in the cheapest
kind of strong liquor.’

‘Ha! that’s interesting. But it never got the force of a habit you had to

‘No. Partly, I dare say, because I had the warning of poor Sykes before my

‘You never see that poor fellow?’

‘Never. He must be dead, I think. He would die either in the hospital or
the workhouse.’

‘Well,’ said Reardon, musing cheerfully, ‘I shall never become a drunkard;
I haven’t that diathesis, to use your expression. Doesn’t it strike you
that you and I are very respectable persons? We really have no vices. Put
us on a social pedestal, and we should be shining lights of morality. I
sometimes wonder at our inoffensiveness. Why don’t we run amuck against
law and order? Why, at the least, don’t we become savage revolutionists,
and harangue in Regent’s Park of a Sunday?’

‘Because we are passive beings, and were meant to enjoy life very quietly.
As we can’t enjoy, we just suffer quietly, that’s all. By-the-bye, I want
to talk about a difficulty in one of the Fragments of Euripides. Did you
ever go through the Fragments?’

This made a diversion for half an hour. Then Reardon returned to his
former line of thought.

‘As I was entering patients yesterday, there came up to the table a tall,
good-looking, very quiet girl, poorly dressed, but as neat as could be.
She gave me her name, then I asked “Occupation?” She said at once, “I’m
unfortunate, sir.” I couldn’t help looking up at her in surprise; I had
taken it for granted she was a dressmaker or something of the kind. And,
do you know, I never felt so strong an impulse to shake hands, to show
sympathy, and even respect, in some way. I should have liked to say, “Why,
I am unfortunate, too!” such a good, patient face she had.’

‘I distrust such appearances,’ said Biffen in his quality of realist.

‘Well, so do I, as a rule. But in this case they were convincing. And
there was no need whatever for her to make such a declaration; she might
just as well have said anything else; it’s the merest form. I shall always
hear her voice saying, “I’m unfortunate, sir.” She made me feel what a
mistake it was for me to marry such a girl as Amy. I ought to have looked
about for some simple, kind-hearted work-girl; that was the kind of wife
indicated for me by circumstances. If I had earned a hundred a year she
would have thought we were well-to-do. I should have been an authority to
her on everything under the sun—and above it. No ambition would have
unsettled her. We should have lived in a couple of poor rooms somewhere,
and—we should have loved each other.’

‘What a shameless idealist you are!’ said Biffen, shaking his head. ‘Let
me sketch the true issue of such a marriage. To begin with, the girl would
have married you in firm persuasion that you were a “gentleman” in
temporary difficulties, and that before long you would have plenty of
money to dispose of. Disappointed in this hope, she would have grown
sharp-tempered, querulous, selfish. All your endeavours to make her
understand you would only have resulted in widening the impassable gulf.
She would have misconstrued your every sentence, found food for suspicion
in every harmless joke, tormented you with the vulgarest forms of
jealousy. The effect upon your nature would have been degrading. In the
end, you must have abandoned every effort to raise her to your own level,
and either have sunk to hers or made a rupture. Who doesn’t know the story
of such attempts? I myself ten years ago, was on the point of committing
such a folly, but, Heaven be praised! an accident saved me.’

‘You never told me that story.’

‘And don’t care to now. I prefer to forget it.’

‘Well, you can judge for yourself but not for me. Of course I might have
chosen the wrong girl, but I am supposing that I had been fortunate. In
any case there would have been a much better chance than in the marriage
that I made.’

‘Your marriage was sensible enough, and a few years hence you will be a
happy man again.’

‘You seriously think Amy will come back to me?’

‘Of course I do.’

‘Upon my word, I don’t know that I desire it.’

‘Because you are in a strangely unhealthy state.’

‘I rather think I regard the matter more sanely than ever yet. I am quite
free from sexual bias. I can see that Amy was not my fit intellectual
companion, and all emotion at the thought of her has gone from me. The
word “love” is a weariness to me. If only our idiotic laws permitted us to
break the legal bond, how glad both of us would be!’

‘You are depressed and anaemic. Get yourself in flesh, and view things
like a man of this world.’

‘But don’t you think it the best thing that can happen to a man if he
outgrows passion?’

‘In certain circumstances, no doubt.’

‘In all and any. The best moments of life are those when we contemplate
beauty in the purely artistic spirit—objectively. I have had such
moments in Greece and Italy; times when I was a free spirit, utterly
remote from the temptations and harassings of sexual emotion. What we call
love is mere turmoil. Who wouldn’t release himself from it for ever, if
the possibility offered?’

‘Oh, there’s a good deal to be said for that, of course.’

Reardon’s face was illumined with the glow of an exquisite memory.

‘Haven’t I told you,’ he said, ‘of that marvellous sunset at Athens? I was
on the Pnyx; had been rambling about there the whole afternoon. For I dare
say a couple of hours I had noticed a growing rift of light in the clouds
to the west; it looked as if the dull day might have a rich ending. That
rift grew broader and brighter—the only bit of light in the sky. On
Parnes there were white strips of ragged mist, hanging very low; the same
on Hymettus, and even the peak of Lycabettus was just hidden. Of a sudden,
the sun’s rays broke out. They showed themselves first in a strangely
beautiful way, striking from behind the seaward hills through the pass
that leads to Eleusis, and so gleaming on the nearer slopes of Aigaleos,
making the clefts black and the rounded parts of the mountain wonderfully
brilliant with golden colour. All the rest of the landscape, remember, was
untouched with a ray of light. This lasted only a minute or two, then the
sun itself sank into the open patch of sky and shot glory in every
direction; broadening beams smote upwards over the dark clouds, and made
them a lurid yellow. To the left of the sun, the gulf of Aegina was all
golden mist, the islands floating in it vaguely. To the right, over black
Salamis, lay delicate strips of pale blue—indescribably pale and

‘You remember it very clearly.’

‘As if I saw it now! But wait. I turned eastward, and there to my
astonishment was a magnificent rainbow, a perfect semicircle, stretching
from the foot of Parnes to that of Hymettus, framing Athens and its hills,
which grew brighter and brighter—the brightness for which there is
no name among colours. Hymettus was of a soft misty warmth, a something
tending to purple, its ridges marked by exquisitely soft and indefinite
shadows, the rainbow coming right down in front. The Acropolis simply
glowed and blazed. As the sun descended all these colours grew richer and
warmer; for a moment the landscape was nearly crimson. Then suddenly the
sun passed into the lower stratum of cloud, and the splendour died almost
at once, except that there remained the northern half of the rainbow,
which had become double. In the west, the clouds were still glorious for a
time; there were two shaped like great expanded wings, edged with

‘Stop!’ cried Biffen, ‘or I shall clutch you by the throat. I warned you
before that I can’t stand those reminiscences.’

‘Live in hope. Scrape together twenty pounds, and go there, if you die of
hunger afterwards.’

‘I shall never have twenty shillings,’ was the despondent answer.

‘I feel sure you will sell “Mr Bailey.”’

‘It’s kind of you to encourage me; but if “Mr Bailey” is ever sold I don’t
mind undertaking to eat my duplicate of the proofs.’

‘But now, you remember what led me to that. What does a man care for any
woman on earth when he is absorbed in contemplation of that kind?’

‘But it is only one of life’s satisfactions.’

‘I am only maintaining that it is the best, and infinitely preferable to
sexual emotion. It leaves, no doubt, no bitterness of any kind. Poverty
can’t rob me of those memories. I have lived in an ideal world that was
not deceitful, a world which seems to me, when I recall it, beyond the
human sphere, bathed in diviner light.’

It was four or five days after this that Reardon, on going to his work in
City Road, found a note from Carter. It requested him to call at the main
hospital at half-past eleven the next morning. He supposed the appointment
had something to do with his business at Croydon, whither he had been in
the mean time. Some unfavourable news, perhaps; any misfortune was likely.

He answered the summons punctually, and on entering the general office was
requested by the clerk to wait in Mr Carter’s private room; the secretary
had not yet arrived. His waiting lasted some ten minutes, then the door
opened and admitted, not Carter, but Mrs Edmund Yule.

Reardon stood up in perturbation. He was anything but prepared, or
disposed, for an interview with this lady. She came towards him with hand
extended and a countenance of suave friendliness.

‘I doubted whether you would see me if I let you know,’ she said. ‘Forgive
me this little bit of scheming, will you? I have something so very
important to speak to you about.’

He said nothing, but kept a demeanour of courtesy.

‘I think you haven’t heard from Amy?’ Mrs Yule asked.

‘Not since I saw her.’

‘And you don’t know what has come to pass?’

‘I have heard of nothing.’

‘I am come to see you quite on my own responsibility, quite. I took Mr
Carter into my confidence, but begged him not to let Mrs Carter know, lest
she should tell Amy; I think he will keep his promise. It seemed to me
that it was really my duty to do whatever I could in these sad, sad

Reardon listened respectfully, but without sign of feeling.

‘I had better tell you at once that Amy’s uncle at Wattleborough is dead,
and that in his will he has bequeathed her ten thousand pounds.’

Mrs Yule watched the effect of this. For a moment none was visible, but
she saw at length that Reardon’s lips trembled and his eyebrows twitched.

‘I am glad to hear of her good fortune,’ he said distantly and in even

‘You will feel, I am sure,’ continued his mother-in-law, ‘that this must
put an end to your most unhappy differences.’

‘How can it have that result?’

‘It puts you both in a very different position, does it not? But for your
distressing circumstances, I am sure there would never have been such
unpleasantness—never. Neither you nor Amy is the kind of person to
take a pleasure in disagreement. Let me beg you to go and see her again.
Everything is so different now. Amy has not the faintest idea that I have
come to see you, and she mustn’t on any account be told, for her worst
fault is that sensitive pride of hers. And I’m sure you won’t be offended,
Edwin, if I say that you have very much the same failing. Between two such
sensitive people differences might last a lifetime, unless one could be
persuaded to take the first step. Do be generous! A woman is privileged to
be a little obstinate, it is always said. Overlook the fault, and persuade
her to let bygones be bygones.’

There was an involuntary affectedness in Mrs Yule’s speech which repelled
Reardon. He could not even put faith in her assurance that Amy knew
nothing of this intercession. In any case it was extremely distasteful to
him to discuss such matters with Mrs Yule.

‘Under no circumstances could I do more than I already have done,’ he
replied. ‘And after what you have told me, it is impossible for me to go
and see her unless she expressly invites me.’

‘Oh, if only you would overcome this sensitiveness!’

‘It is not in my power to do so. My poverty, as you justly say, was the
cause of our parting; but if Amy is no longer poor, that is very far from
a reason why I should go to her as a suppliant for forgiveness.’

‘But do consider the facts of the case, independently of feeling.

I really think I don’t go too far in saying that at least some—some
provocation was given by you first of all. I am so very, very far from
wishing to say anything disagreeable—I am sure you feel that—but
wasn’t there some little ground for complaint on Amy’s part? Wasn’t there,

Reardon was tortured with nervousness. He wished to be alone, to think
over what had happened, and Mrs Yule’s urgent voice rasped upon his ears.
Its very smoothness made it worse.

‘There may have been ground for grief and concern,’ he answered, ‘but for
complaint, no, I think not.’

‘But I understand’—the voice sounded rather irritable now—‘that
you positively reproached and upbraided her because she was reluctant to
go and live in some very shocking place.’

‘I may have lost my temper after Amy had shown—But I can’t review
our troubles in this way.’

‘Am I to plead in vain?’

‘I regret very much that I can’t possibly do as you wish. It is all
between Amy and myself. Interference by other people cannot do any good.’

‘I am sorry you should use such a word as “interference,”’ replied Mrs
Yule, bridling a little. ‘Very sorry, indeed. I confess it didn’t occur to
me that my good-will to you could be seen in that light.’

‘Believe me that I didn’t use the word offensively.’

‘Then you refuse to take any step towards a restoration of good feeling?’

‘I am obliged to, and Amy would understand perfectly why I say so.’

His earnestness was so unmistakable that Mrs Yule had no choice but to
rise and bring the interview to an end. She commanded herself sufficiently
to offer a regretful hand.

‘I can only say that my daughter is very, very unfortunate.’

Reardon lingered a little after her departure, then left the hospital and
walked at a rapid pace in no particular direction.

Ah! if this had happened in the first year of his marriage, what more
blessed man than he would have walked the earth! But it came after
irreparable harm. No amount of wealth could undo the ruin caused by

It was natural for him, as soon as he could think with deliberation, to
turn towards his only friend. But on calling at the house in Clipstone
Street he found the garret empty, and no one could tell him when its
occupant was likely to be back. He left a note, and made his way back to
Islington. The evening had to be spent at the hospital, but on his return
Biffen sat waiting for him.

‘You called about twelve, didn’t you?’ the visitor inquired.


‘I was at the police-court. Odd thing—but it always happens so—that
I should have spoken of Sykes the other night. Last night I came upon a
crowd in Oxford Street, and the nucleus of it was no other than Sykes
himself very drunk and disorderly, in the grip of two policemen. Nothing
could be done for him; I was useless as bail; he e’en had to sleep in the
cell. But I went this morning to see what would become of him. Such a
spectacle when they brought him forward! It was only five shillings fine,
and to my astonishment he produced the money. I joined him outside—it
required a little courage—and had a long talk with him. He’s writing
a London Letter for some provincial daily, and the first payment had
thrown him off his balance.’

Reardon laughed gaily, and made inquiries about the eccentric gentleman.
Only when the subject was exhausted did he speak of his own concerns,
relating quietly what he had learnt from Mrs Yule. Biffen’s eyes widened.

‘So,’ Reardon cried with exultation, ‘there is the last burden off my
mind! Henceforth I haven’t a care! The only thing that still troubled me
was my inability to give Amy enough to live upon. Now she is provided for
in secula seculorum. Isn’t this grand news?’

‘Decidedly. But if she is provided for, so are you.’

‘Biffen, you know me better. Could I accept a farthing of her money? This
has made our coming together again for ever impossible, unless—unless
dead things can come to life. I know the value of money, but I can’t take
it from Amy.’

The other kept silence.

‘No! But now everything is well. She has her child, and can devote herself
to bringing the boy up. And I—but I shall be rich on my own account.
A hundred and fifty a year; it would be a farce to offer Amy her share of
it. By all the gods of Olympus, we will go to Greece together, you and I!’


‘I swear it! Let me save for a couple of years, and then get a good
month’s holiday, or more if possible, and, as Pallas Athene liveth! we
shall find ourselves at Marseilles, going aboard some boat of the
Messageries. I can’t believe yet that this is true. Come, we will have a
supper to-night. Come out into Upper Street, and let us eat, drink, and be

‘You are beside yourself. But never mind; let us rejoice by all means.
There’s every reason.’

‘That poor girl! Now, at last, she’ll be at ease.’


‘Amy, of course! I’m delighted on her account. Ah! but if it had come a
long time ago, in the happy days! Then she, too, would have gone to
Greece, wouldn’t she? Everything in life comes too soon or too late. What
it would have meant for her and for me! She would never have hated me
then, never. Biffen, am I base or contemptible? She thinks so. That’s how
poverty has served me. If you had seen her, how she looked at me, when we
met the other day, you would understand well enough why I couldn’t live
with her now, not if she entreated me to. That would make me base if you
like. Gods! how ashamed I should be if I yielded to such a temptation! And

He had worked himself to such intensity of feeling that at length his
voice choked and tears burst from his eyes.

‘Come out, and let us have a walk,’ said Biffen.

On leaving the house they found themselves in a thick fog, through which
trickled drops of warm rain. Nevertheless, they pursued their purpose, and
presently were seated in one of the boxes of a small coffee-shop. Their
only companion in the place was a cab-driver, who had just finished a
meal, and was now nodding into slumber over his plate and cup. Reardon
ordered fried ham and eggs, the luxury of the poor, and when the attendant
woman was gone away to execute the order, he burst into excited laughter.

‘Here we sit, two literary men! How should we be regarded by—’

He named two or three of the successful novelists of the day.

‘With what magnificent scorn they would turn from us and our squalid
feast! They have never known struggle; not they. They are public-school
men, University men, club men, society men. An income of less than three
or four hundred a year is inconceivable to them; that seems the minimum
for an educated man’s support. It would be small-minded to think of them
with rancour, but, by Apollo! I know that we should change places with
them if the work we have done were justly weighed against theirs.’

‘What does it matter? We are different types of intellectual workers. I
think of them savagely now and then, but only when hunger gets a trifle
too keen. Their work answers a demand; ours—or mine at all events—doesn’t.
They are in touch with the reading multitude; they have the sentiments of
the respectable; they write for their class. Well, you had your circle of
readers, and, if things hadn’t gone against you, by this time you
certainly could have counted on your three or four hundred a year.’

‘It’s unlikely that I should ever have got more than two hundred pounds
for a book; and, to have kept at my best, I must have been content to
publish once every two or three years. The position was untenable with no
private income. And I must needs marry a wife of dainty instincts! What
astounding impudence! No wonder Fate pitched me aside into the gutter.’

They ate their ham and eggs, and exhilarated themselves with a cup of
chicory—called coffee. Then Biffen drew from the pocket of his
venerable overcoat the volume of Euripides he had brought, and their talk
turned once more to the land of the sun. Only when the coffee-shop was
closed did they go forth again into the foggy street, and at the top of
Pentonville Hill they stood for ten minutes debating a metrical effect in
one of the Fragments.

Day after day Reardon went about with a fever upon him. By evening his
pulse was always rapid, and no extremity of weariness brought him a
refreshing sleep. In conversation he seemed either depressed or excited,
more often the latter. Save when attending to his duties at the hospital,
he made no pretence of employing himself; if at home, he sat for hours
without opening a book, and his walks, excepting when they led him to
Clipstone Street, were aimless.

The hours of postal delivery found him waiting in an anguish of suspense.
At eight o’clock each morning he stood by his window, listening for the
postman’s knock in the street. As it approached he went out to the head of
the stairs, and if the knock sounded at the door of his house, he leaned
over the banisters, trembling in expectation. But the letter was never for
him. When his agitation had subsided he felt glad of the disappointment,
and laughed and sang.

One day Carter appeared at the City Road establishment, and made an
opportunity of speaking to his clerk in private.

‘I suppose,’ he said with a smile, ‘they’ll have to look out for someone
else at Croydon?’

‘By no means! The thing is settled. I go at Christmas.’

‘You really mean that?’


Seeing that Reardon was not disposed even to allude to private
circumstances, the secretary said no more, and went away convinced that
misfortunes had turned the poor fellow’s brain.

Wandering in the city, about this time, Reardon encountered his friend the

‘Would you like to meet Sykes?’ asked Biffen. ‘I am just going to see

‘Where does he live?’

‘In some indiscoverable hole. To save fuel, he spends his mornings at some
reading-rooms; the admission is only a penny, and there he can see all the
papers and do his writing and enjoy a grateful temperature.’

They repaired to the haunt in question. A flight of stairs brought them to
a small room in which were exposed the daily newspapers; another ascent,
and they were in a room devoted to magazines, chess, and refreshments; yet
another, and they reached the department of weekly publications; lastly,
at the top of the house, they found a lavatory, and a chamber for the use
of those who desired to write. The walls of this last retreat were of blue
plaster and sloped inwards from the floor; along them stood school desks
with benches, and in one place was suspended a ragged and dirty card
announcing that paper and envelopes could be purchased downstairs. An
enormous basket full of waste-paper, and a small stove, occupied two
corners; ink blotches, satirical designs, and much scribbling in pen and
pencil served for mural adornment. From the adjacent lavatory came sounds
of splashing and spluttering, and the busy street far below sent up its
confused noises.

Two persons only sat at the desks. One was a hunger-bitten, out-of-work
clerk, evidently engaged in replying to advertisements; in front of him
lay two or three finished letters, and on the ground at his feet were
several crumpled sheets of note-paper, representing abortive essays in
composition. The other man, also occupied with the pen, looked about forty
years old, and was clad in a very rusty suit of tweeds; on the bench
beside him lay a grey overcoat and a silk hat which had for some time been
moulting. His face declared the habit to which he was a victim, but it had
nothing repulsive in its lineaments and expression; on the contrary, it
was pleasing, amiable, and rather quaint. At this moment no one would have
doubted his sobriety. With coat-sleeve turned back, so as to give free
play to his right hand and wrist, revealing meanwhile a flannel shirt of
singular colour, and with his collar unbuttoned (he wore no tie) to leave
his throat at ease as he bent myopically over the paper, he was writing at
express speed, evidently in the full rush of the ardour of composition.
The veins of his forehead were dilated, and his chin pushed forward in a
way that made one think of a racing horse.

‘Are you too busy to talk?’ asked Biffen, going to his side.

‘I am! Upon my soul I am!’ exclaimed the other looking up in alarm. ‘For
the love of Heaven don’t put me out! A quarter of an hour!’

‘All right. I’ll come up again.’

The friends went downstairs and turned over the papers.

‘Now let’s try him again,’ said Biffen, when considerably more than the
requested time had elapsed. They went up, and found Mr Sykes in an
attitude of melancholy meditation. He had turned back his coat sleeve, had
buttoned his collar, and was eyeing the slips of completed manuscript.
Biffen presented his companion, and Mr Sykes greeted the novelist with
much geniality.

‘What do you think this is?’ he exclaimed, pointing to his work. ‘The
first instalment of my autobiography for the “Shropshire Weekly Herald.”
Anonymous, of course, but strictly veracious, with the omission of sundry
little personal failings which are nothing to the point. I call it
“Through the Wilds of Literary London.” An old friend of mine edits the
“Herald,” and I’m indebted to him for the suggestion.’

His voice was a trifle husky, but he spoke like a man of education.

‘Most people will take it for fiction. I wish I had inventive power enough
to write fiction anything like it. I have published novels, Mr Reardon,
but my experience in that branch of literature was peculiar—as I may
say it has been in most others to which I have applied myself. My first
stories were written for “The Young Lady’s Favourite,” and most remarkable
productions they were, I promise you. That was fifteen years ago, in the
days of my versatility. I could throw off my supplemental novelette of
fifteen thousand words without turning a hair, and immediately after it
fall to, fresh as a daisy, on the “Illustrated History of the United
States,” which I was then doing for Edward Coghlan. But presently I
thought myself too good for the “Favourite”; in an evil day I began to
write three-volume novels, aiming at reputation. It wouldn’t do. I
persevered for five years, and made about five failures. Then I went back
to Bowring. “Take me on again, old man, will you?” Bowring was a man of
few words; he said, “Blaze away, my boy.” And I tried to. But it was no
use; I had got out of the style; my writing was too literary by a long
chalk. For a whole year I deliberately strove to write badly, but Bowring
was so pained with the feebleness of my efforts that at last he sternly
bade me avoid his sight. “What the devil,” he roared one day, “do you mean
by sending me stories about men and women? You ought to know better than
that, a fellow of your experience!” So I had to give it up, and there was
an end of my career as a writer of fiction.’

He shook his head sadly.

‘Biffen,’ he continued, ‘when I first made his acquaintance, had an idea
of writing for the working classes; and what do you think he was going to
offer them? Stories about the working classes! Nay, never hang your head
for it, old boy; it was excusable in the days of your youth. Why, Mr
Reardon, as no doubt you know well enough, nothing can induce working men
or women to read stories that treat of their own world. They are the most
consumed idealists in creation, especially the women. Again and again
work-girls have said to me: “Oh, I don’t like that book; it’s nothing but
real life.”’

‘It’s the fault of women in general,’ remarked Reardon.

‘So it is, but it comes out with delicious naivete in the working classes.
Now, educated people like to read of scenes that are familiar to them,
though I grant you that the picture must be idealised if you’re to appeal
to more than one in a thousand. The working classes detest anything that
tries to represent their daily life. It isn’t because that life is too
painful; no, no; it’s downright snobbishness. Dickens goes down only with
the best of them, and then solely because of his strength in farce and his

Presently the three went out together, and had dinner at an a la mode beef
shop. Mr Sykes ate little, but took copious libations of porter at
twopence a pint. When the meal was over he grew taciturn.

‘Can you walk westwards?’ Biffen asked.

‘I’m afraid not, afraid not. In fact I have an appointment at two—at
Aldgate station.’

They parted from him.

‘Now he’ll go and soak till he’s unconscious,’ said Biffen. ‘Poor fellow!
Pity he ever earns anything at all. The workhouse would be better, I
should think.’

‘No, no! Let a man drink himself to death rather. I have a horror of the
workhouse. Remember the clock at Marylebone I used to tell you about.’

‘Unphilosophic. I don’t think I should be unhappy in the workhouse. I
should have a certain satisfaction in the thought that I had forced
society to support me. And then the absolute freedom from care! Why, it’s
very much the same as being a man of independent fortune.’

It was about a week after this, midway in November, that there at length
came to Manville Street a letter addressed in Amy’s hand. It arrived at
three one afternoon; Reardon heard the postman, but he had ceased to rush
out on every such occasion, and to-day he was feeling ill. Lying upon the
bed, he had just raised his head wearily when he became aware that someone
was mounting to his room. He sprang up, his face and neck flushing.

This time Amy began ‘Dear Edwin’; the sight of those words made his brain

‘You must, of course, have heard [she wrote] that my uncle John has left
me ten thousand pounds. It has not yet come into my possession, and I had
decided that I would not write to you till that happened, but perhaps you
may altogether misunderstand my silence.

‘If this money had come to me when you were struggling so hard to earn a
living for us, we should never have spoken the words and thought the
thoughts which now make it so difficult for me to write to you. What I
wish to say is that, although the property is legally my own, I quite
recognise that you have a right to share in it. Since we have lived apart
you have sent me far more than you could really afford, believing it your
duty to do so; now that things are so different I wish you, as well as
myself, to benefit by the change.

‘I said at our last meeting that I should be quite prepared to return to
you if you took that position at Croydon. There is now no need for you to
pursue a kind of work for which you are quite unfitted, and I repeat that
I am willing to live with you as before. If you will tell me where you
would like to make a new home I shall gladly agree. I do not think you
would care to leave London permanently, and certainly I should not.

‘Please to let me hear from you as soon as possible. In writing like this
I feel that I have done what you expressed a wish that I should do. I have
asked you to put an end to our separation, and I trust that I have not
asked in vain.

‘Yours always,


The letter fell from his hand. It was such a letter as he might have
expected, but the beginning misled him, and as his agitation throbbed
itself away he suffered an encroachment of despair which made him for a
time unable to move or even think.

His reply, written by the dreary twilight which represented sunset, ran

‘Dear Amy,—I thank you for your letter, and I appreciate your motive
in writing it. But if you feel that you have “done what I expressed a wish
that you should do,” you must have strangely misunderstood me.

‘The only one thing that I wished was, that by some miracle your love for
me might be revived. Can I persuade myself that this is the letter of a
wife who desires to return to me because in her heart she loves me? If
that is the truth you have been most unfortunate in trying to express

‘You have written because it seemed your duty to do so. But, indeed, a
sense of duty such as this is a mistaken one. You have no love for me, and
where there is no love there is no mutual obligation in marriage. Perhaps
you think that regard for social conventions will necessitate your living
with me again. But have more courage; refuse to act falsehoods; tell
society it is base and brutal, and that you prefer to live an honest life.

‘I cannot share your wealth, dear. But as you have no longer need of my
help—as we are now quite independent of each other—I shall
cease to send the money which hitherto I have considered yours. In this
way I shall have enough, and more than enough, for my necessities, so that
you will never have to trouble yourself with the thought that I am
suffering privations. At Christmas I go to Croydon, and I will then write
to you again.

‘For we may at all events be friendly. My mind is relieved from ceaseless
anxiety on your account. I know now that you are safe from that accursed
poverty which is to blame for all our sufferings. You I do not blame,
though I have sometimes done so. My own experience teaches me how kindness
can be embittered by misfortune. Some great and noble sorrow may have the
effect of drawing hearts together, but to struggle against destitution, to
be crushed by care about shillings and sixpences—that must always

‘No other reply than this is possible, so I beg you not to write in this
way again. Let me know if you go to live elsewhere. I hope Willie is well,
and that his growth is still a delight and happiness to you.


That one word ‘dear,’ occurring in the middle of the letter, gave him
pause as he read the lines over. Should he not obliterate it, and even in
such a way that Amy might see what he had done? His pen was dipped in the
ink for that purpose, but after all he held his hand. Amy was still dear
to him, say what he might, and if she noted the word—if she pondered
over it—

A street gas lamp prevented the room from becoming absolutely dark. When
he had closed the envelope he lay down on his bed again, and watched the
flickering yellowness upon the ceiling. He ought to have some tea before
going to the hospital, but he cared so little for it that the trouble of
boiling water was too great.

The flickering light grew fainter; he understood at length that this was
caused by fog that had begun to descend. The fog was his enemy; it would
be wise to purchase a respirator if this hideous weather continued, for
sometimes his throat burned, and there was a rasping in his chest which
gave disagreeable admonition.

He fell asleep for half an hour, and on awaking he was feverish, as usual
at this time of day. Well, it was time to go to his work. Ugh! That first
mouthful of fog!


The rooms which Milvain had taken for himself and his sisters were modest,
but more expensive than their old quarters. As the change was on his
account he held himself responsible for the extra outlay. But for his
immediate prospects this step would have been unwarrantable, as his
earnings were only just sufficient for his needs on the previous footing.
He had resolved that his marriage must take place before Christmas; till
that event he would draw when necessary upon the girls’ little store, and
then repay them out of Marian’s dowry.

‘And what are we to do when you are married?’ asked Dora.

The question was put on the first evening of their being all under the
same roof. The trio had had supper in the girls’ sitting-room, and it was
a moment for frank conversation. Dora rejoiced in the coming marriage; her
brother had behaved honourably, and Marian, she trusted, would be very
happy, notwithstanding disagreement with her father, which seemed
inevitable. Maud was by no means so well pleased, though she endeavoured
to wear smiles. It looked to her as if Jasper had been guilty of a kind of
weakness not to be expected in him. Marian, as an individual, could not be
considered an appropriate wife for such a man with such a future; and as
for her five thousand pounds, that was ridiculous. Had it been ten—something
can be made of ten thousand; but a paltry five! Maud’s ideas on such
subjects had notably expanded of late, and one of the results was that she
did not live so harmoniously with her sister as for the first few months
of their London career.

‘I have been thinking a good deal about that,’ replied Jasper to the
younger girl’s question. He stood with his back to the fire and smoked a
cigarette. ‘I thought at first of taking a flat; but then a flat of the
kind I should want would be twice the rent of a large house. If we have a
house with plenty of room in it you might come and live with us after a
time. At first I must find you decent lodgings in our neighbourhood.’

‘You show a good deal of generosity, Jasper,’ said Maud, ‘but pray
remember that Marian isn’t bringing you five thousand a year.’

‘I regret to say that she isn’t. What she brings me is five hundred a year
for ten years—that’s how I look at it. My own income will make it
something between six or seven hundred at first, and before long probably
more like a thousand. I am quite cool and collected. I understand exactly
where I am, and where I am likely to be ten years hence. Marian’s money is
to be spent in obtaining a position for myself. At present I am spoken of
as a “smart young fellow,” and that kind of thing; but no one would offer
me an editorship, or any other serious help. Wait till I show that I have
helped myself and hands will be stretched to me from every side. ‘Tis the
way of the world. I shall belong to a club; I shall give nice, quiet
little dinners to selected people; I shall let it be understood by all and
sundry that I have a social position. Thenceforth I am quite a different
man, a man to be taken into account. And what will you bet me that I don’t
stand in the foremost rank of literary reputabilities ten years hence?’

‘I doubt whether six or seven hundred a year will be enough for this.’

‘If not, I am prepared to spend a thousand. Bless my soul! As if two or
three years wouldn’t suffice to draw out the mean qualities in the kind of
people I am thinking of! I say ten, to leave myself a great margin.’

‘Marian approves this?’

‘I haven’t distinctly spoken of it. But she approves whatever I think

The girls laughed at his way of pronouncing this.

‘And let us just suppose that you are so unfortunate as to fail?’

‘There’s no supposing it, unless, of course, I lose my health. I am not
presuming on any wonderful development of powers. Such as I am now, I need
only to be put on the little pedestal of a decent independence and plenty
of people will point fingers of admiration at me. You don’t fully
appreciate this. Mind, it wouldn’t do if I had no qualities. I have the
qualities; they only need bringing into prominence. If I am an unknown
man, and publish a wonderful book, it will make its way very slowly, or
not at all. If I, become a known man, publish that very same book, its
praise will echo over both hemispheres. I should be within the truth if I
had said “a vastly inferior book,” But I am in a bland mood at present.
Suppose poor Reardon’s novels had been published in the full light of
reputation instead of in the struggling dawn which was never to become
day, wouldn’t they have been magnified by every critic? You have to become
famous before you can secure the attention which would give fame.’

He delivered this apophthegm with emphasis, and repeated it in another

‘You have to obtain reputation before you can get a fair hearing for that
which would justify your repute. It’s the old story of the French
publisher who said to Dumas: “Make a name, and I’ll publish anything you
write.” “But how the diable,” cries the author, “am I to make a name if I
can’t get published?” If a man can’t hit upon any other way of attracting
attention, let him dance on his head in the middle of the street; after
that he may hope to get consideration for his volume of poems. I am
speaking of men who wish to win reputation before they are toothless. Of
course if your work is strong, and you can afford to wait, the probability
is that half a dozen people will at last begin to shout that you have been
monstrously neglected, as you have. But that happens when you are hoary
and sapless, and when nothing under the sun delights you.’

He lit a new cigarette.

‘Now I, my dear girls, am not a man who can afford to wait. First of all,
my qualities are not of the kind which demand the recognition of
posterity. My writing is for to-day, most distinctly hodiernal. It has no
value save in reference to to-day. The question is: How can I get the eyes
of men fixed upon me? The answer: By pretending I am quite independent of
their gaze. I shall succeed, without any kind of doubt; and then I’ll have
a medal struck to celebrate the day of my marriage.’

But Jasper was not quite so well assured of the prudence of what he was
about to do as he wished his sisters to believe. The impulse to which he
had finally yielded still kept its force; indeed, was stronger than ever
since the intimacy of lovers’ dialogue had revealed to him more of
Marian’s heart and mind. Undeniably he was in love. Not passionately, not
with the consuming desire which makes every motive seem paltry compared
with its own satisfaction; but still quite sufficiently in love to have a
great difficulty in pursuing his daily tasks. This did not still the voice
which bade him remember all the opportunities and hopes he was throwing
aside. Since the plighting of troth with Marian he had been over to
Wimbledon, to the house of his friend and patron Mr Horace Barlow, and
there he had again met with Miss Rupert. This lady had no power whatever
over his emotions, but he felt assured that she regarded him with strong
interest. When he imagined the possibility of contracting a marriage with
Miss Rupert, who would make him at once a man of solid means, his head
drooped, and he wondered at his precipitation. It had to be confessed that
he was the victim of a vulgar weakness. He had declared himself not of the
first order of progressive men.

The conversation with Amy Reardon did not tend to put his mind at rest.
Amy was astonished at so indiscreet a step in a man of his calibre. Ah! if
only Amy herself were free, with her ten thousand pounds to dispose of!
She, he felt sure, did not view him with indifference. Was there not a
touch of pique in the elaborate irony with which she had spoken of his
choice?—But it was idle to look in that direction.

He was anxious on his sisters’ account. They were clever girls, and with
energy might before long earn a bare subsistence; but it began to be
doubtful whether they would persevere in literary work. Maud, it was
clear, had conceived hopes of quite another kind. Her intimacy with Mrs
Lane was effecting a change in her habits, her dress, even her modes of
speech. A few days after their establishment in the new lodgings, Jasper
spoke seriously on this subject with the younger girl.

‘I wonder whether you could satisfy my curiosity in a certain matter,’ he
said. ‘Do you, by chance, know how much Maud gave for that new jacket in
which I saw her yesterday?’

Dora was reluctant to answer.

‘I don’t think it was very much.’

‘That is to say, it didn’t cost twenty guineas. Well, I hope not.

I notice, too, that she has been purchasing a new hat.’

‘Oh, that was very inexpensive. She trimmed it herself.’

‘Did she? Is there any particular, any quite special, reason for this

‘I really can’t say, Jasper.’

‘That’s ambiguous, you know. Perhaps it means you won’t allow yourself to

‘No, Maud doesn’t tell me about things of that kind.’

He took opportunities of investigating the matter, with the result that
some ten days after he sought private colloquy with Maud herself. She had
asked his opinion of a little paper she was going to send to a ladies’
illustrated weekly, and he summoned her to his own room.

‘I think this will do pretty well,’ he said. ‘There’s rather too much
thought in it, perhaps. Suppose you knock out one or two of the less
obvious reflections, and substitute a wholesome commonplace? You’ll have a
better chance, I assure you.’

‘But I shall make it worthless.’

‘No; you’ll probably make it worth a guinea or so. You must remember that
the people who read women’s papers are irritated, simply irritated, by
anything that isn’t glaringly obvious. They hate an unusual thought. The
art of writing for such papers—indeed, for the public in general—is
to express vulgar thought and feeling in a way that flatters the vulgar
thinkers and feelers. Just abandon your mind to it, and then let me see it

Maud took up the manuscript and glanced over it with a contemptuous smile.
Having observed her for a moment, Jasper threw himself back in the chair
and said, as if casually:

‘I am told that Mr Dolomore is becoming a great friend of yours.’

The girl’s face changed. She drew herself up, and looked away towards the

‘I don’t know that he is a “great” friend.’

‘Still, he pays enough attention to you to excite remark.’

‘Whose remark?’

‘That of several people who go to Mrs Lane’s.’

‘I don’t know any reason for it,’ said Maud coldly.

‘Look here, Maud, you don’t mind if I give you a friendly warning?’

She kept silence, with a look of superiority to all monition.

‘Dolomore,’ pursued her brother, ‘is all very well in his way, but that
way isn’t yours. I believe he has a good deal of money, but he has neither
brains nor principle. There’s no harm in your observing the nature and
habits of such individuals, but don’t allow yourself to forget that they
are altogether beneath you.’

‘There’s no need whatever for you to teach me self-respect,’ replied the

‘I’m quite sure of that; but you are inexperienced. On the whole, I do
rather wish that you would go less frequently to Mrs Lane’s.
It was rather an unfortunate choice of yours. Very much better if you
could have got on a good footing with the Barnabys. If you are generally
looked upon as belonging to the Lanes’ set it will make it difficult for
you to get in with the better people.’

Maud was not to be drawn into argument, and Jasper could only hope that
his words would have some weight with her. The Mr Dolomore in question was
a young man of rather offensive type—athletic, dandiacal, and
half-educated. It astonished Jasper that his sister could tolerate such an
empty creature for a moment; who has not felt the like surprise with
regard to women’s inclinations? He talked with Dora about it, but she was
not in her sister’s confidence.

‘I think you ought to have some influence with her,’ Jasper said.

‘Maud won’t allow anyone to interfere in—her private affairs.’

would be unfortunate if she made me quarrel with her.’

‘Oh, surely there isn’t any danger of that?’

‘I don’t know, she mustn’t be obstinate.’

Jasper himself saw a good deal of miscellaneous society at this time. He
could not work so persistently as usual, and with wise tactics he used the
seasons of enforced leisure to extend his acquaintance. Marian and he were
together twice a week, in the evening.

Of his old Bohemian associates he kept up intimate relations with one
only, and that was Whelpdale. This was in a measure obligatory, for
Whelpdale frequently came to see him, and it would have been difficult to
repel a man who was always making known how highly he esteemed the
privilege of Milvain’s friendship, and whose company on the whole was
agreeable enough. At the present juncture Whelpdale’s cheery flattery was
a distinct assistance; it helped to support Jasper in his self-confidence,
and to keep the brightest complexion on the prospect to which he had
committed himself.

‘Whelpdale is anxious to make Marian’s acquaintance,’ Jasper said to his
sisters one day. ‘Shall we have him here tomorrow evening?’

‘Just as you like,’ Maud replied.

‘You won’t object, Dora?’

‘Oh no! I rather like Mr Whelpdale.’

‘If I were to repeat that to him he’d go wild with delight. But don’t be
afraid; I shan’t. I’ll ask him to come for an hour, and trust to his
discretion not to bore us by staying too long.’

A note was posted to Whelpdale; he was invited to present himself at eight
o’clock, by which time Marian would have arrived. Jasper’s room was to be
the scene of the assembly, and punctual to the minute the literary adviser
appeared. He was dressed with all the finish his wardrobe allowed, and his
face beamed with gratification; it was rapture to him to enter the
presence of these three girls, one of whom he had, more suo, held in
romantic remembrance since his one meeting with her at Jasper’s old
lodgings. His eyes melted with tenderness as he approached Dora and saw
her smile of gracious recognition. By Maud he was profoundly impressed.
Marian inspired him with no awe, but he fully appreciated the charm of her
features and her modest gravity. After all, it was to Dora that his eyes
turned again most naturally. He thought her exquisite, and, rather than be
long without a glimpse of her, he contented himself with fixing his eyes
on the hem of her dress and the boot-toe that occasionally peeped from
beneath it.

As was to be expected in such a circle, conversation soon turned to the
subject of literary struggles.

‘I always feel it rather humiliating,’ said Jasper, ‘that I have gone
through no very serious hardships. It must be so gratifying to say to
young fellows who are just beginning:

“Ah, I remember when I was within an ace of starving to death,” and then
come out with Grub Street reminiscences of the most appalling kind.
Unfortunately, I have always had enough to eat.’

‘I haven’t,’ exclaimed Whelpdale. ‘I have lived for five days on a few
cents’ worth of pea-nuts in the States.’

‘What are pea-nuts, Mr Whelpdale?’ asked Dora.

Delighted with the question, Whelpdale described that undesirable species
of food.

‘It was in Troy,’ he went on, ‘Troy, N.Y. To think that a man should live
on pea-nuts in a town called Troy!’

‘Tell us those adventures,’ cried Jasper. ‘It’s a long time since I heard
them, and the girls will enjoy it vastly.’

Dora looked at him with such good-humoured interest that the traveller
needed no further persuasion.

‘It came to pass in those days,’ he began, ‘that I inherited from my
godfather a small, a very small, sum of money. I was making strenuous
efforts to write for magazines, with absolutely no encouragement. As
everybody was talking just then of the Centennial Exhibition at
Philadelphia, I conceived the brilliant idea of crossing the Atlantic, in
the hope that I might find valuable literary material at the Exhibition—or
Exposition, as they called it—and elsewhere. I won’t trouble you
with an account of how I lived whilst I still had money; sufficient that
no one would accept the articles I sent to England, and that at last I got
into perilous straits. I went to New York, and thought of returning home,
but the spirit of adventure was strong in me. “I’ll go West,” I said to
myself. “There I am bound to find material.” And go I did, taking an
emigrant ticket to Chicago. It was December, and I should like you to
imagine what a journey of a thousand miles by an emigrant train meant at
that season. The cars were deadly cold, and what with that and the
hardness of the seats I found it impossible to sleep; it reminded me of
tortures I had read about; I thought my brain would have burst with the
need of sleeping. At Cleveland, in Ohio, we had to wait several hours in
the night; I left the station and wandered about till I found myself on
the edge of a great cliff that looked over Lake Erie. A magnificent
picture! Brilliant moonlight, and all the lake away to the horizon frozen
and covered with snow. The clocks struck two as I stood there.’

He was interrupted by the entrance of a servant who brought coffee.

‘Nothing could be more welcome,’ cried Dora. ‘Mr Whelpdale makes one feel
quite chilly.’

There was laughter and chatting whilst Maud poured out the beverage. Then
Whelpdale pursued his narrative.

‘I reached Chicago with not quite five dollars in my pockets, and, with a
courage which I now marvel at, I paid immediately four dollars and a half
for a week’s board and lodging. “Well,” I said to myself, “for a week I am
safe. If I earn nothing in that time, at least I shall owe nothing when I
have to turn out into the streets.” It was a rather dirty little
boarding-house, in Wabash Avenue, and occupied, as I soon found, almost
entirely by actors. There was no fireplace in my bedroom, and if there had
been I couldn’t have afforded a fire. But that mattered little; what I had
to do was to set forth and discover some way of making money. Don’t
suppose that I was in a desperate state of mind; how it was, I don’t quite
know, but I felt decidedly cheerful. It was pleasant to be in this new
region of the earth, and I went about the town like a tourist who has
abundant resources.’

He sipped his coffee.

‘I saw nothing for it but to apply at the office of some newspaper, and as
I happened to light upon the biggest of them first of all, I put on a bold
face, marched in, asked if I could see the editor. There was no difficulty
whatever about this; I was told to ascend by means of the “elevator” to an
upper storey, and there I walked into a comfortable little room where a
youngish man sat smoking a cigar at a table covered with print and
manuscript. I introduced myself, stated my business. “Can you give me work
of any kind on your paper?” “Well, what experience have you had?” “None
whatever.” The editor smiled. “I’m very much afraid you would be no use to
us. But what do you think you could do?” Well now, there was but one thing
that by any possibility I could do. I asked him: “Do you publish any
fiction—short stories?” “Yes, we’re always glad of a short story, if
it’s good.” This was a big daily paper; they have weekly supplements of
all conceivable kinds of matter. “Well,” I said, “if I write a story of
English life, will you consider it?” “With pleasure.” I left him, and went
out as if my existence were henceforth provided for.’

He laughed heartily, and was joined by his hearers.

‘It was a great thing to be permitted to write a story, but then—what
story? I went down to the shore of Lake Michigan; walked there for half an
hour in an icy wind. Then I looked for a stationer’s shop, and laid out a
few of my remaining cents in the purchase of pen, ink, and paper—my
stock of all these things was at an end when I left New York. Then back to
the boarding-house. Impossible to write in my bedroom, the temperature was
below zero; there was no choice but to sit down in the common room, a
place like the smoke-room of a poor commercial hotel in England. A dozen
men were gathered about the fire, smoking, talking, quarrelling.
Favourable conditions, you see, for literary effort. But the story had to
be written, and write it I did, sitting there at the end of a deal table;
I finished it in less than a couple of days, a good long story, enough to
fill three columns of the huge paper. I stand amazed at my power of
concentration as often as I think of it!’

‘And was it accepted?’ asked Dora.

‘You shall hear. I took my manuscript to the editor, and he told me to
come and see him again next morning. I didn’t forget the appointment. As I
entered he smiled in a very promising way, and said, “I think your story
will do. I’ll put it into the Saturday supplement. Call on Saturday
morning and I’ll remunerate you.” How well I remember that word
“remunerate”! I have had an affection for the word ever since. And
remunerate me he did; scribbled something on a scrap of paper, which I
presented to the cashier. The sum was eighteen dollars. Behold me saved!’

He sipped his coffee again.

‘I have never come across an English editor who treated me with anything
like that consideration and general kindliness. How the man had time, in
his position, to see me so often, and do things in such a human way, I
can’t understand. Imagine anyone trying the same at the office of a London
newspaper! To begin with, one couldn’t see the editor at all. I shall
always think with profound gratitude of that man with the peaked brown
beard and pleasant smile.’

‘But did the pea-nuts come after that!’ inquired Dora.

‘Alas! they did. For some months I supported myself in Chicago, writing
for that same paper, and for others. But at length the flow of my
inspiration was checked; I had written myself out. And I began to grow
home-sick, wanted to get back to England. The result was that I found
myself one day in New York again, but without money enough to pay for a
passage home. I tried to write one more story. But it happened, as I was
looking over newspapers in a reading-room, that I saw one of my Chicago
tales copied into a paper published at Troy. Now Troy was not very far
off; and it occurred to me that, if I went there, the editor of this paper
might be disposed to employ me, seeing he had a taste for my fiction. And
I went, up the Hudson by steamboat. On landing at Troy I was as badly off
as when I reached Chicago; I had less than a dollar. And the worst of it
was I had come on a vain errand; the editor treated me with scant
courtesy, and no work was to be got. I took a little room, paying for it
day by day, and in the meantime I fed on those loathsome pea-nuts, buying
a handful in the street now and then. And I assure you I looked starvation
in the face.’

‘What sort of a town is Troy?’ asked Marian, speaking for the first time.

‘Don’t ask me. They make straw hats there principally, and they sell
pea-nuts. More I remember not.’

‘But you didn’t starve to death,’ said Maud.

‘No, I just didn’t. I went one afternoon into a lawyer’s office, thinking
I might get some copying work, and there I found an odd-looking old man,
sitting with an open Bible on his knees. He explained to me that he wasn’t
the lawyer; that the lawyer was away on business, and that he was just
guarding the office. Well, could he help me? He meditated, and a thought
occurred to him. “Go,” he said, “to such-and-such a boarding-house, and
ask for Mr Freeman Sterling. He is just starting on a business tour, and
wants a young man to accompany him.” I didn’t dream of asking what the
business was, but sped, as fast as my trembling limbs would carry me, to
the address he had mentioned. I asked for Mr Freeman Sterling, and found
him. He was a photographer, and his business at present was to go about
getting orders for the reproducing of old portraits. A good-natured young
fellow. He said he liked the look of me, and on the spot engaged me to
assist him in a house-to-house visitation. He would pay for my board and
lodging, and give me a commission on all the orders I obtained. Forthwith
I sat down to a “square meal,” and ate—my conscience, how I ate!’

‘You were not eminently successful in that pursuit, I think?’ said Jasper.

‘I don’t think I got half-a-dozen orders. Yet that good Samaritan
supported me for five or six weeks, whilst we travelled from Troy to
Boston. It couldn’t go on; I was ashamed of myself; at last I told him
that we must part. Upon my word, I believe he would have paid my expenses
for another month; why, I can’t understand. But he had a vast respect for
me because I had written in newspapers, and I do seriously think that he
didn’t like to tell me I was a useless fellow. We parted on the very best
of terms in Boston.’

‘And you again had recourse to pea-nuts?’ asked Dora.

‘Well, no. In the meantime I had written to someone in England, begging
the loan of just enough money to enable me to get home. The money came a
day after I had seen Sterling off by train.’

An hour and a half quickly passed, and Jasper, who wished to have a few
minutes of Marian’s company before it was time for her to go, cast a
significant glance at his sisters. Dora said innocently:

‘You wished me to tell you when it was half-past nine, Marian.’

And Marian rose. This was a signal Whelpdale could not disregard.
Immediately he made ready for his own departure, and in less than five
minutes was gone, his face at the last moment expressing blended delight
and pain.

‘Too good of you to have asked me to come,’ he said with gratitude to
Jasper, who went to the door with him. ‘You are a happy man, by Jove! A
happy man!’

When Jasper returned to the room his sisters had vanished. Marian stood by
the fire. He drew near to her, took her hands, and repeated laughingly
Whelpdale’s last words.

‘Is it true?’ she asked.

‘Tolerably true, I think.’

‘Then I am as happy as you are.’

He released her hands, and moved a little apart.

‘Marian, I have been thinking about that letter to your father. I had
better get it written, don’t you think?’

She gazed at him with troubled eyes.

‘Perhaps you had. Though we said it might be delayed until—’

‘Yes, I know. But I suspect you had rather I didn’t wait any longer. Isn’t
that the truth?’

‘Partly. Do just as you wish, Jasper.’

‘I’ll go and see him, if you like.’

‘I am so afraid—No, writing will be better.’

‘Very well. Then he shall have the letter to-morrow afternoon.’

‘Don’t let it come before the last post. I had so much rather not. Manage
it, if you can.’

‘Very well. Now go and say good-night to the girls. It’s a vile night, and
you must get home as soon as possible.’

She turned away, but again came towards him, murmuring:

‘Just a word or two more.’

‘About the letter?’

‘No. You haven’t said—’

He laughed.

‘And you couldn’t go away contentedly unless I repeated for the hundredth
time that I love you?’

Marian searched his countenance.

‘Do you think it foolish? I live only on those words.’

‘Well, they are better than pea-nuts.’

‘Oh don’t! I can’t bear to—’

Jasper was unable to understand that such a jest sounded to her like
profanity. She hid her face against him, and whispered the words that
would have enraptured her had they but come from his lips. The young man
found it pleasant enough to be worshipped, but he could not reply as she
desired. A few phrases of tenderness, and his love-vocabulary was
exhausted; he even grew weary when something more—the indefinite
something—was vaguely required of him.

‘You are a dear, good, tender-hearted girl,’ he said, stroking her short,
soft hair, which was exquisite to the hand. ‘Now go and get ready.’

She left him, but stood for a few moments on the landing before going to
the girls’ room.


Marian had finished the rough draft of a paper on James Harrington, author
of ‘Oceana.’ Her father went through it by the midnight lamp, and the next
morning made his comments. A black sky and sooty rain strengthened his
inclination to sit by the study fire and talk at large in a tone of
flattering benignity.

‘Those paragraphs on the Rota Club strike me as singularly happy,’ he
said, tapping the manuscript with the mouthpiece of his pipe. ‘Perhaps you
might say a word or two more about Cyriac Skinner; one mustn’t be too
allusive with general readers, their ignorance is incredible. But there is
so little to add to this paper—so little to alter—that I
couldn’t feel justified in sending it as my own work. I think it is
altogether too good to appear anonymously. You must sign it, Marian, and
have the credit that is due to you.’

‘Oh, do you think it’s worth while?’ answered the girl, who was far from
easy under this praise. Of late there had been too much of it; it made her
regard her father with suspicions which increased her sense of trouble in
keeping a momentous secret from him.

‘Yes, yes; you had better sign it. I’ll undertake there’s no other girl of
your age who could turn out such a piece of work. I think we may fairly
say that your apprenticeship is at an end. Before long,’ he smiled
anxiously, ‘I may be counting upon you as a valued contributor. And that
reminds me; would you be disposed to call with me on the Jedwoods at their
house next Sunday?’

Marian understood the intention that lay beneath this proposal. She saw
that her father would not allow himself to seem discouraged by the silence
she maintained on the great subject which awaited her decision. He was
endeavouring gradually to involve her in his ambitions, to carry her
forward by insensible steps. It pained her to observe the suppressed
eagerness with which he looked for her reply.

‘I will go if you wish, father, but I had rather not.’

‘I feel sure you would like Mrs Jedwood. One has no great opinion of her
novels, but she is a woman of some intellect. Let me book you for next
Sunday; surely I have a claim to your companionship now and then.’

Marian kept silence. Yule puffed at his pipe, then said with a speculative

‘I suppose it has never even occurred to you to try your hand at fiction?’

‘I haven’t the least inclination that way.’

‘You would probably do something rather good if you tried. But I don’t
urge it. My own efforts in that line were a mistake, I’m disposed to
think. Not that the things were worse than multitudes of books which
nowadays go down with the many-headed. But I never quite knew what I
wished to be at in fiction. I wasn’t content to write a mere narrative of
the exciting kind, yet I couldn’t hit upon subjects of intellectual cast
that altogether satisfied me. Well, well; I have tried my hand at most
kinds of literature. Assuredly I merit the title of man of letters.’

‘You certainly do.’

‘By-the-by, what should you think of that title for a review—Letters?
It has never been used, so far as I know. I like the word “letters.” How
much better “a man of letters” than “a literary man”! And apropos of that,
when was the word “literature” first used in our modern sense to signify a
body of writing? In Johnson’s day it was pretty much the equivalent of our
“culture.” You remember his saying, “It is surprising how little
literature people have.” His dictionary, I believe, defines the word as
“learning, skill in letters”—nothing else.’

It was characteristic of Yule to dwell with gusto on little points such as
this; he prosed for a quarter of an hour, with a pause every now and then
whilst he kept his pipe alight.

‘I think Letters wouldn’t be amiss,’ he said at length, returning to the
suggestion which he wished to keep before Marian’s mind. ‘It would clearly
indicate our scope. No articles on bimetallism, as Quarmby said—wasn’t
it Quarmby?’

He laughed idly.

‘Yes, I must ask Jedwood how he likes the name.’

Though Marian feared the result, she was glad when Jasper made up his mind
to write to her father. Since it was determined that her money could not
be devoted to establishing a review, the truth ought to be confessed
before Yule had gone too far in nursing his dangerous hope. Without the
support of her love and all the prospects connected with it, she would
hardly have been capable of giving a distinct refusal when her reply could
no longer be postponed; to hold the money merely for her own benefit would
have seemed to her too selfish, however slight her faith in the project on
which her father built so exultantly. When it was declared that she had
accepted an offer of marriage, a sacrifice of that kind could no longer be
expected of her. Opposition must direct itself against the choice she had
made. It would be stern, perhaps relentless; but she felt able to face any
extremity of wrath. Her nerves quivered, but in her heart was an
exhaustless source of courage.

That a change had somehow come about in the girl Yule was aware. He
observed her with the closest study day after day. Her health seemed to
have improved; after a long spell of work she had not the air of
despondent weariness which had sometimes irritated him, sometimes made him
uneasy. She was more womanly in her bearing and speech, and exercised an
independence, appropriate indeed to her years, but such as had not
formerly declared itself. The question with her father was whether these
things resulted simply from her consciousness of possessing what to her
seemed wealth, or something else had happened of the nature that he
dreaded. An alarming symptom was the increased attention she paid to her
personal appearance; its indications were not at all prominent, but Yule,
on the watch for such things, did not overlook them. True, this also might
mean nothing but a sense of relief from narrow means; a girl would
naturally adorn herself a little under the circumstances.

His doubts came to an end two days after that proposal of a title for the
new review. As he sat in his study the servant brought him a letter
delivered by the last evening post. The handwriting was unknown to him;
the contents were these:

‘DEAR MR YULE,—It is my desire to write to you with perfect
frankness and as simply as I can on a subject which has the deepest
interest for me, and which I trust you will consider in that spirit of
kindness with which you received me when we first met at Finden.

‘On the occasion of that meeting I had the happiness of being presented to
Miss Yule. She was not totally a stranger to me; at that time I used to
work pretty regularly in the Museum Reading-room, and there I had seen
Miss Yule, had ventured to observe her at moments with a young man’s
attention, and had felt my interest aroused, though I did not know her
name. To find her at Finden seemed to me a very unusual and delightful
piece of good fortune.

When I came back from my holiday I was conscious of a new purpose in life,
a new desire and a new motive to help me on in my chosen career.

‘My mother’s death led to my sisters’ coming to live in London. Already
there had been friendly correspondence between Miss Yule and the two
girls, and now that the opportunity offered they began to see each other
frequently. As I was often at my sisters’ lodgings it came about that I
met Miss Yule there from time to time. In this way was confirmed my
attachment to your daughter. The better I knew her, the more worthy I
found her of reverence and love.

‘Would it not have been natural for me to seek a renewal of the
acquaintance with yourself which had been begun in the country? Gladly I
should have done so. Before my sisters’ coming to London I did call one
day at your house with the desire of seeing you, but unfortunately you
were not at home. Very soon after that I learnt to my extreme regret that
my connection with The Current and its editor would make any repetition of
my visit very distasteful to you. I was conscious of nothing in my
literary life that could justly offend you—and at this day I can say
the same—but I shrank from the appearance of importunity, and for
some months I was deeply distressed by the fear that what I most desired
in life had become unattainable. My means were very slight; I had no
choice but to take such work as offered, and mere chance had put me into a
position which threatened ruin to the hope that you would some day regard
me as a not unworthy suitor for your daughter’s hand.

‘Circumstances have led me to a step which at that time seemed impossible.
Having discovered that Miss Yule returned the feeling I entertained for
her, I have asked her to be my wife, and she has consented. It is now my
hope that you will permit me to call upon you. Miss Yule is aware that I
am writing this letter; will you not let her plead for me, seeing that
only by an unhappy chance have I been kept aloof from you? Marian and I
are equally desirous that you should approve our union; without that
approval, indeed, something will be lacking to the happiness for which we

‘Believe me to be sincerely yours,


Half an hour after reading this Yule was roused from a fit of the
gloomiest brooding by Marian’s entrance. She came towards him timidly,
with pale countenance. He had glanced round to see who it was, but at once
turned his head again.

‘Will you forgive me for keeping this secret from you, father?’

‘Forgive you?’ he replied in a hard, deliberate voice. ‘I assure you it is
a matter of perfect indifference to me. You are long since of age, and I
have no power whatever to prevent your falling a victim to any schemer who
takes your fancy. It would be folly in me to discuss the question. I
recognise your right to have as many secrets as may seem good to you. To
talk of forgiveness is the merest affectation.’

‘No, I spoke sincerely. If it had seemed possible I should gladly have let
you know about this from the first. That would have been natural and
right. But you know what prevented me.’

‘I do. I will try to hope that even a sense of shame had something to do
with it.’

‘That had nothing to do with it,’ said Marian, coldly. ‘I have never had
reason to feel ashamed.’

‘Be it so. I trust you may never have reason to feel repentance. May I ask
when you propose to be married?’

‘I don’t know when it will take place.’

‘As soon, I suppose, as your uncle’s executors have discharged a piece of
business which is distinctly germane to the matter?’


‘Does your mother know?’

‘I have just told her.’

‘Very well, then it seems to me that there’s nothing more to be said.’

‘Do you refuse to see Mr Milvain?’

‘Most decidedly I do. You will have the goodness to inform him that that
is my reply to his letter.’

‘I don’t think that is the behaviour of a gentleman,’ said Marian, her
eyes beginning to gleam with resentment.

‘I am obliged to you for your instruction.’

‘Will you tell me, father, in plain words, why you dislike Mr Milvain?’

‘I am not inclined to repeat what I have already fruitlessly told you. For
the sake of a clear understanding, however, I will let you know the
practical result of my dislike. From the day of your marriage with that
man you are nothing to me. I shall distinctly forbid you to enter my
house. You make your choice, and go your own way. I shall hope never to
see your face again.’

Their eyes met, and the look of each seemed to fascinate the other.

‘If you have made up your mind to that,’ said Marian in a shaking voice,
‘I can remain here no longer. Such words are senselessly cruel. To-morrow
I shall leave the house.’

‘I repeat that you are of age, and perfectly independent. It can be
nothing to me how soon you go. You have given proof that I am of less than
no account to you, and doubtless the sooner we cease to afflict each other
the better.’

It seemed as if the effect of these conflicts with her father were to
develop in Marian a vehemence of temper which at length matched that of
which Yule was the victim. Her face, outlined to express a gentle gravity,
was now haughtily passionate; nostrils and lips thrilled with wrath, and
her eyes were magnificent in their dark fieriness.

‘You shall not need to tell me that again,’ she answered, and immediately
left him.

She went into the sitting-room, where Mrs Yule was awaiting the result of
the interview.

‘Mother,’ she said, with stern gentleness, ‘this house can no longer be a
home for me. I shall go away to-morrow, and live in lodgings until the
time of my marriage.’

Mrs Yule uttered a cry of pain, and started up.

‘Oh, don’t do that, Marian! What has he said to you? Come and talk to me,
darling—tell me what he’s said—don’t look like that!’

She clung to the girl despairingly, terrified by a transformation she
would have thought impossible.

‘He says that if I marry Mr Milvain he hopes never to see my face again. I
can’t stay here. You shall come and see me, and we will be the same to
each other as always. But father has treated me too unjustly. I can’t live
near him after this.’

‘He doesn’t mean it,’ sobbed her mother. ‘He says what he’s sorry for as
soon as the words are spoken. He loves you too much, my darling, to drive
you away like that. It’s his disappointment, Marian; that’s all it is. He
counted on it so much. I’ve heard him talk of it in his sleep; he made so
sure that he was going to have that new magazine, and the disappointment
makes him that he doesn’t know what he’s saying. Only wait and see; he’ll
tell you he didn’t mean it, I know he will. Only leave him alone till he’s
had time to get over it. Do forgive him this once.’

‘It’s like a madman to talk in that way,’ said the girl, releasing
herself. ‘Whatever his disappointment, I can’t endure it. I have worked
hard for him, very hard, ever since I was old enough, and he owes me some
kindness, some respect. It would be different if he had the least reason
for his hatred of Jasper. It is nothing but insensate prejudice, the
result of his quarrels with other people. What right has he to insult me
by representing my future husband as a scheming hypocrite?’

‘My love, he has had so much to bear—it’s made him so

‘Then I am quick-tempered too, and the sooner we are apart the better, as
he said himself.’

‘Oh, but you have always been such a patient girl.’

‘My patience is at an end when I am treated as if I had neither rights nor
feelings. However wrong the choice I had made, this was not the way to
behave to me. His disappointment? Is there a natural law, then, that a
daughter must be sacrificed to her father? My husband will have as much
need of that money as my father has, and he will be able to make far
better use of it. It was wrong even to ask me to give my money away like
that. I have a right to happiness, as well as other women.’

She was shaken with hysterical passion, the natural consequence of this
outbreak in a nature such as hers. Her mother, in the meantime, grew
stronger by force of profound love that at length had found its
opportunity of expression. Presently she persuaded Marian to come upstairs
with her, and before long the overburdened breast was relieved by a flow
of tears. But Marian’s purpose remained unshaken.

‘It is impossible for us to see each other day after day,’ she said when
calmer. ‘He can’t control his anger against me, and I suffer too much when
I am made to feel like this. I shall take a lodging not far off; where you
can see me often.’

‘But you have no money, Marian,’ replied Mrs Yule, miserably.

‘No money? As if I couldn’t borrow a few pounds until all my own comes to
me! Dora Milvain can lend me all I shall want; it won’t make the least
difference to her. I must have my money very soon now.’

At about half-past eleven Mrs Yule went downstairs, and entered the study.

‘If you are coming to speak about Marian,’ said her husband, turning upon
her with savage eyes, ‘you can save your breath. I won’t hear her name

She faltered, but overcame her weakness.

‘You are driving her away from us, Alfred. It isn’t right! Oh, it isn’t

‘If she didn’t go I should, so understand that! And if I go, you have seen
the last of me. Make your choice, make your choice!’

He had yielded himself to that perverse frenzy which impels a man to acts
and utterances most wildly at conflict with reason. His sense of the
monstrous irrationality to which he was committed completed what was begun
in him by the bitterness of a great frustration.

‘If I wasn’t a poor, helpless woman,’ replied his wife, sinking upon a
chair and crying without raising her hands to her face, ‘I’d go and live
with her till she was married, and then make a home for myself. But I
haven’t a penny, and I’m too old to earn my own living; I should only be a
burden to her.’

‘That shall be no hindrance,’ cried Yule. ‘Go, by all means; you shall
have a sufficient allowance as long as I can continue to work, and when
I’m past that, your lot will be no harder than mine. Your daughter had the
chance of making provision for my old age, at no expense to herself. But
that was asking too much of her. Go, by all means, and leave me to make
what I can of the rest of my life; perhaps I may save a few years still
from the curse brought upon me by my own folly.’

It was idle to address him. Mrs Yule went into the sitting-room, and there
sat weeping for an hour. Then she extinguished the lights, and crept
upstairs in silence.

Yule passed the night in the study. Towards morning he slept for an hour
or two, just long enough to let the fire go out and to get thoroughly
chilled. When he opened his eyes a muddy twilight had begun to show at the
window; the sounds of a clapping door within the house, which had probably
awakened him, made him aware that the servant was already up.

He drew up the blind. There seemed to be a frost, for the moisture of last
night had all disappeared, and the yard upon which the window looked was
unusually clean. With a glance at the black grate he extinguished his
lamp, and went out into the passage. A few minutes’ groping for his
overcoat and hat, and he left the house.

His purpose was to warm himself with a vigorous walk, and at the same time
to shake off if possible, the nightmare of his rage and hopelessness. He
had no distinct feeling with regard to his behaviour of the past evening;
he neither justified nor condemned himself; he did not ask himself whether
Marian would to-day leave her home, or if her mother would take him at his
word and also depart. These seemed to be details which his brain was too
weary to consider. But he wished to be away from the wretchedness of his
house, and to let things go as they would whilst he was absent. As he
closed the front door he felt as if he were escaping from an atmosphere
that threatened to stifle him.

His steps directing themselves more by habit than with any deliberate
choice, he walked towards Camden Road. When he had reached Camden Town
railway-station he was attracted by a coffee-stall; a draught of the
steaming liquid, no matter its quality, would help his blood to circulate.
He laid down his penny, and first warmed his hands by holding them round
the cup. Whilst standing thus he noticed that the objects at which he
looked had a blurred appearance; his eyesight seemed to have become worse
this morning. Only a result of his insufficient sleep perhaps. He took up
a scrap of newspaper that lay on the stall; he could read it, but one of
his eyes was certainly weaker than the other; trying to see with that one
alone, he found that everything became misty.

He laughed, as if the threat of new calamity were an amusement in his
present state of mind. And at the same moment his look encountered that of
a man who had drawn near to him, a shabbily-dressed man of middle age,
whose face did not correspond with his attire.

‘Will you give me a cup of coffee?’ asked the stranger, in a low voice and
with shamefaced manner. ‘It would be a great kindness.’

The accent was that of good breeding. Yule hesitated in surprise for a
moment, then said:

‘Have one by all means. Would you care for anything to eat?’

‘I am much obliged to you. I think I should be none the worse for one of
those solid slices of bread and butter.’

The stall-keeper was just extinguishing his lights; the frosty sky showed
a pale gleam of sunrise.

‘Hard times, I’m afraid,’ remarked Yule, as his beneficiary began to eat
the luncheon with much appearance of grateful appetite.

‘Very hard times.’ He had a small, thin, colourless countenance, with
large, pathetic eyes; a slight moustache and curly beard. His clothes were
such as would be worn by some very poor clerk. ‘I came here an hour ago,’
he continued, ‘with the hope of meeting an acquaintance who generally goes
from this station at a certain time. I have missed him, and in doing so I
missed what I had thought my one chance of a breakfast. When one has
neither dined nor supped on the previous day, breakfast becomes a meal of
some importance.’

‘True. Take another slice.’

‘I am greatly obliged to you.’

‘Not at all. I have known hard times myself, and am likely to know worse.’

‘I trust not. This is the first time that I have positively begged. I
should have been too much ashamed to beg of the kind of men who are
usually at these places; they certainly have no money to spare. I was
thinking of making an appeal at a baker’s shop, but it is very likely I
should have been handed over to a policeman. Indeed I don’t know what I
should have done; the last point of endurance was almost reached. I have
no clothes but these I wear, and they are few enough for the season.
Still, I suppose the waistcoat must have gone.’

He did not talk like a beggar who is trying to excite compassion, but with
a sort of detached curiosity concerning the difficulties of his position.

‘You can find nothing to do?’ said the man of letters.

‘Positively nothing. By profession I am a surgeon, but it’s a long time
since I practised. Fifteen years ago I was comfortably established at
Wakefield; I was married and had one child. But my capital ran out, and my
practice, never anything to boast of, fell to nothing. I succeeded in
getting a place as an assistant to a man at Chester. We sold up, and
started on the journey.’

He paused, looking at Yule in a strange way.

‘What happened then?’

‘You probably don’t remember a railway accident that took place near Crewe
in that year—it was 1869? I and my wife and child were alone in a
carriage that was splintered. One moment I was talking with them, in
fairly good spirits, and my wife was laughing at something I had said; the
next, there were two crushed, bleeding bodies at my feet. I had a broken
arm, that was all. Well, they were killed on the instant; they didn’t
suffer. That has been my one consolation.’

Yule kept the silence of sympathy.

‘I was in a lunatic asylum for more than a year after that,’ continued the
man. ‘Unhappily, I didn’t lose my senses at the moment; it took two or
three weeks to bring me to that pass. But I recovered, and there has been
no return of the disease. Don’t suppose that I am still of unsound mind.
There can be little doubt that poverty will bring me to that again in the
end; but as yet I am perfectly sane. I have supported myself in various

No, I don’t drink; I see the question in your face. But I am physically
weak, and, to quote Mrs Gummidge, “things go contrary with me.” There’s no
use lamenting; this breakfast has helped me on, and I feel in much better

‘Your surgical knowledge is no use to you?’

The other shook his head and sighed.

‘Did you ever give any special attention to diseases of the eyes?’

‘Special, no. But of course I had some acquaintance with the subject.’

‘Could you tell by examination whether a man was threatened with cataract,
or anything of that kind?’

‘I think I could.’

‘I am speaking of myself.’

The stranger made a close scrutiny of Yule’s face, and asked certain
questions with reference to his visual sensations.

‘I hardly like to propose it,’ he said at length, ‘but if you were willing
to accompany me to a very poor room that I have not far from here, I could
make the examination formally.’

‘I will go with you.’

They turned away from the stall, and the ex-surgeon led into a by-street.
Yule wondered at himself for caring to seek such a singular consultation,
but he had a pressing desire to hear some opinion as to the state of his
eyes. Whatever the stranger might tell him, he would afterwards have
recourse to a man of recognised standing; but just now companionship of
any kind was welcome, and the poor hungry fellow, with his dolorous
life-story, had made appeal to his sympathies. To give money under guise
of a fee would be better than merely offering alms.

‘This is the house,’ said his guide, pausing at a dirty door. ‘It isn’t
inviting, but the people are honest, so far as I know. My room is at the

‘Lead on,’ answered Yule.

In the room they entered was nothing noticeable; it was only the poorest
possible kind of bed-chamber, or all but the poorest possible. Daylight
had now succeeded to dawn, yet the first thing the stranger did was to
strike a match and light a candle.

‘Will you kindly place yourself with your back to the window?’ he said. ‘I
am going to apply what is called the catoptric test. You have probably
heard of it?’

‘My ignorance of scientific matters is fathomless.’

The other smiled, and at once offered a simple explanation of the term. By
the appearance of the candle as it reflected itself in the patient’s eye
it was possible, he said, to decide whether cataract had taken hold upon
the organ.

For a minute or two he conducted his experiment carefully, and Yule was at
no loss to read the result upon his face.

‘How long have you suspected that something was wrong?’ the surgeon asked,
as he put down the candle.

‘For several months.’

‘You haven’t consulted anyone?’

‘No one. I have kept putting it off. Just tell me what you have

‘The back of the right lens is affected beyond a doubt.’

‘That means, I take it, that before very long I shall be practically

‘I don’t like to speak with an air of authority. After all, I am only a
surgeon who has bungled himself into pauperdom. You must see a competent
man; that much I can tell you in all earnestness.

Do you use your eyes much?’

‘Fourteen hours a day, that’s all.’

‘H’m! You are a literary man, I think?’

‘I am. My name is Alfred Yule.’

He had some faint hope that the name might be recognised; that would have
gone far, for the moment, to counteract his trouble. But not even this
poor satisfaction was to be granted him; to his hearer the name evidently
conveyed nothing.

‘See a competent man, Mr Yule. Science has advanced rapidly since the days
when I was a student; I am only able to assure you of the existence of

They talked for half an hour, until both were shaking with cold. Then Yule
thrust his hand into his pocket.

‘You will of course allow me to offer such return as I am able,’ he said.
‘The information isn’t pleasant, but I am glad to have it.’

He laid five shillings on the chest of drawers—there was no table.
The stranger expressed his gratitude.

‘My name is Duke,’ he said, ‘and I was christened Victor—possibly
because I was doomed to defeat in life. I wish you could have associated
the memory of me with happier circumstances.’

They shook hands, and Yule quitted the house.

He came out again by Camden Town station. The coffee-stall had
disappeared; the traffic of the great highway was growing uproarious.
Among all the strugglers for existence who rushed this way and that,
Alfred Yule felt himself a man chosen for fate’s heaviest infliction. He
never questioned the accuracy of the stranger’s judgment, and he hoped for
no mitigation of the doom it threatened. His life was over—and

He might as well go home, and take his place meekly by the fireside. He
was beaten. Soon to be a useless old man, a burden and annoyance to
whosoever had pity on him.

It was a curious effect of the imagination that since coming into the open
air again his eyesight seemed to be far worse than before. He irritated
his nerves of vision by incessant tests, closing first one eye then the
other, comparing his view of nearer objects with the appearance of others
more remote, fancying an occasional pain—which could have had no
connection with his disease. The literary projects which had stirred so
actively in his mind twelve hours ago were become an insubstantial memory;
to the one crushing blow had succeeded a second, which was fatal. He could
hardly recall what special piece of work he had been engaged upon last
night. His thoughts were such as if actual blindness had really fallen
upon him.

At half-past eight he entered the house. Mrs Yule was standing at the foot
of the stairs; she looked at him, then turned away towards the kitchen. He
went upstairs. On coming down again he found breakfast ready as usual, and
seated himself at the table. Two letters waited for him there; he opened

When Mrs Yule came into the room a few moments later she was astonished by
a burst of loud, mocking laughter from her husband, excited, as it
appeared, by something he was reading.

‘Is Marian up?’ he asked, turning to her.


‘She is not coming to breakfast?’


‘Then just take that letter to her, and ask her to read it.’

Mrs Yule ascended to her daughter’s bedroom. She knocked, was bidden
enter, and found Marian packing clothes in a trunk. The girl looked as if
she had been up all night; her eyes bore the traces of much weeping.

‘He has come back, dear,’ said Mrs Yule, in the low voice of apprehension,
‘and he says you are to read this letter.’

Marian took the sheet, unfolded it, and read. As soon as she had reached
the end she looked wildly at her mother, seemed to endeavour vainly to
speak, then fell to the floor in unconsciousness. The mother was only just
able to break the violence of her fall. Having snatched a pillow and
placed it beneath Marian’s head, she rushed to the door and called loudly
for her husband, who in a moment appeared.

‘What is it?’ she cried to him. ‘Look, she has fallen down in a faint. Why
are you treating her like this?’

‘Attend to her,’ Yule replied roughly. ‘I suppose you know better than I
do what to do when a person faints.’

The swoon lasted for several minutes.

‘What’s in the letter?’ asked Mrs Yule whilst chafing the lifeless hands.

‘Her money’s lost. The people who were to pay it have just failed.’

‘She won’t get anything?’

‘Most likely nothing at all.’

The letter was a private communication from one of John Yule’s executors.
It seemed likely that the demand upon Turberville & Co. for an account
of the deceased partner’s share in their business had helped to bring
about a crisis in affairs that were already unstable. Something might be
recovered in the legal proceedings that would result, but there were
circumstances which made the outlook very doubtful.

As Marian came to herself her father left the room. An hour afterwards Mrs
Yule summoned him again to the girl’s chamber; he went, and found Marian
lying on the bed, looking like one who had been long ill.

‘I wish to ask you a few questions,’ she said, without raising herself.
‘Must my legacy necessarily be paid out of that investment?’

‘It must. Those are the terms of the will.’

‘If nothing can be recovered from those people, I have no remedy?’

‘None whatever that I can see.’

‘But when a firm is bankrupt they generally pay some portion of their

‘Sometimes. I know nothing of the case.’

‘This of course happens to me,’ Marian said, with intense bitterness.
‘None of the other legatees will suffer, I suppose?’

‘Someone must, but to a very small extent.’

‘Of course. When shall I have direct information?’

‘You can write to Mr Holden; you have his address.’

‘Thank you. That’s all.’

He was dismissed, and went quietly away.



Throughout the day Marian kept her room. Her intention to leave the house
was, of course, abandoned; she was the prisoner of fate. Mrs Yule would
have tended her with unremitting devotion, but the girl desired to be
alone. At times she lay in silent anguish; frequently her tears broke
forth, and she sobbed until weariness overcame her. In the afternoon she
wrote a letter to Mr Holden, begging that she might be kept constantly
acquainted with the progress of things.

At five her mother brought tea.

‘Wouldn’t it be better if you went to bed now, Marian?’ she suggested.

‘To bed? But I am going out in an hour or two.’

‘Oh, you can’t, dear! It’s so bitterly cold. It wouldn’t be good for you.’

‘I have to go out, mother, so we won’t speak of it.’

It was not safe to reply. Mrs Yule sat down, and watched the girl raise
the cup to her mouth with trembling hand.

‘This won’t make any difference to you—in the end, my darling,’ the
mother ventured to say at length, alluding for the first time to the
effect of the catastrophe on Marian’s immediate prospects.

‘Of course not,’ was the reply, in a tone of self-persuasion.

‘Mr Milvain is sure to have plenty of money before long.’


‘You feel much better now, don’t you?’

‘Much. I am quite well again.’

At seven, Marian went out. Finding herself weaker than she had thought,
she stopped an empty cab that presently passed her, and so drove to the
Milvains’ lodgings. In her agitation she inquired for Mr Milvain, instead
of for Dora, as was her habit; it mattered very little, for the landlady
and her servants were of course under no misconception regarding this
young lady’s visits.

Jasper was at home, and working. He had but to look at Marian to see that
something wretched had been going on at her home; naturally he supposed it
the result of his letter to Mr Yule.

‘Your father has been behaving brutally,’ he said, holding her hands and
gazing anxiously at her.

‘There is something far worse than that, Jasper.’


She threw off her outdoor things, then took the fatal letter from her
pocket and handed it to him. Jasper gave a whistle of consternation, and
looked vacantly from the paper to Marian’s countenance.

‘How the deuce comes this about?’ he exclaimed. ‘Why, wasn’t your uncle
aware of the state of things?’

‘Perhaps he was. He may have known that the legacy was a mere form.’

‘You are the only one affected?’

‘So father says. It’s sure to be the case.’

‘This has upset you horribly, I can see. Sit down, Marian. When did the
letter come?’

‘This morning.’

‘And you have been fretting over it all day. But come, we must keep up our
courage; you may get something substantial out of the scoundrels still.’

Even whilst he spoke his eyes wandered absently. On the last word his
voice failed, and he fell into abstraction. Marian’s look was fixed upon
him, and he became conscious of it. He tried to smile.

‘What were you writing?’ she asked, making involuntary diversion from the
calamitous theme.

‘Rubbish for the Will-o’-the-Wisp. Listen to this paragraph about English
concert audiences.’

It was as necessary to him as to her to have a respite before the graver
discussion began. He seized gladly the opportunity she offered, and read
several pages of manuscript, slipping from one topic to another. To hear
him one would have supposed that he was in his ordinary mood; he laughed
at his own jokes and points.

‘They’ll have to pay me more,’ was the remark with which he closed. ‘I
only wanted to make myself indispensable to them, and at the end of this
year I shall feel pretty sure of that. They’ll have to give me two guineas
a column; by Jove! they will.’

‘And you may hope for much more than that, mayn’t you, before long?’

‘Oh, I shall transfer myself to a better paper presently. It seems to me I
must be stirring to some purpose.’

He gave her a significant look.

‘What shall we do, Jasper?’

‘Work and wait, I suppose.’

‘There’s something I must tell you. Father said I had better sign that
Harrington article myself. If I do that, I shall have a right to the
money, I think. It will at least be eight guineas. And why shouldn’t I go
on writing for myself—for us? You can help me to think of subjects.’

‘First of all, what about my letter to your father? We are forgetting all
about it.’

‘He refused to answer.’

Marian avoided closer description of what had happened. It was partly that
she felt ashamed of her father’s unreasoning wrath, and feared lest
Jasper’s pride might receive an injury from which she in turn would
suffer; partly that she was unwilling to pain her lover by making display
of all she had undergone.

‘Oh, he refused to reply! Surely that is extreme behaviour.’

What she dreaded seemed to be coming to pass. Jasper stood rather stiffly,
and threw his head back.

‘You know the reason, dear. That prejudice has entered into his very life.
It is not you he dislikes; that is impossible. He thinks of you only as he
would of anyone connected with Mr Fadge.’

‘Well, well; it isn’t a matter of much moment. But what I have in mind is
this. Will it be possible for you, whilst living at home, to take a
position of independence, and say that you are going to work for your own

‘At least I might claim half the money I can earn. And I was thinking more

‘Of what?’

‘When I am your wife, I may be able to help. I could earn thirty or forty
pounds a year, I think. That would pay the rent of a small house.’

She spoke with shaken voice, her eyes fixed upon his face.

‘But, my dear Marian, we surely oughtn’t to think of marrying so long as
expenses are so nicely fitted as all that?’

‘No. I only meant—’

She faltered, and her tongue became silent as her heart sank.

‘It simply means,’ pursued Jasper, seating himself and crossing his legs,
‘that I must move heaven and earth to improve my position. You know that
my faith in myself is not small; there’s no knowing what I might do if I
used every effort. But, upon my word, I don’t see much hope of our being
able to marry for a year or two under the most favourable circumstances.’

‘No; I quite understand that.’

‘Can you promise to keep a little love for me all that time?’ he asked
with a constrained smile.

‘You know me too well to fear.’

‘I thought you seemed a little doubtful.’

His tone was not altogether that which makes banter pleasant between
lovers. Marian looked at him fearfully. Was it possible for him in truth
so to misunderstand her? He had never satisfied her heart’s desire of
infinite love; she never spoke with him but she was oppressed with the
suspicion that his love was not as great as hers, and, worse still, that
he did not wholly comprehend the self-surrender which she strove to make
plain in every word.

‘You don’t say that seriously, Jasper?’

‘But answer seriously.’

‘How can you doubt that I would wait faithfully for you for years if it
were necessary?’

‘It mustn’t be years, that’s very certain. I think it preposterous for a
man to hold a woman bound in that hopeless way.’

‘But what question is there of holding me bound? Is love dependent on
fixed engagements? Do you feel that, if we agreed to part, your love would
be at once a thing of the past?’

‘Why no, of course not.’

‘Oh, but how coldly you speak, Jasper!’

She could not breathe a word which might be interpreted as fear lest the
change of her circumstances should make a change in his feeling. Yet that
was in her mind. The existence of such a fear meant, of course, that she
did not entirely trust him, and viewed his character as something less
than noble. Very seldom indeed is a woman free from such doubts, however
absolute her love; and perhaps it is just as rare for a man to credit in
his heart all the praises he speaks of his beloved. Passion is compatible
with a great many of these imperfections of intellectual esteem. To see
more clearly into Jasper’s personality was, for Marian, to suffer the more
intolerable dread lest she should lose him.

She went to his side. Her heart ached because, in her great misery, he had
not fondled her, and intoxicated her senses with loving words.

‘How can I make you feel how much I love you?’ she murmured.

‘You mustn’t be so literal, dearest. Women are so desperately
matter-of-fact; it comes out even in their love-talk.’

Marian was not without perception of the irony of such an opinion on
Jasper’s lips.

‘I am content for you to think so,’ she said. ‘There is only one fact in
my life of any importance, and I can never lose sight of it.’

‘Well now, we are quite sure of each other. Tell me plainly, do you think
me capable of forsaking you because you have perhaps lost your money?’

The question made her wince. If delicacy had held her tongue, it had no
control of HIS.

‘How can I answer that better,’ she said, ‘than by saying I love you?’

It was no answer, and Jasper, though obtuse compared with her, understood
that it was none. But the emotion which had prompted his words was genuine
enough. Her touch, the perfume of her passion, had their exalting effect
upon him. He felt in all sincerity that to forsake her would be a
baseness, revenged by the loss of such a wife.

‘There’s an uphill fight before me, that’s all,’ he said, ‘instead of the
pretty smooth course I have been looking forward to. But I don’t fear it,
Marian. I’m not the fellow to be beaten.

You shall be my wife, and you shall have as many luxuries as if you had
brought me a fortune.’

‘Luxuries! Oh, how childish you seem to think me!’

‘Not a bit of it. Luxuries are a most important part of life. I had rather
not live at all than never possess them. Let me give you a useful hint; if
ever I seem to you to flag, just remind me of the difference between these
lodgings and a richly furnished house. Just hint to me that So-and-so, the
journalist, goes about in his carriage, and can give his wife a box at the
theatre. Just ask me, casually, how I should like to run over to the
Riviera when London fogs are thickest. You understand? That’s the way to
keep me at it like a steam-engine.’

‘You are right. All those things enable one to live a better and fuller
life. Oh, how cruel that I—that we are robbed in this way! You can
have no idea how terrible a blow it was to me when I read that letter this

She was on the point of confessing that she had swooned, but something
restrained her.

‘Your father can hardly be sorry,’ said Jasper.

‘I think he speaks more harshly than he feels. The worst was, that until
he got your letter he had kept hoping that I would let him have the money
for a new review.’

‘Well, for the present I prefer to believe that the money isn’t all lost.
If the blackguards pay ten shillings in the pound you will get two
thousand five hundred out of them, and that’s something. But how do you
stand? Will your position be that of an ordinary creditor?’

‘I am so ignorant. I know nothing of such things.’

‘But of course your interests will be properly looked after. Put yourself
in communication with this Mr Holden. I’ll have a look into the law on the
subject. Let us hope as long as we can. By Jove! There’s no other way of
facing it.’

‘No, indeed.’

‘Mrs Reardon and the rest of them are safe enough, I suppose?’

‘Oh, no doubt.’

‘Confound them!—It grows upon one. One doesn’t take in the whole of
such a misfortune at once. We must hold on to the last rag of hope, and in
the meantime I’ll half work myself to death. Are you going to see the

‘Not to-night. You must tell them.’

‘Dora will cry her eyes out. Upon my word, Maud’ll have to draw in her
horns. I must frighten her into economy and hard work.’

He again lost himself in anxious reverie.

‘Marian, couldn’t you try your hand at fiction?’

She started, remembering that her father had put the same question so

‘I’m afraid I could do nothing worth doing.’

‘That isn’t exactly the question. Could you do anything that would sell?
With very moderate success in fiction you might make three times as much
as you ever will by magazine pot-boilers. A girl like you. Oh, you might
manage, I should think.’

‘A girl like me?’

‘Well, I mean that love-scenes, and that kind of thing, would be very much
in your line.‘Marian was not given to blushing; very few girls are, even
on strong provocation. For the first time Jasper saw her cheeks colour
deeply, and it was with anything but pleasure. His words were coarsely
inconsiderate, and wounded her.

‘I think that is not my work,’ she said coldly, looking away.

‘But surely there’s no harm in my saying—’ he paused in
astonishment. ‘I meant nothing that could offend you.’

‘I know you didn’t, Jasper. But you make me think that—’

‘Don’t be so literal again, my dear girl. Come here and forgive me.’

She did not approach, but only because the painful thought he had excited
kept her to that spot.

‘Come, Marian! Then I must come to you.’

He did so and held her in his arms.

‘Try your hand at a novel, dear, if you can possibly make time. Put me in
it, if you like, and make me an insensible masculine. The experiment is
worth a try I’m certain. At all events do a few chapters, and let me see
them. A chapter needn’t take you more than a couple of hours I should

Marian refrained from giving any promise. She seemed irresponsive to his
caresses. That thought which at times gives trouble to all women of strong
emotions was working in her: had she been too demonstrative, and made her
love too cheap? Now that Jasper’s love might be endangered, it behoved her
to use any arts which nature prompted. And so, for once, he was not wholly
satisfied with her, and at their parting he wondered what subtle change
had affected her manner to him.

‘Why didn’t Marian come to speak a word?’ said Dora, when her brother
entered the girls’ sitting-room about ten o’clock.

‘You knew she was with me, then?’

‘We heard her voice as she was going away.’

‘She brought me some enspiriting news, and thought it better I should have
the reporting of it to you.’

With brevity he made known what had befallen.

‘Cheerful, isn’t it? The kind of thing that strengthens one’s trust in

The girls were appalled. Maud, who was reading by the fireside, let her
book fall to her lap, and knit her brows darkly.

‘Then your marriage must be put off, of course?’ said Dora.

‘Well, I shouldn’t be surprised if that were found necessary,’ replied her
brother caustically. He was able now to give vent to the feeling which in
Marian’s presence was suppressed, partly out of consideration for her, and
partly owing to her influence.

‘And shall we have to go back to our old lodgings again?’ inquired Maud.

Jasper gave no answer, but kicked a footstool savagely out of his way and
paced the room.

‘Oh, do you think we need?’ said Dora, with unusual protest against

‘Remember that it’s a matter for your own consideration,’ Jasper replied
at length. ‘You are living on your own resources, you know.’

Maud glanced at her sister, but Dora was preoccupied.

‘Why do you prefer to stay here?’ Jasper asked abruptly of the younger

‘It is so very much nicer,’ she replied with some embarrassment.

He bit the ends of his moustache, and his eyes glared at the impalpable
thwarting force that to imagination seemed to fill the air about him.

‘A lesson against being over-hasty,’ he muttered, again kicking the

‘Did you make that considerate remark to Marian?’ asked Maud.

‘There would have been no harm if I had done. She knows that I shouldn’t
have been such an ass as to talk of marriage without the prospect of
something to live upon.’

‘I suppose she’s wretched?’ said Dora.

‘What else can you expect?’

‘And did you propose to release her from the burden of her engagement?’
Maud inquired.

‘It’s a confounded pity that you’re not rich, Maud,’ replied her brother
with an involuntary laugh. ‘You would have a brilliant reputation for

He walked about and ejaculated splenetic phrases on the subject of his

‘We are here, and here we must stay,’ was the final expression of his
mood. ‘I have only one superstition that I know of and that forbids me to
take a step backward. If I went into poorer lodgings again I should feel
it was inviting defeat. I shall stay as long as the position is tenable.
Let us get on to Christmas, and then see how things look. Heavens! Suppose
we had married, and after that lost the money!’

‘You would have been no worse off than plenty of literary men,’ said Dora.

‘Perhaps not. But as I have made up my mind to be considerably better off
than most literary men that reflection wouldn’t console me much. Things
are in statu quo, that’s all. I have to rely upon my own efforts. What’s
the time? Half-past ten; I can get two hours’ work before going to bed.’

And nodding a good-night he left them.

When Marian entered the house and went upstairs, she was followed by her
mother. On Mrs Yule’s countenance there was a new distress, she had been
crying recently.

‘Have you seen him?’ the mother asked.

‘Yes. We have talked about it.’

‘What does he wish you to do, dear?’

‘There’s nothing to be done except wait.’

‘Father has been telling me something, Marian,’ said Mrs Yule after a long
silence. ‘He says he is going to be blind. There’s something the matter
with his eyes, and he went to see someone about it this afternoon. He’ll
get worse and worse, until there has been an operation; and perhaps he’ll
never be able to use his eyes properly again.’

The girl listened in an attitude of despair.

‘He has seen an oculist?—a really good doctor?’

‘He says he went to one of the best.’

‘And how did he speak to you?’

‘He doesn’t seem to care much what happens. He talked of going to the
workhouse, and things like that. But it couldn’t ever come to that, could
it, Marian? Wouldn’t somebody help him?’

‘There’s not much help to be expected in this world,’ answered the girl.

Physical weariness brought her a few hours of oblivion as soon as she had
lain down, but her sleep came to an end in the early morning, when the
pressure of evil dreams forced her back to consciousness of real sorrows
and cares. A fog-veiled sky added its weight to crush her spirit; at the
hour when she usually rose it was still all but as dark as midnight. Her
mother’s voice at the door begged her to lie and rest until it grew
lighter, and she willingly complied, feeling indeed scarcely capable of
leaving her bed.

The thick black fog penetrated every corner of the house. It could be
smelt and tasted. Such an atmosphere produces low-spirited languor even in
the vigorous and hopeful; to those wasted by suffering it is the very reek
of the bottomless pit, poisoning the soul. Her face colourless as the
pillow, Marian lay neither sleeping nor awake, in blank extremity of woe;
tears now and then ran down her cheeks, and at times her body was shaken
with a throe such as might result from anguish of the torture chamber.

Midway in the morning, when it was still necessary to use artificial
light, she went down to the sitting-room. The course of household life had
been thrown into confusion by the disasters of the last day or two; Mrs
Yule, who occupied herself almost exclusively with questions of economy,
cleanliness, and routine, had not the heart to pursue her round of duties,
and this morning, though under normal circumstances she would have been
busy in ‘turning out’ the dining-room, she moved aimlessly and
despondently about the house, giving the servant contradictory orders and
then blaming herself for her absent-mindedness. In the troubles of her
husband and her daughter she had scarcely greater share—so far as
active participation went—than if she had been only a faithful old
housekeeper; she could only grieve and lament that such discord had come
between the two whom she loved, and that in herself was no power even to
solace their distresses. Marian found her standing in the passage, with a
duster in one hand and a hearth-brush in the other.

‘Your father has asked to see you when you come down,’ Mrs Yule whispered.

‘I’ll go to him.’

Marian entered the study. Her father was not in his place at the
writing-table, nor yet seated in the chair which he used when he had
leisure to draw up to the fireside; he sat in front of one of the
bookcases, bent forward as if seeking a volume, but his chin was propped
upon his hand, and he had maintained this position for a long time. He did
not immediately move. When he raised his head Marian saw that he looked
older, and she noticed—or fancied she did—that there was some
unfamiliar peculiarity about his eyes.

‘I am obliged to you for coming,’ he began with distant formality. ‘Since
I saw you last I have learnt something which makes a change in my position
and prospects, and it is necessary to speak on the subject. I won’t detain
you more than a few minutes.’

He coughed, and seemed to consider his next words.

‘Perhaps I needn’t repeat what I have told your mother. You have learnt it
from her, I dare say.’

‘Yes, with much grief.’

‘Thank you, but we will leave aside that aspect of the matter. For a few
more months I may be able to pursue my ordinary work, but before long I
shall certainly be disabled from earning my livelihood by literature.
Whether this will in any way affect your own position I don’t know. Will
you have the goodness to tell me whether you still purpose leaving this

‘I have no means of doing so.’

‘Is there any likelihood of your marriage taking place, let us say, within
four months?’

‘Only if the executors recover my money, or a large portion of it.’

‘I understand. My reason for asking is this. My lease of this house
terminates at the end of next March, and I shall certainly not be
justified in renewing it. If you are able to provide for yourself in any
way it will be sufficient for me to rent two rooms after that. This
disease which affects my eyes may be only temporary; in due time an
operation may render it possible for me to work again. In hope of that I
shall probably have to borrow a sum of money on the security of my life
insurance, though in the first instance I shall make the most of what I
can get for the furniture of the house and a large part of my library;
your mother and I could live at very slight expense in lodgings. If the
disease prove irremediable, I must prepare myself for the worst. What I
wish to say is, that it will be better if from to-day you consider
yourself as working for your own subsistence. So long as I remain here
this house is of course your home; there can be no question between us of
trivial expenses. But it is right that you should understand what my
prospects are. I shall soon have no home to offer you; you must look to
your own efforts for support.’

‘I am prepared to do that, father.’

‘I think you will have no great difficulty in earning enough for yourself.
I have done my best to train you in writing for the periodicals, and your
natural abilities are considerable. If you marry, I wish you a happy life.
The end of mine, of many long years of unremitting toil, is failure and

Marian sobbed.

‘That’s all I had to say,’ concluded her father, his voice tremulous with
self-compassion. ‘I will only beg that there may be no further profitless
discussion between us. This room is open to you, as always, and I see no
reason why we should not converse on subjects disconnected with our
personal differences.’

‘Is there no remedy for cataract in its early stages?’ asked Marian.

‘None. You can read up the subject for yourself at the British Museum. I
prefer not to speak of it.’

‘Will you let me be what help to you I can?’

‘For the present the best you can do is to establish a connection for
yourself with editors. Your name will be an assistance to you. My advice
is, that you send your “Harrington” article forthwith to Trenchard,
writing him a note. If you desire my help in the suggestion of new
subjects, I will do my best to be of use.’

Marian withdrew. She went to the sitting-room, where an ochreous daylight
was beginning to diffuse itself and to render the lamp superfluous. With
the dissipation of the fog rain had set in; its splashing upon the muddy
pavement was audible.

Mrs Yule, still with a duster in her hand, sat on the sofa. Marian took a
place beside her. They talked in low, broken tones, and wept together over
their miseries.


The chances are that you have neither understanding nor sympathy for men
such as Edwin Reardon and Harold Biffen. They merely provoke you. They
seem to you inert, flabby, weakly envious, foolishly obstinate, impiously
mutinous, and many other things. You are made angrily contemptuous by
their failure to get on; why don’t they bestir themselves, push and
bustle, welcome kicks so long as halfpence follow, make place in the
world’s eye—in short, take a leaf from the book of Mr Jasper

But try to imagine a personality wholly unfitted for the rough and tumble
of the world’s labour-market. From the familiar point of view these men
were worthless; view them in possible relation to a humane order of
Society, and they are admirable citizens. Nothing is easier than to
condemn a type of character which is unequal to the coarse demands of life
as it suits the average man. These two were richly endowed with the kindly
and the imaginative virtues; if fate threw them amid incongruous
circumstances, is their endowment of less value? You scorn their
passivity; but it was their nature and their merit to be passive.

Gifted with independent means, each of them would have taken quite a
different aspect in your eyes. The sum of their faults was their inability
to earn money; but, indeed, that inability does not call for unmingled

It was very weak of Harold Biffen to come so near perishing of hunger as
he did in the days when he was completing his novel. But he would have
vastly preferred to eat and be satisfied had any method of obtaining food
presented itself to him. He did not starve for the pleasure of the thing,
I assure you. Pupils were difficult to get just now, and writing that he
had sent to magazines had returned upon his hands. He pawned such of his
possessions as he could spare, and he reduced his meals to the minimum.
Nor was he uncheerful in his cold garret and with his empty stomach, for
‘Mr Bailey, Grocer,’ drew steadily to an end.

He worked very slowly. The book would make perhaps two volumes of ordinary
novel size, but he had laboured over it for many months, patiently,
affectionately, scrupulously. Each sentence was as good as he could make
it, harmonious to the ear, with words of precious meaning skilfully set.
Before sitting down to a chapter he planned it minutely in his mind; then
he wrote a rough draft of it; then he elaborated the thing phrase by
phrase. He had no thought of whether such toil would be recompensed in
coin of the realm; nay, it was his conviction that, if with difficulty
published, it could scarcely bring him money. The work must be
significant, that was all he cared for. And he had no society of admiring
friends to encourage him. Reardon understood the merit of the workmanship,
but frankly owned that the book was repulsive to him. To the public it
would be worse than repulsive—tedious, utterly uninteresting. No
matter; it drew to its end.

The day of its completion was made memorable by an event decidedly more
exciting, even to the author.

At eight o’clock in the evening there remained half a page to be written.
Biffen had already worked about nine hours, and on breaking off to appease
his hunger he doubted whether to finish to-night or to postpone the last
lines till tomorrow. The discovery that only a small crust of bread lay in
the cupboard decided him to write no more; he would have to go out to
purchase a loaf and that was disturbance.

But stay; had he enough money? He searched his pockets. Two pence and two
farthings; no more.

You are probably not aware that at bakers’ shops in the poor quarters the
price of the half-quartern loaf varies sometimes from week to week. At
present, as Biffen knew, it was twopence three-farthings, a common figure.
But Harold did not possess three farthings, only two. Reflecting, he
remembered to have passed yesterday a shop where the bread was marked
twopence halfpenny; it was a shop in a very obscure little street off
Hampstead Road, some distance from Clipstone Street. Thither he must
repair. He had only his hat and a muffler to put on, for again he was
wearing his overcoat in default of the under one, and his ragged umbrella
to take from the corner; so he went forth.

To his delight the twopence halfpenny announcement was still in the
baker’s window. He obtained a loaf wrapped it in the piece of paper he had
brought—small bakers decline to supply paper for this purpose—and
strode joyously homeward again.

Having eaten, he looked longingly at his manuscript. But half a page more.
Should he not finish it to-night? The temptation was irresistible. He sat
down, wrought with unusual speed, and at half-past ten wrote with
magnificent flourish ‘The End.’

His fire was out and he had neither coals nor wood. But his feet were
frozen into lifelessness. Impossible to go to bed like this; he must take
another turn in the streets. It would suit his humour to ramble a while.
Had it not been so late he would have gone to see Reardon, who expected
the communication of this glorious news.

So again he locked his door. Half-way downstairs he stumbled over
something or somebody in the dark.

‘Who is that?’ he cried.

The answer was a loud snore. Biffen went to the bottom of the house and
called to the landlady.

‘Mrs Willoughby! Who is asleep on the stairs?’

‘Why, I ‘spect it’s Mr Briggs,’ replied the woman, indulgently. ‘Don’t you
mind him, Mr Biffen. There’s no ‘arm: he’s only had a little too much.
I’ll go up an’ make him go to bed as soon as I’ve got my ‘ands clean.’

‘The necessity for waiting till then isn’t obvious,’ remarked the realist
with a chuckle, and went his way.

He walked at a sharp pace for more than an hour, and about midnight drew
near to his own quarter again. He had just turned up by the Middlesex
Hospital, and was at no great distance from Clipstone Street, when a yell
and scamper caught his attention; a group of loafing blackguards on the
opposite side of the way had suddenly broken up, and as they rushed off he
heard the word ‘Fire!’ This was too common an occurrence to disturb his
equanimity; he wondered absently in which street the fire might be, but
trudged on without a thought of making investigation. Repeated yells and
rushes, however, assailed his apathy. Two women came tearing by him, and
he shouted to them: ‘Where is it?’

‘In Clipstone Street, they say,’ one screamed back.

He could no longer be unconcerned. If in his own street the conflagration
might be in the very house he inhabited, and in that case—— He
set off at a run. Ahead of him was a thickening throng, its position
indicating the entrance to Clipstone Street. Soon he found his progress
retarded; he had to dodge this way and that, to force progress, to guard
himself against overthrows by the torrent of ruffiandom which always
breaks forth at the cry of fire. He could now smell the smoke, and all at
once a black volume of it, bursting from upper windows, alarmed his sight.
At once he was aware that, if not his own dwelling, it must be one of
those on either side that was in flames. As yet no engine had arrived, and
straggling policemen were only just beginning to make their way to the
scene of uproar. By dint of violent effort Biffen moved forward yard by
yard. A tongue of flame which suddenly illumined the fronts of the houses
put an end to his doubt.

‘Let me get past!’ he shouted to the gaping and swaying mass of people in
front of him. ‘I live there! I must go upstairs to save something!’

His educated accent moved attention. Repeating the demand again and again
he succeeded in getting forward, and at length was near enough to see that
people were dragging articles of furniture out on to the pavement.

‘That you, Mr Biffen?’ cried someone to him.

He recognised the face of a fellow-lodger.

‘Is it possible to get up to my room?’ broke frantically from his lips.

‘You’ll never get up there. It’s that—Briggs’—the epithet was
alliterative—‘’as upset his lamp, and I ‘ope he’ll—well get
roasted to death.’

Biffen leaped on to the threshold, and crashed against Mrs Willoughby, the
landlady, who was carrying a huge bundle of household linen.

‘I told you to look after that drunken brute;’ he said to her. ‘Can I get

‘What do I care whether you can or not!’ the woman shrieked. ‘My God! And
all them new chairs as I bought—!’

He heard no more, but bounded over a confusion of obstacles, and in a
moment was on the landing of the first storey. Here he encountered a man
who had not lost his head, a stalwart mechanic engaged in slipping clothes
on to two little children.

‘If somebody don’t drag that fellow Briggs down he’ll be dead,’ observed
the man. ‘He’s layin’ outside his door. I pulled him out, but I can’t do
no more for him.’

Smoke grew thick on the staircase. Burning was as yet confined to that
front room on the second floor tenanted by Briggs the disastrous, but in
all likelihood the ceiling was ablaze, and if so it would be all but
impossible for Biffen to gain his own chamber, which was at the back on
the floor above. No one was making an attempt to extinguish the fire;
personal safety and the rescue of their possessions alone occupied the
thoughts of such people as were still in the house. Desperate with the
dread of losing his manuscript, his toil, his one hope, the realist
scarcely stayed to listen to a warning that the fumes were impassable;
with head bent he rushed up to the next landing. There lay Briggs,
perchance already stifled, and through the open door Biffen had a horrible
vision of furnace fury. To go yet higher would have been madness but for
one encouragement: he knew that on his own storey was a ladder giving
access to a trap-door, by which he might issue on to the roof, whence
escape to the adjacent houses would be practicable. Again a leap forward!

In fact, not two minutes elapsed from his commencing the ascent of the
stairs to the moment when, all but fainting, he thrust the key into his
door and fell forward into purer air. Fell, for he was on his knees, and
had begun to suffer from a sense of failing power, a sick whirling of the
brain, a terror of hideous death. His manuscript was on the table, where
he had left it after regarding and handling it with joyful
self-congratulation; though it was pitch dark in the room, he could at
once lay his hand on the heap of paper. Now he had it; now it was jammed
tight under his left arm; now he was out again on the landing, in smoke
more deadly than ever.

He said to himself: ‘If I cannot instantly break out by the trap-door it’s
all over with me.’ That the exit would open to a vigorous thrust he knew,
having amused himself not long ago by going on to the roof. He touched the
ladder, sprang upwards, and felt the trap above him. But he could not push
it back. ‘I’m a dead man,’ flashed across his mind, ‘and all for the sake
of “Mr Bailey, Grocer.”’ A frenzied effort, the last of which his muscles
were capable, and the door yielded. His head was now through the aperture,
and though the smoke swept up about him, that gasp of cold air gave him
strength to throw himself on the flat portion of the roof that he had

So for a minute or two he lay. Then he was able to stand, to survey his
position, and to walk along by the parapet. He looked down upon the
surging and shouting crowd in Clipstone Street, but could see it only at
intervals, owing to the smoke that rolled from the front windows below

What he had now to do he understood perfectly. This roof was divided from
those on either hand by a stack of chimneys; to get round the end of these
stacks was impossible, or at all events too dangerous a feat unless it
were the last resource, but by climbing to the apex of the slates he would
be able to reach the chimney-pots, to drag himself up to them, and somehow
to tumble over on to the safer side. To this undertaking he forthwith
addressed himself. Without difficulty he reached the ridge; standing on it
he found that only by stretching his arm to the utmost could he grip the
top of a chimney-pot. Had he the strength necessary to raise himself by
such a hold? And suppose the pot broke?

His life was still in danger; the increasing volumes of smoke warned him
that in a few minutes the uppermost storey might be in flames. He took off
his overcoat to allow himself more freedom of action; the manuscript, now
an encumbrance, must precede him over the chimney-stack, and there was
only one way of effecting that. With care he stowed the papers into the
pockets of the coat; then he rolled the garment together, tied it up in
its own sleeves, took a deliberate aim—and the bundle was for the
present in safety.

Now for the gymnastic endeavour. Standing on tiptoe, he clutched the rim
of the chimney-pot, and strove to raise himself. The hold was firm enough,
but his arms were far too puny to perform such work, even when death would
be the penalty of failure. Too long he had lived on insufficient food and
sat over the debilitating desk. He swung this way and that, trying to
throw one of his knees as high as the top of the brickwork, but there was
no chance of his succeeding. Dropping on to the slates, he sat there in

He must cry for help. In front it was scarcely possible to stand by the
parapet, owing to the black clouds of smoke, now mingled with sparks;
perchance he might attract the notice of some person either in the yards
behind or at the back windows of other houses. The night was so obscure
that he could not hope to be seen; voice alone must be depended upon, and
there was no certainty that it would be heard far enough. Though he stood
in his shirt-sleeves in a bitter wind no sense of cold affected him; his
face was beaded with perspiration drawn forth by his futile struggle to
climb. He let himself slide down the rear slope, and, holding by the end
of the chimney brickwork, looked into the yards. At the same instant a
face appeared to him—that of a man who was trying to obtain a
glimpse of this roof from that of the next house by thrusting out his head
beyond the block of chimneys.

‘Hollo!’ cried the stranger. ‘What are you doing there?’

‘Trying to escape, of course. Help me to get on to your roof.’

‘By God! I expected to see the fire coming through already. Are you the—as
upset his lamp an’ fired the bloomin’ ‘ouse?’

‘Not I! He’s lying drunk on the stairs; dead by this time.’

‘By God! I wouldn’t have helped you if you’d been him. How are you coming
round? Blest if I see! You’ll break your bloomin’ neck if you try this
corner. You’ll have to come over the chimneys; wait till I get a ladder.’

‘And a rope,’ shouted Biffen.

The man disappeared for five minutes. To Biffen it seemed half an hour; he
felt, or imagined he felt, the slates getting hot beneath him, and the
smoke was again catching his breath. But at length there was a shout from
the top of the chimney-stack. The rescuer had seated himself on one of the
pots, and was about to lower on Biffen’s side a ladder which had enabled
him to ascend from the other. Biffen planted the lowest rung very
carefully on the ridge of the roof, climbed as lightly as possible, got a
footing between two pots; the ladder was then pulled over, and both men
descended in safety.

‘Have you seen a coat lying about here?’ was Biffen’s first question. ‘I
threw mine over.’

‘What did you do that for?’

‘There are some valuable papers in the pockets.’

They searched in vain; on neither side of the roof was the coat

‘You must have pitched it into the street,’ said the man.

This was a terrible blow; Biffen forgot his rescue from destruction in
lament for the loss of his manuscript. He would have pursued the fruitless
search, but his companion, who feared that the fire might spread to
adjoining houses, insisted on his passing through the trap-door and
descending the stairs.‘If the coat fell into the street,’ Biffen said,
when they were down on the ground floor, ‘of course it’s lost; it would be
stolen at once. But may not it have fallen into your back yard?’

He was standing in the midst of a cluster of alarmed people, who stared at
him in astonishment, for the reek through which he had fought his way had
given him the aspect of a sweep. His suggestion prompted someone to run
into the yard, with the result that a muddy bundle was brought in and
exhibited to him.

‘Is this your coat, Mister?’

‘Heaven be thanked! That’s it! There are valuable papers in the pockets.’

He unrolled the garment, felt to make sure that ‘Mr Bailey’ was safe, and
finally put it on.

‘Will anyone here let me sit down in a room and give me a drink of water?’
he asked, feeling now as if he must drop with exhaustion.

The man who had rescued him performed this further kindness, and for half
an hour, whilst tumult indescribable raged about him, Biffen sat
recovering his strength. By that time the firemen were hard at work, but
one floor of the burning house had already fallen through, and it was
probable that nothing but the shell would be saved. After giving a full
account of himself to the people among whom he had come, Harold declared
his intention of departing; his need of repose was imperative, and he
could not hope for it in this proximity to the fire. As he had no money,
his only course was to inquire for a room at some house in the immediate
neighbourhood, where the people would receive him in a charitable spirit.

With the aid of the police he passed to whe